When You’re Gone

Lu Jinsheng smiles, "I'm not afraid of him."

"But I know you still want to leave." He added.

Liang Shu looked at him with no expression on his face, bit the pass, and stated, "I won't leave, but I can't accept you all at once."

Lu Jinsheng nodded and stretched out her hand to pull her arm, "OK, then go to eat."

About a week later.

Liang Shu has a calendar given to her by the servants in the villa. Every day, she draws a circle on that date.

January 14.

Liang Shu spent 20 days here.

These days, Lu Jinsheng frequently goes out, she always thinks that something may happen.

Maybe Gu Hansheng already knows that she's back?

This morning, Liang Shu stood at the window, watching his car slowly leave the villa, then shuttle through the large birch forest, and finally disappear at the end.

She knew that he would not be back until tomorrow.

Liang Shu went to his room and searched everywhere, but he didn't find the key to his study.

She ran down the stairs in a hurry. As usual, she grabbed a servant and asked, "do you have the key to Mr. Lu's room? He asked me to get something for him

The servant shook his head: "No."

She walked up and down the villa that day, and there was no chance to help her leave or convey information to the outside world.

In the afternoon.

She finished her lunch, walked around downstairs, and then went upstairs.

At this time, Liang Shu usually takes a nap.

But after about ten minutes, the sound of Ping Ping came from above. It was like a war. The servants and the bodyguards ran up.

The sound came from the cool room.

It's like she's smashing things.

The two bodyguards looked at each other for only two seconds. They already had a solution in mind.

When the door was opened, a vase was just thrown out of the room. It was a fresh bouquet. One of the bodyguards was drenched in water. Liang Shu stood in the room and glared at the crowd angrily.

The house was in a mess, and the bodyguards were at a loss when they looked at all this.

Liang shuleng pointed to the door and said, "get out of here!"

They are still standing at the door.

She threw something aside and said harshly, "he just doesn't allow me to go out. Can't he allow me to smash things?"

The two bodyguards looked at each other again, bowed to her body in the room, and then backed out.

The second floor is quiet again.

After everyone left, Liang Shu seemed to be discouraged. She found a clean place on the ground and sat down. She buried her face in her knees and looked tired.

The bodyguard went downstairs and went outside. One of them called Lu Jinsheng, and the other one quickly picked up, "what's wrong with her?"

"Miss Liang is in an abnormal mood today. She has been smashing things in her room since lunch."

That end immerses a moment, square way: "with her happy."

The bodyguard nodded on the phone, "yes."

Sure enough, after a while, the sound of smashing things came from upstairs again, and one of the bodyguards ran up to have a look, and found that she had transferred her position to her usual study.

There are so many ingenious things in the study that she can smash them for a while.

When she smashed Lu Jinsheng's study at the end of the corridor, Liang Shu spent a lot of effort. She looked at the broken lock in front of her, looked at the empty corridor, raised her hand to wipe off the sweat on her forehead, pushed the door in front of her and went in.

The whole world quieted down.

It's been a long time since she felt her heart beat so fast. She grabbed her chest and strode toward the desk.

There was no time to look at the study, and there was no time to hesitate. She picked up the receiver, trembled, and quickly pressed her fingers on the number for more than ten times. Her heart beat like thunder, and her heart almost burst out of her chest.

Finally, he pulled it out, closed his eyes and let the sweat fall from his forehead.

This is still Yucheng. It shouldn't take long for Gu Hansheng to come here. She just needs to delay some more time, or the bodyguard will find that the room has been opened by her.

Everything was very quiet, terrible.

It's only 20 seconds to wait, but for Liang Shu, it seems that every second is as long as a century.

Holding the receiver's fingers until the joints of the bones turn blue and white, Liang Shu's eyelashes vibrate unconsciously. He always feels that time goes very slowly, and every second at the moment seems to be too late.

Finally, the phone got through.

"Who..."

It's Gu Hansheng's voice.

Tears came out of the body before the sound. Liang Shu closed his eyes. His fingers were shaking violently. Just as he was about to speak, the telephone suddenly stopped.

Before she could react, she looked at the receiver in her hand. The door behind her was pushed open. The sound of the door hitting the wall made her shiver.

Her face suddenly turned white and she turned abruptly.

Lu Jinsheng is standing in front of the door. He is wearing a black coat and has a cold face. His eyes are very calm when he looks at her, but no one can see the look inside clearly.

He just came back from the outside, there are wet marks on his coat, there is a layer of white fine water on it, it can be seen that there is no snow outside.

Liang Shu is standing at the desk, and the phone is still in her hand. She looks down at the ground in front of him, which is quiet after the dust has settled.

The next second, the corner of the man's mouth outlined a strong irony. He took his hand out of his pants pocket and threw his mobile phone on the ground in front of her. With a bang, he was scared to cool off, shrugged his shoulders, and at the same time, he was scared to back two steps.

Lu Jinsheng's voice came coldly, "don't you want to make a phone call? Let's fight. "

Liang Shu looked down at the mobile phone half a meter in front of her. Two corners were broken. She seemed to see her next fate through this.

Her whole body seems to be suddenly taken away strength, slowly closed her eyes.

When he opened his eyes again, Lu Jinsheng came to her. He was much higher than her, so there was a very strong sense of oppression at this time.

He lowered his head and looked down at her. His eyes were very touching, but his voice was cold. He said, "ah Shu, you are so disobedient."

Liang Shu looked up at him, his lower lip was bitten out of a row of teeth, "Lu Jinsheng, you kill me."

"I don't want to live, do I?" He went to pull her hand, and lengshu drew his finger back like frightened. His hand was colder than hers.

"Are you tired these days?" He squeezed her hand.

Liang Shu nodded.

He added, "every day I think about how I can find the opportunity to leave. Of course, I'm tired."

Liang Shu squatted down and buried his head. "In fact, I didn't provoke you from the beginning to the end. Why..." she took a deep breath. "It's not my fault to enter the Lu family. It's not my fault for me to help Liang Xiyin pick up the ring, and it's not my fault for Lu Yao..."

She suddenly raised her head and looked up at him. "You've always hated me so much. Once you almost forced me to death. Even if I didn't die, I became a mole ant in Yucheng... You should have hated me all the time. That's right."

"How can hatred be transformed into love?" She closed her eyes and murmured.

Lu Jinsheng squatted down, raised his hand and wiped away the tears on her face with no expression. He said with a smile, "there are so many absurd things in the world. I just want you. Do I have to find a why?"

He said: "where is Gu Hansheng good in the end? Why can't he be a latecomer?"

Liang Shu clenched the palm of his hand, bit his lip, and almost roared to him, "then where can I make you unable to let go? It's just a woman with bad deeds. If you want to get rid of it, you can get rid of it. Why do you want to entangle with her all your life?"

Lu Jinsheng looked at her and said after a while, "well, I just can't put it down."

"What can't be put down? You are far away from me, and time will take everything away..." she said, "you see, you didn't have a good life without me in those five years, didn't you put it down?"

He was smiling, eyes deep, "No."

"For Lu Jinsheng, if he doesn't put down the word" Liangshu ", he will die."

And to die for him, it's just a kind of accomplishment, it's not to put it down.

Liang Shu grabbed two of his hair, and his mentality was close to the edge of collapse. "Lu Jinsheng, let me go."

Lu Jinsheng got up, picked her up from the ground and walked out of the study.

Her room was in a mess. Before he could clean it up, he kicked open the door of his room. He put her on the sofa and looked down at her.

Liang Shu returned to a quiet state, holding his knees and not talking.

After a while, he went out.

Liang Shu sat on the sofa until it was completely dark outside. She didn't quite understand it. It was January, but it never snowed in Yucheng.

There is a layer of white fog on the window glass. As time goes on, they slowly condense into drops, leaving traces on the window.

At a certain moment, there was a faint sound of cycling engine outside. Her eyes flashed. She ran to the window and looked at two cars slowly driving out of the villa.

Behind him came the sound of the door trying to ring, and then Lu Jinsheng came in.

He saw her standing by the window, looking out, his eyes narrowed, and then came to her, "I'll tell you a good news."

Liang Shu looks back at him.

Lu Jinsheng is still holding a bowl of soup in his hand. He puts the bowl on the table, then stands beside her and looks at her. "He knows we're back."

Smell speech, cool ease facial expression is just the same, but the finger that hangs in the body side but slowly clenched.

He went to the small table to sit down, also called her to come, "come to drink soup."

Liang Shu stood in the same place stubbornly.

Lu Jinsheng hooked his lips and leaned back. Under the light, the man's face was a little pale, but his eyes were darker than the night outside. He said, "come here, I won't take you. Now it's just the two of us. I won't cook for you. This is the last meal."

Heart a tight, cool relieve pupil dilate, "what do you want to do?"

Compared with her, Lu Jinsheng seems too relaxed, "have a meal with me, I'll let you go tomorrow."

……

When all the people were gone, the villa became more spacious.

In the living room downstairs, Liang Shu stands at the open kitchen door, watching him wash dishes in an orderly way. His hands, which should have been making great plans in the business world, are now shuttling under the current, with a sense of inexplicable disobedience.

Lu Jinsheng is a little strange tonight. He won't let her wash the dishes, but he won't let her leave, so he let her stand there and watch him.

There was a faint uneasiness in her mind.

Outside, the night was dark and hazy, and there was a white mist on the windows.

When he finished, Liang Shu turned and walked outside. She stood in the living room, staring at the direction of the door.

Lu Jinsheng then followed up. He said to her, "let's go up."

Liang Shu is about to go to her room. As soon as the door is opened, it's still in a mess. She smashed a lot of things in the afternoon and no one cleaned them up.

"Go to my room."

The woman buckled the doorframe, very hard, looking inside.

Lu Jinsheng said, "didn't you smash it yourself? Ah Shu. "

She bit her teeth and followed him to his room.

After she went in, Lu Jinsheng went to the study and gave her some books. He stood at the door and looked at her for a while, then closed the door.

Later, it began to snow outside. The warm light reflected on the windows was very beautiful.

It was very warm in the room. Liang Shu leaned against the sofa and fell asleep unconsciously.

In the middle of the night, Lu Jinsheng came back with moisture on his body, and the snowflakes on his shoulders melted into his clothes.

When he saw the figure on the sofa, Lu Jinsheng's mood suddenly calmed down, and his cold face also faded away.

He took off his coat and hung it to one side. He stood at the door for a while before walking towards her.

The sofa was not wide. She curled up on it and didn't cover anything. Lu Jinsheng bent down and gently hugged her to the bed. The woman in her arms frowned tightly, like a prelude to waking up.

He put her on the bed, leaving only the lamp at the head of the bed, and the light in the room suddenly dimmed a lot.

He just sat by the bed and looked at her with dark eyes and deep eyes.

Later, he also went to bed, next to her side, to tuck her in, the sleeping person suddenly opened his eyes.

About four or five seconds of relaxation time, she suddenly opened the quilt to sit up, and then tried to get out of bed, but she held it back than Lu Jinsheng. During the struggle, Liang Shu lowered her head and bit him on the wrist.

She used up her strength, and she bit a deep tooth mark on his wrist. It was bloody and looked terrible.

His mouth was full of blood. He gasped and licked his lips.

Lu Jinsheng looked down at the tooth mark on his wrist. He hooked his lips and said in a hoarse voice, "if you still have strength, you can bite deeper." he looked at her, "ah Shu, it's not deep enough."

This time, he took the initiative to pass the wound on his wrist and moved his eyelids. It seemed that he was trying to vent his hatred and eliminate his inner fear. He grabbed his hand and bit down the wound just now.

This time, she bit harder than just now, and the blood slowly spilled down his hand and fell on the quilt.

He looked at it, as if he could not feel the pain. He pulled aside the tissue and pressed it.

The wind and snow outside are getting stronger and stronger, whining against the windows.

She wants to get out of bed, but Lu Jinsheng won't let her.

If Liang Shu wants to struggle, he threatens her: "if you listen to me, I won't move you. I just want to sleep with you."

Liang Shu saw that his wound kept bleeding outside. It seemed that he couldn't stop it. Lu Jinsheng also came to this problem. He got out of bed and came over from the medicine box.

"Ah Shu, give me a bandage."

She closed her eyes, hesitated, or climbed over, trembled this finger to open the medicine box, took the gauze out of it, but did not know which one was disinfected.

"The yellow cap." He said.

Liang Shu detoxifies his wound, and his action is not too gentle, but Lu Jinsheng doesn't have any reaction in the whole process, just looks down at him.

Soon, she took the scissors, cut the gauze, wrapped it around his wrist, and then tied a knot, "OK."

Although it's a bit ugly, Lu Jinsheng thinks he can make do with it.

She then wants to get out of bed, but Lu Jinsheng grabs her arm. He pulls her back and presses her into the quilt. Liang Shu's eyes dilate, "Lu Jinsheng!"

He said, "go to sleep."

"I don't sleep. I'm not sleepy."

There are two glasses of water and a bottle of Medicine on the bedside table.

He picked up one of the glasses and handed it to her. "Then have some water."

Liang Shu's fingers clung to the sheets under her body. She had a kind of inexplicable fear of that thing in her heart. She shook her head, "I'm not thirsty."

Lu Jinsheng stared at the red corner of her mouth, his eyes gradually deepened, he said: "don't worry, it's not poisonous, but my blood is poisonous, you drink two mouthfuls to spit out the blood."

Then he went around to her, handed her the cup, and then brought the trash.

Liang Shu took the cup, drank two draughts, and washed the bloody smell in his mouth.

With half the water left in the glass, he said, "drink when you're thirsty."

She was still alert, shaking her head.

Lu Jinsheng did not force her.

He went to bed from the other side. Liang Shu leaned hard to the side next to him. Then he lay down slowly, and the quilt was only a little covered.

She saw Lu Jinsheng open the white medicine bottle and pour some white tablets out of it. Without any hesitation, he put all the tablets into his mouth and swallowed them with another cup of water.

After all this, he turned off the light and lay down.

The room was completely dark, with only a faint light reflected from the windows.

Liang Shu opened her eyes, looked at the ceiling and listened to her heartbeat. After a while, she said quietly, "what are you eating? I don't want to wait. There's a body lying next to me

The man's voice was low, and he seemed to smile: "if so, are you afraid?"

She blinked and said honestly, "I don't know."

She was sleepy, so she didn't know how she would react if she woke up with a corpse.

"It's just sleeping pills. There won't be a corpse lying next to you."

"You take it. Is that really the normal dose?"

"Well," Lu Jinsheng closed his eyes, "it's for me."

He leaned towards her, and then found that she was sleeping too far away. He pulled her hard, but he didn't do anything out of the ordinary. He just grabbed her finger.

Liang Shu almost held her breath and stared at the ceiling, but before long, she found that her eyelids began to fight.

Outside the wind whistling, she side head to see the side of the person, found that he closed his eyes, as if asleep.

And she also gradually can not support, eyelids slowly closed.

In a daze, she even occasionally passes by Lu Jinsheng's delusion that she is going to commit suicide with her. It's very remote here. It's covered by large birch forests, and almost no one will find them.

But this thought only lasted for a short time. She felt that her eyelids were too heavy.

She only remembers that a moment before she fell asleep, Lu Jinsheng's deep voice fell in her ears. It was very close, but she felt very far away. He said, "ah Shu, tomorrow evening, there will be a car to pick you up. They will wait for you at the door."

Lu Jinsheng seems to hold her in her arms, but Liangshu is very difficult. She can't struggle at all.

He called her name again and said, "I'll give you a present tomorrow."

Liang Shu's consciousness falls into darkness completely.

In the dim space, Lu Jinsheng looks at the person in his arms. The radian of his mouth is very light, and his eyes are complex and deep. He slowly closes his eyes, knowing that no one will answer her, he still asks: "ah Shu, is it not so good to wash cold water repeatedly on the island every day?"

"In the past five years, it's true that I didn't put it down. You may not believe it. I hardly get a good night's sleep. I hope it will come true tonight. By the way, the weather forecast says that the weather will only get worse tomorrow evening. I've told the driver to drive well and live seriously after going back. "

……

Liang Shu woke up again. It was still dark outside.

She thought it wasn't daybreak, there was no one around, and there was no temperature in the quilt.

She looked down at herself. There was nothing unusual. Her head was a little dizzy, but she quickly lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

Almost as soon as he reached the door, Lu Jinsheng pushed the door open and came in.

He looked at her. "Are you awake?"

She pursed her lips and said nothing.

Lu Jinsheng is holding her thick coat in her hand. After coming here, she has never gone out. It seems that she is aware of her sight. Lu Jinsheng hands her the clothes and says, "put them on."

"Going out?" She asked.

"Well."

Liang Shu blinked twice, then put it on her. Lu Jinsheng took off the gray scarf around her neck and put it around her neck. He thought it was almost done. He took her arm and took her downstairs.

"Are we leaving Yucheng?" She looked at the back of the man.

But he did not answer.

Liang Shu stares at his back, his eyes are dim, "because of the phone call yesterday?"

Because she wanted to call Gu Hansheng, she angered him and he immediately took her away. No wonder everyone in the villa was dismissed last night.

Liang Shu's brain is buzzing. I don't know if I can delay it.

All the way down the stairs, she lost her mind, almost stepped on a level, fortunately, Lu Jinsheng pulled her, he took her shoulder, looking at her, "what's the matter?"

Liang Shu shook his head.

It's dark outside. Just for a while, how can she feel that the day is not bright, but getting darker and darker.

This is the first time she's been outside since she came back.

It's cold outside. The wind is biting.

Lu Jinsheng touched her forehead and turned back to put the winter hat on her head.

It was dark outside, and the light seemed helpless in the empty darkness.

Liang Shu blinked his eyes and suddenly realized that it was not morning, but evening.

Lu Jinsheng took her all the way to the back of the villa.

Around the back, Liang Shu found that there was a house behind, much smaller than the one she was in, with only two floors and no extra decoration.

At this time, the temperature was very low. Liang Shu's nose was red with cold. The snow had stopped. The ground was wet, and there was a faint smell floating in the air that she could not tell.

Maybe it's too cold outside, so we lose some sense of smell.

It was black all around, and the sky was misty blue. The wind was blowing, and Liang Shu had two chills inadvertently.

Lu Jinsheng turned to see her. Seeing her appearance, he chuckled and said, "it's cold?"

"It's not cold," she said, shaking her head and gritting her teeth

Lu Jinsheng let go of her hand and quietly looked at the house in front of them.

Liang Shu didn't know what he was going to do, but she was very happy to be outside.

After a while, Lu Jinsheng looked at her and said, "what did I say to you last night

Strange to say, she was so sleepy last night that she just went to sleep. She suspected that she had taken the sleeping pills that Lu Jinsheng had taken.

She pursed her lips. After a while, she shook her head again. "I don't remember."

"Well," Lu Jinsheng nodded, walked forward several steps, then turned back, looked at her and said, "I said I would give you a gift."

Liang Shu's pupils were dilated, and her fingers hidden in her sleeves were clenched together. Her doubts were even more enlarged, but she just looked at him and did not speak.

Lu Jinsheng tut tut two, "do not believe?"

She nodded, then said: "I don't believe you can give me any gift, my biggest wish is to leave here."

"I promise to let you go."

The light in her eyes came down, she took a step forward and looked at him, "really?"

"Well, let you go," he said, "but --"

The light in Liang Shu's eyes went out, and she knew it.

Lu Jinsheng put all the emotional changes in her eyes into his eyes, but he didn't show anything else. He said, "ah Shu, show me a fireworks show, and I'll let you go."

"What?" Liang Shu's temple jumps abruptly.

The bottom of man's eyes is black like an abyss, but there is a light, bright like stars, which is very contradictory.

In Liang Shu's puzzled eyes, she saw Lu Jinsheng take some small metal objects out of his outer pocket. At that time, she saw that they were lighters.

Lu Jinsheng burned one, and even in the cold wind, the little flame didn't go out.

Lu Jinsheng looked down at the fire at his fingertips. His eyes were cold and resolute. The light of the fire reflected half of his face, making his facial features more hazy, half dark and half bright.

The next second, without hesitation, he threw the lighter into the building in front of him.

Liang Shu only saw a red parabola flying to the opposite side quickly. When the small fire was about to go out, it suddenly seemed that something had touched it. In only half a second, it immediately ignited the world.

Then Lu Jinsheng threw the second, the third and the fourth

The fire is getting bigger and bigger. In a few minutes, it has wrapped more than half of the outer wall of the building.

The red light reflected on lengshu's face, and she only had the burning house in her eyes.

Some memories of the moment into the mind, she frowned, very stiff to stand in place.

Lu Jinsheng walks towards her. In the dark, behind him is a raging fire. Against the light, Liang Shu can't see the expression on his face clearly. He just thinks that he is tall and dark, like Shura in the dark.

She kept retreating, her heart was surrounded by a kind of fear for no reason. Unlike before, this time it was a kind of fear that went straight into the heart, and easily hit the softest place in her heart.

Liang Shu shook his head, bit his lip and looked at him, "Lu Jinsheng, what are you going to do?" Lu Jinsheng strode over and held her wrist with his fingers. He took her to one side. At this time, Liang Shu was just angry. There were two chairs on one side. He asked her to sit in one of the chairs, and then he sat beside her to cool her heart, as if she would jump out of her chest in the next moment. And not far in front of them, most of the building was wrapped by the fire, which was particularly solemn and stirring in the fog blue night. She sat on the chair, her eyes staring straight in front of her. Her fingers on her knees were clenched together. Her fingernails almost pinched the bleeding mark on her skin. The hole in her heart became bigger and bigger. The fire started and the heat wave came. It was very hot, but she felt terrible cold. Hands and feet are stiff. Lu Jinsheng leaned in her direction. He put his arm on the back of the chair where Liang Shu was sitting. Looking at the burning house opposite him, his mouth had a faint and cruel radian, and the fire reflected by his eyes was always jumping. He turned his head to see Liang Shu. They were so close, but he couldn't seem to understand her, so his eyes lingered on her face inch by inch. He asked her, "ah Shu, is it beautiful?" Liang Shu only felt gloomy and terrible. Her eyelids were trembling and she could not speak. Lu Jinsheng added: "this fire is my gift to you. Do you like it?" In the air, Mars crackles and blows. Up to now, there is a strong pungent smell of gasoline floating in the air. At first, I thought the temperature was extremely low, but now I smell everything as soon as the fire starts. Liang Shu suddenly lowers his head and feels very strange. Lu Jinsheng stares at the fire indifferently. He asks her, "ah Shu, do you remember what day it is today?" Liang Shu said slowly, "January 15."“ Well, on January 15, "Lu Jinsheng took back her finger on the back of her chair. Liang Shu looked over. He was lowering his head and slowly removing the gauze on his wrist. His tone was as light as if he was talking about the weather today." on January 15, five years ago, in that big fire, was it very painful? " She still lowered her head, some eyes did not focus, it seems that the memory of some pain, she did not want to speak. Lu Jinsheng threw the gauze aside, raised his eyes and looked ahead again, "what was the feeling at that time?" Liang Shu closed her eyes. With the sound of Mars exploding, the heat waves rushed towards them. She said, "it's painful and desperate."“ Well, that's good. " He looked at the burning flames and said something that Liang Shu didn't quite understand. At this time, the sky began to float snow, larger than yesterday. Lu Jinsheng looked over and saw that some of them fell on her hat and shoulders, then quickly absorbed people's body temperature and disappeared under her overcoat“ It's cool. " Lu Jinsheng called her back at the same time“ Well She whispered“ You go Liang Shu looked up at him with trembling eyes. Lu Jinsheng looked ahead and said, "don't you go? Maybe I'll regret it right away... "Before she finished speaking, Liang Shu suddenly stood up from her chair. She was a little worried. She almost pulled the chair down. Lu Jinsheng held the chair down and did not look at her. She just looked at the fire. "Let's go," he said again Liang Shu felt that her steps were very stiff, but she still took a hard step forward. Behind her, Lu Jinsheng's voice slowly spread to her ears: "ah Shu, the car is at the door. The road is slippery in the dark. Remember to remind the driver to drive slowly."“ Forget the experience of this period of time, and live hard in the future. I won't disturb you again. I hope you can live freely in the future. "“ Next life, you won't meet me again, you won't meet a Lu Jinsheng again. " Ah Shu, be smart. As long as you live, there is hope, no matter what it is. Liangshu moved forward step by step. Behind her was a sea of red fire. But somehow, her eyes suddenly became moist. The cold snow fell on her eyelashes, making her eyelids tremble. She didn't look back all the way, and her eyes were firm, just like the fearless and magnanimous eyes when she hid in the grass and faced the indifferent him on the new year's Eve when she entered Lu's house at the age of 13. When she was about to disappear at the end of the road, Lu Jinsheng slowly turned around in his chair. In his sight, the slender figure was getting smaller and smaller, and he drew a faint smile from the corner of his mouth. He looked down at the fierce tooth mark on his wrist and closed his eyes slowly. be it so. After that, he didn't want to meet her again. This life, too hard.