Stunned for You

Shi Yi could hear Fu Sitian moving away, and he could hear something in his heart being pierced out abruptly. But she can only take it abruptly.

It's all for a while, and it will be better over time. She stiffened her back, and squeezed a hard thing from her throat, "You didn't apologize to me, don't say sorry."

In the darkness, Fu Sitian was as quiet as dead.

Shi Yi's chest was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, and the clutched lock made a deep red mark in the palm of his hand. There is nothing more to say, so be it. She opened the door sensibly and ordered herself to walk out of the door and walk along the path that she should take.

There was bright light and lively chattering and laughter everywhere in the aisle.

Familiar and unfamiliar.

Shi Yi turned around to walk towards the elevator, someone called her: "Shi Yi, let's have a chat."

She turned her head to find that Chen Xizhu was standing by the door of the stairwell watching her. I don't know when they arrived, or if they heard the voices in their dormitory.

She turned around and followed Chen Xizhu into the stairwell, looking at the constantly changing red numbers on the fire elevator.

"What are you talking about?" She looked calm, always calm and graceful.

"Talk about Sitian."

Stein. Shi Yi thought, Si Tian was thrown into the darkness by her alone at this moment. "Si Tian has a fever, take her to the hospital."

Her tone was light, as if nothing had happened. Chen Xizhu's suppressed anger was instantly ignited. "Shi Yi, can you put away your hypocritical courtesy?! I don't need you to order me. If you really care about her, you won't stand here now."

She came to visit Fu Sitian. When she was about to push the door, she heard Fu Sitian begging Shiyi not to leave. She felt that she shouldn't eavesdrop on other people's privacy and walked away. She prayed in the aisle to be able to do well and be kind to Fu Sitian.

At least because of Si Tian's illness.

But Shi Yi still came out in just two or three minutes.

Shi Yi didn't speak, and stared at her quietly.

Chen Xizhu clenched his fists and took a deep breath, trying to calm down, "Shi Yi, since he can't accept it, since he is so ruthless, can he do it a little better?"

"Don't radiate your extraordinary charm, don't care about her, don't give her any illusions that shouldn't have, let her completely give up, okay?"

"After a long time, she can always figure it out and she can always let it go."

"So you have a chance, don't you?" Shi Yi asked suddenly.

Chen Xizhu was dumbfounded for a moment, what's the problem?

baffling! "So what?! No, what?!" The fire in her heart became more intense, without saying a word, "You don't like her, don't you allow others to like her?! You don't like her, why? Does she have to like you all the time?! Shi Yi, you think of yourself too much, right?"

Shi Yi lowered his eyebrows, his expression getting colder. "I'm nothing great."

"But I don't need you to order me." Her tone was unhappy, and she pressed the down button of the elevator. "This is between me and her."

"What does it have to do with you?"

"Shi Yi!" Chen Xizhu gritted his teeth, "You are too much!"

Shi Yi turned her back to her, indifferent. The elevator door opened, and she stepped in without hesitation. "How could you be such a person, you..." A second before the elevator door closed, she heard Chen Xizhu complain in disappointment.

The elevator went down, empty and quiet, and Shi Yi felt that his whole body was falling continuously.

What kind of person am I?

She maintained her back-to-back posture and looked at herself in the mirror siding of the elevator.

The person in the mirror is tired, gloomy, and confused, like a trapped monster. Even she felt strange to herself.

She turned back and did not want to look any more, reaching out and pressing the first floor button.

My fingertips touched the floor button, a pain in my heart. Only then did she realize that she did not know when, at the tip of the index finger, the flesh was separated from the nail cover, and it was tinged with dazzling red.

Like the color that Fu Sitian carved in her heart.

Fu Sitian still asked for leave on Tuesday.

On Wednesday, Fu Sitian came to class. She doesn't seem to have a good cold, and she covers her mouth and coughs quietly from time to time. The sound was not loud, but Shi Yi was still distracted by hearing it across most of the classroom.

On Thursday, she went to the counselor's office to hold a weekly meeting of class leader and group secretary. After the meeting was disbanded, the counselor left her alone.

"Are you familiar with Fu Sitian in your class?" the counselor asked after taking a sip of tea.

Shi Yi couldn't help but breathe, "It's okay."

"That's it. Two days ago, she came to me to apply to change the dormitory. I asked her why. She said that there was a mouse hole in the bed and she couldn't live in. I heard it strange that she could not live in someone. She has lived in it for more than a month. , Are you talking about it now? You share a dormitory with her before going out. She has this problem with her bed?"

It was like a sudden sap hit on the head. Shi Yi was in a daze, his voice a little dry, "I haven't noticed."

"Well, then you go and help me find out. If there is no rat hole, can you see if there is any contradiction in their dormitory?

Girls are more delicate in their minds, and sometimes it is inevitable that there will be some friction. Changing dormitories is definitely not the best way to solve the problem. "

Shi Yi nodded.

She walked out of the counselor's office casually, took the door, grabbed the doorknob, forgot to let it go, and stopped for a long time.

There is no contradiction. You don't need to ask her to know why Fu Sitian applied to change the dormitory.

Isn't this the result she wants-Fu Sitian completely abandons her, and the chaotic world returns to normal order. But why, she didn't feel relieved in her heart at all.

Maybe it's just not used to it yet. She found a reason for herself, tried to ignore these perceptions, lifted her steps, and thought about how to deal with this errand as she walked.

The easiest way is to ask Jian Luhe, and then Jian Luhe to ask Fu Sitian, what Fu Sitian answers, she will explain to the counselor. Fu Sitian refused to say anything, so she told the counselor that she couldn't ask anything, and asked the counselor to think of a solution. What happened in the end, it has nothing to do with her.

Changing dormitories is indeed not the best way. It has been more than a month since school started, and now it is almost certain that it is difficult to integrate into the new dormitory. Among the few three dormitories with incomplete numbers, apart from them 1510, the other two were randomly formed by people who were left when they changed dormitories. One dormitory lived with Fu Sitian's ex-housemate Zhang Lulu.

Shi Yi was worried. She thought that this worry is not overly caring, but just because of her principle of dealing with people normally. She didn't want to affect Fu Sitian's three-year dormitory life in the future because of herself.

After finishing the assignment at night, she took out her mobile phone and opened Fu Sitian's head in an inevitable place.

The chat records still remain in the photos she sent to Fu Sitian during the summer vacation to see the super moon together. In the photo, Fu Sitian is facing the camera, rippling Xiao Liwu towards her, smiling softly and sweetly.

At that time, she still had a little meat on her cheeks.

Suddenly, Shi Yi's throat choked up so hard to control herself. She covered her phone in a panic, got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Under the cold water, emotions were repeatedly suppressed, cooled, and washed away. The hands and feet were all wrinkled in dislike, Shi Yi let him go and walked out of the water tremblingly.

She dried her body, blow-dried her hair, sat in the bedroom with no lights on, and picked up the phone again.

"The counselor asked me to tell you about your change of dormitory." She told Fu Sitian in an official tone without covering up: "If you are because of me, then you don't have to."

"Whether you live in 1510 or not, I will never stay again."

After the news was sent, she stared at the screen for a long time, her heart could not tell what it was like. It turned out that after it was sent out, it was not relief, but new suffering.

She didn't want to admit it, but she had to admit it again. She was looking forward to Fu Sitian's reply.

But the screen went off automatically.

The network is not interrupted, and the phone is not broken. Fu Sitian did not reply to her all night.

Shi Yi knew that Fu Sitian would not reply to her.

The hole in my heart seemed to be getting bigger, empty, and painful. It was just a short while before she forced herself to stop thinking and feeling, turned off the phone, opened the drawer beside the bed, and swallowed a sleeping pill.

After waiting like years, she finally fell into complete unconsciousness, and she slept for a long-lost good night's sleep.

The second day, the third day...the 13th day...Fu Sitian's profile picture no longer flashed in her list.

Yin Fanlu and Jian Luhe might have seen something and stopped trying to ease their relationship. They can always stagger perfectly during get out of class. It's like two intersecting straight lines, briefly intersecting, and going farther and farther, the distance left is getting bigger and bigger, and they will never meet again.

Fu Sitian seems to be doing well. The presentation often drew a lot of applause, and her name could be seen on the list of winners from time to time on the poster wall at the entrance of the college. Chen Xizhu came to her more often, and often went directly to the door of the classroom to wait for her to eat together after class. Occasionally passing by the sign language exercise rehearsal site, she can also be seen surrounded by people, smiling very cheerfully.

Shi Yi felt that his life was not bad either. Normally attend class, dismiss get out of class, study, do research, occasionally go to stepfather's house to visit mother, and go out to entertain with friends. Everything is back on track as desired.

But when she returned to the suite alone, when she calmed down, she always heard that there was a place in her heart that was leaking wind, empty, and deserted, watching her in darkness, bit by bit, swallowing silently. she was.

Xingkongyi couldn't save her either.

She never looked up at the starry sky again, and it has been a long time since she could sleep well without sleeping pills.