Three Kingdoms

  Chapter 187 Cao Cao's Transformation

  Cao Cao actually envied Fei Qian very much, just like he envied Yuan Shao before.

  Although Cao Cao is reluctant to admit that this kind of psychology is like his own shadow under the sun, no matter how bright the sun is, there are always small areas that are still shadows.

  Ordinary people may think that Cao Cao's starting point is quite high, but he knows that, in fact, he has always been labeled as an **** in the concept of those gentry, and this feeling has been tormenting him.

  Cao Cao sometimes felt an inexplicable sense of loneliness in the middle of the night, as if he was the only one left in the world, and everything and everyone seemed far away from him.

  Cao Cao doesn’t know when this inexplicable loneliness started to appear, maybe it started when he watched his best friend being killed in front of him...

  Cao Cao's real friend is not Yuan Shao, but Song Qi.

  Sometimes Cao Cao would also think about it, if Song Qi hadn’t died, there wouldn’t be any later He Jin, let alone Dong Zhuo...

   One peck and one drink is like God's will.

  When Emperor Han Ling ordered the Song family to be executed, did you ever think that one day the Han Dynasty would come to this point?

In the fourth year of Jianning, Song Qi's younger sister, the Song family, became the queen, so En joined the Song family, and the Song family became the new relatives. Song Qi himself was conferred the title of Marquis of Li Qiang.

  The following year, the first year of Xiping, Song Qi married the Cao family, and married the daughter of Cao Chi, the servant and the captain of Changshui, Peiguo. It was also because of this marriage that Cao Cao met Song Qi.

  The two people are about the same age and status, one is a relative, the other is an eunuch, the eldest is not laughing at the second, and they are married, so after coming and going, they get to know each other and become close friends.

It's a pity that the good times don't last long, the beauty is easy to grow old, and the beauty is late. Five or six years later, the empress of Song's appearance gradually faded and she was no longer favored. The queen's aunt was also afraid of being convicted, so she also offered slander to Emperor Han Ling, and Emperor Han Ling believed it.

   Soon, the status of Empress Song was abolished, and she was thrown into the cold palace. Empress Song died of illness due to grief. The Song family was also implicated, and Song Qi was killed along with his father and brothers, and their bodies were abandoned outside the city.

  Now Cao Cao can’t remember Song Qi’s appearance anymore, but he still remembers Song Qi’s eyes before that time, the helpless and wronged eyes...

  From then on, Cao Cao began to have cracks in the image of the emperor of the Han Dynasty who was originally wise and mighty.

Sometimes Cao Cao would also think that if he was not born in a family of eunuchs, but in a noble family like Yuan Shao, even if he was not as prominent as the Yuan family, but just an ordinary noble family, he would definitely be better than Yuan Shao. better!

  But there is no if in life.

In the first year of Zhongping, Wang Fen, Chen Yi, Xiangkai, Xu You, Zhou Jing and others, the sons of the old Taifu Chen Fan, planned to establish the Marquis of Hefei and abolished Emperor Ling because of the disaster of the party, and found Cao Cao. After thinking about it, I refused.

  From then on, a once passionate young man died, and Cao Cao truly became an adult in hiding and enduring. Although he was somewhat disappointed with the Han Emperor, he still chose to maintain the authority of the Han Emperor as much as possible...

  But now the emperor and the court that Cao Cao served before seem to be on the verge of being destroyed, and it is Yuan Shao, whom he admires, or the Yuan family...

  Cao Cao was defeated again.

  The things he wholeheartedly upheld, the innocence in his heart, and the majesty of the court, all no longer exist.

  The statue of the Han emperor fell from the high altar and was smashed to pieces on the ground.

  But what really broke Cao Cao's heart was Lu Boshe's death.

It is not that Cao Cao has never killed people. He has been on the battlefield, killed the Yellow Turban, administered counties, and killed powerful people. Cao Cao has a clear conscience.

   But everything changed from that night.

  What kind of **** night was that? Cao Cao will never forget Lu Boshe's staring eyes and the complex indescribable emotions before his death...

  Lu Boshe's scalding blood still seems to remain on his hands, and it can never be washed away.

  The big mistake has been made, irreversible, and there is no turning back.

Cao Cao knew that he was no longer an innocent person, and he could no longer say that he was upright, because his hands were stained with the blood of innocent people, and the corpses of innocent people were lying under his feet …

   This makes him sometimes wake up in a dream and find himself sweating profusely...

  Cao Cao is really envious of Fei Qian, at least Fei Qian has the identity of a noble family, and also has a pair of hands that are not stained with the blood of innocent people, and even Fei Qian has a sharper deduction ability than him...

Cao Cao felt that if he wanted to achieve a career in the future, he would definitely recruit people like Fei Qian, but now that he has no power and no territory, it might be a bit unsightly to speak rashly, so Cao Cao has been patient. , Did not talk about this matter with Fei Qian.

  Cao Cao wanted to wait for the election to be completed. If he succeeded, he would naturally be rewarded. At least he would be the governor of a local county. It would be a better reason and time to invite Fei Qian then.

  Recalling what Fei Qian said that day, Cao Cao was still very distressed, because the scene that happened at the time of the oath really chilled him a little. This is a group of so-called elites of the big man with the salary of the big man!

  Fortunately, there is still Bao Xin.

  As long as there are more big men like Bao Xin, there will still be hope!

Although Cao Cao himself had a speculative mentality and brought a group of newly recruited soldiers who had not yet been in battle and had little training, but the others were different. Most of the county guards brought these two soldiers. The county soldiers who suppressed the Yellow Turbans have combat experience. As long as everyone is united, they still have a certain advantage in numbers. Moreover, as long as the Yuan brothers act quickly and send troops in time to cut off Dong Zhuo's retreat to Chang'an, this crusade In Dong Zhuo's battle, the hope of winning is still very high.

So Cao Cao wrote a letter yesterday, asking Kuaima to send it to Yuan Shao urgently. Cao Cao hoped that Yuan Shao could use his status as the leader to dispatch the soldiers and horses in Suanzao, and suggested that Yuan Shao lead the troops to start from Hedong and follow the On the north bank of the Yellow River, it happens that the weather is still cold and it is in the dry season. They can go straight to Tongguan and cut off Dong Zhuo's way back.

  I hope Yuan Shao can receive the letter sooner and take action sooner...

  It's not too early now, I don't know how Bao Xin went to discuss with the two eunuchs Qiao Mao and Yuan Yi?

  While Cao Cao was muttering, he saw Bao Xin frowning and tightly pursing his lips into the big tent from the outside, his heart sank...

Cao Cao actually almost accepted Guan Yu... At that time, Guan Er said that, Mr. Cao, help you attack the city. If the city is broken, the wife of Han Lang will be mine... Cao Cao said: "Oh, na..."... Guan Er worked very hard. The city was broken, and Guan Er was thinking about it, but Cao Cao said: "I was the one who said it at the time!"... Guan Er quit the job...

  (end of this chapter)