The paranoid bosses are all my boyfriends

Chapter nine

Su Jingyan felt that his brain was swollen, and his whole body was dizzy. He was like a flat boat floating on the sea, bobbing up and down, and his head was very dizzy.

He was in a state of half asleep and half awake, but strangely, he could even clearly know that he was dreaming.

A deep, long, but very real dream...

This dream is very strange, so strange that from the moment Su Jingyan entered this dream, his brain was stimulated, and he could clearly realize that he was in a dream without the slightest sense of substitution...

And in this dream...

He sees another self.

To be precise, he saw countless himself...

He is like an outsider, observing the daily life of another himself, from the perspective of God.

Of course, these "Su Jingyan" did not appear at the same time.

But when he finishes observing "Su Jingyan No. 1", the dream will automatically bring him to observe "Su Jingyan No. 2", and so on...

Each of them has a face exactly like his, and each of them is named "Su Jingyan".

Su Jingyan was surprised to find that every "Su Jingyan" he observed was living a very similar life to himself. It was like a parallel world, where there were countless "Su Jingyans" who were experiencing similar but different lives. , as an image.

He was almost molested by a man in a windbreaker, met "Lu Yichen" who kindly rescued him, the boy in his class who gave him dark chocolate, and the plastic surgeon who plotted against him...

All "Su Jingyan" have experienced these things.

But he found something strange in these details, because he found that, except for himself, every other "Su Jingyan" had similar stress reactions when encountering these things, and they all made almost the same choice. Yes, they are all words carved out of the same mold.

None of these "Su Jingyan" could become him!

Seeing all this, Su Jingyan couldn't help shaking his head.

When he was watching, he didn't even have the slightest sense of substitution.

Although the development of the story in his reality is very similar to the experience of every "Su Jingyan" in the dream, even the living habits and behaviors of these "Su Jingyan" are similar to himself.

But to be honest, simply judging from the fact that he would never pick up the dark chocolate handed over by a stranger, all the "Su Jingyan" in the dream could not be him.

When he observed each "Su Jingyan", he could feel that these "Su Jingyan" had their own shadows in some aspects.

It's as if these "Su Jingyan" were created based on themselves.

As soon as this bold idea appeared in his mind, Su Jingyan felt a chill in his heart and spine, feeling an indescribably weird feeling.

Even more frightening is...

In these dreams, the ending of each "Su Jingyan" is exactly the same...

It made him shudder, even creepy, while watching it.

"Su Jingyan" in the dream...

At the end of the dream, without exception, they were all killed...

During the process of each "Su Jingyan" being killed, Su Jingyan tried his best to see the face of the person who killed "himself".

But his body, which was still able to observe and move around at will, at this juncture, was like a person whose hands and feet were trapped. No matter how he moved, it was futile.

No matter how much he wanted to struggle, he could only stare aside, watching "Su Jingyan" die one after another before his eyes.

This is a most terrible scene.

Can you endure people with the same face as you dying in front of your eyes over and over again?

Can you be unmoved?

No! cannot!

Su Jingyan's mood next to him was like a roller coaster. At first, he was confused, surprised, dazed, and even frightened, which turned into deeper suffocation and despair.

He didn't know how long he stayed in this dream, and he didn't know which "Su Jingyan" who fell in front of him was the first to die.

He just felt terrible.

Even more ridiculous.

He watched countless times from the side...

He still doesn't know who killed "himself".

Looking at the "tick-tock" Roman clock counting down on the wall, and "Su Jingyan" sitting on the sofa and reading a book while eating a fruit plate, who still has no idea what will happen next.

Su Jingyan's face was numb, and his heart almost collapsed.

Those deer eyes that were supposed to be shining also gradually dimmed because of what happened one after another.

Although deep down in his heart, he firmly believes that these "Su Jingyan" in front of him are not his real self.

But this does not mean that when he saw the "Su Jingyans" being murdered, he was able to remain indifferent throughout the whole process, and even had no fluctuations in his heart.

Because you have to know that even at this moment, what Su Jingyan saw was a passer-by who had nothing to do with him being murdered in front of his eyes, he would still feel that sense of suffocation and despair.

Same for anyone.

Indeed, it is impossible for people to truly empathize with each other, but it is precisely because people are people, they have their own consciousness, their own thoughts, and a brain that can think independently from other creatures, so people can have Only with a compassionate heart can we feel the despair of others and express our deep apologies.

Su Jingyan trembled with anger when he heard the countdown to death coming from the wall.

He is not the Holy Mother, for those who are unforgivably sinful, he will also feel that the other party deserves to die.

But for the "Su Jingyan" in front of him, he knew that this person was just an ordinary person like him, living an ordinary life.

So he couldn't accept the fact that this person was about to be killed at all.

"Da da da." The Roman clock hanging on the wall was still spinning a little bit, making a sound the size of a mosquito, like a call from the depths of hell.

Su Jingyan clenched his teeth subconsciously.

In another two minutes, oh no, maybe only one and a half minutes, someone will knock on the door, and the "Su Jingyan" sitting on the sofa in front of him will put down his fruit plate after hearing the sound, defenseless to open the door.

Before opening the door, every "Su Jingyan" used the cat's eyes to see who the person outside the door was.

But after reading every "Su Jingyan", they still opened the door without hesitation.

And his perspective of God was limited from this moment, Su Jingyan could only judge from the back that the person who knocked on the door was a man.

No matter how he tried to identify the man's facial features and figure, he did indeed see the man's face.

nose, eyes, mouth...

But for some reason, even if he could see these clearly, he couldn't piece together the man's facial features, as if he couldn't image them in his mind, and the man's face was covered by a piece of cloth.

So that Su Jingyan could not get more information.

His brain is still in a trance state.

With a "ding dong", the doorbell of the room also rang.

Su Jingyan's heart skipped a beat and suddenly sank.

That person is here again...

"Su Jingyan" heard the sound of the doorbell, and his eyelashes trembled up and down.

Like every "Su Jingyan" before, he made the same movements, slowly put down the fruit plate in his hand, looked up at the door, then sat up and walked slowly.

"Su Jingyan" looked up at the angle and the movements they made, as if they had been carefully designed by someone, they were all exactly the same.

At this very moment, Su Jingyan finally figured out the reason why in his heart, when he saw the actions of these "Su Jingyan", he felt that he didn't have the slightest sense of substitution...

Because these "Su Jingyan" seem to have no soul!

It's like a walking dead, there is no light in the eyes, the expressions on the face, the angles are as if carefully designed by someone, it looks very hypocritical...

As soon as this idea appeared, Su Jingyan's expression changed immediately, and his mentality also changed accordingly. The look he looked at "Su Jingyan" no longer seemed to be looking at a person, but more of a sense of scrutiny, even the touch just now. Disappear together.

The "Su Jingyan" in front of me...

Is it really human?

Or are these all replicas of yourself?

Su Jingyan continued to observe every move of "Su Jingyan" nervously, watching him make his every move.

At this moment, "Su Jingyan" has already walked to the door. Like every "Su Jingyan" before, this "Su Jingyan" put his eyes on the cat's eye, looked out of the door, and paused for two seconds, revealing that there was nothing at all. A smile that reaches the bottom of the eye.

"Su Jingyan" opened the door suddenly, and seemed to be smiling very flamboyantly, Xiaolu's eyes also bent, and he reached out to touch his hair.

All the little details of the design are exactly the same...

Su Jingyan continued to observe a little nervously, swallowed involuntarily, and stared even harder.

If nothing else happened, from this second onwards, he couldn't see the scene in front of him clearly, and he couldn't even hear the dialogue of the characters clearly.

Just as Su Jingyan was thinking this way, the "Su Jingyan" in front of him used his face to raise a somewhat fake smile, and then called out the name of the visitor, "Lu Yichen!"

Su Jingyan's heart thumped immediately when he heard these two words, and suddenly sank, his eyelashes trembled, and he was dumbfounded, and his body couldn't stop for some reason. She trembled, and her heartbeat accelerated rapidly.

What? What? What?

Lu Yichen? Lu Yichen? !

Su Jingyan's whole body seemed to be stimulated, and he was shocked in place.

The man walked in from the door with a blank expression, his expression was numb, he didn't even have the slightest emotional fluctuation, and his movements were a little stiff like a machine, as if he was here to do a routine task.

The moment he entered the door, like every time before, he took advantage of the opportunity to close the door together.

It was also the moment when the man entered the door, Su Jingyan could see the man's face clearly!

this time...

What he saw was no longer a hazy and illusory facial features, but in a real sense, he could see the man's figure and face clearly.

At this moment, Su Jingyan felt that his breathing was about to stagnate, and he forgot to blink his eyes, as if he had received some great stimulation, his hands and feet felt cold, like falling into an ice cellar.

It was as if the nerves in his brain had been pricked with a needle, causing his whole body to ache.

what happened?

"Lu Yichen" was originally the same as before, but the movement to conjure a knife out of thin air from behind suddenly stopped, and the eyes that were so dull that they couldn't focus slowly began to shine.

The aura of the whole person has undergone a huge change!

Therefore, Su Jingyan was surprised to find that this time, the man did not immediately cut off "Su Jingyan" in front of him as soon as he entered the door as he did the previous few times. Take a look at this room.

"Su Jingyan" also froze in place because he didn't play cards in the usual way this time, as if a machine had malfunctioned, unable to respond accordingly.

Lu Yichen didn't speak, and turned his gaze back to "Su Jingyan", his eyes flickered slightly.

When he saw this face, he felt a sense of astonishing surprise and uncontrollable joy in his heart.

It can be said that he couldn't control himself when he saw this face.

but…

Lu Yichen stared at "Su Jingyan"'s face, frowning tightly, looking at his expression and the upward curve of his mouth, he felt even more strange in his heart.

Something is wrong, something is wrong.

It shouldn't be like this!

Lu Yichen looked at "Su Jingyan" as if he was looking at another person through him, and his eyes also flickered, changing in obscurity, hidden in the eyes were incomprehensible emotions.

What is wrong?

what happened? too weird!

Lu Yichen seemed to have had a dream and suddenly woke up, feeling a sense of repulsion to everything around him, always feeling very unreal.

All of a sudden, his eyes, which were originally scanning the surroundings of the room, suddenly stopped, and then they locked on a certain direction in the room. Without thinking, his pupils shrank suddenly, his eyes were hot and paranoid, as if he saw something.

Su Jingyan's body also paused because of the man's sudden gaze, and his heartbeat stopped suddenly, missing a beat, as if separated from the air, full of affection, with a glance of ten thousand years...

Lu Yichen...

Did you see me?

Su Jingyan blinked.

The man seemed to be certain of something, his expression changed, and he rushed towards Su Jingyan, with a bit of ecstasy and sickness in his eyes.

But before the man's hand really touched Su Jingyan's skin, Su Jingyan felt a powerful force that sucked him in all at once, making him fall into a deeper whirlpool slowly again, and he His brain also began to lose consciousness again, and fainted, as if to lead him into a deeper dream...

And before he fainted, he clearly saw the man's eyes change from ecstasy to deeper despair and unthinking pain.

Su Jingyan suddenly woke up from the bed, gasping for breath, staring, still not recovering.

His eyes instantly met another pair of pupils in the darkness, and Su Jingyan's heart clenched again in fright.

Lu Yichen noticed Su Jingyan's strangeness, and he who was originally standing on the edge of the bed sat down slowly, with some emotion hidden in his eyes, he asked hoarsely, "Are you awake? Did you sleep well?"

Su Jingyan didn't feel that Lu Yichen in front of him was scary, nor did he feel that he was like the demon in his dream.

Even the moment he saw Lu Yichen, he felt an indescribable sadness.

"Yichen." Su Jingyan yelled weakly while lying on the bed.

The man obviously changed his mood slightly when he heard these two words. He bent down and rested his head on Su Jingyan's shoulder, but he didn't let go of all his strength.

"I'm here." The man replied.

"I just had a nightmare." Su Jingyan's eye sockets were still water-stained, and his mood fluctuated slightly.

The man asked patiently, "What dream?"

"I dreamed of myself." Su Jingyan paused, feeling a little dazed, "I dreamed of many, many selves."

When the man heard these words, his fingers clenched into fists involuntarily, and the emotion in his eyes became more gloomy.

"But they are all dead." Su Jingyan continued, and when he said this, his mood became a little depressed.

"But I don't know why." After a pause, Su Jingyan's eyes were full of doubts and thoughts, "I don't think those people in the dream are me. When I see them, I seem to be watching A stranger, I can't describe that feeling."

Lu Yichen's clenched fists loosened because of his words, a gleam flashed in his eyes, and he comforted softly, "It's just a dream. You just need to know that there is only one person in this world. you."

Be it past, present, or future.

I want, and there has always been only one you.

Su Jingyan shook his head, what he cared about was not these, but Lu Yichen in his dream.

He raised his head and looked at the man with complicated emotions, his voice was soft, but his brain was extremely clear, "I also saw you in my dream."

Lu Yichen's expression changed slightly, but he didn't speak.

After Su Jingyan woke up, he finally realized the strangeness of his dream.

He suddenly realized that in his dream, there was nothing but Lu Yichen who appeared at the end of his dream.

When he was observing the "Su Jingyans", the other "Lu Yichens" who appeared also looked very rigid, just as he was watching the "Su Jingyans" in the same mood, only felt that the other party seemed to have no soul , but a walking dead.

And it won't let him have the feeling that when he sees Lu Yichen in front of him, his heart can beat ten thousand times with just one glance...

So the "Lu Yichen" in his dream couldn't possibly be the Lu Yichen in front of him...

Lu Yichen sat back on the bed slowly, and looked at Su Jingyan quietly, his voice sounded ordinary, but it seemed to hide some emotions in it, his voice was hoarse and low, "Just remember, the Lu Yichen in front of you , is the real Lu Yichen, and you are the real Su Jingyan, that's enough!"

Those data that pretend to be you, no matter how much they look like, can't be you.

In heaven and earth, the real Su Jingyan has always been only you.

The real Lu Yichen will only fall in love with the real Su Jingyan.

After the demon woke up, in order to find his true lover, he spent half a year deciphering the mysteries of the world, allowing time to go back and restart again and again.

In the end, the demon who went back countless times finally found himself, his eternal lover.

The author has something to say: This chapter may be a bit convoluted, so I will explain it in the words, I am afraid that everyone will not understand.

Because everyone knows that my full-text setting, Yanyan and Yichen in each world are not the original "Su Jingyan" and "Lu Yichen". This involves the setting of the full-text, and there is no way to elaborate.

That is to say, whether it is the first world, the second world, or the present world, Yanyan and Yichen are all temporarily entered, not that they were the ones at the beginning of the story.

In this world, the time when Yi Chen wakes up is the time when he has doubts about the world after entering the door. Before that, it was not him at all. But the moment he woke up, he found the real Su Jingyan in the room, but at this moment, Su Jingyan also disappeared in front of his eyes.

Only one false data was left, the false "Su Jingyan."

So in order to find the real Su Jingyan, he let the time go back to the past, so that he could go back to the time when he entered the door.

This is why Zhao Hongyang goes back to that point in time every time.

But Lu Yichen tried countless times, went back countless times, and finally did nothing, because he never saw Su Jingyan's shadow again.

Until this time, time went back again, and he waited for the real Su Jingyan.