When God Made Me

Seung-ho felt his heart sinking. I frowned and asked again, wondering if I heard wrong.

“Sir, did I hear that wrong? ”

The teacher sighed deeply and patted Seung-ho's shoulder.

“Seung-ho, calm down and listen. Don't worry, she didn't ruin your life or anything. I'll drive with you right away, so get dressed and come straight to the parking lot. ”

“Yes.”

Ryu Hanshin swallowed bitterness and took Seung-ho out of the gym.

“You might not be coming back, so get your bags and everything. ”

“Yes.”

Ryu Hanshin felt free to sweep the sweaty back of Seung-ho and ran to the parking lot.

The playground was cheering, shouting and cheering like it was a different world. Seung-ho felt all this disparate.

‘Let's go first. ’

No one will notice if you cry or mourn here. Seung-ho immediately went into the classroom, took off his gym clothes and changed into a uniform.

After I locked my gym clothes in my bag, I just put my phone in my pocket and ran straight to the parking lot.

The phone I checked on the way was recorded as missing with more than 10 calls to my sister and a number that was estimated to be a hospital.

Seung-ho suddenly felt overwhelmed.

‘When my mom collapsed and was taken to the hospital, I was happy and happy that I was playing basketball. ’

You bite your teeth hard and swallow your tears, jumping down the stairs. The teacher had already started the car in the parking lot and was waiting in front of the building.

Seung-ho climbs into the front seat with his bag in his arms. The teacher grabbed the bag without saying anything and moved it to the back seat.

The teacher immediately started the car and said small.

“She'll be fine. Don't worry too much. ”

Seung-ho said to his teacher, and the feeling that he had been waiting for was poured out.

“Suck.”

You bite your teeth tightly so that you don't shed tears, but a drop of tears pours down your cheek without knowing it.

Ryu Hanshin, who saw that, grabbed the handle with his left hand and swept down Seung-ho's back with his right hand.

When the teacher touched his comforting hand, Seung-ho felt even more overwhelmed. I tried not to cry, but my tears kept flowing down the ball.

‘While I'm looking at you right now, all my adult life, she doesn't take care of her sick body · ·’

As I wiped my tears, I suddenly remembered the health checklist I had seen before.

I told you to go to the hospital! ’

I felt sorry for my mother who didn't go to the hospital, but I didn't care enough to take her directly to the hospital.

‘I should have gone with you, not just with words. ’

- Tyring.

The teacher's phone rang. The teacher immediately answered the phone and gave Seung-ho the phone after listening to just one word.

“Wait, Seung-ho, it's your sister. ”

Seungho wiped his tears and picked up the phone.

“Hello, hello. ”

“Why aren't you answering your phone? ”

Sujin's voice was mixed with urgency and anger. Seungho replied with a split voice.

“I didn't see it because I had my phone in the classroom while I was working out. ”

“Yes. They're coming anyway, right? ”

“Yes, sir, I'm on my way. ”

“Yes. Call me back when you get here. Come straight to the E.R. ”

“Yes.”

Seung-ho hung up and politely handed the teacher his cell phone.

Seeing Sujin's voice, it didn't seem serious for a while. Then Seung-ho felt even more guilty.

‘I should have known when she was working in a restaurant like that while she was struggling. ’

He regretted it and blamed himself for his self-esteem. As I knew in my heart, I heard a vague fear that my life was so enjoyable that I might have turned away.

“Seung-ho, it's okay. ”

The teacher continued to comfort me, but I couldn't hear him at all.

By the time Seung-ho's face was filled with tears, I arrived at the hospital.

“Go ahead. I'll park and go. ”

“Yes.”

Seung-ho answers and gets out of the car immediately to the emergency room. As soon as I entered the emergency room, I could find her calling somewhere.

“Sis!”

Sujin finds Seungho and urgently hangs up the phone.

“Hello?”

“What about Mom?”

“He's sleeping over there. ”

Seung-ho followed Su-jin inside. As I removed the curtain next to the bed, I saw Seung-ho's mother asleep with Ringer in her hand.

“What's going on? ”

“Let's get out of here. ”

Sujin again slammed the curtain and took the escort out of the emergency room.

“Why did you collapse? ”

Seung-ho asked, looking at Sujin with a serious face. Sujin sighed and turned his head back.

Her face, which was concealed in her head, was covered in makeup and messed up with tears.

“Cancer.”

At that moment, Seung-ho's head felt pinched and spinning, like a hammer.

“Pancreatic cancer.”

“What?"

Pancreatic cancer. among cancers, the survival rate is near to the worst.

“I just thought it was hard for her to work because she was losing weight. ”

“No, are you sure? ”

“Yes, I just heard from the doctor. The last time you ate pork belly, you didn't eat much and you didn't have a good speed. ”

Sujin blurted out a grudge against himself. Seungho rolls his feet and asks with a trembling voice.

“What do we do?”

“We need to operate. We need to do something. ”

“Ha.”

The sound of surgery drew the first three letters of pressure.

“If you operate, you'll be fine, right? ”

“No, it's unlikely. I can't help it. ”

Seung-ho also knew. Survival of pancreatic cancer is the worst among cancers. Death with a 5-year survival rate of less than 5% after detection.

A vague fear and horror sank through my body. Seung-ho sits on a chair with no backrest because his legs seem to relax.

“Which order? ”

“Just because it's not the end stage doesn't mean your life is in danger right now · ·”

Sujin shakes his head again without being able to speak. Tears fell again in Soojin's eyes.

Before Seung-ho arrived, I cried profusely, but the tears in my heart did not stop.

A little while ago, Seung-ho wept and felt guilty, but now I have no idea. My head feels frozen cold.

“You can operate, right? ”

“Probably · ·”

In fact, Sujin was already half in a daze. It was because I received a call from the hospital in a hurry at home and was explained while I was out of my mind.

“Seungho.”

Ryu Hanshin's teacher called for a win. The teacher's face was full of water.

“What about your mother?”

“He's inside. ”

“How's your face? ”

“Yes.”

Seeing that Seung-ho's voice and atmosphere were unusual, the teacher sat beside Seung-ho to try and comfort her.

“You're going to be okay. ”

The teacher thought about winning, but Seung-ho felt positively helpless. Seungho said in a sharp voice.

“Cancer.”

I could feel Ryu Hanshin's hands flinching as she patted the back of her head on the unexpected word.

“Pancreatic cancer.”

Ryu Hanshin was no longer able to answer and put his hand on Seung-ho's back.

Seung-ho bows his head with a crying voice and covers his face.

“Sir, what do I do? ”

Next to Seung-ho, who was frustrated, she was leaning against the wall and crying. Hanshin seemed to be torn apart by this, but he resented the reality that he couldn't do anything about it.

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Su-jin was sitting next to her mother, and Han Shin took Seung-ho directly into the doctor's office and explained.

Although she was at her wits' end compared to Sujin, she was also not in her right mind, so Han God tried to help her.

Ryu had to go back to school because of a routine, but he asked the class 6 teachers to do a routine and stayed in the hospital to win.

They listened for the briefing for almost half an hour and went to the break room. Soojin had already arrived and was holding the table and waiting.

Hanshin pulled out three cool cans of soda and handed them over to Soojin and Seungho, one by one.

“I didn't get it right earlier · ·”

Seungho summarized the description he had heard.

“Surgery costs 12 million won. The cost of admission is approximately KRW 50,000 per day. It could be added here. ”

“Ha.”

As soon as the money came out, the atmosphere of the two settled sharply. Hanshin said something hopeful.

“Still, I'm glad we can operate. When pancreatic cancer was discovered, there were 70 to 80 percent of inoperable patients. ”

“That's good · · ·”

Sujin sighed and said.

“We don't have any insurance. ”

I couldn't stop Seung-ho from sighing. Ryu Shin was greatly embarrassed by the fact that there was no insurance.

“You don't have any? ”

“Yes, I'm ashamed to say this, but I can't afford to have my house rented out. ”

Hanshin was willing to help out with a small amount, but the amount of a thousand units was too large. Moreover, I couldn't say that I wanted to help because I had to pay for the hospital every month.

Su-jin and Seung-ho were thankful enough for worrying and worrying together like this.

After thinking about it for a long time, it was almost 10 o'clock, and Han returned home. Even though we were together until that time, the teacher said to Seung-ho that he was sorry.

Seung-ho returned to the emergency room after escorting the teacher.

“Sis, you look tired. Go home and rest. I have to go to work tomorrow. ”

“I quit the company. ”

“What?"

Seung-ho was surprised, but he was not very surprised. Sujin returns to the rest room.

“Why did you quit? ”

“I quit a long time ago. ”

“Then how have you been spending your rent so far? ”

“ · · · ”

Sujin leaned back against the table without saying a word. Seung-ho told me another story because he didn't want to answer.

“Do you have any money saved up? ”

“No.”

“Not a thing?”

“Huh."

That answer ended the conversation between brothers and sisters. Seungho took out his cell phone and searched for a way to get the money in a hurry, because he had to pay for the surgery.

I searched for a long time, but I did not find a good way to do it except in private loans and third financial institutions, so I changed my search terms.

“You should go home and sleep. I'm going to school tomorrow. ”

Su-jin said because she felt sorry for Seung-ho. However, Seungho's eyes were slightly shaking, looking at his cell phone.

“Sis.”

“Huh?"

“You don't have money saved up? ”

Seungho's voice was low and trembling. Sujin nods slightly embarrassed.

“None · · ·”

“You said you were an SNS star. ”

“Well, but? ”

“SNS stars make a lot of money. I have a sister who is one of those people. ”

In the search results of 'How to Make Money', Seungho had only just realized how much money SNS stars make by reading articles related to SNS stars among several questions. Seung-ho put up the screen and handed it to Sujin.

Sujin pushed the phone away. Then I closed my eyes and sighed deeply and brought out what I could not.

“Actually · · ·”

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