Why Are You Becoming a Villain Again?

Awakening (2)

Only 10 days left. until the end of the semester.

Asena was surprised because she was able to control her emotions better than expected.

Contrary to what I thought it would be difficult to hold back my anger… I was spending the rest of my time well without any conflicts with anyone.

When I saw Daisy or Judy, whom I hated so much, I felt uncomfortable at the thought that they were women who were close to Cayden, but it was not unbearable. He didn’t get close or close with Kaden right in front of his eyes, so he had to endure it for the first time.

It was like a tightrope walk. It felt like it was going to explode if someone touched it…but no one touched it, so I was able to stay calm.

….and there was something to be wary of in its own way. Especially if you touch Daisy…the news will surely go to Kaden.

The displeasure I feel when I see them now is only tolerable and tolerable. If the dam bursts… it might pour out everything it has built up.

If that happens, the act cannot be taken lightly, and there is no way that an action that cannot be taken lightly does not reach Kayden’s ears.

Asena couldn’t concentrate on class today and looked at Daisy.

Currently, there was nothing to be bothered about. The fact that she’s still taking Kayden hasn’t changed.

But what’s even more worrisome is that… she doesn’t ask questions about the missing Kaden.

He was upset that he didn’t ask about Kaden’s whereabouts, even though he was engaged, because he didn’t seem to care about him.

Of course, I don’t want her to care. Asena was also confused by herself.

I wish she hadn’t been with Kayden, but if she treats him in such a disrespectful way, then that’s just that.

Because he wasn’t the kind of person that Daisy could take lightly. I didn’t know how precious my brother was and I didn’t want to treat him like that.

“……”

Of course… I guess there must have been a clear reason why Daisy was so quiet.

That may be the part that bothers me the most.

There was a fact deep down in my heart that I wanted to deny.

If it’s Kaden who knows him well… Maybe he left after explaining his circumstances to his fiancée, Daisy.

If you’re leaving because of something like this, you may have told him not to be surprised.

So, the reason Daisy doesn’t ask anything… is that he’s so good at explaining and leaving.

Asena shook her head.

…I didn’t want to accept that fact. without saying anything to yourself. It’s Kaden who left without a letter.

After he disappeared, only one letter came.

They left without seeing them… and left Daisy with all explanations?

I didn’t want to believe it. Even though it was a possible guess, I didn’t want to believe it.

Even though he knew there was a reason he didn’t come to see him. Even though he knew there was a reason he didn’t even see Kirsi, he didn’t want to accept that fact childishly.

I didn’t even bother to ask the truth. But if you find out even if it’s something you can’t bear, you’ll get angry.

He didn’t want to know that there was a woman that Caden cared for and cared for more than he did.

So Asena didn’t bother talking to Daisy. Daisy did too.

It was no longer a time for each other to laugh and talk to each other.

****

“…Kayden-sama?”

A familiar voice takes me out of my thoughts.

“Well? Lawrence?”

Sir Lawrence, who had taught me the sword, walked into my room wearing light armor.

“What do you think so deeply about?”

“……”

Lately, I’ve only been thinking about my brothers. It was after all of the emotions that were embarrassing for me had all subsided. Arriving at the estate and looking around, I’m sure… we got along well.

Everywhere he went was filled with memories. The place where Asena secretly hid and cried. The place where Kirsi was injured while jumping. Shelter they liked, etc.

How did you ever have feelings for me? I have come to the point where I can comprehend it.

okay. As Asena said, if you hadn’t considered me as a family from the beginning. Then it’s just an older brother I’ve known since I was a kid.

…Of course, I have to understand that, but there are some things I can accept. According to Asena and Kirshi, it was just that she fell in love with me, who was her older brother. Asena said she had never thought of me as an older brother, but that was an extension of the meaning of seeing me as a man.

anyway. I have been trying to understand those who have recently developed feelings for me even though they see me as an older brother.

But since I can’t talk to Lawrence like this, I just turned around to him.

“….no.”

“Did you think of Asena-sama and Kirsi-sama?”

But there is no reason to turn around. He and I have gotten to know each other very well because we have been mixing swords a lot.

I laughed bitterly.

“…why did you ask, knowing everything?”

It’s Lawrence who will find out that even that is a lie if he has to look around. I no longer hide the facts.

“If Kaden-sama thinks about it, it’s just the younger brothers.”

“……”

“…Five? Or maybe he was thinking about getting married.”

“…well, think what you feel comfortable with. So, why did you come?”

With a smile, I ignored him making fun of me and asked why he came to me.

He pulled out two letters from behind.

“I’m here today, letter.”

“……”

I didn’t ask who it was from. because it was natural

Asena and Kirsi.

They still miss me. I couldn’t stand being apart for a while…. Like a lover, he sent me a letter.

I had complex thoughts.

I know it shouldn’t be like this… but it wasn’t a bad feeling.

I hate it, I hate it, I have to push it, but I can’t do it in the end.

The love I poured out for them was too great.

It took a long time to understand, so I couldn’t push them away.

“……”

That’s why I didn’t tease it.

The users don’t know that the twins have a crush on me.

If they return soon, the winds of great change will blow, so it might be better to get used to it from now on.

After all… even if I don’t hate them, it doesn’t change anything. heart cannot receive

Maybe this will be the last ordeal. I have to leave, but the twins may make their final growth.

I could only ask him a little bit, wiping my chin smartly.

“Why did you bring it? Where is Max going?”

“Ah, Max, that guy… I think the time has come for me to scold him harshly.”

“why?”

“What do you mean, come up to me, tick off two pieces of stationery, and ask Cayden to bring it to you? I don’t know when it started… but you think of me too easily.”

I burst out laughing.

“Of course you take it easy, Lawrence. Even now, you are still grunting at the end.”

After receiving the letter he handed me, he placed it on the table.

Lawrence also smiled a little at my words.

“So, is this your business?”

At my words, he nodded.

“okay, thanks. go see Oh, help me with training later.”

“……”

Without answering, he slowly hardened his expression. Didn’t you say that your business is over?

Seeing him in wonder, he asked.

“…Well. The business is over…but I have a personal question. It may be off topic, but I’m curious.”

Our family also had a very strong bond with the family members. So, even if Lawrence didn’t ask, I knew what he was going to ask.

“…what happened?”

“……”

I tried to say no, but my mouth never opened. Besides… if I had hidden it now, he would have known it was a lie. When the younger brothers return, they will eventually find out about this hidden fact.

So I didn’t have to deny it.

“…do you not see the reply…?”

He kept asking.

I received at least 5 letters from the twins every day. Two regular episodes from Asena. More than 3 episodes to Kirsi.

But never sent a reply. I believed it was not the time. Because I had something I wanted to say, so I picked up the quill and eventually put it down again.

All the words I wanted to say were kept in my heart. Also, I may give you vain hope without knowing it.

I didn’t want to make them expect more or make them sick.

So again, he just smiles at Lawrence.

“Well, the kids will be back, Lawrence.”

“……”

At that moment, Max walked through the door with a light footstep.

“Oh, Sir Lawrence! You’re here. Oh, did you bring the letter?”

Lawrence’s expression turns grim but playful.

“you…! Max, if you could come like this now, you should have brought it!”

“Don’t you know that I gave a chance for a teacher and a disciple to have a conversation?”

“……”

Lawrence paused for a moment at that, then answered in a hoarse voice.

“…I don’t think you were that deep in thought.”

“Right. It was just annoying, so I asked for it.”

“this…!”

Lawrence blushed at Max’s pranks, but I burst out laughing.

Seeing me burst into laughter, Max came over to me after calming Lawrence with a sad expression on his face.

“Kaden, this is a letter.”

I ask him, calming my laughter.

“In addition?”

“This time, it’s not Asena-sama or Kirsi-sama.”

“ah.”

Then Daisy or Judy is left.

Max looked at the letter. there were two Then Daisy and Judy are right.

I still felt sorry for them.

Of course, there is nothing I should be sorry about for returning to my hometown, but it was still a bit disappointing.

…ah. I guess I’ll leave my sisters who are evil women and come back.

Anyway, after accepting their letter, I ordered Max.

“Max. Bring me paper and ink.”

I’m not replying to the twins…but I felt the need to reply to them both.

****

Asena lay on her side in bed again tonight, looking at the letter Caden had sent.

I already looked at him until the paper faded… but since it’s the only trace of him, I felt different emotions every time I looked at him.

All the words written in the letter were thought through and memorized.

It was a hard letter with no words of affection, but it was okay. There is no change in the fact that he wrote with them in mind.

“…..”

Still, the regret remained. It would be great if you could use just one more bottle.

It would be nice if you could send me one more piece of evidence that you are thinking of them.

-smart.

The candle that had been lit in the room flickered with the sound of the knock.

“…why?”

When she asks, a voice comes from outside the door.

‘…..sister.’

As soon as she heard that voice, Asena let out an annoyed sigh.

“…No, Kirsi.”

‘…Sister, please.’

“Today is the day I will have my brother’s letter.”

‘…I’ll look at you for a moment. Please lend me a moment.’

she bit her lip.

She didn’t want such a childish fight. They were fighting over the one and only Kaden letter, as if children were fighting over their favorite doll.

Still, I hated myself for having to do this. According to his personality, I don’t want to just give it away… His letter was so precious that I couldn’t.

It was the first time I had been away from him, so this was the first time I received a letter from him.

It was not easy to hand over the first letter.

“…you saw it yesterday. Are you thinking only of you?”

‘………’

For a moment, Kirsi didn’t hear anything from outside the door.

After waiting like that for a long time, Kirsi said.

‘…..sorry.’

Asena let out a long sigh.

“…Go back to sleep. I’ll give it to you tomorrow.”

‘…..yes.’

Asena lay her head back on the bed. Kirsi’s grumbling is soon forgotten.

Looking at the letter I received from Kayden. remembering him miss him

So slowly Asena fell asleep.