We Defeated the Demon and Disbanded Without Any Conflict

89 – Do you know that you are loved like this_3

Before awakening as a hero, I remember that Rain Guardon, who was short and young, was a shy and timid country girl.

I didn’t even know the official language, let alone the dedicated language, so I communicated with only hand gestures and very short words, and even though I was young, I seemed to have defined her as inferior to myself and boasted of my pride.

We were friendly in our own way. It may be my personal impression, but in her own way, she followed me. They dreamed of adventure together, acted together, and practiced swordsmanship together. While dreaming of an adventurer, ‘I will protect you!’ I think I said something embarrassing like that.

And Lane awakened as a warrior at the young age of 12. I don’t know why. Even Rain wouldn’t have known in the first place.

According to the person himself, it seems that God gave a revelation in a dream. I don’t know the details. Because I didn’t get a revelation.

However, Lane was still a bit timid, and apart from being appointed as a hero, I still felt a sense of superiority that I was several steps ahead of him, and I developed a sense of pride in ‘I’m stronger than a hero’.

Likewise, at the age of 12, Lane obtained the blessing of light and was qualified as a crusader. It would not be strange to say that it was God’s trick. She could have shared at least one of God’s revelations or blessings of light to me who was close to her.

Anyway, at that point, the relationship between Lane and I was reversed.

She realized the awkward common language in an instant and abandoned her timid personality. I couldn’t understand what happened so that it could change so quickly. Only vague memories of feeling sad, thinking that she wouldn’t need my presence now, remained.

At 13, she said she would go on an adventure. He said that he had received a revelation that the demon king was aiming for the continent. Some prophets also said that the very birth of the hero was when great evil fell over the continent. Her future was predicted, and at that point I said I would see her off and train separately.

I still had dreams of being a warrior and a hero, and I believed in myself that I had infinite potential.

When I was 13, Lane asked me to go on an adventure with him.

I couldn’t overcome my greed and agreed. I wanted to make a name for myself quickly and I wanted people to cheer me on. I wanted to surpass her. An insidious hostility had arisen. With the title of ‘the first reliable and strong colleague who became my first colleague’ next to Lane, I dreamed of becoming a greater person than her.

I wanted to punish evil with my own power, and I had a hopeful thought that if we went on an adventure together, I might be able to awaken something.

And at the age of 16, he killed a demon for the first time.

At the time of the demon slaying, my activity was non-existent. All I did was kill a self-conscious person. A sense of helplessness arose along with skepticism. Even so, he smiled and pretended to be okay in front of his colleagues. I mistakenly thought that the desperate peace that I had gained by suppressing everything I felt was an improvement in my condition.

Killed a demon and experienced the first big failure. In conclusion, I was able to recruit a colleague named Lian, but from then on, I developed an obsession for success.

At 17, he recruited Odrox.

I thought that I couldn’t beat Lane with strength, so I moved a little harder. After making him the savior of Odrox’s territory by working hard, he recruited him as an ally.

I was a little self-inspired at this time. I was full of confidence that ‘I can do it if I do it’. I came to know later, but these were things that could have been handled more quickly if Lane had moved, not me.

18 years old, saved Hidin and Pelvern.

It was fortunate that Lian and Rain were familiar with Fell Verne and Hidin, respectively.

She killed the infiltrated demons and spread her name in a chaotic country, blowing the wind of peace.

Her holy sword, which had never been used but was well kept, and which had been brought down with the revelation, was not visible at this point. I didn’t do anything in the process. It was just next to me.

Likewise, at the age of 18, he realized the need for magic in battle and recruited Solar.

Because of his arrogant personality, it was a bit difficult to get close to him. From memory, it seems that Lian was especially difficult to deal with. I had a wish to use magic, so I approached Solar, but I couldn’t even find it.

19 years old, saved Fortress, Promius Empire, and Eormigin.

The damage from the demonic invasion was not great, so the work could be done quickly. Of course, I didn’t do much at this time either. Confidence, which had risen slightly, plummeted. All of my proposals had failed, and I began to roll my body even more with the compulsion to succeed.

I tried my best to assist in my life, but it seems that it did not go unnoticed. Of course, it was all the more sad that I was not acknowledged, let alone acknowledged, because I was doing my best.

At 19, he founded the academy to counter future threats.

It is said that Lane held the overall framework and resolved specific issues by putting their heads together among high-ranking people.

At the age of 20, he established the concept of an adventurer and established the Mage Tower and Adventurer Association.

Borrowed the power of Odrox and Solar. I was of no help.

At the age of 21, he entered the demon realm.

24 years old, killed the Demon King.

At the age of 25, he retired and disbanded after dealing with the remnants.

And now.

We went together for 13 years after becoming a warrior. It was that he had invested more than half of his life in adventure. I watched from the side as Rain raised his reputation in real time and became stronger by leaps and bounds. There is a saying that changes in things that can be seen often are not easily felt. In fact, I couldn’t feel Lane’s growth properly and thought, ‘Do you think you can rub it with this much?’ That’s what I was thinking about for about 5 years.

At one point, I looked to the side and there was no lane. When I noticed it, I was in such a high position that I couldn’t even follow it if I looked up.

Aren’t you not trying? If you ask me, I have nothing to say. It wasn’t because I tried to compete head-to-head by walking the same path as them, but because I repeatedly found a different path.

Isn’t it too greedy to take the combat part? The lane next to me was excellent in many ways, so I kept comparing myself to her. It was quite recently that I realized that I had put the wrong button on from the beginning and that I was too self-qualified.

I felt a gap between the timid Rain of the past and the dignified Rain of the present, so I must have unknowingly considered the former Rain as real and substituted her for a timid personality.

The dream of being a hero became a hero, and the dream of being a hero turned into a reliable ally of the hero. The actions and failures I had with the hope of being a reliable colleague ate my heart, brought about my longing for and obsession with success, and drove me to the precipice.

Either way, it’s just a result of my choices. Regrets won’t change anything.

Should we call it depth psychology? Looking back, I realized the basic premise of why I was so obsessed with success and why I was trying to do something to get their attention, even though I was doing the opposite.

I was afraid of being abandoned. All the other things I wanted gradually faded away. money? honor? Even if there was such a thing, it meant nothing without you guys. I wanted to show a good image by rejecting those things. In the way of creating a ‘detached figure that is not obsessed with wealth and honor’.

The most valuable thing I had was my bond with them. No, it was safe to say that it was practically all I had. I thought that if I showed my colleagues how to break down and fail, they would despise me. I thought he would hate me and throw me away. If I found out that he even harmed himself, the bond with them that I had worked so hard to build would completely collapse. so he ran away But paradoxically, even though I left them first, I wanted them to consider me a colleague again, so I ended up turning around and returning to where Lane was.

I could read their emotions, but not their thoughts. After the reunion, only self-injury, failure, and failure to manage physical condition were seen. It was not strange even if the lack of trust was completely shattered. If the current situation is really a precarious situation on the verge of ending everything, what should I do now?

The moment I reached that point, I opened my eyes.

A wooden ceiling was visible. The lights were off, and it was dark outside.

Due to the nature of Hidin, where adventurers are active day and night, the streets seemed lively even though the sky was black.

A few adventurers’ cries, as if they had lost their comrades, intermingled with the excited chatter of drunken adventurers.

Through the open window, you can see the warm light from the lanterns.

The bandages came off. Did you release it because you were frustrated in your sleep?

Did you take off your top because it was hot? I thought he had a bad sleeping habit, but apparently he didn’t have that when he was sick.

So why are you taking off your pants and wearing only your underwear?

Why does the bed look old-fashioned but the duvet looks luxurious?

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No, why is the bed itself so wide? Is it a 4-person room, not a 1-person room? The bed is too wide…

Why do I feel people on both sides of me? Even with the same blanket covered.

I lightly lifted the duvet.

Silver hair is visible.

covered

I lightly lifted the blanket on the other side.

Golden hair is visible.

covered

A drop of cold sweat runs down your cheek.

uh? no way?

I looked for a place where I could feel the presence of other people and lifted the blanket.

I see red hair.

covered

I lifted the blanket on the other side.

Black hair is visible.

..who are you?

stumbled upon again

jet black hair.

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No one I know has hair like this.

It was so similar to my hair color that I wondered if it was a younger brother I had lost without even knowing it, but no matter how much I tried to remember, I couldn’t remember anything related to my younger brother.

I lifted the duvet a little more to see my face.

Her hair color had faded, but her appearance was still outstanding. Yes, it was Myrsene.

I don’t know why he dyed his hair black all of a sudden, but now there were more important things than that.

What is this? Why are you sleeping in the same bed with four women? Was I more desperate than I thought?

I was sitting in a daze with my sleepiness not completely gone, thinking nonsense, but suddenly I came to my senses and raised my upper body.

My head was pounding and I staggered backwards.

I felt fine when I was sitting, but I wonder if there was still a feeling of cold left.

I grabbed the blanket and lay down. Two women on either side of you? It is not a flower on both hands, but a flower on both hands and legs.

If anyone saw it, it would be a sight that could shed bloody tears out of envy, but I, the person in charge, was about to die.

I’ve seen many precedents of people falling into the abyss after teasing their lower body, and if they were really drunk and violated them, everything would really collapse and sink to the ground.

“Oh, are you awake? How are you feeling? Are you feeling better?”

Lane opened her eyes and got up and asked me. I’m not asking about fatigue caused by energy consumption. If that were the case, I wouldn’t have been able to say such calm words. ..maybe.

I couldn’t be sure what state it was in that my body was tired, and my memories of yesterday were fuzzy, so it wasn’t easy to find an appropriate answer. Even in the midst of that, when I looked into his eyes, my arms and hands were trembling without my knowledge. Lane noticed him and grabbed his arm to stop him from moving.

It wouldn’t matter if it was three people, but he said in a very low voice because he was wearing Myrsene.

“Uh. Are you okay?”

“Yeah, that’s fine.”

“I’m glad. What happened yesterday that 5 people are sleeping in the same bed?”

At my words, Lane blushed as if embarrassed. What is that suspicious reaction…

I remembered that I had been drinking.

Isn’t it a development of a mistake while drunk? no way? I was in a bad physical condition, but I remember that I pushed alcohol and became drunk faster than usual.

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No, if you’re drunk and the mistake is real… Did you deal with 4 people at the same time? And those who are said to be the best on the continent?

“lane.”

“Yes why?”

“The color of the guillotine, which would be better?”

“Huh? What are you talking about all of a sudden?”

With the sound of tossing and turning, the blanket is removed. The remaining three stood up at the same time. Each one has messy hair and half-closed eyes, and it feels like they are still asleep.

“Oh, did you sleep well?”

“Are you awake?”

“Hero, are you feeling better?”

It was so peaceful. Could it be that all four of them were satisfied? Did a good story happen to me about overcoming hatred with a groin that would only appear in an adult book?

I was afraid of my own stupidity.

..And as soon as the drowsiness of the drowsy mind was completely shaken off, such a ridiculous illusion came to an end.