bit of dream

28. I gradually determined that I fell in love with you, but

When I think about it in the morning, I must first think of the dream last night, and think of what she told me in the dream, including the voice, movement, expression, etc. when she said those words. This "deliberate" action made me fall into confusion again. Could it be that she is hinting at me and testing me again?I should really stick to it... I feel more and more like a fabulous thing between us!Thinking about the previous dreams, it was only because of the guidance of these dreams that I came to this point, so should I continue to believe... At this time, I remembered the dream on the night of May 2009, 5. Zhong is my father who told me that she is my angel. My father is my dearest and most beloved person. He will not lie to me. In this case, I would rather believe that it is true. Maybe we are really destined to be together. Yes, in Mengmeng, I believe in the guidance of dreams, I believe it will lead me to success and realize my dreams!Yes, this is her testing me, I should persevere, so I also gave up the idea of ​​transferring schools, and chose to persevere...

In this way, I silently persevered for the love in my heart and paid for her. I really felt very happy and happy in my heart. It will be the second year of high school holiday soon, and we will all be ready to go home.

On the day of the holiday, my mother and my buddies and his father still drove to pick us up. We had already packed our holiday luggage at school. After my mother came, I moved the packed things to the car. After a while, my uncle and my buddy finished things. After that, my mother, my uncle, and my buddy drove home early. In the car, I chatted with my buddy about the situation at school. My buddy said to me :

"No matter where we go in the future, we are good brothers and will take care of each other"

My mother and uncle also agreed with us very much, and my uncle also said to my mother:

"In the future, if you need a car at home, just call me, and they will all be together when the holidays and school start, so it's just right for us to drop them off together!" This can be regarded as solving one of my mother's worries, and I am very happy...

At this time, I thought of her again. I wonder if she packed it up?Are there many things?Have you met your parents?My heart was full of her, so I took out my phone and sent her a message.

"Long'er, have you packed everything? Forgive me for not being able to help you move things today. My mother is here today, and my house is not in the urban area. The journey may be longer, so... I will be asked again if I have a chance. Well 'compensate' you..."

After the message was sent, I kept holding my mobile phone in the car. I was waiting for her message, but after a long journey, I got home, but I never received her message. I started to feel a little uncomfortable in my heart. After all, it was the first time I sent her a message and she didn't reply. After entering the house, I immediately sent her another message.

"Don't worry, I'm home, and you should be home early too! After you get home, take a good rest, and have a better time at home during the holidays! I'll visit you when I'm free, remember to keep in touch!"

But after a long period of time, she still didn't reply to me. Gradually, my heart became anxious, and I waited for a while. It was noon, and I couldn't wait anymore. I turned on the computer and logged on to QQ. Seeing one of her best companions online, I think she must know her very well, and she will know what she thinks, so I chatted with her.

I asked: "Are you there?"

She said, "Yes, yes"

I said, "Is it convenient to chat now?"

She said: "Enen, it's convenient, do you want to chat with me about Longer again?"

I said: "I can't say that completely, after all, we are also classmates, and chatting is normal!"

She said: "What are you pretending to be with me, who doesn't know! Well, if you want to talk about her, just talk about it, and I will tell you if you know!"

I said, "Oh, well, since you said that, I'll ask..."

She said: "Okay, let's ask quickly, what are you talking about, I don't know you yet!"

I said: "Hey, I want to ask, do you know why she is treating me like this now? Are the things she said to me before all false? Does she really not want to promise me?"

Her companion replied: "Look at you, you can ask so many questions at once, there are so many questions!"

I said: "Stop making trouble, answer me quickly!"

The companion said: "Okay, let me tell you what's going on! It's not what you think. Don't say I told you after I tell you!"

I said, "Don't worry, I'm keeping my mouth shut!"

The companion said: "We two often have heart-to-heart talks together. Every time we talk together, she said that she has a good impression and feeling of you in her heart. She said that she also likes you very much, and she also wants to promise you. ..."

When I saw it, I replied immediately.

"If what you said is true, why doesn't she promise me now?"

Her companion said: "Don't worry, listen to me and tell you slowly!"

I said: "Okay, I'm not in a hurry, just tell me, I'm listening!"

The companion said: "As for why she refused to agree to you, you have to find the reason from yourself..."

A little confused, I asked.

"What does it mean to look for reasons in myself?"

The companion said: "I just need to find the reason from yourself... To put it more clearly, it means that she doesn't accept you because of your own reasons!"

I said "I still don't get it!"

The companion said: "I am convinced! Do you know what Longer hates the most?"

I said, "What does she hate the most? We're not together, I really don't know..."

The companion said: "You don't know her very well yet. She is a girl who loves face and has strong self-esteem. She hates others talking about herself behind her back. Since you really like her and want to be with her, why don't you be bold?" How about confessing to her? Do you know that you are so silent on the surface, but you are paying for her happiness behind the scenes, will this attract much discussion from other students? After being discussed by the students, after she heard the news Have you ever thought about how uncomfortable it is? Can she not hate you then? "

Then the companion said: "I can tell you this, it is you who turned a happiness into pain!"

I said, "Happiness turned into pain? I don't quite understand..."

The companion said: "You are so smart in thinking about math problems, but why are you so stupid in the emotional world! Let me tell you, not to praise you, your image among classmates and teachers is very good now, assuming you boldly put your Speaking of her love, she may think that it is a kind of happiness for her to get a handsome guy like you who is very good in everyone's mouth, but you didn't do it. Not only did you not say it, but you always published those words Say, ask you and don't tell, you think the classmates are stupid, they all have eyes, they can see the things between you, you insist on causing the classmates to talk about her, do you know that this is against her How much damage to your self-esteem and face? So I said that it was you who turned a happiness into pain! Do you understand now?"

I said: "It seems to be clearer. In this way, it is true that I have gone too far!"

Immediately afterwards she said: "I think at first she must have hoped that you would express your love to her formally and openly, so I think she will definitely accept you!"

After listening to the words of her best companion, I remembered the little things I had done. I seemed to understand a lot, and I seriously reflected on myself. It was true that I did too badly and broke her heart. There is a trace of love, these actions of mine brought her not only a trace of harm, but also a great disappointment!

All my pain today is caused by myself, and I can’t blame her at all. Of course, I have to eat the fruits of the flowers I planted. What I have to do is not to escape the harm, but to make up for it with my heart, thinking of what my father gave us. Dream, I told myself, I must take good care of her, cherish her, and don't let myself say I regret it!So I eagerly asked her companion.

"Just now you said that when I confessed to her, she would definitely accept me. What about now? Is there any room for me to redeem it? "

The companion replied: "Then it depends on your own actions and performance in the future... seize the opportunity you can grasp..."

I believe in God, I believe that my father will definitely give me a chance to recover, and I will definitely not make me regret it!This time I must seize this opportunity well, hold her tightly, and not give myself any excuses to regret it, so I immediately asked my partner for good advice, and I asked my partner.

"So what do you think I should do next?"

The companion replied: "Opportunities are all found by myself! You understand this!"

I said: "I understand, but we are not in the same place, so please help me a lot! Remember to tell me when you have a chance!"

The companion said: "Don't worry, since I am your good friend, I will definitely help you if you have difficulties, and I will contact you if there is an opportunity! But opportunities are often created by yourself. She came out to play, and there are no classmates at this time, isn't it a good opportunity to confess and explain?"

I thought about it and said: "Well, I will work hard...Thank you, you are in close contact, if there is anything she has or if I have any opportunities, please remember to tell me."

The companion said: "Okay, keep in touch, I have something to do first, so I will download it first!"

We chatted for a while and then she went offline, and I also went offline after playing for a while, time flies so fast, several days have passed, but she has not talked to me online!It's almost the annual Valentine's Day again, and I'm still imagining it... I woke up early this day and opened QQ, but she wasn't online, but my intuition told me that she would be online today, and I believed it was true for her Intuition, so I decided to wait for her until she went online. When I was bored, I opened her QQ space to see if she had any new developments recently, but her space set a password. The password question is: I Who do you "hate" the most?I typed my name, but the answer was wrong. I couldn't think of the answer for a while, but I wanted to see her space again. I thought her closest companion must know the answer to her space problem, so I gave her the best My partner called and I said:

"What are you doing? I want to ask you something..."

The companion said: "I'm fine, just ask me whatever you want!"

I said: "I want to visit her space, but there is a problem with her space..."

Her companion said: "Oh, that question, I know, she seems to have just set it up last night!"

I asked: "Then you must know the answer, tell me quickly, I'll go and see her dynamics in space, okay?"

She said: "The answer, think about it yourself! You are so smart, you should be able to come up with it!"

I said, "Can I figure it out? Could it be me, but it's wrong for me to put my name on it..."

She said: "She is used to calling you by your name. Think about what she wants to call you most now? Get it? Try typing it..."

I said, "Well, let me try, wait for me to download..."

At this time, I remembered that she likes to call me Lin Lin and idiot, and in addition to my own stupidity during this period, I think she must want to call me idiot the most now, no matter, just call me and try!

Oh my god, I marked the fool, and I went in, and my companion said:

"Do you know now?"

I said, "Got it, idiot!"