When I growup

15 years~

Time flies, OK it was only a few months but it does matter. 

I am nervous, today is my fifteenth birthday and sadly this is the threshold to me becoming closer to an adult. 

In total I should be one hundred and eighteen years old but if I think hard I'm not even sure if I am just one hundred and eighteen years old. 

What if I am older? 

What if my previous life was simply a dream that has yet to be made reality. 

Somehow I felt a shock and even wondered why I would even dare to think about such a thing. 

Why would I even torture myself with such thoughts? 

I really am not sure. 

Either Way I will see, today I only have to look like the beautiful birthday girl. 

Perhaps I will select someone I am interested in. 

"Daughter your curls are truly beautiful."

Mother praised me, I smiled, I am beautiful, one I am her daughter and two it is a fact. 

There is no way I would be stupidly humble and say; 'oh mother I think I look OK, there are many others who are even more beautiful.' 

Heh? 

As if I would say something so stupid. 

Even if I am not the most beautiful, I am still beautiful enough to be in my own class, plus I am 'unique' nothing beats that. 

Among the clean white wall I am that one spot of dirt that will draw your attention making you think I am either an eyesore or something rather interesting. 

Either Way I am awesome. 

I stood and tared at my entire form, the mirror showed a beautiful fifteen year old girl with slightly large but up tilted eyes the colour of silver-blue glowing slightly, her nose was straight slightly slim, lips were full and painted a light pink, her hair which used to be a riot of curls or a straight mass was piled into a high messy bun with a few curls falling around her face, around her neck was a necklace that had been a gift from the eldest brother on her second birthday a multitude of blues, the dropped leaves blended well with the printed dress of mustard yellow and sky blue leaves carefully stitched to the bottom that seemed move as if blown by the wind upon each step I took. 

The dress itself was a combination of all my siblings presenting something that showed a breathtaking girl on the cusp of adulthood. 

I had felt overwhelmed upon receiving such a gift, but had carefully hidden it before it bled over to them. 

The siblings I lacked in my last life, the fighting and despair I had felt during the first fifteen years of my life is nothing like this, I am safe, I am protected and I am loved by true siblings. 

I smiled at mother , freely seeing the unshed tears in her eyes. 

This woman, oh how grateful I am to have a mother like her. 

Brothers and a sister, in this life… whatever they asked, I will never hesitate to fulfill. 

A while later I took the steps, mother besides me, my siblings lined in order of birth down below, the two fathers stood aside eyes only for mother. 

I wanted to smile but had been warned by each of my siblings prior so I simply looked on with a blank face almost the mirror to my twin fathers. 

Scanning my surroundings I saw that the guests were many, for some reason I felt glad that I had most of my treasured items in my courtyard built in a somewhat secluded area and guarded by my beloved pet. 

Thinking of my pet, I hope it gets a meal tonight and almost smiled from such a wonderful thought. 

Below the siblings wished me well one after the other then followed by others I treated simply like passing air. 

Though the male I could not help but focus my gaze on was on the pet which had been taken away. 

Student, Zai Angres, the boy I had saved but was later taken away, a bastard born third child who had back then been abandoned to be sullied by unworthy people and  my first pet but now… I have something even better, a beautiful white crocodile with red eyes, sharp beautiful teeth and all mine. 

What was even more beautiful? 

It can be as small as my index finger or as long as two meters, what I noticed? 

The little thing is still a baby at two meters, so guess what? 

The little thing will be a true monster when it is full grown. 

Ah, I feel utterly special. 

Ah, I believe I am blessed and yup. This one deserves to be blessed! 

Though I have to say, his beauty is almost on par as the two youngest boys, from such a slim, malnourished boy he grew into a medium built tall male, his hair was simply slicked back exposing his high forehead and sharp cheekbones. 

Wearing a grey double breasted suit I could not help but admire him. 

"elder brothers; since you have finally allowed me to see my first pet once again, will he be returning by my side?" 

"My eyes widened looking hopeful, I ignored everyone else and focused on the twin, in fact they owed me for giving me such a defect! 

Was this one not perfect? Male, a beauty, strong and intelligent? 

" Sister, he will be returned at a later date, for now we will select four females and gift you one as a new pet."

I felt disappointed but did not refute, a pet is a pet anyway and as a Jah I needed to have one. 

"Whatever elder brothers say, this sister will obey." 

"En, besides that we have a gift you will love."

My eyes brightened, it felt as if my gift will be quite special, so I made sure to be a bit more obedient tonight. 

The banquet was a boring thing, I had forgotten even in my past life it was boring.