life thirty

"What is removing disaster? Dad?"

In the car, Huanhuan asked puzzledly, and Liang Ruoling and I looked at each other, not knowing how to answer for a while, but Liang Ruoling frowned and smiled, "Disasters are bad things, think about it carefully, just like It’s the things that happened to your father before, which are called disasters, things that shouldn’t have happened.”

"Why did something that shouldn't appear appear?"

"Because there are many unclear things in this world. It's like you are walking and you will fall if you are not careful. That is a disaster, because you can walk well, but if you don't Walking carefully will become a very difficult thing. You have to be careful, otherwise you will fall and your body will be broken. Nothing can solve it, but if things go on like this, it will cause many people to have some psychological problems, so folks have made such psychological hints a long time ago, using some special things to sit on a medium."

"Is that what my grandparents made just now? Huanhuan thinks the taste is really strange!"

"That's right, that's the thing. In fact, everyone knows it's useless to do this, but you need to seek a comfort, that is, do your best to obey the fate of your own

I have finished what I can do, and if there is another accident at that time, I can comfort myself at that time, saying that I have already done everything, and if there is an accident, it has nothing to do with me, even if it does , that's a little bit, after all, I've done my best, it's like saying that. "

I heard the two of them talking all the way, it was a long distance, but I didn't feel any fatigue. After getting on the expressway, Huanhuan became sleepy and fell asleep in the back. Liang Ruoling, please be careful Covered with a smiling blanket, then smiled at me and said, "How about it, do you feel a lot more relaxed in an instant?"

"what you mean?"

"It's just about the mood. I think it's quite easy to travel like this, but it feels like you didn't like traveling with people in your family before, right?"

This sentence really caught my breath. I used to really dislike traveling at all, but this matter is really important to me. I felt tense for a while, but I didn’t expect it During this process, I still have this feeling, I just feel that I am really a layman, and I don't think about these things at all.

"I didn't notice... sorry."

An embarrassing apology, in the rearview mirror, Liang Ruoling squinted and smiled, her whole body seemed to emit a soft light

It's like a glow, so I can't keep my eyes open.

"What are you looking at? Drive hard, your wife and children are all in the car, how dare you not concentrate?"

The sound of reproaches also made me feel a little ecstatic, so I quickly opened the window a crack, which made me sober enough to concentrate on driving. In fact, the journey is not far, that is, a two-hour drive. District, so it will appear that the journey is very long.

Liang Ruoling said that seeing her parents would make her feel sorry for them, so she didn't go back and look at them for two full years.

I feel like I did exactly the same thing as I did back then, but, I feel that all this is completely worthless to me because I was tortured by Song Yu before, but Liang Ruoling is because she was seriously injured. Mental wounds are more difficult to heal than physical wounds.

I think it is really not easy for Liang Ruoling to persevere, but I have nothing to do, I can only listen to her quietly, and occasionally interrupt to say something.

"Actually, my parents are really tolerant to me. When I was young, I liked musical instruments and a lot of books. They would buy them back for me without hesitation. They don't have to worry about my studies at all, so they treat me in other ways. Very presumptuous, my personality is like my mother, everyone said my mother put it in the older

In the past, I was supposed to be a lady of every family. I liked such adjectives very much at the time, so I encouraged myself to grow in that direction, but after all, compared with my mother, I was far behind in many things, just like a toddler. But after all, I just learned some superficial. "

After her ex-boyfriend had an accident, Liang Ruoling felt very guilty in her heart, so she calculated everything bit by bit, like a picky scholar, she did not dare to relax at all, and bit by bit Write out your own life trajectory, and then deduce the above steps to see at which step you have a fatal problem, which has led to the current mess.

In which year, she used her own time to do this thing repeatedly, so she let herself experience those pains over and over again. When this matter was finally calculated, time had passed For a long time, even though she felt that she could come out, the pain was repeated too many times, which immediately caused her to go up to the rooftop when she was almost unable to hold on and wanted to commit suicide, but met I am also decadent, but I am still struggling to survive.

I was amazed that Liang Ruoling was actually looking for death at that time, and I just happened to use my ugly struggling to kill him.

Her thoughts of suicide were wiped out.

I don't know what kind of thing I am doing, but for me, everything is really like destiny, even if everything is out of order and it is a dreamy beginning, but Ming In the dark, there should be a logical structure, which has always been there.

He will not be absent because of tight time, you have to believe that everything you meet is actually intriguing.

I sorted out my mood and finally calmed down. When I heard Liang Ruoling's words, I was at a loss. She smiled and told me that when she wanted to die, when she heard what I said, suddenly I found out that there are many people who are more difficult than me in this world. I just think too much of myself, so I feel that everything that happens is destined to happen. It’s something I can’t explain myself. It’s all framed by others. .

But Liang Ruoling told me that when she realized the motivation for my survival—Huanhuan, she was surprised why there are such cute children in the world.

At that time, because of Huanhuan's existence, he directly wiped out my existence, and felt that an adult who could have such a child and educate such a lovely child would definitely not be a bad person, because of this By chance, I began to have the opportunity to know her.

(End of this chapter)