bit of dream

32. Here comes the chance to confess!

After getting the love we both wanted, we worked hard to create and cherish this love. We live happily every day, but I understand my own family situation... Many times I can’t be with other boys at all. That way I buy everything she wants for her, even though she smiles every time and says she doesn’t care, doesn’t mind something...but I always feel a little wronged and sorry for her in my heart!

It was another Saturday, my brothers said to me:

"Linzi, you kid is looking for a wife, you should invite my brothers to celebrate. Next week, our brothers will go out to drink and have fun together. Your kid will treat you."

I was terrified when I heard the word treat. After my father left, my family lost its main source of income. I even said that the living expenses I bring every month may not be enough for us to spend on a meal in a restaurant...

So I thought for a while, lowered my head and said in embarrassment:

"Forget it when you have time later, it's not a big deal, what else do you want?"

Who knows how many of my elder brothers would not let me go, saying:

"Of course it's a big deal. It's not a big deal for you to find a wife, so what's a big deal... Don't play tricks, kid, be careful, I'll teach you a lesson! Hurry up and treat you at noon today, money can't be hurt on this kind of thing Ah... Now that we are together, I believe she wants you to do the same!"

After hearing this, I touched my head in embarrassment and said:

"Okay then, let's go out to have a meal to celebrate at noon today..."

Then I said: "But I don't have that much money..."

The buddies said with a smile: "Don't be too frugal about this kind of thing, don't make her feel ashamed, don't be afraid, our brothers still have money..."

I hummed, and then I called her, and I said:

"Now that we are together, my brothers are going to ask me to go out and treat them to a meal at noon. Congratulations, let's celebrate!"

She said, "That's good, I'll be there in a while..."

Then she asked me: "Is there more money? Do you need some money from me?"

Hearing her question like this, how could I have the nerve to say it, so I didn't make a sound, as if she understood something, she said:

"It's okay, don't worry, I won't make you too embarrassing..."

I can't figure it out!After we hung up the phone, she came to me soon, and we went out early to find a place to eat. On the way, she said to me:

"Lin Lin, this time your close buddies are going to celebrate for us. Since it's us, then of course I have a share too. You can't renege! Let's find a good place today and have a good meal Don, let them bless us and envy us..."

I said: "Why do you have a share! This is all our boys' business, you don't have to be sentimental, boys and girls eat together, how can girls pay for it!"

She said: "What, don't renege on the debt, okay? When my sisters invite me, you will have a share! Don't quibble!"

Looking at her smiling face, I smiled helplessly, and then she said:

"Don't worry, I still have money... I won't make you lose face!"

I wanted to say something, she smiled at me, patted me and said:

"It's okay, now I'm seriously your girlfriend..."

I smiled awkwardly, and then we looked for a good hotel. After we went in and booked the room, we called them and told them the address of the hotel, and they came after a while. After we arrived, we Everyone sat down and drank water for a while, and we ordered dishes together. While we were drinking water and chatting, the dishes we wanted were soon served on the table. The brothers at the table sent us blessings and respected me Jiu, we had a great time, and they all gave Longer a guarantee. If I dare to bully Longer in the future, they will ask Longer to find them, and they will teach me instead of Longer!We all had a great time!Near the end brother told me.

"Linzi, you can do it, boy, you can find a good wife, please let me have a serious drink, bless you two..."

I smiled awkwardly and said, "What can I do? She also paid a lot of money for today's meal? I didn't take that money myself..."

Brother made a gesture of silence to me, and brother whispered to me:

"My brothers all understand, and we can talk about it with our brothers, but we should pay attention to this kind of public place, and don't talk about this kind of thing. It's embarrassing to our men. Boys and girls are together, how can there be a girl?" It's paid for..."

I nodded and my brother said:

"Come on, get excited, getting such a good daughter-in-law will make several brothers envy you! You should cherish it!"

I smiled and said I would!We all laughed... We drank until late in the afternoon, and then we went back together. When I got back to school, I went to drop her off first, and she asked me.

"What? Your brothers all said it's okay this afternoon...I didn't want you to lose face!"

I smiled and said: "Of course I can say yes, it's fine, why would you want me to lose face, I should say thank you very much, thanks to you, if they say that they are not satisfied with this, I will be anxious with them when I go back! Baby, Just wait for me to make up for you with my heart..."

We looked at each other and smiled and parted. I want her to go back to the dormitory for an early rest. After that, I will go back to the dormitory too... When we returned to the dormitory, my brother and I washed up and lay down early. I talked about eating today, and my buddy said to me:

"Lin, we brothers all know your difficulties, but you shouldn't ask a girl to pay for that kind of occasion... A man and a girl are together to take care of her and raise her, not for her to raise you, besides Now it is normal for such a group of people to go out for a meal and spend a few hundred yuan, even if the two of you go out to play and spend one or two hundred yuan a day, it is normal. Don't be too reluctant to go out in the future... And even if she gives you a part, don't say it openly at the dinner table, you are such a young man, don't be afraid of shame!"

After hearing this, I forced a smile and said to my brother:

"Hehe, I understand it all, I have it all in my heart, I will pay attention to it in the future..."

Afterwards, my brothers may be really tired, so I went to bed early, but I couldn’t help but lie in bed all night, thinking about what my brothers said, I understand what it means... Now couples of our generation go out shopping almost every week, Meals are basically one or two hundred a week, but can I afford it?I don't think my current family background will allow me to do this... I am miserable, thinking about other boyfriends buying what she wants for her girlfriend, but I can't always buy those things for her , Will this make her feel ashamed and embarrassed in front of others?Would it hurt her self-esteem and make her feel miserable?A series of questions began to linger in my mind, so messy!Yes, since you can't give her happiness, then why choose to be with her!For some reason, a question popped into my mind.

Does this mean that I cannot give her the happiness she wants?Thinking about my family conditions and other reasons, I did start to think about whether I could give her happiness... I thought about it a lot that night, and I felt that I couldn't give her happiness, and I understood that if a man admits that he can't give his beloved When a girl is happy, then continuing to be with her is deceiving myself, deceiving her, I told myself, I can't become such a person!

Maybe I should really give up. Only by giving up can I give her happiness... I should understand this!Yes, when you really love someone, what you care about is not who she is with, but whether she is happy... If you really know that you are not capable of giving her the happiness she wants, you might as well choose to give up and give her ease and freedom. An idea came to mind that night.

"Since I really love her, but I can't give her happiness, then I should choose to leave her, and I will allow and support her to pursue her own happiness."

In this way, when I saw her during the day, I began to feel a little bit of entanglement and suffering in my heart, which made me very uncomfortable. I didn't want to or was afraid to face her, I wanted to escape...but I really love her, I really love her. I want to give her happiness, but many of my conditions really don’t allow it. After much deliberation, I finally decided to give up. I can’t give her the happiness she wants. Maybe this is destiny. The life of farming!I may be doomed to be powerless to change this ending now!

This weekend happened to be the big week, so I decided to go home and tell my mother about it. After finishing my stuff on Friday night, I went back to the dormitory to rest early. We went to bed very early that night, and I was also tired. We I fell asleep soon, and that night I had another dream of happiness and guidance...

In the dream, it was a night when my father and I were sitting on the sofa in the living room. I told my father about the difficulties and confusion of my life. My father talked to me, guided me, and educated me. When we talked about feelings and puppy love , Dad said: "Dad doesn't object to your falling in love as long as it doesn't affect your studies, but you have to understand that the so-called falling in love doesn't mean hugging a girl every day to control her to eat, control her to drink, and play with her. For the family, that kind of consumption is high consumption and waste, and it will not be conducive to their own learning and growth! Besides, true love cannot be measured and maintained through these things... In this regard, I think you are better than others It is better to be simple, I understand that your self-esteem may be stimulated to a certain extent, but you must learn to use this stimulation to motivate yourself, turn the stimulation into motivation, and motivate yourself to work hard, do your best to change the status quo, and pursue Belongs to the future happiness you want! For example, in terms of learning, since you can’t meet her conditions now and can’t give her happiness, then rise up for her, be with her for the future, and be able to make her happy for the future , strengthen your abilities, and fight for your future! Change your 'lazy' self for her..."

After waking up in the morning, I clearly remembered what my father said in the dream. My father was right and inspired me a lot. If you say "I don't have money, so I don't want to be with her..." it's purely an excuse , What will happen in the future, no one is sure, if I really love her and really want to be with her, then for this love, for her, rise up, struggle and persevere, don't give up so easily.

After thinking about it, I told myself that no matter what the future holds, at least I really like her now. Since I want to be with her when I grow up, I want to give her happiness, and I want to cherish this love, so now I have to work hard and fight hard for it. , insist, remember our original agreement!I called her and told her.

"Longer, I thought about it all night, I understand, maybe I can't give you happiness now, but please believe me, because I really love you, so for your happiness, and for the sake of my qualification to say love You, so I will use all my strength to fight and fight, and I believe that I will succeed for this happiness!"

She smiled and said: "Well, I believe that you will do this. No matter what, I will quietly accompany you and encourage you to achieve your own success!"

In the days since then, I have started to devote more time and energy to studying. We accompany each other and work hard every day, and we keep that tacit understanding in our hearts. We all remember our original promise and work together for future happiness. Study hard.