Stunned for You

"Si Tian, ​​can you get up?" Jian Luhe's voice seemed to be coming from a long distance.

There was a sharp pain in the tailbone and spine spreading through the limbs, and the whole body seemed to fall apart. For a moment, Fu Sitian even hoped that he could lose all consciousness.

Maybe this can be a little better.

But the consciousness is so clear and so clear.

After all, time continues, and everything is not a nightmare. It will disappear if you close your eyes and open your eyes.

"Why don't you call 120?" An enthusiastic male voice sounded beside him.

Jian Lu and Liushen Wuzhu immediately searched for mobile phones.

Fu Sitian shook her throat and made a faint voice: "I'm fine..." She blinked her eyes vigorously, blinked all the water vapor under her eyes, and gritted her teeth to support herself sitting up.

Jian Luhe immediately reached out to support her back and helped her to sit up slowly.

"Oh my God, your elbow..." Jian Luhe could see clearly that Fu Sitian's right arm was covered with bruises, especially his elbow was a big one. The flesh was red and mixed with the dirt of rain. It looks very hideous. "Let's go to the hospital, do you still have any pain? What about your head? Has your head knocked?"

She looked anxiously.

Fu Sitian said in a low voice: "It's okay." She raised her hands and folded her arms to block her wet chest. Jian Luhe quickly reacted, leaning in front of Fu Sitian, and said loudly: "It's okay, it's okay, let's go away."

The stopping crowd dispersed wittily, and Xia Ke and Jian Lu nodded their heads, and turned and left.

Fu Sitian stared at his back, uncontrollably imagining the scene of Shi Yi standing shoulder to shoulder with him. She has seen men and women with a natural appearance, and she has seen it many times. From now on, Shi Yi will hold him, hug him, kiss him...

Belongs to him...

As if the last breath of air in his chest was taken away, Fu Sitian couldn't breathe, his chest trembled quickly, and his lips were pale and horribly pale.

"Si Tian, ​​Si Tian!" Jian Luhe was afraid: "No, let's go to the hospital. Can we go? Otherwise, I'll call to ask Shi Yi. If she is at school, I will let her drive you to the hospital."

Said she was about to make a call.

Fu Sitian stretched out her hand to stop her movement, choked, and refused unsteadily: "No, don't... trouble her."

Tears filled her eyes again, and she widened her eyes hard, not daring to blink.

Jian Lu and opened their mouths to say something. Seeing her weak but firm appearance, they sighed and compromised.

Fu Sitian stood up, Jian Luhe wanted to help her, she smiled reluctantly, shook her head and said, "It's okay."

It was just a little slow to walk, she walked back to the dormitory decently like a normal person.

Yin Fanlu was playing a game in the dormitory. When she saw Fu Sitian entering the door with a pale face and embarrassment, she suddenly lost her mind and ran to the door to help Fu Sitian: "What's the matter? Why is it like this?"

Before Fu Sitian spoke, Jian Luhe answered her first, "It was raining after our rehearsal. Si Tian slipped and fell directly off the gymnasium steps."

"How could you be so careless. Where did you fall?" Yin Fanlu dragged a chair to the aisle and let Fu Sitian sit down.

Fu Sitian was afraid of soiling her chair cushion, so he just supported the back of the chair with his hands to comfort her: "It's just a little skin trauma, it's okay." She turned her head and asked Jian Luhe: "Luhe, can you please help me pick it up? The clothes in my cupboard, let me take a bath."

Jian Luhe certainly did not refuse.

She took the clothes and took a bath in the bathroom like an okay person. The moment the faucet was turned on, tears flowed down with the water. She leaned against the wall, slowly slid down, curled her knees, sobbed so much that she couldn't help herself.

The sound of the water covered everything.

But she still didn't dare to cry.

There is no inch in this world that belongs to her, and no inch is allowed to cry weakly. Tears have never only made her more annoying.

She was taking a shower and heard the dormitory door creaking and people coming in and out. When it was finished, the staff in the dormitory had changed.

"Tian Tian, ​​are you okay?" Chen Xizhu pounced on her eyes red, and nervously went around her to check.

Fu Sitian's eyes darkened, but his heart was still warm, "It's okay, why are you here?"

"Fanlu told me. She and Luhe are now out of school to help you buy fall medicine."

Soon after, Jian Luhe and Yin Fanlu returned with medicine. Fu Sitian thanked them, Jian Luhe hesitated and said, "The bottle of medicine filled with Japanese was delivered by Shi Yi by car."

Fu Sitian looked at her in astonishment.

Jian Luhe explained: "It happened that Fanlu and I were on the road. She called and I told her about your fall. She said that she had medicine at home, so she sent it downstairs to the dormitory."

Fu Sitian sank his heart in the deep sea, even if he floated up, the scriptures still disappeared. She didn't know whether she should be happy or sad. Shi Yi seemed to still care about her, but she was willing to send it downstairs to the dormitory, but still refused to come up and take a look at her.

Is she hating her, or is she...or is she afraid of her?

Why should she give her a little hope after making her completely desperate? I'm in love, so don't you mind anymore?

"What does she mean?" Chen Xizhu was instantly annoyed.

Jian Lu and somehow became a little angry: "What do you mean by that? What's the point of giving medicine kindly?"

Fu Sitian hurried to press Chen Xizhu, "Xizhu, don't say that." She thanked Jian Lu and Yin Fanlu: "Thank you and Fanlu, I will trouble you to run out specially at night." Her voice was dry, "Help me too." Thank you Shi Yi."

Jian Luhe didn't have a good temper: "Why should I be your microphone? If you have anything to say, you should thank you and say it yourself."

Fu Sitian bit his lip and said nothing. Yin Fanlu eased the atmosphere and changed the subject, "Hey, disinfect the broken skin on your hands. I have both iodophor and alcohol in my medicine cabinet. Which one do you want?"

"Alcohol."

"Alcohol is more painful."

"It's okay."

Sure enough, Fu Sitian didn't say a word of pain from beginning to end. It was Chen Xizhu who was tearful watching her, and Yin Fanlu laughed at her: "I didn't even realize that you are such a sentimental person."

Chen Xizhu was so embarrassed that he took away his tears in an instant.

It was late, and Fu Sitian was worried that Chen Xizhu would leave it too late to go back to the dormitory alone. As soon as the ointment was applied, she urged Chen Xizhu to go back quickly. Before Chen Xizhu went back, looking at her pale face, he was still a little worried: "Are you really not going to the hospital? Don't worry if you have a check."

"No, it's really fine." Fu Sitian vowed.

However, I don't know if it was because of the wet clothes that I caught a cold all the way. On the second day, Fu Sitian started to have a headache, cough, and low-grade fever. He continued to have a fever for two days. On the third day, he turned to a high fever. The fever was so awkward that Chen Xizhu was forced to ask for leave to go to the clinic to get water.

Public elective courses in the evening, Shi Yi's elective courses this semester are next to Fu Sitian, Yin Fanlu and Jian Lu and the classroom next door. Before class, when she passed by Jian Lu and their classroom, she couldn't help but glanced inside.

Jian Lu and Yin Fanlu sat together, with strange faces sitting beside them.

Shi Yi's eyes turned dark.

When she walked into the classroom, she felt uneasy, the class was almost over, and she didn't even pay attention to whether the teacher called.

Fu Sitian took time off for classes all day today. Did he take time off too tonight? She didn't want to know, but she knew it.

Did she fall so badly?

A message came in from the mobile phone, and the party secretary of another class asked her: "Shi Yi, do you have a channel for chartered car discounts? Can you tell me about it? Our class is planning to go out for some time."

Have. She looked for contact information in the phone address book, but she couldn't find it no matter what. Maybe it was deleted after being used up last year.

There is a business card, the business card is in a card bag, and the card is in the drawer of the 1510 dormitory.

Suddenly, she became impetuous.

I want to go back to the 1510 dormitory to get the card package. There are actually quite a few important cards in the card package, and sometimes it is inconvenient to use them.

It's okay to get it back. She convinced herself.

The teacher looked like it was raining outside and announced the end of get out of class early.

Shi Yi walked outside the classroom with the flow of people, walked down the stairs, and walked towards the dormitory of the sophomore school of business administration. The more anxious the footsteps, the more chaotic the brain.

She hates the feeling of losing control like this.

The sultry and restless air before the heavy rain filled her nose. Along the way, she gave birth to the idea of ​​stopping here countless times, but her footsteps took her step by step back to the 1510 dormitory.

1510 The door of the dormitory was not locked, and Fu Sitian... he was in the dormitory as expected.

I just grab the card holder. Shi Yi persuaded himself in his heart over and over again. it's necessary. I take it and leave. This is normal.

She opened the door. The dormitory was dark, and the electric fan was turning around on the roof. Except for the noise of rotation, the room was completely silent.

Shi Yi's throat tightened and his eyes fell on the upper bunk in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows on the balcony.

The curtain of the bed was partially opened, and it fluttered slightly with the fan. She could only see a small piece of shiny legs.

Under the shining of the moon, the knees were faintly green.

Shi Yi forced himself to retract his eyes, pressed his lower lip tightly, and stepped into this dormitory. She unconsciously let go of her breath, walked to her desk in the middle of the dormitory, and stretched out a drawer.

Don't look at her, don't care about her, take it and leave.

But Fu Sitian was so quiet and quiet, she was scared for no reason.

She tilted her head uncontrollably.

In the dim light, Fu Sitian's cheeks were so small, as if they were thinner again. She bent and placed her elbow on her lower abdomen with a layer of reddish scab. Just by looking at the size of the scab, you can imagine how painful it would be to fall.

Shi Yi's heart felt like being caught by something.

"Shi Yi..." A soft call suddenly sounded.

Shi Yi's heart trembled.

Fu Sitian didn't know when he opened his eyes, and his misty eyes were watching him softly.

Shi Yi didn't know what he was panicking. Almost instinctively, she turned around and wanted to escape.

Fu Sitian turned down desperately.

Just before catching the lock and opening the dormitory door, Fu Sitian grabbed her hand. She seemed to have a fever, and her hands were so hot, as if she was going to burn something into her heart.

Fu Sitian's limbs were weak from the fever, and he was panting for a few steps. She was barefoot, holding on to the wall with one hand and holding Shi Yi's wrist in the other.

It was held tightly, as if holding a dream that would become empty in an instant.

Are you dreaming?

Even in her dreams, she rarely came to see her.

But why even dream, she refused to look back at her.

"Shi Yi, did you come to see me?" She was so fragile that Shi Yi felt sad.

But after the sadness, there were more panic attacks.

She is crazy, what is she doing, why on earth is she coming back tonight. And why, she wanted to be so soft-hearted and so uncomfortable for Fu Sitian's words.

"No." She replied compellingly, turning her hand to shake Fu Sitian's hand.

Fu Sitian's strength is surprisingly great. "Shi Yi, don't go, okay?" She didn't have much strength, leaning against the wall, using both hands, begged her with a cry.

"Shi Yi, don't leave."

"Don't like him."

Shi Yi knew that if she tried harder, Fu Sitian couldn't help her.

Obviously she hates stalkers most. But facing Fu Sitian, she couldn't do anything.

After hesitating for a second, Fu Sitian took a step forward, trying to hug her entire arm along her wrist.

When the heat was about to be posted, Shi Yi stepped forward in fear and tried to pull his hand. With a loud "bang", her forehead hit the door panel.

The sound was too real, and Fu Sitian's red eyes gradually became clear.

Not dreaming...

She panicked, "Shi Yi, are you okay?" She leaned forward and moved closer.

"Don't come here!" Shi Yi stopped in a tight voice.

Fu Sitian stopped in place at a loss. Looking at Shi Yi's beautiful and indifferent back, she felt sadness in her heart.

She clasped Shi Yi's hands and let go weakly, and asked Shi Yi in a very soft voice: "Shi Yi, can I ask you for an answer?"

Shi Yi's released hand fell back to his thigh, empty. She ignored the question and grabbed the lock to go out. Fu Sitian shouted hoarsely: "Shi Yi, why are you so afraid of me? Do you hate me?"

"Shi Yi...give me an answer, please."

So humble, so low profile. Like a knife pierced into Shi Yi's heart. Shi Yi was in terrible pain, and she opened her lips, unable to say the affirmative answer, nor the negative answer.

Her head was so confused that she couldn't think. How did everything become like this? What went wrong?

"I don't hate you." She tried to state the facts in an objective tone, "I can't accept you."

"Remember my father? I only said half that day."

"I'm sick of him cheating. But there is even more disgusting. The object of his cheating is a man." She still feels vomiting when she thinks of the scene.

She can't accept that her father has never loved her mother, can't accept that her father is gay, can't accept it, maybe...she herself is too.

What about her mother?

She can't and can't be.

Fu Sitian was like an ice cave.

It seemed that only a second had passed, and it seemed that a century had passed. She asked Shi Yi: "So, do you think I am sick too?"

If you look at it more, your eyes will be dirty.

No. She had never thought about it this way. She didn't know how to describe her feelings. She even disgusted herself, and she had never disgusted Fu Sitian.

"No," she said, "but, don't like me."

This is good for her, and good for Fu Sitian. Speak clearly, long-term pain is not as good as short-term pain. She hardened her heart, put the knife into Fu Sitian's body, and also stabbed it into her heart.

Both ends are dripping blood.

She can be understood as: if she likes her, she will disgust her, right?

Fu Sitian swayed and supported the wall, stepping back a little, leaving Shi Yi a safe distance.

"Yes...no..." Just a few words exhausted her whole body, "It's causing you trouble."

For the first time, she was ashamed of her sexuality and sorry for her love. It seemed that the soul had been completely pulled out of the body.