The Years of My Youth

It's not easy to love you

I pulled Zhao Qian's hand and headed towards the pond on the lawn.

Actually, the pool lights were very dim, even if there were any fish, they wouldn't be able to see them. However, the pool had one good thing, and that was it was relatively remote.

Zhao Qian rebuked, "I knew you didn't have any good intentions."

You can still talk at a time like this. I pressed my lips to hers. We kissed quickly.

At that time, Zhao Qian gave me a very unrestrained feeling.

After kissing me for a while, Zhao Qian pushed me away and looked around nervously: "Don't let anyone come later."

I ignored her. How could I care so much at this moment? I lifted my hand up with force, and Zhao Qian held onto my hand tightly, not wanting me to move a step further.

Zhao Qian said to me gently, "Xiao-Yong, don't be like this."

"Good Qian Qian, I really like you."

"I know, but I can't." Zhao Qian still grabbed onto my hand tightly, and his tone became a little determined.

"Then what should I do?" I said with an innocent look.

"Hmph, I don't care." Seeing me so anxious, Zhao Qian laughed.

I know that Zhao Qian likes me, and it's good for me. As long as I make up my mind, I think that she won't reject me. Although it's a bit shameful for a man to act so coquettishly towards a woman, I have no other choice but to say, "Alright, CeeCee, just help me once." "Is that alright?"

Zhao Qian was embarrassed by my words, she pouted and said: "Who asked you to be like this, Scoundrel, I'm not going to care about you."

"You don't care about my line of work. How about we go to your house?" "No," I said.

"What are you thinking about?" Zhao Qian looked at me and rebuked.

When I heard him say that, I became a little anxious and hurriedly said, "Hey, didn't you say you wanted me to come to your house last time?"

"I forgot. Oh, yes, if you didn't mention it, I would have forgotten. "In the future, don't even think about coming to my house." At this time, Zhao Qian was obviously taking me down.

I was also worried for a moment and lost my composure. That's great! Why didn't I mention that again?

Thus, I hastily changed the topic and sincerely said, "Sigh, I was wrong. It's all my fault, alright? Darling, you don't care about me, I'm dead. Just help me once, okay? " I know that I can only rely on pestering him. Since he asked, then I must achieve my goal. Isn't there a saying that insistence is victory? At this point, I have to be firm.

Sure enough, when Zhao Qian heard me say that, she first sighed, then looked behind him, and then turned to me and said: "I really can't do anything about you, but, just this one time ah."

When I heard that, I was so excited that I quickly said to her, "Yes, yes, I knew my Sissy was the best." My heart was already blooming with joy.

Don't think that it's wrong, it's just Zhao Qian helping me deal with it.

I straightened my pants, looked at Zhao Qian, and said: "Let's go."

Zhao Qian ignored me and turned around to walk forward.

When I saw her like this, I quickly followed and lightly tugged on her arm. "What's wrong?" I asked.

Zhao Qian only replied: "Nothing." Saying that, she gently pushed my hand away.

I just followed her. I even talked to her without saying a word. She just replied without saying a word. Why does this scene feel familiar to me? It's just a character reversal.

I asked, "Are you angry?"

"Nope." After he finished speaking, Zhao Qian asked me another question. "Are you together with me?

These words really stopped me in my tracks. Actually, what she said was quite true.

I said, "It's all because of love."

"Xiao Yong, do you think we'll be fine forever?" Zhao Qian asked me.

"Why did you suddenly ask this?"

"Nothing."

"Don't think too much into it, am I not good enough for you?" Actually, even I myself wasn't confident in my answer, because Zhao Qian had treated me much better than I did her.

Zhao Qian said: "Can I speak the truth? I have always wanted to tell you these words."

I didn't know what she was going to say, but I heard her ask, "What is it? "Go ahead."

"You're too good-looking. I'm under pressure to be with you. Really, Xiao Yong, I don't know if I was right to chase after you back then. " Zhao Qian said.

"Why did you suddenly say this? Did you remember something?" She made me feel helpless.

"That's what I've been thinking ever since you ignored me that day." Saying that, Zhao Qian looked at me.

"Don't joke around, I'm called handsome." When I heard her say that, I was a little happy.

"I have serious business with you. There are a few of my sisters who like you, as far as I know."

"Then you should still feel proud." I said

"I used to be proud of myself, but." Saying that, Zhao Qian stopped talking.

"Well, what do you mean by that?" I asked.

"I just feel like I'm with you. Sometimes, I feel really tired." Zhao Qian said.

At that time, I didn't know what she meant by that, but I still felt a bit awkward after hearing it.

"Stop thinking so much, okay? I really like you." "No," I said.

Actually, what I said back then was quite sincere.

"Really?" Zhao Qian looked at me with those eyes that were filled with dew.

I didn't answer, but expressed my sincerity by hugging her.

I can only say that girls are sometimes easy to deceive, although I really did not lie to her at the time, but with my sincere attitude at the time, I believe that she would have believed me even if I had lied.

So we held hands again and walked down the road. Zhao Qian looked very happy as she held my hand and kept shaking it. At this time, the sky had already turned somewhat cold. Zhao Qian said that she would fight them and go back.

As we sat in the back of the car, Zhao Qian rested her head on my shoulder. Her hair was very fragrant, and had a faint lemon smell.

I sent Zhao Qian downstairs to her house, where the lights on the fourth floor were still on.

Zhao Qian asked me another question: "Is what you said to me true?"

"I'll say it again." At that time, I used a gaze that I thought I was deeply in love with to look at Zhao Qian and said: "I like you."

Zhao Qian wrapped her arms around my neck. "What I want to hear is, I love you."

Although I can say that I like you without thinking, but "I love you" I looked at the girl in front of me, but for a moment, I couldn't say it.

Just as I was about to speak, Zhao Qian said to me: "No need for that." Then she stood on tiptoe and kissed me on the mouth. She then quickly turned around and entered the building.

I looked at Zhao Qian's back and said, "I love you." It was so low that only I could hear it.

It was a very cold night. I went home and it started to drizzle. Autumn had come.

In the morning, for the first time ever, I woke up early and lit a cigarette in my room. That was the first time I smoked in my room, and I still remember that I hid a cigarette behind the toilet bowl in my home, but my mother found out about it later.

I can only say that since I came to this city, I haven't been studying seriously for a single day. That year, I was still a child in the eyes of my parents.