life thirty

"Understood! Then Huanhuan sleeps now!"

As the little guy said, he pulled the quilt directly, turned over and fell asleep, as if he was afraid that I would repent or make some demands on her, which would delay her sleep time.

I didn't say anything else, I went straight out of the room and went back upstairs, Liang Ruoling waited for my news, seeing me with a smile on his face, he directly guessed the matter, seeing me holding the phone, he couldn't even close his smile Mouth.

"I knew the little guy was very reassuring, but a child like Huanhuan is cute. Tomorrow, my parents will never do anything strange, as long as I tell Huanhuan to stick to them."

I know that things will definitely not be as easy as Liang Ruoling said, and it will definitely be different from what I expected, but after thinking about it, I feel that this is a festive event, and the parents themselves just want to make a question to see how reliable I am. No, whether I can do something for the rest of their daughter's life depends on my attitude in answering the questions.

Facing this matter in my heart, I strongly agree with it, but I couldn’t sleep well that night. Even though I kept paralyzing myself and said that everything was ready, in fact, I was still very nervous. I just It's because I feel that this matter can't be dragged on any longer, otherwise Liang Ruoling's enthusiasm may be destroyed.

Love is exhausted.

I really feel that this incident is like a nightmare or a catastrophe to me.

What I'm referring to is not the catastrophe brought by Liang Ruoling, but the evil consequences that I myself have brought to myself, that is, I look down on myself and feel that what I do is not human.

I know that my mentality is wrong, but according to what Wo Jianye advised me yesterday, I should live according to my own ideas, and don't always babble about other people's ideas. Such things are completely unrealistic, I think This is really unrealistic for me.

"If you are afraid, why don't we choose next time?"

"How can there be so many next times, this time it's settled, how can I let you release your parents' pigeons?"

It may be that my negative emotions are too strong, or that I woke up Liang Ruoling several times when I turned over. When I was really irritable, Liang Ruoling made me stunned for a moment, and then turned over. body, hug her gently.

"This time I took the initiative. I'm a man. There's nothing to be afraid of. Your parents are not scourges. I'm just nervous. Don't think about it."

I feel that sometimes, some responsibilities should be supported by myself, and I can't do anything.

I depend on others for everything. After the word Bian Wenbin, I began to use this skill subtly. I know it must be because I have relied on others for a long time, and my body has developed a stubborn root, so it is difficult for me to get rid of this dependence. But I still want to try hard, after all, there are not many people who can make me rely on it.

I know that no one around me would mind this matter, but I really mind it now, because helping others sometimes means sacrificing part of what is in me. I personally lost my life, and I felt that things couldn't go on like this forever, so I started to choose a new beginning.

Changes cannot make major changes in an instant, but at least doing so can make me more comfortable to a certain extent, at least psychologically, and make myself feel useful.

"I'm actually really nervous. It's as if my previous memories have been completely lost. Now I'm reborn. Everything is a new me. I feel unfamiliar with everything and afraid of everything, but When I have you by my side, as long as I hold you gently like this, my heart will be relieved very quickly. I don’t know if there is some charming medicine on you

, that medicine happened to work on me directly... But, Lingling, it's good to have you by my side. "

After saying this, I fell asleep directly, as if I had been comforted in my soul. I relaxed and fell asleep easily. I don't know what kind of situation I should be in now, but Whatever is going on right now has a huge impact on me.

I make myself look barely normal...

This is what I learned from Ji Wenlin, at least psychologically, I tried so hard to numb myself, but in fact, there is no doubt about this matter, it has changed a lot.

The next morning, I looked at myself in front of the mirror. I didn’t take good care of myself, but I’m the kind of person who doesn’t look old, but my style of acting is very old-fashioned. If you count my appearance and height, I still have a little bit I have a competitive advantage, but according to Hu Lishu, I am an old man through and through. Elderly people should stay in the room well and don’t come out to harm the little girl. Her little girl is being pushed by me. It made him feel that I am really a person who is difficult to communicate with. In essence, she is preconceived and thinks that I have robbed his little girl, which is why she has such thoughts later.

But actually,

Liang Ruoling and I are in love with each other, she has no reason to stop us from being together, she will only say a few sour words from time to time.

"Dad! Why are you still not well? Mom wants to put on makeup much faster than you!"

Suddenly, the little guy knocked on the door of the bathroom in a hurry, and said coquettishly, but his tone was obviously hasty.

I opened the door and tidied it up. The little guy rushed up and acted like a baby, saying that she went to bed last night thinking about the gift, so let me move faster and take her to the store to buy gifts. The little guy seemed like We are more looking forward to meeting Liang Ruoling's parents. My parents and I decided to let me explore the road first. Otherwise, when they knew that my parents would live with us, they proposed to let us be a family. People neatly went over to meet each other.

But, my parents pay attention to etiquette and feel that doing so will neglect others. They want to prepare more, otherwise they will neglect the bad relationship between the two families in the future.

I think this incident is completely a joke, but I don't know what to say, it's like being sent out directly, my parents even sprinkled a little bit on us with a sense of ritual before leaving The strange-tasting water, I don't know what it is, I asked, and they told me that it is something that can prevent you from getting rid of disasters.

(End of this chapter)