bit of dream

51. "Benevolent" deception...

I said: "Nonsense, if it's good, I should be envious of you!"

Looking at her sitting next to me, all I felt at that moment was happiness, I smiled, and I said:

"Okay, stop talking about these boring children's sentences! What do you want to do if you don't sleep!"

She said, "I want to chat with you!"

I said: "Don't chat with me, I want to sleep!"

She said, "So you think you'll be able to sleep?"

I said, "Okay, okay, I can't sleep, I give in to you, I must strengthen my defenses against people like you in the future, if you catch me, I will definitely be tortured to death by you!"

She said: "Then according to what you say, you are dead! Others, don't worry, I don't have the intention to 'torture' them!"

Afterwards I said: "What's not going to die? It's the Chinese New Year, say something auspicious! Come on, you don't want to sleep, and you don't want me to sleep, so what do you want to do!"

She said, "Let's chat, we haven't seen each other for half a semester, so we shouldn't communicate!"

I said: "Okay, okay, communicate, communicate quickly, talk about what you want to talk about, I'm listening!"

She said: "Okay, let's talk to you about something serious! Tell me, how did you feel at your school during the half term?"

I said, "It feels really good! I'm living a happy life. I have girls chasing and accompanying me, and I like that major so much. I'm very motivated to learn it! It's much easier than studying art!"

She said, "I want the truth!"

I said, "This is the truth!"

She said: "Really? If you really feel so good in this school, and really feel that it is much better than studying art, then believe it or not, I will transfer to your school next semester, and I will transfer to your side to accompany you Cool to go!"

I said: "Don't you, there are many women around me, and I don't need you!"

She said: "What are you bragging about! It's normal to have a girl chasing you, but if you can accept it, then it's not normal, unless you say you're cheating on someone's love! Didn't you see that girl just now!"

I said, "That girl just now? You can do it. Now that I know it, I won't explain anything. I have nothing to say about what happened to that girl just now, but you don't know about my girlfriend at school!"

Longer said: "It's okay, I don't know you yet! I have been with you for a few years in high school, okay, tell the truth, how do you feel during the half term at your school? I want to be honest !"

I looked at her serious eyes, thought for a while and said:

"Okay, I'm not joking with you, be serious! I have been in this school for half a year, and I feel that the life and study of this school are really not suitable for me. The key is that I am not interested in this major at all. Suppose When a person has no feelings for something at all, how can he ask him to learn and learn well! During this half semester, I dare not imagine my daily life, because I don’t know what I am doing every day. What, it seems that I live in a kind of evasion every day, and the things I do every day are always irrelevant to my professional knowledge, which will inevitably make me feel a sense of dishonesty and failure! I also try to After a few classes, in a large classroom with hundreds of people, the teacher talked about his own knowledge in front, and didn’t care about the students below. He slept and played with his mobile phone. I didn’t want my youth to be wasted like this, so I would rather actively skip classes to do something that I am interested in than sitting in class and sleeping to kill time every day! What tuition fees do I have to pay every year, I can’t learn knowledge, and the meaningful things I feel every day are just using my spare time Cultivate your interests. This kind of college life is really painful and contradictory. It’s really better to spend some tuition money to develop your own strengths and hobbies. When you’re young, it’s better to use some money to do something meaningful. It’s better to go out and struggle alone. Down!"

After hearing this, she hugged me and said: "Enen, Lin Lin, I can understand your pain now, but if it is true as you said, you can't explain it to your mother. Since you have chosen this place, try to accept it with your heart. Maybe you will have unexpected gains!"

I said, "I've been trying my best to accept and persevere..."

She said: "Well, people live like this, there is no need to force yourself to do things you don't want to do, because even if you force yourself to accept things that don't interest you, your mind will not be in it. On top of that, it doesn't want your life to be fun, or even meaningful!"

I said: "I know all these things, and I don't want to waste my youth, money, talents, etc., but my mother is on the other side. After all, there is a certain generation gap. If you don’t learn well, what they think is right, but they ignore the collective and don’t understand our generation at all!”

Longer said: "I believe that people's hearts are fleshy! No one can understand someone 100%, which requires us to communicate, calm down, think carefully, and communicate with mother when we really decide what to do, to give Mom affirms, I believe mom will understand you and support you!"

I said, "Well, I will think about it carefully. I hope my mother will give me more understanding and support! I also understand her pain and fatigue alone, and I will give her more comfort!"

Longer said: "Enen, you must be careful with this choice! Don't mix too much of my factors, no matter what you choose, as long as you like it and you think you should choose, I will support you and I will wait for you! Forever! Trust me!"

I laughed, and I said, "Who got involved with you! Why are you waiting for me!"

She smiled at me, and said, "Oh, did I say I was waiting for you? I fell asleep just now, talking in my sleep!"

At this time, I couldn't help holding Long'er in my arms with one hand, and was about to speak, when Long'er said:

"Two hands, hold tight!"

I smiled and said: "This is on the bus, the influence is not good!"

She said: "No, no, I'm cold. If you don't hug me, I'll act like a baby and say you bully me. Then the uncle and aunt next to me will scold you!"

She was about to make that coquettish sound, I immediately hugged her with a smile, and I said:

"Okay, okay, I'm afraid of you, okay, I'll hold you tightly with both hands! That's okay!"

She said, "That's about the same! Well, just say what you want to say!"

I couldn't control my heart anymore, I said: "Stupid, you know that I really love you, then I will only bring you happiness instead of pain, let alone harm you, yes ?"

She raised her head and looked at me who was smiling slightly, and said, "Yes, I believe in you! But why are you saying this all of a sudden!"

I said: "Okay, you believe me! Then I'm going to say it!"

She said, "What are you talking about, hurry up!"

I said: "Stupid, I once said that you are the angel that my father gave me personally. I will never forget the dream on the night of May 2009, 5. You are the angel that my father told me in the dream. I am also the real one." I love you so much, I really want to be with you and give you happiness. I have tried hard before, even thought about giving up my math dream and pursuing art, but in the end all these failed. I have struggled I have been through and uncomfortable, and I have tried to escape, but then I realized that escape is not the way, all I can do is face it, which will inevitably require me to give up many things that I don't want to give up, the most important of which is You, I don't want to give up either, but now I know that I have no ability to give you happiness, so I have to choose to leave you. When a man really loves a woman, when he knows that he has no ability to give this woman happiness, he can only choose to leave and give up this. Only a woman can be worthy of her own sincerity and true love! Since it is true love, I want her to live a happy life, so she should support her to leave herself and pursue her own happiness! Long Er, forgive me for not having the ability and confidence to give it to her. The happiness you want! So you should leave me, pursue the happiness you want, and chase after a man who can give you happiness!"

At this time, Longer raised his head and looked at me solemnly and said: "You can't say that, the happiness I want can only be given by you! The happiness a woman really wants can only be given to her by the person she really loves! Do you understand? ? The happiness I want is very simple, as long as I can be by your side and be with you, that's enough!"

I smiled and said: "Stupid, you are stupid, you are so naive, this is not happiness in reality, you still don't understand, I believe in your love for me, and you also believe in my love for you, then you can To accept my love for you, whether you want it or not!"

She looked at me and said, "Yes, I believe in your love for me, no matter what your love for me is, I am happy to accept it!"

I said: "Okay, then listen, I will tell you now, my love for you at this stage is to let you leave me and go to a man who can give you happiness!"

After hearing this, Longer pursed his mouth and said, "What kind of love is this! Humph, I'm not stupid, I'm not stupid, I'm sober, I won't accept your love! It's not love at all, it's you If you are not confident, remember that I will never choose to leave you, forever and forever, do you understand? Sooner or later, I will take you back to my side!"

I was about to say something when she cut me off and said:

"You don't say anything, I'm so disappointed in that short sentence you just said, you know I will wait for you, my love is only for you! If you really love me and really want to be with me , then the most important thing you should do now is to work hard to increase your abilities and narrow the distance between us! In the future, give the girl you love a happy home and safe support!"

I looked at her affirmative eyes, I raised my head, and she said:

"Don't run away, you have to face what you should face!"

I said: "I will, do your best! In short, you are right to listen to my advice, find a man who can give you happiness, and when I am sure that I have the ability to give you happiness, I will definitely give you happiness. I took it back from her!"

She said: "I forbid you to say that you want me to find a man who can give me happiness!"

After hearing this, I sighed and said:

"You will understand sooner or later! I will make you give up on me!"

Soon arrived at the service area in her hometown, I sent her off the car, I asked.

"What? Didn't you call Dad to pick you up?"

She looked at me a little angrily and said, "No need!"

I smiled and said, "What's the matter? Baby, you're angry!"

She said: "Hmph, don't call me baby, you will hurt me! You are not allowed to say those words in the future! Do you hear me!"

I was about to say something when she interrupted me and said:

"I asked you if you heard?"

I said: "Okay, okay, I heard it! Don't say it, okay, don't be angry!"

Long Er pouted and smiled at me and said:

"It's almost the same, so don't be angry!"

I said, "Ah, it's all over so quickly, so don't worry about it the next time you get angry!"

She said, "How dare you!"

We all laughed afterwards when she said:

"Okay, Linlin, remember what I said, I will be responsible for them! For you, I know this road will be difficult, but I will definitely wait for you! I believe in you! I will always be by your side By your side! Remember that the happiness I want is to live happily by your side, and that's enough!"

I nodded, and I said, "Idiot, I will work hard! Promise me that you will never wrong yourself for me!"

Afterwards she said: "Okay, I got it, the train is about to start, get on the train and get ready to go home!"

Afterwards we hugged and I was on my way home...