Why Are You Becoming a Villain Again?

Extraction (5)

“…is it because of me…?”

Judy’s eyes, as they asked me, were losing their vitality. I spoke quickly before she made a strange mistake.

“…No, Judy. It’s not because of you.”

But Judy didn’t believe me. His eyes didn’t change, and he was getting more and more gloomy. I didn’t know if I was feeling disgust with myself, or if I was mourning because things didn’t go the way I wanted.

She kept asking me, as if she wanted to finally hear the truth.

“…Then what is the reason?”

To tell this, we had to talk about twins. Daisy had no choice but to tell her that she knew first… but she didn’t want to tell Judy.

It wasn’t something to be proud of that the twins loved me.

I wouldn’t know if it wasn’t for siblings. If I was someone who had nothing to do with them, I might have boasted.

It’s limited to my eyes, but if there are so many pretty children who love me, why don’t I hate them?

The problem, of course, is not someone else’s. I am their brother and they are my sister.

I wanted others not to know about this twisted relationship.

Judy won’t tell anyone… but it gets really hard when this secret gets through word of mouth.

“…it’s a personal matter.”

So I figured out why.

In response to my answer, Judy bites her teeth.

Again, it was an answer that had no choice but to deepen the misunderstanding.

I don’t even know why I’m doing this, but I started making excuses for her.

“…Judy, it’s not really because of you. I am really leaving for personal reasons.”

“…Tell me then. What is that personal matter?”

“…that can’t be said.”

“…it must be because of me.”

“…Judy, no really…! Can’t you just trust me?”

“I don’t tell you why, but how can you believe it…! You’re just lying because you care about me…”

In the end, I had no choice but to give a sneaky hint.

“…it’s because of the twins…!”

But even that didn’t work for her.

“…I can’t believe it, Kaden.”

“Trust me, Judy.”

“I can’t believe it.”

Judy came one step closer to me. The familiar body odor of her, who had been mixing swords at the training ground together for a long time, was wafting out.

She let go of my arms and wrapped around her abs.

“…we are friends…at one time, we were closer than that…”

“…..”

“You’re that close… Kayden, we’ve been… each other’s strength.”

“……”

“In the past, even when you had problems with your younger siblings, didn’t you tell me the reason for the first time?”

“……”

“But if I can’t tell you right now…how am I supposed to accept it? I want to believe in you…. This feeling never erases my doubts. It doesn’t matter if I say I’m a bad bitch who doesn’t believe it… But I don’t want to have this bad feeling. If you won’t tell me why right now, say it clearly. I hate it.”

Anyone could tell that Judy didn’t want to hear anything that she said she didn’t like.

A painful expression that I don’t know if I’m trying to hide it or not. power in both hands. Just looking at her can convey her feelings.

“…Judy.”

“I want to know the truth. Leaving behind the reason behind me is… too much. It means that we can no longer share secrets or worries.”

“Isn’t that-”

“-Aren’t you the one who said, ‘Let’s get together in the family’?”

she spit my words out The words she liked very much.

“Aren’t we… we had a crush on each other?”

It brings out the emotions of only a few days ago. Even though I hide it in front of her now, even I can vividly express that feeling.

“Is it so wrong that I… kissed you…? You…..”

She bit her lip, clasping her elbows with her claws. He lowers his head and hides his expression.

And whispered quietly.

“…you should have been mine…”

“……”

At this point, I… I couldn’t leave her behind. Seeing her nails digging into her flesh, I gently wrapped my hand around the back of her hand.

Judy looks up at me with that hand.

She wasn’t crying, but her nose was red and her eyes were twinkling.

Without realizing it, I put my hand on her cheek. Then, startled by his own actions, he quickly removed his hand and clenched his fist.

“…Judy, the twins say they love me.”

“……”

Judy looked at me for a moment… and asked softly.

“….therefore?”

“….uh?”

“…I don’t know what that has to do with work. It’s absurd that the twins who tormented you actually liked you, but that’s why—”

Seeing Judy take it lightly, I immediately sensed that she had misunderstood. I added an explanation.

“-no. It’s not…”

“……”

“…they see me as a man.”

Judy’s body hardened.

It was then that she seemed to understand clearly what I meant.

The sad expression I had seen earlier disappeared in an instant, leaving only the bewildered and surprised eyes on me.

“Judy… that’s why I didn’t want to talk about it. It’s not that I don’t consider you a friend.”

“……”

“….this..”

I didn’t know what to do with the embarrassing situation I tried to say, but I swallowed it back.

There is no time. I’m not going to hand over my problems to her and worry about it together.

The misunderstanding was cleared up, so now I had to go.

“…so… try to distance yourself from the twins. Even if I’m at the academy now, they’ll keep coming to me. Let your head cool… I also… need a little… some time.”

“……”

“…So, I’m leaving. got it.”

Judy didn’t answer for a while. Again, this was not something that could be easily digested.

So when she calmed down, I watched her for a while.

“…Then I’ll go. Goodbye, Judy.”

Then he turned around.

For a moment, she hugs me from behind.

I felt familiar touches and emotions.

The night I heard that Daisy was going to be my next fiancée, then she hugged me.

Maybe it’s her personality that plays a part. He’s sharp-headed, but he’s soft on the inside and has a lot of fear.

What you can’t do with your face, you can do with your back.

“…I’ll just ask you one thing.”

Even after hearing the shocking story, she asked me for one answer.

“…are you coming back?”

she asks

“….What?”

“Are you coming back?”

“……”

I couldn’t answer. I told Daisy that I was going back, but that was back to her.

It may or may not come back to Judy or the academy. If I don’t solve the twins problem, I won’t get to the academy they must graduate from.

As a commoner in the first place, the academy diploma is not very important to me. Of course, if you want to be Daisy’s companion and carry your head around, it would be nice to have a diploma, but my power will be revealed as a knight anyway.

When I didn’t answer, Judy burst into tears and laughter.

“Ha…Jin…Ja…Ugh…”

“……”

“…Kaden…why is my life so hard…?”

My heart pounded as she vomited her pain. My heart ached as if it was my job.

“… alone in the family… now alone here… huh…”

She didn’t get mad at me like before, or swear at me. Maybe it’s because she understands my situation in her own way.

I felt sorry for Judy, who no longer smoked her stubbornness because she thought of me. She reaffirms her sincerity.

Nevertheless, voicing worries…I wonder if there was nothing I could do to show that I was sick.

With tears on my back, she continues.

“I… didn’t know that leaning on someone would be this easy… I didn’t know that being on my side would be so reassuring… But now… how do I…?”

“……”

He opened his mouth, but no words came out. Because the moment I said it, it would be hypocrisy.

She leaned on me for a while, buried her face in her back, took a deep breath, then released her arms and pushed me away.

– Tuk.

“…Judy?”

Turning around, she wiped her eyes. Unlike before, I straightened my shoulders again. He straightened his body like a knight.

“….go.”

She made the same expression as when we first met.

That hard, sharp expression. It was as if he had decided to stand alone.

“Come on, Kayden. Thank you for that time.”

And seeing that expression, something inside me twisted.

I was so pathetic that I made that expression again. I felt so sorry for Judy who had that expression on her face. Even if the expression was the same as before, the degree to which his heart was opened would be different.

In the end, I couldn’t move.

I approached the woman who pushed me.

Judy’s determination was quickly shattered by my approach. Once again, he collapses with the same sorrowful expression as before. She covered her mouth with the back of her hand, but she couldn’t hide the fact that she was crying.

Wanting to do something about that expression, his hand moved again.

My hand gently touched her cheek, from which I had hurriedly removed it earlier.

Judy wiped away her tears again and took my hand as I touched her cheek.

I promise her.

“…Judy. I can’t make many promises.”

“…uhhhh i decided to go…”

“…but I promise you.”

“…Uhhhh…”

“…I will come back.”

Judy rubbed her cheek against my hand and listened to me.

“…Now…do you believe me?”

she’s slow He nodded slowly.

“….believe.”

She said.

****

Asena and Kirsi were sitting between the tables with a letter.

It was a letter from Grandma, but they focused on one thing.

That Cayden returned to the estate.

Grandma ordered them to cool their heads and reconsider.

Now is not the right time to be together, so let’s think apart.

In the end, Kirsi jumped up from his seat.

“…I can’t…I…I want to go to my brother.”

It was Asena who grabbed Kirsi’s hand, who was turning her body violently.

“…I’m here, Kirsi.”

Asena also didn’t look normal, but compared to Kirsi, she was much calmer.

“Are you okay with this now…?”

Kirsi said in a voice overflowing with frustration.

Although Asena was shaking, she did not lose her focus.

“…as Grandma said…I need time to catch my breath.”

“I can’t breathe right now, what are you talking about!”

“…no… you need time to breathe.”

Kirsi rolls his feet in frustration and asks.

“What are you talking about, huh? Can’t you see that my brother is… leaving us now? What if my brother is not breathing now but is preparing to leave us…? Sister, tell me!”

Asena’s sharp eyes turned to Kirsi.

She speaks with strange certainty.

“My brother hasn’t left us yet. At least… you’ll get a chance to see your face at least once in the estate. So sit down…!”

“How can you be so sure!”

“I saw you last time!”

In the end, Asena could not stand it and raised her voice.

“…..uh?”

“……”

Asena clenched her fists and opened them.

“…I went to my brother while you were hiding in the room crying and blowing.”

At the same time, Asena got up from her seat. Their eyes collided in the air.

But for the first time, Asena began to be pushed. Kirsi’s momentum wasn’t that strong, Asena was collapsing alone.

As if recalling a memory was painful, her eyes trembled.

“My brother looked at me.. he looked at me.. he said he never loved me.. he lied that he hated me..”

It was painful to say those words out of her own mouth, but she said, affirming that it would be a lie. He had to do that, but he said earnestly as if he could breathe.

“……”

“…that…that was unbearable, so I hugged him.”

Kirsi trembled for a moment. When he came to his senses, he was gone, but Asena was uncomfortable not knowing why he held him for the last time.

Asena looked into Kirsi’s eyes and said.

“…don’t look at me like that. You must have hugged your brother too. What’s important is… that’s not what’s important. Kirsi…Oppa…Finally, you’ve given up on pushing me away. You couldn’t push me further… I mean, my brother was shaking.”

Asena looked down at her arms as if recalling Kaden’s trembling body. Asena trembled as she recalled those terrible memories that shook him.

“…I fainted right after…but when I woke up, it was the council room. Kirsi…if my brother really hated me… he wouldn’t have taken me to the council room… right?”

Asena was now asking Kirsey for an answer, rather than telling him about her affairs with Cayden. It seemed that Kirsi wanted to match her words.

That said, Asena did not wait for Kirsi’s reply.

He nods his head alone and draws a conclusion.

“…right. Obviously it is Oppa also loves us… He still loves me… Oppa must be troubled too. I need some time…so don’t go after me.”

Kirsi was frozen for a while, and he spoke coldly.

“…It’s just like your sister.”

“….What?”

“The last memory I had with my brother was… the memory of hugging my brother… When I woke up, I was convinced that my brother had taken care of my sister….

“……”

“I…! I’m different…! The last memory I had with my brother… was that he told me to go out!”

Tears fell from Kirsey’s eyes.

“Is there any guarantee that your brother will be troubled just like you said now? What if you’re just getting ready to leave? I believed my sister and eventually left us… No, what if my brother decided to leave me? If that were the case…the last memory I had with my brother…they turned out to be my brother who told me to quit…!”

Kirsi sat down with a fist on his chest.

“…black! Whoops..! How am I supposed to endure it… I think I’m going to die… How can I wait…”

“……”

Kirsi fell to the floor first.

Asena followed her and knelt down.

Kirsi wipes her tears and says.

“I know…I’m going to…I know what’s right as soon as I hear what you say…I know about that…I know it will take some time…but I’m having a hard time… It’s hard to bear the fact that you might hate me…”

Kirsey nodded and held back her tears. It was quite different from the usual crying in front of Kaden.

Kirsi couldn’t even cry sadly because Kayden wasn’t there. It was hard to cry as he lost a place to rely on the fact that he might have really left.

It was the first time in a long time for Kirsi to cry like this.

The last one must have been like this when my parents left.

Even if Grandma comes, Helen, the maid, and Thein, the butler, come. Even with anyone, I held back tears at a young age.

I don’t know why, but I didn’t want to cry.

But then Kaden appeared, and everything changed. Crying in front of him, laughing in front of him…

And now that he’s gone, he’s about to go back.

Fortunately, he was holding on to the glimmer of hope that he could see him if he returned to the estate.

Asena’s hand went toward Kirsi’s shoulder, crying sadly, and then slowly returned to her place.

She wasn’t strong enough to comfort anyone right now.

To have that kind of strength, I needed an older brother.

Asena stood up from her seat, watching Kirsi quietly.

He felt like he was about to burst into tears.

As Kirsi did, now that Kaden had left, the only place she could cry was in her room.

Asena left Kirsi alone and slowly entered the room.

Kirsi, who she saw just before entering the room, was kneeling on the floor.

He buried his face in his arms and was holding back his tears.

For the first time in her life, Cayden was torn from them.