Nirvana(BL)

Ye Lin had many lovers before—introduced by others, hired from roadside, one night stand—all kinds of. But there is only one Cheng Xiaocheng.

He met Cheng Xiaocheng at T university's anniversary. As a student union member, Cheng Xiaocheng need to contact the alumni. And he was the one who responsible for Ye Lin.

Listening to the magnetic voice to call "Mr. Ye" through the phone, Ye Lin decided to join the anniversary for seeing the master of this voice.

He's gone.

Fortunately, Cheng Xiaocheng didn't disappoint him. He's a gentle young man, fair and beautiful, with scholarliness. His gestures and movements made him look like a aristocratic young master. He was Ye Lin's type. The third day after Ye Lin met him, they went to bed.

Ye Lin looked at Cheng Xiaocheng—he was really a porcelain doll, beautiful and obedient. Particularly, he liked to ask Cheng Xiaocheng to give him a blow job with kneeling on the ground. He looked at Cheng Xiaocheng's big black eyes, which were misted by tears, feeling that it was an eye-pleasing scene.

He loved Cheng Xiaocheng to death. He loved his eyelashes, his delicate face, his fair neck, and his soft waist. He held Cheng Xiaocheng tightly in his arms, as if he would never let him go.

You're the prettiest doll I've ever had.

Ye Lin doesn't know how to love, but he tried his best to be nice to Cheng Xiaocheng. He gave him everything he wanted. Cheng Xiaocheng only need to move his lips, and then Ye Lin would cash out immediately for him.

He said: "stay with me forever. I'll be good to you."

Cheng Xiaocheng looked very calm, he said yes obediently.

Yes.

It is just a word which is easy to say, while it's hard to keeping the promise.

When Cheng Xiaocheng was in the junior year, he asked Ye Lin to get him an internship in the government department. Ye Lin said no, because he felt that Cheng Xiaocheng had the scholar's temperament. Actually he didn't think Cheng Xiaocheng should go to work after getting the bachelor degree. He hoped Cheng could study abroad and get a PhD, and then came back to be teacher in university. Thus, he never thought about to bring Cheng Xiaocheng to the official career.

But later, at a dinner party, Yu Siyang started a conversation with Cheng Xiaocheng. Ye Lin was drunk that day, and Cheng drove him back with Yu Siyang's company. After knowing that Cheng had the intention to be a civil servant, Yu Siyang told him frankly that he was in the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, and they needed more people there. He asked Cheng Xiaocheng to work in his department as an intern.

At the beginning, both of them hid their relationship from Ye Lin. Until a few months later. Ye Lin went to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs for business, but unexpectedly, he saw Yu Siyang was flirting with Cheng Xiaocheng in his office.

One was his friend, the other was his lover.

At that time Ye Lin really had impulsion to beat them. But considered about his decency, it was too cheap to turn against his friend for that lover.

Ye Lin became the one redundant.

He face looked cold, but he pretended to be magnanimous. He waved his hand and said: "Well, he's willing to be with you, and that's fine with me."

Ye Lin went home, turned over the calendar. It had been a year and eight months since the first time Cheng Xiaocheng called him.

There were Cheng's clothes in the closet, his shoes in the cabinet, his pillow on the bed, his towel in the bathroom, his toothbrush and mouthwash cup in the washstand, and even a half cup of juice that he hadn't finished this morning in the kitchen.

Ye Lin never realized that Cheng had already become a part of his life, until he was about to be separated with him.

Looking at the traces of Cheng Xiaocheng in his own house, Ye Lin felt very annoyed.

He had been dumped. And he had been cuckolded for at least a few months.

Moodily drinking his wine, Ye Lin got more and more pissed off.

He thought for a while, and then sent a message to Cheng Xiaocheng. "When I sent you back to school last time, there was a young man who greeted you. He's your schoolmate, right? Send me his number if you have it."

In fact, he barely remembered what that boy looked like. He just wanted to make Cheng angry. He wanted to show that he didn't care about it—you can leave if you want, I'll have someone new. Who do you think you are? I don't care at all.

Unexpectedly, Cheng Xiaocheng soon replied his message with Yu Yue's name and number, and he also said, "if you are interested in him, I can take him to see you."

Ye Lin almost crunched his teeth, but he still replied: "OK, bring him to me."

After sending that message, Ye Lin broke his phone.

Ye Lin wanted to show that he didn't care, but Cheng Xiaocheng cared less than him.

His indifference was feigned. But Cheng Xiaocheng really didn't care.

You will lose if you get serious. Yu Yue said to himself.

Cheng Xiaocheng invited Yu Yue to meet him on October 3rd. In the evening of October 2nd, Ye Lin and his friends held a party. As expected, Yu Siyang was there with Cheng Xiaocheng. Ye Lin got drunk, he started to make troubles to Cheng deliberately.

He hooked up Cheng's shoulder in front of Yu Siyang, and then asked him: "Xiaocheng, I still have your clothes, shoes and something else in my house, do you still need them? If not, I will throw them away. There's no place for them."

Cheng shook his head: "Just throw away."

Yu Siyang interrupted: "Xiaocheng, do you still have the key to that Fragrant Hills villa? Did you return it?"

"Not yet, but I don't have it with me now. So, tomorrow, I will bring Yu Yue to meet you anyway, and I can return it to you at that time." Cheng Xiaocheng was very calm as if he had no feelings.

Ye Lin felt like being bitten by something. He crunch his teeth: "Well."

Later, when Cheng Xiaocheng went to the bathroom, Ye Lin followed him in.

In the mirror, Cheng saw that Ye Lin was behind him, so he turned around: "what's the matter?"

Ye Lin didn't say a word, he just went forward and pressed Cheng on the wall to kiss him. If there was no one outside, Ye Lin would like to fuck him on the ground.

There was no response from Cheng Xiaocheng. He didn't resist at all. When Ye Lin stopped to breath, he still looked at him without any expression, only said: "It's not good if Yu Siyang saw us."

Ye lin finally couldn't help roaring: "Why are you fucking doing this? Yu Siyang, who gives him the right?"

"There's no why." Cheng was as calm as the stagnant water, "for me it's only a deal. I just pick a better one."

"Deal…you're really great, Cheng Xiaocheng…" Ye Lin was holding Cheng's collar, "did I treat you not good?"

"No, you're good. But Yu Siyang is better."

"Fuck!" Ye Lin scolded viciously, "You a heartless asshole!"

"You did me good, I paid you by my body. Did I owe you anything?"

"Fuck you, Cheng Xiaocheng!" Ye Lin raised his fist and brushed past Cheng's face, then hit on the wall.

Ye Lin couldn't tell whether he was angry or more desperate. He looked into Cheng Xiaocheng's eyes. When he started talking, his voice had a strong nasal sound.

"You are really a bitch…but I love you." Ye Lin had never been so humble to anyone, "almost two years, Xiaocheng, I've been devoted to you. But Yu Siyang, who does he think he is? He's just playing with you. I'm fucking getting you in my heart…don't you care at all?"

Cheng Xiaocheng shook his head: "it makes no difference to me whether he likes me or not. I'm just looking for someone with a high price. What Yu Siyang can give me is more than what you can. Ye Lin, be open-minded. You've lost, let me go then. It's embarrassing to tangle like this."

Ye Lin stared at him, clenched his fist again and again, but didn't raise it in the end.

He let go of Cheng Xiaocheng, and then, left without saying a word.

In the next morning, Ye Lin opened his phone. There was a message from Cheng Xiaocheng: "I will go to pick up Yu Yue now, and probably arrive before lunch."

Ye Lin got up to wash. He stood in front of the mirror and looked at himself for a while. Then he threw away Cheng's towel and his toothbrush to the trash bin.

After that, he went back to his bedroom and opened a drawer, choosing a metal rimmed clear lens glasses from a pile to hide the swell under his eyes.

He texted back to Cheng Xiaocheng.

"OK."