When I growup

I also had given him my first kiss outside of siblings.

Of course, I can't let him go, also I had fallen asleep in his arms several times.

I also can't let that be.

Bothersome! Truly bothersome!

"Littlest, tell eldest sister who distressed you; is it that Tu male?"

I shook my head, even though the Tu son had taken the initiative to call her his goddess and promised to serve her in every way, I had never thought of him much as a potential husband.

"Is it that arrogant young master Nia? I have heard he had offered tea. Ah, if so this is troublesome. Per their customs, you have accepted his proposal.."

While the sixth brother Di'ri spoke I felt as if my soul left my body. Nnia is not bad, he reminded me in some ways of my husband, not like the eldest but he held traits anyway.

Still, I cannot believe that when he said that I had accepted his proposal it was a fact.

I--how can this predicament become so dire?

"Wuwuwu, eldest brother save me, now I have two fiancés! Wuwuwu, I am still young!"

Tears really began to fall, the room filled with my gut wrenching sobs.

Ah, I think I am being a bit too dramatic but I can't help it!

This is my life, I don't want to be married off just yet, or even be engaged for that matter!

Do you know how much effort I need to then put in to please them and their parents?

Dinners, shopping, banquets, other trivial gatherings.

I have to do so much a*s kissing I think my lips will become permanently puckered.

Wah!

I don't want!

I'm too lazy to care, I had it planned out too well!

Why?

I can't deal with this!

"littlest, it is OK, you still have six years before your maturity and for now it is simply a verbal agreement until your eighteenth year. After we can announce it on your nineteenth year and hold a banquet unless you wish to break away."

I paused in my crying, lifting my head to stare up at my handsome brother.

" Eldest brother, you are truly the best to sister. Eldest brother I understand, then I will properly discuss it with mother and fathers."

Smiling at him I then extracted myself from his embrace standing to allow my eldest sister to clean my face, the second brother to hand me a glass filled with sparkling water, the third a small snack and fourth leading me to a nearby seat while fifth and sixth brother started chattering about random things to draw my mind away.

Suddenly I felt foolish.

This matter could have been better thought through before I had overreacted.

It is a shame to be so old and acting like a child.

(Author: *flips table* YOU ARE A CHILD!)

Well, I have learned from this and in the future act much more mature, in fact now that I am calm having Li as a first husband and Nia as a second is not bad, both were handsome, generous and were from a ranked family.

Li, of course, is the only recognised child and a legal born son, Nia is also an eldest son but he had a few concubine siblings who were a bit of a bother.

This in extent, might be an issue in the future.

Having him as a same ranked husband but second is best that way when I become established it would not affect me much and can also use those siblings, if they do try to become difficult I can simply use them as cannon fodder.

Sipping the water and taking a bite from the pastry passed by the third brother I then pursed my lips and mumbled softly; "brothers, sister, youngest beg forgiveness for her reaction."

"you are still young, it can be understood. After all, I had been engaged at twenty. With you becoming engaged even verbally, so young, it will be stressful."

Eldest sister said softly, I agreed.

I had time yup!

Alright!

I have calmed my foolish self down, ugh, truly being so young again is truly a bother!

Right at that moment, my stomach began to cramp.

I blinked, holding it, bending over suddenly at the pain which can be compared to being gutted I started to moan.

Sweat gathered around my temple, I thought for a moment that maybe I had been poisoned.

Growing stiff I bit my lower lip and looked up at my seven elder siblings weakly.

"Dear big brothers, big sister, since I am on the verge of death I want to say a few final words: eldest brother, you are the most handsome male I have ever met and is placed on a pedestal to compare to my future husband--ah, mmm, ugh…" I paused and looked at my eldest sister, she was like an angel that had shown mercy to mortals and graced us with her presence." Eldest sister, you are the one I want to be like when I grow up. You are beautiful, so beautiful that angels can't even contest with your beauty. Eldest sister I love you so much that I will be truly sad when I die. Eldest sister I want to hand all of my precious items to you before I die… "

The pain that gripped me this time almost drove me nuts!

What the hell sort of poison is this?!

I really don't wanna die!

I want to continue living!

Wah!

Tears gathered again in my eyes and I thought of my past husband, friends and children.

I thought of how fulfilling my first life had been but how great this life was in the beginning but that I am dying on my fifteenth birthday.

I can't accept this but -

"Ahhhh, brothers and sister I am dying! I don't want to-"

The room was filled with the fresh scent of blood and my lower body clenched to the point I couldn't help but pass out.

I think… I think I know why the fuck I am dying!

I thought before fainting.

How f*cking embarrassing!