MEMORIZE

When I looked back, I saw Seraf half way up. The red cape is gathered with a slight grip on when it was held. But it's not a tight pull, it's a loose pull that you can shake off with a little bit of force..

"Do you want to go…?"

I think so, but the voice I hear is so pathetic. I don't want you to look at me like that. It's like a poor woman who leaves without a night's rest.

I stuck my hand in my pocket for no reason. He fiddled with the zero code he could grab. When he was at a loss what to say, Seraph opened his mouth.

"I'd like to talk to Su-hyun a little more.”

"Story?"

"Isn't it too much to just say what you have to say and hear what you have to say?"

"What, what."

The angel expressed his conviction uncharacteristically. However, he soon calms down and stares at Seraph, who shines his eyes as if longing for something.

...hagiya, on reflection, this might be your last meeting with Seraf. Next time we meet, we can use the zero code. Maybe now is the only time to talk freely. Maybe that's why it's like that.Should I say yes or not?

“…….”

In fact, the feelings I have recently felt while watching Seraph are quite subtle. I don't even know if I like it or not. Should I say that there is no clear standard?

In retrospect, when was it? Ever since I knew Seraf had borrowed Ansol's body, or followed me back to the first round?

Anyway, one thing I'm sure of since then is that the hatred that I don't want to see like the old days has disappeared. Yeah, that's all.

"Come to think of it."

When he pulled out his cape slowly, Seraf stood up on the altar with his eyes slightly raised.

"There was something I wanted to ask, too.

At that moment, I was like, "Wait, an hour, no, 30 minutes.Ceraf, who shouted belatedly, looked stunned as he sat back on the altar.

"Why? I don't mind staying a little longer."

When he opened his eyes in a circle, he took out the beginning of the year, spilled his eyes, and sat on the altar calmly. However, it was clear that his eyes were staring completely differently and his lower lip was sticking out. I think I've never seen Seraf sulking. It's pretty cute.

"Are you upset?"

"I'm not upset."

"Hey, beep... Okay. But what did you want to talk to me about?”

“…….”

Speaking in a slightly angry voice, Seraph sighed for a while.

After a while of silence, Seraph, who looked displeased, glanced at me. Soon the corners of my mouth crept up.

"In fact, I have observed Su-hyun's recent trends from time to time."

"What?"

"You seemed to be having a lot of fun with many women."

"…did you see that?"

Seraf nodded slightly. Hmm. I'm getting a kick out of it. But I managed to keep my facial expressions so that the meaning of 'so?' could be conveyed.

"If you wanted me to be ashamed, you'd be mistaken."

"No way. I'm not that childish."

I suddenly yawned for a long time. Maybe it's because it's night. That's weird. You woke up late, so you won't be short of sleep.

Then Seraf continued.

"Just…."

"Just?"

"I envied you."

"Ha, I envy you."

A light smile followed when he said chewing at the beginning of the year. Hmm. It's been a long time since I've talked to Seraf like this. Playing jokes isn't as bad as I thought.

"So, Soohyun."

Soon after, Seraph, who had crept close to his body, whispered softly in his ears.

"By any chance, could you do me a favor?"

"Listen."

At the beginning of the year, he murmured, lighting a fire.

At that moment, the view suddenly slipped. Once I closed my eyes and opened them, I stepped on the gray ceiling. Below it, Seraf is looking down at me with his head half down. At the same time, I could feel the soft sensation that supports the back of my neck comfortably.

Knee pillow. Presumably, Seraf wants to see me embarrassed somehow.

"Is this a favor?"

Bite at best, but Seraf shook his head. Then I move my hands without saying anything and start to sweep my hair away calmly. Slowly, very slowly, nonstop...I didn't have any reason to refuse now, so I left my body to it.

"Well…."

The gray altar was cold, but Seraf's touch was warmer than that. I feel good. As my hair is warmed up, my body feels warm and my eyes close automatically. It looks like I'm lying in the warm sun on the meadow in the spring.

In this state, how long has it been?

"Suhyun."

Suddenly Seraf talked to me. I compromised to close my eyes half-closed and stared at Seraf. Perhaps because of the narrower vision, it seems to be a little blurry than before.

"Su-hyun, how was your life in Hall Plain?"

“……?”

Out of the blue, but it was a new question. Suddenly, I swallowed my horse while trying to ask back what it was saying. Maybe this answer is what Seraf said.

"Well…."

I mumbled to myself and was lost in thought.

If it were in the past, I would have said it negatively without thinking. Of course I can say that now.

It's not that there's no room to say otherwise if you think about it seriously once.

"I was unhappy, but....”

I was unhappy when I witnessed my brother's death. I don't even want to recall the memories of having to go through hardships that I didn't have to do, watching the death of my colleague, and confirming the corruption of the woman I admire. Other than this, unfortunate memories are widespread and widespread.

But was he only underprivileged throughout his career as a user?

"I have good memories..”

Technically it wasn't. When I met my brother, when I was saved by Han So-young, when I met Gehenna, when Mar and Suna were born, when my colleagues came to save me...The memories of that time clearly do not fall into the category of unhappiness. This is also too much to count.

While calmly organizing my thoughts, I could feel the tickling sensation on my face. The silver hair, which glows subtly, flows down. Seraf's face seems to be gradually tilting.

But why can't I see it more clearly than before? The view has become quite unclear. My eyelids seem to have gotten heavier without even realizing it.

"You don't have to forget the past, but you don't have to tie it up."

I was about to open my eyes, but I just closed them a little more. I don't know why, but it wasn't so bad to feel like touching the whole body gently. Rather, I want to fall asleep like this.

"So wouldn't it be better for Suhyun to live happily now?"

There was a soft voice like a lullaby.

"That's it…."

Of course. Who doesn't want to live happily.

Seraph continues the horse.

"Then what kind of life is a happy life for Suhyun?"

At that moment, I was at a loss for words.

“…….”

This was the problem.

People have different values of preference depending on the individual. Therefore, what defines happiness is bound to be different. The same goes for me.

"Happiness..."

The happy life that ordinary people pursue and the life that I feel happy are very different from each other. Can I say that I am happy with a life where I can feel the meaning of living by killing and slaughtering constantly? Even if I'm satisfied with myself, the eyes of people around me, including my brother and Han So-young...?

Was it at the Temple of Promise?

"Is the unknown the result of outer appearance? It's a shame that you're afraid of the future ahead of you. Even though the moment of purpose for 15 years is just around the corner....’

'Well, if the poison that kept you going is gone, what's left is the wear of your mind. Then you're already falling apart beautifully....’

Zero-code's words were deeply sympathetic.

At some point I started to deceive myself. Among them, the most wary was emotions that responded to sadness and pain. Because I thought crying was weak because I couldn't overcome the pain.

I wanted to be stronger than anyone else for revenge. When I wanted to cry because I was tired, I clenched my teeth and held back my tears. If he couldn't stand it, he replaced it with anger. As a result of continuing to deceive myself, the tear glands dried up completely.

…in the end, all that remains is emptiness and emptiness.

"Maybe…."

That's why.

So I wanted to cry. Rather than laughing, I wanted to shed tears.

You can laugh sincerely when you are happy, but you cannot laugh sincerely when you are you unhappy.

But crying is not limited to just sad situations. It's possible when you're happy. Don't you often cry because you're so happy, or because you can't overcome your emotions?

Yes, a life where you can cry when you want to.

If we go further.

"Living as a human being…That kind of life...?"

"…is that so?"

When I barely finished answering, I felt something that was making a sudden mess of my face slowly drifted away and closed. I think Seraf raised his head..

"I see."

to be weird

"If Su-hyun really wants to do that.”

I tried to get myself up, but I don't have any strength in my whole body.

"I will respect Su-hyun's sincerity with joy."

I felt like my body was limp.

Only then did I realize that I was on the verge of losing my mind. No, I can't. There's still something I want to ask you.

"Now I'm telling you….”

It was that moment.

"I swore five years ago in front of the Zero Code ahead of my return."

Suddenly, the view darkened rapidly and at the same time, Seraf's shape, which had been vaguely visible, was completely scattered.

"I think it's time to fulfill that pledge."

Seraf?

Don't get me wrong and listen. As I said before, the user Kim Soo-hyun currently has a significant number of GPs. It's not reasonable to get rid of it as it is.'

"Don't get me wrong and listen. First of all, I understand what Su-hyun wants and how she wants to go back to Earth. But I promise you, it's never reasonable to go back without any countermeasures."

Seraf? What are you saying?

It's unbelievable, but your will has triggered a zero-code response. All right, with the authority of the helper, we'll adjust the details arbitrarily. Of course, there will be nothing more harmful to the user, Kim Soo-hyun. Then I'll see you soon after I finish the work.’

"Su-hyun is... under the authority of a helper.. Request at random…Of course, what harms Suhyun....”

Damn it, I can't hear you. No matter how hard I try to concentrate, my consciousness becomes blurred.

"Then after the work is done….”

The last time I was able to hear that.

"Seeing you again....”

It was Seraf's voice, speaking in a slightly wet voice.

"Maybe it's hard…?”

At the same time, I missed the thread of consciousness that I had in my grasp.

============================ Review of the work ============================

Kim Soo-hyun: Maybe, a life where I can cry...?

Seraf: Then cry.

Kim Soo-hyun : ?

Seraf: Cry and prove your innocence! You little bird!

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