rush to the sky

"Has it been like this all these years? Always alone?"

Han Qin smiled bitterly, then nodded. "Sister, you should understand that feeling. Some people, if they can't forget it, they can't forget it. What's more, this war has no end in sight. There is no end to it. There is no way to think about it. Sister, why are you here? Where's the captain?"

In Han Qin's consciousness, Shen Yihui was still the captain of the squad protected by his elder brother, and there were many people in the Ninth Brigade.

It's just that she didn't know that so many things had happened in these years, many people from the Ninth Brigade had left, even two captains had changed, and many people had also come.

It's just that the old people have disappeared.

Over the years, Shen Yihui has changed from the team member who jumped out of Feiyang to the team leader, and after the elder brother left, he became the pillar of the entire team.

But now, he is gone too, forever, sleeping in the bottom of the sea.

The world has changed, but in just a few years, who would have thought that so many things would happen later.

"He's gone, in the sea," I said quietly, as if speaking of someone I had nothing to do with.

Han Qin looked up at me, as if surprised by my calmness when I talked about this matter.

Wouldn't it hurt?

Pain, of course it hurts, but when the pain reaches a certain level, beware that the heart is riddled with holes and has experienced too much and endured too much, then speaking of it, it can be calm.

After all, the stage of washing my face with tears all day has passed, those pains have been deeply buried in the deepest part of my heart, and I hide them with an evasive and calm attitude, just like I artificially wrapped them outside A tough protective film.

What's more, I didn't say it, not only my husband, but also my child left.

"Sometimes, I really miss him." Then, I added, I believe Han Qin can understand.

Because, the two of us are truly empathetic.

It's just that when I said this, my eyes were wet, and I didn't know why I was like this.

In the late autumn night, the two of us just sat outside like this, thinking about the person in our hearts, the person who will never be seen again.

Han Qin reached out her hand and held mine tightly.

Today, we have a shared identity, we are all the women behind them.

We didn't cry, we continued to live with difficulty, with a trace of melancholy in our perseverance.

It's not that we are strong, it's that we can only do so.

Poor He Ding has no bones, he is still a man in a girl's dream in spring.

You buried the bones in the mud, I sent the world to the world full of snow.

Once, we were just like what is written in this poem, longing for our lover to come back, we even imagined whether the news was wrong, whether there would be a miracle.

It's just that, now, we have already accepted this reality and continued with our own lives.

Otherwise, what can we do, we can only drift in the torrent of the times, with the ocean of the times, drifting up and down.

I never thought that after Shen Yihui left, the five boys I met at school would meet again one day.

Although, now, only Jiang Yuan and Tan Kai are left.

Shortly after I met Xiao Jiang, I met Tan Kai, and Han Qin who is here, we have a special friendship because of the Ninth Brigade, because of the common people, and because of those who have left .

At that time, the Ninth Brigade was not as withered as it is now. The pilots still thought about when they would win the war. After the war was won, they took off their clothes, stopped fighting like this, and lived an ordinary life.

At that time, I was just a student of Southwest Associated University, traveling thousands of miles from Beiping to Kunming, just to find a place to put my desk.

At that time, the five of them were just childish kids who had just graduated from college, and because of Ah Kuan's death, they threw their pens into the army.

At that time, we didn't know Han Qin. She was in her hometown in Changsha, waiting for her boyfriend to come back. The two got married and looked forward to a happy life in the future.

Unexpectedly, in just a few short years, things have changed.

Those who used to be will never be seen again.

But at that time, I never imagined that in the end, I was the only one left in my life, and I became a loner.

Both Han Qin and I can see that Jiang Yuan and Tan Kai deliberately protect and take care of us. They said that we are the women behind the Ninth Brigade and must take good care of us.

They said that on the battlefield, those two men we loved so much had saved their lives many times.On the battlefield, they are a deadly friendship.

But those two people will never come back, and they will take care of us for those two people.

Perhaps, above the blue sky, this is what the two of them are eager to see.

Jiang Yuan once mentioned inadvertently that when he returned from a mission, he looked at his high-spirited sub-captain. At that time, his sub-captain smiled and said, "When the battle is over, I will retire. Be with her, do what we wanted to do but didn't have time to do, and make up for the days we missed."

However, before the battle was over, he had already left forever.

Just leave me alone.

Tan Kai told me one thing. That night, he couldn't fall asleep anyway, so he went out to smoke a cigarette.At the corner, he saw a lonely figure from the back, and after a closer look, it was his captain, Shen Yihui.