Take It Easy

It's just a love I just discovered, and it will probably pass soon.

After hanging up the phone, Fu Xiao immediately drove to Mu Qinglin's house.

Mu Qinglin leaned against the door, her eyes were filled with alcohol that couldn't be resolved, "What's the matter?" she asked.

"Leave me alone, let me tell you about your situation first." Fu Xiao entered without asking, closed the door behind him, and said, "Can you go by yourself?"

Fu Xiao made a gesture to come to help Mu Qinglin, but she raised her hand to block her back. She pressed her shoulder against the wall, straightened her body and walked towards the living room.

Fu Xiao followed behind, removed the empty wine bottle on the floor, sat next to Mu Qinglin, and asked straight to the point: "Did something happen to you at school today?"

Mu Qinglin pretended not to understand the meaning of Fu Xiao's words, and asked her back with the piece that had already been circulated, "As a top ten journalist, shouldn't you look down on my actions and just call me unprofessional ?”

"You are not this kind of person." Fu Xiao did not hesitate.

Mu Qinglin laughed, shaking the wine glass with his hand on his knee.

After a while, she answered Fu Xiao's question head-on, "Seeing her making herself sick, I'm in a hurry."

Fu Xiao was stunned, "Who?"

Mu Qinglin, "Zhou Yi..."

"The little beauty I saw on your phone?"

"Ok…"

"A very difficult matter?" Fu Xiao asked, under normal circumstances, Mu Qinglin would not easily leave work alone.

Mu Qinglin said, "No..."

"Then why did you stop filming?" Fu Xiao was puzzled, suddenly thought of something, and asked hesitantly, "What's your relationship?"

"You still focus on the key points." Mu Qinglin tilted his head to look at the sky where there was only a little brilliance left, and spoke slowly, "She likes me, and I like her too."

The surprise on Fu Xiao's face flashed, and was quickly replaced by excitement and joy, "When did it start?"

"I don't know..." Mu Qinglin couldn't help laughing as he recalled the sporadic episodes between Zhou Yi and Zhou Yi, "She probably doesn't know, it seems that they got acquainted naturally and got close."

"It's not surprising. It's hard to explain things like feelings."

"Well, at first I simply thought she was funny, but later, I felt more sympathy and pity."

Mu Qinglin peeled off the seeds that had taken root in his heart little by little.

"At that time, I had no scruples at all when getting along with her. When she asked me whether women and women could also have sex, I could turn back and choke her twice.

But maybe it was because she didn't have any scruples that she took big steps. When I suddenly realized that the tip of her tongue touched my hand, I felt that it was going to burn. "

"I hid my hand where she couldn't see it, and talked to her as if nothing had happened."

"I thought it was human nature to be impulsive. I'm 28, and I don't have any resistance to homosexuality. I even did a related project in college. But after drinking, I saw the blood on her neck, and there was a moment in my mind that really I don't want to be human."

"It was at that moment that I was certain of something." Mu Qinglin held the wine glass tightly and said firmly, "I like Zhou Yi."

Fu Xiao nodded, "What about her? It was also confirmed at that time?"

"She is late, but she should get up earlier than me if she has a bad mind." Mu Qinglin smiled with lowered eyes, "I will go to see her after I figure it out. Donkey, don’t admit it.”

Fu Xiao, "How do you describe it? It's the right thing to get her on the road as soon as possible."

"I'm sure, I'm not a entangled person, and I'm not a good person with high morals. I didn't stop Peipei from flirting with Wang Yang when she was thirteen or fourteen. I started teasing her." Mu Qing leaned her head back and leaned on the sofa, "She thought I looked good when I smiled, so I immediately said that I would smile at her often in the future; she liked me to accompany her during the New Year, so I immediately found an excuse to go out with her Every New Year's Eve thereafter;

Go out to play, tie her up, don't let her out of my sight;

Watching the fireworks, put on lipstick on purpose, and called her to stay by my side alone;

Knowing that she had seen something she shouldn't have seen, and had a ghost in her heart, she deliberately gave her water and wiped the corners of her mouth to see her run away as if she had touched the switch. "

Even though the light was not so good at that time, Mu Qinglin could still clearly remember every change in Zhou Yi's expression, including the waves that her unconscious swallowing action caused in her heart.

But Zhou Yi was still struggling, she didn't dare to scare her, so she could only find a way to overcome it by herself.

The ghost knows what mood she is in to listen to the conversation between her and Yang Ling about why her voice is hoarse.

"After my mind was clear, every little action of hers made me feel extremely interesting, and the more interesting I found it, the more I wanted to enlighten her.

So I also learned badly, knowing that she was pretending to be asleep on the way back, but I insisted on ambiguous words, wanting to see her anxiously stick her head out of her horns. "Mu Qinglin said.

"As a result, she didn't respond?" Fu Xiao guessed.

Mu Qinglin shook his head, and said helplessly: "Yes, after arriving at the destination, I stood by the car for a long time, wanting to talk to her, but she didn't even give me a straight look."

"It deserves it..." Fu Xiao complained mercilessly, "At this age, I still learn the roundabout way of young people."

"Yeah, you deserve it. Didn't you run to make an apology in the rain the next morning?"

"If I just sweep the floor and go out, it's interesting to play with people?"

"She didn't kick me out, but..." Mu Qinglin raised her hand and pressed her chest, "Put a small knife in here."

Hearing that Zhou Yi didn't want to send her off, and put all the minor and important matters ahead of her, Mu Qinglin suddenly felt a little unsure whether her judgment of Zhou Yi was accurate, whether her little thoughts were correct or not. Not like it.

She didn't dare to verify it hastily, so she calmly explained everything, then left Hongmen Lane alone, and sat in the car thinking for a long time.

Thinking that Zhou Yi's words might just be because of jealousy of "she's going to meet a woman in the Southwest" or because she hasn't got enough horns, Mu Qinglin suddenly realized that she was so moody on the way to the airport that she almost ran a red light and laughed at herself. Half dead.

Fu Xiao was not among them, so she couldn't appreciate Mu Qinglin's perverted fun, but asked her seriously, "Is this girl stupid?"

Mu Qinglin held back a smile and shook his head, "Very smart."

"Then why did she make herself like this? When you were out of the way, she bumped her head all by herself. When you came in, you turned around and played her around."

Fu Xiao nudged Mu Qinglin's arm with his elbow, and said, "Friendly reminder: "Leave a line in life, so we can meet each other in the future." "

"It's an exaggeration, she only had those two days in my routine." Mu Qinglin said, the smile on her face ended with the fading brilliance, "On the second day in the southwest, I knew the level between us It is a blessing among misfortunes for Zhou Yi that the paper on the window was not pierced."

Fu Xiao hadn't seen such an erratic and distant expression on Mu Qinglin's face for a long time, she swallowed, suppressed the faint anxiety rising in her heart, and said, "Isn't it good that two people are in love with each other?"

Mu Qinglin took out the candy box in his pocket, opened and closed the lid with his thumb, and finally said after repeated several times, "That was before, I even thought that if she came back this time, she would continue to be a turtle , I went to lift her shell myself, and later found out that it couldn’t work.”

"Where can't it work?"

"My status."

Fu Xiao's heart skipped a beat, and she quickly turned to face Mu Qinglin, and asked anxiously, "What happened to you over there?"

Mu Qinglin clenched the candy box tightly, breathing heavily, "I found it, only a small part, and the police notified me to claim it."

Fu Xiao was startled, "No, didn't you say it's impossible?"

"I didn't expect to find it, I thought it was all over."

Mu Qinglin tried her best to suppress the chaotic emotions in her pupils, but Fu Xiao still saw a flash of fear and helplessness, and she shouted: "Mu Qinglin, don't think about it!"

Mu Qinglin suddenly came back to her senses, she was quiet for a few seconds, raised her chin slightly, and brushed the hanging hair back, "Xiao, it won't be so easy this time."

"Yes! I will!" Fu Xiao said firmly.

Mu Qinglin just gave a short laugh, "I felt the same way at first, I thought it was just a disease, and the treatment would be over, and the first time is born and the second time is familiar, the old saying goes, I know everything well Now, what else is there to worry about?"

"Yes, that's the way it is! If you are sick, treat the disease, and cooperate actively, there is nothing you can't overcome!" Fu Xiao said in a hurry.

Mu Qinglin shook his head with a smile, "Chen Chao, the senior brother who majored in permafrost, his senior wife Lu He is an expert in this field, and she helped me last time. When Chen Chao called this time, she Flew there that same day. After seeing it, she told me it wouldn't work for me."

As Mu Qinglin said, he shook the candy box in his hand.

Fu Xiao was surprised, "Is it filled with medicine?"

"Well, common SSRI drugs..." Mu Qinglin pushed open the lid with his thumb, and said calmly: "The first choice for PTSD."

As soon as Fu Xiao heard those four letters, he started to feel chills all over his body.

Two years ago, although she didn't know exactly what happened, she didn't see how Mu Qinglin walked out of the shadow of PTSD step by step. But at the end of the spring when she returned to the news center, she was so thin that only a handful of bones remained.

A few days later, Wang Hejing approached Cui Wenjing and asked him to transfer Mu Qinglin, who was on the rise in his honest career, to "Ping An Jiangping", which was not at the same level. After staying for two years, Fu Xiao almost forgot the reason.

It was suddenly mentioned today, and she finally remembered that this disease that is not considered a disease is more difficult to cure than the real disease that requires a few cuts and stitches.

Fu Xiao panicked, "Drugs are meant to be supplementary. If they don't work, they won't work. You just need to actively cooperate with the psychobehavioral treatment."

"I know..." Mu Qinglin tilted her head back and let out a long breath, "But I resist, no matter what Dr. Lu does, I still can't get into the state she wants, otherwise she won't give it to me easily. I prescribe medicine, and I don't need to..."

"No need for what?" Fu Xiao asked.

Mu Qing pressed the lid on, and his calm eyes fluctuated, "Don't be capricious in front of Zhou Yi."

On the day Mu Zipei sent a WeChat message telling her that Zhou Yi might have someone she likes, she just got a sentence from Lu He, "Yanyan, I know that the things you found are difficult for you to accept, but you can't keep resisting, don't want to If you find a way to control it, you will soon have obvious symptoms on your body.”

She knew what those symptoms were, nothing more than mood swings, moodiness, serious injury or self-harm.

Lu He also used a word - high-risk groups.

Two years ago, when Mu Qinglin met Lu He for the first time, she never used such serious words.

When she heard it two years later, she was suddenly frightened.

He was afraid that Mu Zhenghuai would be more careful when talking to her in the future, and that Mu Zipei, who had regarded her as a role model since childhood, would find out one day, and that Zhou Yi would be disappointed.

But she thought it was better to be disappointed than to be frightened.

So, no matter how much she wanted to hear Zhou Yi—the voice of the girl who had just nestled in her heart to ease her uneasiness, she resisted sending her WeChat messages.

It wasn't until Mu Zipei sent a complaint on WeChat, saying that Zhou Yi had a boy whom he wanted to kiss.

Mu Qinglin admitted that she was anxious at the time, after all, this was the first time she liked someone, subconsciously she would be sour and jealous.

When she calmed down, she said "Normal love can be talked about" and "Yes" broke the girl's heart to pieces.

Later, I was worried that these words would poke her sore spots in her heart, so when she came back, she pretended to appear in front of her as if nothing had happened, listened to her call her sister, saw her reject her and picked her up again, and let her do the problems day and night, and finally Passed the first test.

"I'm quite a hypocrite. Since I know what she's thinking, but I can't respond to her, I should stay away from her, but I just pretend to be worried and watch her busy tossing around alone."

"Finally I couldn't bear to go into the infirmary, and I'm going to kill you."

"What did she do wrong? She was alone from the beginning to the end. No matter how hard she tossed, she was alone. Who saw it?"

"I saw it, but what did I do?"

"She wanted me to rub her face. I knew I shouldn't, but I still couldn't understand her posture of wanting to rub the skin off, so I rubbed it for her;

She was dizzy and couldn't stand up, so she asked me to give her a hand. Not only did I pull her, but I also pushed back all the little determination she had finally built up. "

Mu Qinglin's eyes fell from his eyes, and there was self-mockery in his drunkenness, "Xiao, she is really upright, step by step, she knows very clearly how to separate herself from me. I am so much older than her, I dare not Looking squarely at the past, I'm not sure and I can't even stabilize my attitude towards her, thanks to the fact that her friends were jealous of her meeting me before, are you sure it's not a bad luck for eight lifetimes?"

"Mu Qinglin..." Fu Xiao said helplessly, "You just worry too much, maybe she doesn't care? You can tell her directly and let her decide."

"What are you thinking?" Mu Qing smiled, she put the candy box in her pocket, took a sip of wine, and said, "She still has a lot of things hidden in her body, before she knows how much those things affect her , I don't even dare to refuse clearly, how dare I throw such a big mess at her again? She is only 19, and the days to come will be long."

"how about you?"

"Me?" Mu Qinglin stretched out his hand and grabbed a handful of dust floating in the air, "I'll think of a way to slow down the appearance of those symptoms, and send her to university before it's obvious enough for her to notice."

As before, pretend nothing happened, know nothing, and send her to college safely.

They haven't known each other for a long time, and they have only chatted for a few days to be sure, and they didn't even show their cards. How can there be so much love and affection? At most, when they recalled, there was a little heavy, but who has few regrets in this life thing?

After entering university, Zhou Yi will come into contact with new people and things, and the bits and pieces of the old year will be slowly replaced.

Besides, the place she wanted to take the exam was so far away.

In reality, no matter how deep a relationship is, it can't match the time and distance, and she will forget her in a short time.

And she, the love she just discovered, will probably pass away soon.

—

When Fu Xiao left Mu Qinglin's place and turned back to the news center, Wang Hejing was waiting for her. At this moment, she suddenly remembered the business of going to Mu Qinglin today - persuading her to go back to the news center for Wang Hejing.

"How was the talk?" Wang Hejing asked.

Fu Xiao, "I didn't talk about it, I forgot."

"How can you forget such an important matter? Forget it, I'll go find her myself." Wang Hejing was about to leave after speaking, but was stopped by Fu Xiao, "She is not in a suitable state to go back to the news center."

Wang Hejing turned his head quickly, his face was extremely ugly, "Again?"

"Hmm..." Fu Xiao leaned against the edge of the table, holding the edge of the table tightly with both hands, and asked with a frown, "Old Wang, what exactly did Mu Qinglin experience during the Spring Festival two years ago?"

"This is her private matter. She can tell you as much as she wants. As for the rest..." Wang Hejing was silent for a while, with a low voice, "I can only tell you five words."

"Which five words?"

"Very tolerable."