bit of dream

25. The "good news" "tempted" me back!

On that night, I had such a complete and happy dream that I can't believe until now, and I will never forget the dream of that night. It was the night of May 2009, 5, and I was just like that. I fell asleep in doubt and happiness, and soon entered a happy dream.

That day was a big day for her to marry a man named "Zhong Dongshan". Many people came to the yard that day, and everyone was busy with the marriage. But she ran out, looking for someone anxiously in the yard full of people downstairs. There was a pile of firewood on the side behind the gate of the yard. Redness, swollen, hoarse voice and other extremely embarrassing images collapsed on the pile of firewood, and there was unfinished wine next to her. After she searched for a while, she found me in the firewood. I was holding the wine The bottle was lying on the chaotic firewood, and I just woke up from the wine. My eyes were red and swollen, and my hair was very disheveled. After she passed by, she saw me smiling, and she said to me happily: "I knew you I will definitely come..." Seeing her coming, I forced myself to stand up, put my hands in my pockets, and lowered my head, I dare not look at her, because I didn't get her, I failed, I Painful, after listening to her words, I tilted my head and smiled painfully, and said in a hoarse and extremely weak voice: "Yes, I am here, I am here, but what is the use of my coming? Now you go to worship heaven and earth, after worshiping heaven and earth you will enter the bridal chamber, after entering the bridal chamber you are his, and what about me? What is the use of me coming?” I lowered my head in pain and cried, But after hearing this, her expression and face suddenly became very serious and serious. Her eyes were unblinking and she looked at me motionless, but I still lowered my head. She was very anxious, very serious and slightly angry. Said to me: "No, I don't allow you to say that!" I turned my head and just saw her eyes, full of a kind of trust, determination and at the same time mixed with a hint of disappointment, she said: "Don't you love me? Okay, if you love me, then prove it to them, go, go find Dad..." Before I could speak or react, I was held by her and went upstairs along the slanted stairs. There were many people in the room, and she Pulling me to her father, her father was sitting in front of a corner of a large square table with one hand on the table. When we got there, she said, "Dad, don't you want your daughter to be happy? Then you want me to be happy." Being with him, because only he is the daughter's happiness (at this time she turned her head and looked at me with a smile)..." Then she pulled my clothes with her hands and pulled me to the place where my father was in front, and my father turned slightly She turned her head, saw my red and swollen eyes that couldn’t be opened, looked at my dirty body, then glanced at me from head to toe and said to her: “No, he is too poor, he won’t let you Happy..." After hearing this, I immediately said to my father very anxiously, seriously, and firmly: "Dad, I know that I am not as rich as him (Zhong Dongshan), but if you are willing to give Longer to me, In the future life, even if I go to beg for food and pick up trash, I will definitely not suffer a little bit for Long Er, and I will definitely give her the happiness she wants... Believe me! Afterwards, she looked at me, took my hand and turned around, and said to Dad (turning back to look at me while talking): "Dad, with his words, my daughter can feel relieved, even if it is hard to follow him No matter how tired you are, my daughter will recognize it, so you can help us too..." Dad lowered his head helplessly and said nothing... After that, she took my hand, turned around and took me to Zhong Dongshan, and turned around She asked, "Where is Zhong Dongshan? "I don't know who said: "here" and then we passed, and when we got to Zhong Dongshan, she took my hand and said to Zhong Dongshan: "Zhong Dongshan, I think you love me and want me to be happy, yes ?If yes, then let me be with him. I can only be happy if I am with him. Today was originally a happy day for me and you to get married, so let’s make today’s marriage a divorce before we get married. Let’s…” After that, we suddenly came to a beach with flowers and grass outside, we walked hand in hand, and you ran to the front from time to time and danced and sang, and I smiled and looked at you from behind, chasing you , very happy, I still remember that in the end I was laughing and playing with her behind a clump of flowers, she was naughty to me in my arms, and our two heads were in one heart... At this moment, I suddenly A person came to my father's grave, and my father suddenly became very small and very cute. He stood on the edge of the tombstone in front of the grave, shaking his hands and head, and sang "Angel's Wings" to me with a smile. ", and it was playing background music, I only saw my father smiling at me and singing with his mouth open, (and my father's body kept shaking, like this), the last line of the lyrics is: If life until Here, there will be no me from now on, I will find an angel to love you for me... After singing this sentence, I watched my father stand up solemnly and walked towards me in front. After singing, I have too much I asked my dad, why did you sing this song for me? Dad, who is that angel you found for me? At this time, I imagined and said unconsciously, it was her, it was Longer? I remembered I lost her, and I asked my father, is it really her? After that, my father shook his body and said with a smile: "Yes, it's Longer, it's her, it's her, it's her... cherish, cherish..." In this way, my father gradually It became smaller and smaller, as if it was going away, until it disappeared, but my father kept looking at me with that smile, and said: It's her, it's her... Cherish... At this time I woke up, and I called out softly Saying Dad's name, I raised my body, and when I woke up, I found that the corners of my eyes were moist.

This is the dream of that night, this is the complete plot of the dream, I woke up in the morning and remembered the dream of last night, it felt like a myth, I slapped myself, I felt pain, I was not dreaming, I did have such a complete dream last night, and I remember it clearly, my father told me that she is the angel my father gave me!At that moment, I didn't know what I felt, was it happy or excited?But I think there are still more doubts, right?My heart feels too mysterious, too mysterious!Is this really Dad hinting at me?Why do I have such a dream?Is she really the angel my father gave me?Have you really fallen in love with her?Thinking of all the "special" bits and pieces of real dreams in the past... It is these dreams that make me feel that our encounter is destined by heaven, it is a wonderful myth!I am getting more and more confused, but my heart seems to gradually confirm that she is the one I love the most in my life. When I think of her at this moment, I have a strange feeling in my heart. There are happiness, joy, worry, Scared, I remembered this dream, the dream on the night of May 2009, 5..."

After I got up, I finished washing, went to the dining room to have breakfast, and went to the classroom. I met her in the morning, she smiled at me and I left. I remembered the dream last night, maybe because I felt the mystery of this dream Well, I ran up to her and asked her.

"Did you dream last night?"

At this time, she gave me the feeling that she had a guilty conscience and was avoiding me. She barely moved the corner of her mouth and smiled, saying:

"What? What are you talking about?"

Then she slipped away immediately, I could clearly feel that something was on her mind!Why did she avoid facing this question when she heard it? Could it be that she also dreamed about it?I didn't force her to ask her. In the next few days, there seems to be a layer of film between us, and it is no longer as natural as before... Maybe this dream is not just my own dream, but a gift from my father. And her dream, maybe this dream will become the beginning of happiness between us...

I will always remember this dream, the dream on the night of May 2009, 5...

In this way, after a few days, the school will have a big week again, and we will go home on vacation. I will go home on the school bus. This is the first time I go home after my father left. What to do when I get home, I can only listen. I don’t know whether I am envious or jealous. In short, I feel very uncomfortable and want to cry. I am going home soon. Many students started calling their parents at home. What I heard was They had warm and happy conversations with their parents on the phone, and they told their father where to pick them up... Hearing their conversations and seeing their smiling faces, I was really envious at that moment, when we arrived at the place where we got off the bus in the county town, The yard and both sides of the road were full of parents. Parents were looking for their children with their eyes. They had excited and happy smiles on their faces. After finding their parents, all the students brought their luggage and talked with their parents. Going home with a smile, I sat in my seat and looked at them in a daze. I admitted that I was full of envy and felt extremely uncomfortable...

I knew in my heart that my mother would not be able to pick me up again. I smiled wryly, shook my head, and walked on the road alone with a heavy bag on my back. When I reached the corner of the road, a very good buddy of mine His father came to pick him up in a car, and I heard their father and son talking behind him when they met. His father said:

"Son, Dad is here to pick you up, I miss you so much!"

As for what to say later, I really can’t remember. I’m not in the mood to listen any more. At this time, tears have filled my eyes. I have to hold back the tears. Called uncle, his father said:

"Bolin, get in the car, there is still some distance from home, I will drive you back..."

Yes, there is still a distance from home. I carried a lot of luggage by myself. It was very heavy and really tiring, but I didn’t want to bring them a sense of sadness because of my family affairs at the happy moment of their father and son’s reunion. , I understand that the feeling of happiness that cannot be expressed but held in my heart is painful. I told myself not to let my pain hinder the joy of others...

So I forced a smile and said: "Thank you uncle, no need, I can go back by myself, you go first..."

My uncle and my buddies understood the pain in my heart, and my uncle said helplessly:

"Then you have to slow down! Call us if you need anything!"

I said: "Don't worry, uncle, you guys go, I'm fine..."

Afterwards, they closed the car door and left. I was the only one left on the road, dragging my luggage and walking alone. Only I knew the pain in my heart. I couldn’t express it in words. I told myself, don’t expect anyone I pity myself, I want to live out my integrity, my father is gone, and I have to live out my splendor alone, not to let my father down in the sky, so I shook my head, took a breath, picked up my luggage and slowly I was walking on the road, and after walking for a certain distance, I found two women on the side of the road ahead, they looked like mother and daughter, and it was the daughter who supported the mother, and they walked step by step with difficulty. As we walked, we walked a little further towards each other, and the distance between us got closer. Gradually, the two figures became clear...