The Golden Sun of the World of Gender Reversal

Episode 45. East-West couple, two men’s plans (6)

She sat next to me and said she was sorry over and over again. The way she let her tears flow and bowed her head, I could tell she felt a strong sense of guilt.

What should I do?

Should I apologize and put an end to the situation? At this level of shock, would you choose me to escape the influence of the rules of the game?

Or should I parry the apology and keep her heart immersed in guilt and regret longer?

My choice was the latter.

After months of build-up, I think you should make the most of it. He instills as intense an experience as possible in her, and makes her not to look at Kim Dong-hyun even if she doesn’t care.

Think calmly, act swiftly. Fundamentals of plan execution.

I opened my mouth as soon as I finished thinking.

“..Stop crying for now, sister.”

First of all, in a warm tone, as if anger had been released.

“Ugh, yes… Whimper…”

Perhaps she also thought that I had let go of my anger, so she glanced at me.

“..And, please don’t talk to me from now on.”

And then, the very next moment, he announces the end of her relationship to her. Gives a little hope and breaks it right away.

The fact that I followed her to the pavilion and acted like I would listen to her-

It was all done to provide more despair.

Wouldn’t it be more depressing to find out that it is a rotten copper rope after holding on to it and working hard to climb it, rather than looking at the rotten copper rope from the beginning?

Rather than pushing someone down the stairs, putting them in a hot air balloon and then throwing them into the abyss at once gives a much stronger impact.

“Uh…?”

She looks at me with her tears welling up and her eyes wide open. It seems quite surprised.

“Ton, Hyeonu? Did I hear it wrong…?”

“No, you heard me right. Don’t pretend to know me from now on.”

“…..”

“You can’t change clubs… But, don’t talk to me in the boxing club. Don’t talk to me on the bus. Just… As if I were a stranger.”

“Ton, Hyeonu.. Don’t do that… Huh?”

“I… I can’t trust you anymore. Now you look just like the girls who approached me in the past.”

“Hey, don’t say that.. Hey, please.. I’m sorry..”

“I’ll go. Don’t follow me.”

She announced the end with a calm tone filled with emptiness as if she had organized her mind.

I got up slowly and started walking forward.

“Wait a minute! Hyunwoo..!”

-Quadang

Choi Seo-yoon hurries down from the pavilion and grabs the hem of my pants with both hands as she collapses.

His knee seems to hurt quite a bit, but he doesn’t seem to be able to afford to pay attention to the pain right now.

“Ton, Hyeonu.. If it goes like this.. hehehe, what should I do..? Huh?

At last she bursts into a loud cry.

She complained that she was wrong. Begging cried and begged

“..I’ll go.”

She shook her hand and walked forward.

Her back I heard the sound she made from behind her, but she clenched her teeth and didn’t look back.

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Immediately after returning home without being disturbed by anyone, she lay down in her room and went to sleep.

No matter how planned the acting was, it was difficult to be angry with someone and feel that person’s sadness because of it.

I didn’t want to do anything anymore today.

Good job.

[NTL Master] Said in text.

“You too…”

I fell on the mattress without changing my clothes and fell asleep.

**

Hyeonu left.

I got up from the pavilion and left without looking back.

He is no longer in front of me, but his wounded expression and drooping shoulders still vividly haunt me.

I got up and trudged home.

My whole body was losing strength, and my chest felt empty as if there was a hole in it.

I walked without thinking about getting on the bus. The way back was clouded with tears.

As if someone other than me was controlling my body, my body moved on its own.

No external stimuli were transmitted to me.

I could only feel the emotions swirling inside me.

Some nice people who saw my tear marks and red eyes said something, but I heard nothing.

Donghyuni’s shopping bag that he dropped on the ground while chasing Hyeonu, and the thing that he said he would contact me later were not in my head right now.

‘Hyunwoo…’

I was only thinking about Hyeonu.

The only sounds I could hear outside were hum and whirl in my ears, and I opened my eyes but I couldn’t seem to see anything.

I couldn’t distinguish the beautiful green trees that I had captured firmly in my eyes on the way back, nor the blue light of the clear sky without a single cloud.

The flashy and colorful colors of the signboards filling the shopping district have already gone unnoticed.

-Mistress, be careful.

I bumped into another person a couple of times.

I didn’t even know that, I just trudged home.

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When I finally arrive at my room, I see rooms with the lights off. Was this room so empty?

The city of various colors was nowhere to be seen, plain wallpaper and white beds.

I inadvertently abandoned colors and entered the world of achromatic colors.

On the bed was a white blanket, a blue cushion, and a pillow.

I threw off the cumbersome short-sleeved T-shirt I was wearing and put on comfortable clothes.

I sat down on the bed.

When I remembered what had just happened, tears came to my eyes.

I must have turned on the air conditioner when I went, and the bitter cold enveloped me. Chicken meat grows on both arms.

I climbed onto the bed, leaned against the backrest, and buried my head in my knees.

Why the hell did I do that?

“Huh…”

I covered my head with the blanket and covered my knees and head with my arms.

A heavy black light, now even gray, was pressing down on me.

It’s my fault.

Hyeonu was hurt because of my fault, and I left, telling me not to pretend to know him again.

His calm tone at the end pierced my heart. It was as if he had completely closed his heart, the emotionless way of speaking.. It hurt so much.

The past few months of being friends with him and making memories disappeared in an instant.

In an instant, like melting snow in your hand.

My heart was boiling with unbearable despair and disgust for me.

All of this has become another loathsome mass that has been clattering in my chest.

It was as if there was a greasy, disgusting smell coming from me that I couldn’t breathe.

A very faint feeling of vomiting ran down my esophagus, and it was as if I had swallowed rotten intestines.

I… It was difficult to say what to say about the screening, which was covered with self-reproach and bitterness, despair and regret, pain and regret.

Were the past hours just a fleeting dream?

No, maybe this moment is a nightmare.

That, yes… This must be a dream… It must be a dream. There’s no way something like this would have happened in real life.

That can’t be the case.

When I wake up from my dream, I want to cancel my appointment with Donghyun, go see Hyunwoo and tell him about this nightmare.

– Yes? Oh, that can’t be that’s just a dream It’s just a nightmare that will burn away when the sun clears, and when the darkness goes away, it’ll break into pieces and you won’t be able to find any traces.

-Ugh.. Are you still scared? What a woman… Come here.

Wouldn’t it be possible to see him warmly hugging me with consolation?

-Pinch

A tingling pain in my cheek kicked me into the door of a merciless reality.

Well, there’s no way I could feel such vivid emotions in a dream…

“Huh…”

As I realized that what had just happened was now irreversible, the tears that had stopped briefly started to flow again.

I don’t like this kind of trace.

Even though I was heartbroken enough to die, no one could comfort me or help me.

The past few months he has brought me a lot of happiness and excitement. In particular, when I received a massage with his sincerity in the manager’s office, my heart felt like it would explode.

I wondered if I could ever be this happy..

When I was even asked if I remembered the promise back then, I said don’t worry.

However, what Hyeonu got back was a sense of betrayal.

To repay the man who made me happy with betrayal… Is there any other woman as disgusting as I am?

When I thought of Hyeonu’s smile that I might never see again, sadness overtook me.

A blue wetness was added to this heavy darkness, and a dark blue pressure came over me.

“Huh, huh… Huhhhhh…”

I burst into tears because I couldn’t stand the feeling of despair and guilt.

-Kooung, Kung

Realizing that all hope was gone, I punched myself in the chest and mumbled with a pitiful cry.

“Hyunwoo…”

Muttering soon turned into howling. It was a melancholy echo.

“Huh! Hyeonu.. I’m sorry..! I’m sorry.. hhhhh..”

I pulled over the blanket and poured out all my sorrow.

I cried so loud that the sound reached Hyeonu.

I felt like I couldn’t stand it without pouring out the wild heart inside me right now.

He couldn’t hear this, but he begged desperately nonetheless.

While pleading alone, tears flowed down my knees and down my legs, soaking my clothes and blankets.

I shouldn’t have left.

Go out, I’ll tell you.

“My, what have I done…”

If I had a time machine, I would like to go back to when I received a text message from Donghyun, Donghyun Kim.

“Huh…”

The filth and disgust I felt for myself tried to extend to hatred for Kim Dong-hyun, who sent me a text message.

Why did you send such a text? Why did you call me Why should I…

What is so important about Kim Dong-hyun? Even if it’s important, is it more important than Hyunwoo?

I could feel it when he left.

More than anyone in the academy, no.. More than anyone else in the world, the person I valued most was Hyunwoo.

And, when such a person leaves… How empty a person’s heart becomes.

The sound of sobs caught tightly in his throat led to hiccups.

“Heuuu…

I know. Blaming Donghyun Kim is futile.

All choices were made by myself, and this result was also made by me.

While I am shedding vain sighs and tears of self-reproach, Hyeonu’s heart must be dying.

“Ahhhhh.

I couldn’t control my tears as if it wasn’t my body.

Suddenly, I felt disgusted with myself. To the point where I can’t stand it.

More than 5:00 a.M., The remains of dried food on telephone poles built by people steeped in alcohol and decadent tunes.

More than that hideous clump of hair and goo, pulled from a sewer that hadn’t been cleaned for a long time.

More than cockroaches that lay their eggs on the neck of a kettle and live in damp, warm slippers.

I was even more disgusted with myself.

I couldn’t bear the fact that this kind of person was me.

“Ha ha ha…”

The sound of breathing becomes rough.

Suddenly, it dawned on me that I had the spaghetti I ate with Kim Dong-hyun inside me.

‘It’s dirty… I need to get rid of it…’

I headed to the bathroom.

I put my face on the toilet and held the cover with both hands.

– Fondant, Fondant

Tears fall down the toilet.

-Sueuk

As it were, I pushed the thumb and forefinger of my right hand into my mouth, stimulating the soft part that connects the mouth and esophagus, which is the innermost part of the roof of the mouth.

In addition to the unpleasant feeling of shuddering, my body shuddered with goosebumps.

Tears were already shedding, but new tears began to form again.

“Ehh! Uhhh…”

Starting with the feeling that the esophagus is about to come out of the mouth, vomiting rushes from the stomach.

The food clumped in the stomach was regurgitated and forcibly widened the lower part of the esophagus and came up.

The feeling of food pushing up to my stomach, stomach, and throat was terrifyingly vivid.

I didn’t finish it once, I stabbed the inside of my mouth with my finger two more times.

-Walkak!

Finally, the food started pouring out of my mouth. I quickly removed my hand from my mouth, but some residue was on my hand.

The digested food that came out of the body made a loud noise as it fell into the toilet.

“Haa…”

The appearance of the contents in the toilet and the regretful memories combined, couldn’t be so disgusting.

However, the food did not come out all at once.

I pushed my hand back in, and finally I was able to vomit all the residue that was still inside me.

“Ooh, ooh! Whoa… Haa…”

There was a sour taste on the innermost part of the tongue. The inside of the mouth was contaminated with residues of pasta and gastric juices remaining.

The joint connecting the thumb and forefinger to the back of the hand was scratched by the front teeth and was slightly red.

I turned on the sink and washed my mouth and surroundings once, then looked up in the mirror.

“hahahaha… A bastard b*tch…”

My eyes were swollen and bloodshot, and tear marks glistened in the light on my cheeks.

I flushed the toilet and trudged onto the bed.

I was saddened by my appearance, but the fact that the woman from earlier in the day was me washed away that sympathy.

I forgot everything and lay down on the bed with a pillow under my head.

“Ahhhhh”

As if the device that regulates emotions is out of order, tears poured out again.

Until you lose your mind and fall asleep.

**

The vivid sense of victory until Kang Hyeon-woo approached us soon turned into a soggy sense of defeat.

Seoyun noona threw away my shopping bags and ran after Kang Hyeonu.

“Sister, where are you going!”

She called out, holding on to the hem of her dress, but she only answered to let go.

I stretched out my hand, but it didn’t reach her.

The shopping bags that fell on the floor, her arm that had just been held by me and disappeared. I, who was left there, staring blankly at her back.

It was shabby.

She left me and approached Hyeonu Kang. My value was much lower than Hyeonu Kang.

Even when Hyeonu Kang shouted and cursed at her, she refused to let go.

The arm I was holding until just now was now holding Hyeonu Kang’s wrist.

‘f*ck…’

A soggy sense of defeat and displeasure enveloped me. It was like falling into a deep swamp.

Finally, she broke down and began to cry and beg Kang Hyeon-woo.

‘Why…’

Why do I have to work so hard to approach you, and Seoyoon noona approaches you even though you push me away?

How could that be?

What do I lack?

On the one hand, I also thought that I wish they would fight big like this and get away from each other.

At that time, they went out of the department store. I secretly followed them.

Fortunately, because of his small stature, he was able to avoid being caught in the eyes of Hyeonu Kang looking back.

They approached the pavilion behind the department store and started talking.

What do you mean?

I couldn’t get any closer because there was a risk of getting caught.

Hyeonu Kang left soon after.

After a while, her sister Seoyoon also got up from her seat, and I approached her and called her from behind.

“Sister!”

And then, she didn’t look back at me.

“Sister…!”

I went up to her and grabbed her by the wrist.

She didn’t turn her head and walked, looking straight ahead of her. She looked dazed and did not respond to the words of others as if she had lost her mind.

Is it really that shocking that you’ve grown apart from Hyunwoo Kang?

A feeling of anger and jealousy takes over your body. Suddenly, she disappeared from my sight.

Kang Hyeon-woo. Hyunwoo Kang. Hyunwoo Kang.

Wouldn’t we have been living happily without that bastard?

I can’t forgive you.

I want to kill you.

I want to go to him with a knife and sever that disgusting breath.

But… I wonder if I can. Last time I saw it, Kim Jung-woo also won.

No, people have to use their brains. Luckily I know another way.

-Sueuk

Turn on the cell phone.

And, go to the SNS site that academy students often use.

I start writing.

An article full of legitimate criticism and reasonable doubts about Kang Hyeon-woo.

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[The reality of Kang Hyeon-woo in Class 1 of Year 1]

Kang Hyeon-woo, that bastard is garbage.

He plays with women, hurts them, and goes fishing.

He even sells his body outside of school. I saw you go into a motel with a lady the other day.

Dogs are really dirty;;

It’s sad that our academy has such a kid.

=[Comments]=

-Is this real? Do you have proof?

ㄴ{Author}: I couldn’t take a picture. But I saw it myself.

ㄴ Actually… He seemed to be selling himself.

-It’s shocking.. I’ve seen him come and go a few times. A lot of my friends like him…

-ㅅㅅ Did you brazenly attend class after saying that, you bastard? It’s like ;

Why did you like Kang Hyeon-woo? Lol

ㄴI feel like I was taken away by the lady, then?

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The response was enthusiastic.

A lot of comments were posted, and the number of views went up.

I’ve never seen them sell their bodies, but… I’m sure they’ll live like that.

Seeing people’s reactions, I think I did well. Well, this is a good thing. Because you took off that disgusting mask.

I feel like I am an apostle of justice.

Perhaps Seoyoon noona will read this too. Then, wouldn’t it be possible to realize Kang Hyeon-woo’s reality and come to his senses?

After coming to your senses like that, live happily together with me.

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In this way, Donghyun Kim’s writings spread online.

The writing was read in the eyes of many academy students.

Some insulted Kang Hyun-woo, and some were interested in the authenticity of the article.

There were a small number of students who defended Kang Hyeon-woo, and there were also those who were interested and enjoyed the fact that such rumors had arisen in the academy.

However, Choi Seo-yoon could not read the text. Kim Dong-hyun’s writing, which was aimed at Choi Seo-yoon, only entertained other students.

She didn’t use SNS well, and most of all, she didn’t touch her cell phone after the incident with Hyunwoo Kang.

From nob le mt l dot com

Just looking at the message icon on my cell phone reminded me of the text message with Kim Dong-hyun, and naturally, I also thought of Kang Hyun-woo.

She spent her time working on the computer from the time she woke up in the morning until she went to bed. She watches you tube and also watches movies.

Then, whenever he thought of Kang Hyeon-woo, he would cry a lot and push himself through exercise until he could no longer think of him.

No, it was self-abuse rather than exercise. If I didn’t do that, I felt like I was going to die from the feeling of guilt that flooded me whenever I had a chance.

[Seoyun! What are you doing, come and spar!]

Occasionally, members of her boxing club called her to her academy, but she did not respond.

In her house, delivery food containers began to pile up. She was no longer in the mood to eat a well-balanced diet.

Dark shadows began to form under her eyes, and the guns disappeared from her pupils.

She poured out her muddy, sunken eyes, her unpronounced, perhaps screaming sobs.

Ah

Ah ah-