bit of dream

11. The dead teacher separated us, it's uncomfortable!

I fell asleep after thinking about it for a while.In this way, a few more days passed. During these few days, we never lost contact. She asked me several math problems, and she did what she said. Every night, she would put her English Show me the notebook, and I will remember it carefully. She will also check my English recitation on time. She is satisfied with what I have mastered every time. With her help, my English score has indeed improved significantly. , Even the teacher praised me several times!

We have been living happily like this... In the fourth self-study class in the afternoon, this class is our own self-study class. There is no teacher in class. We all study quietly in the classroom. At this time, Li Rui waited for a few A classmate was talking there, I don’t know what they were talking about, but I was very happy to see them, and they kept smiling. Suddenly I heard the word "Longer", and I kept looking at them sideways. Long Er took a few glances, no need to think about it, it would definitely not be a good thing, otherwise they wouldn't be laughing like that, I began to feel irritable, and at the same time mixed with a trace of helplessness, I don't know why I suddenly thought about a question, I should be serious I really want to reprimand them aloud, or continue to study regardless of my own affairs, but now I can't study at all, and I feel very confused.I told myself: Don't do stupid things, she and I are just friends, nothing else matters, why worry about her and classmates?I also felt that there was no need for that, anyway, they were not talking about me, so I pretended not to care, and said nothing, but I knew that I was just holding back, and they talked more and more vigorously, and they said something, and their voices became louder, That guy laughed, and Longer probably heard it too. She pushed off the bench and stood up angrily, walked in front of him, and said to him sternly:

"Li Rui, shut up, why are you talking about me? Don't go too far..."

Li Rui made a frightened gesture, covered his head with his arm and said:

"I see..."

After that, she went back angrily. Many students in the class laughed when they saw a girl so fierce. They all said:

"Holy girl, it's amazing"

At that moment, my heart suddenly felt very uncomfortable and painful, and I kept asking myself what was wrong?What's wrong?I told myself, we are just classmates!Don't be sentimental!At this time, I almost stood up and questioned whether they had quality, but I wanted to assume that what I stood up to face was the whole class. After I said those words, where would I put my face? The relationship between us is in the eyes of others What kind of change will happen again, she will talk about something behind others, this is what she hates the most, after thinking about it, I finally endured it, she returned to her seat, and I immediately wrote her a note .

"Long Er is not angry that Lin Lin made you laugh"

But after the note was given to him, she didn't answer the note. Finally, the bell rang for the end of get out of class. Most of the classmates went to eat in the afternoon, but she didn't go to eat. After I saw it, I didn't go to eat. I went to her Beside me, I smiled at her, dealt with it casually, and asked her.

"What's the matter? Why don't you go to eat?"

She said: "Not hungry, not in the mood..."

I asked: "What's wrong? What happened in class? I watched the whole class and didn't figure out what was going on, so I didn't stand up..."

She said: "No big deal, I just hate others talking about myself..."

Then she asked me to hurry to dinner, and I said:

"It's okay, I won't be hungry if I don't eat a meal, and it happens that I'm not hungry tonight, so I won't eat. I'll stay and chat with you, okay?"

She nodded: "Alright then, Lin Lin, you are so kind!"

After we chatted for a while, she forgot her troubles after a while, and we chatted happily. Through the chat, I understood that male classmates talking about her really annoyed her, so... I told her not to care too much about other people's opinions, We have to live for ourselves, don't let others control our mood, go our own way, let others say it, no matter what others say, at least she will always be so pure and lovely in my heart!After some persuasion from me, she finally figured it out and started to be happy. We started laughing and chatting. After a while, the students gradually came back from eating. In order not to misunderstand the students, I was going back to my place. Finally she said thank you to me!We looked at each other and smiled, and then I went back to my seat.

In the evening self-study, she wrote me a note: "Lin Lin, thank you for your enlightenment, I have figured it out, it is really good to have you by my side! You must remember to find me when you need someone, you That's right, we don't need to care too much about other people's language, we encourage each other, struggle together to realize our dreams, and never give up!"

After I finished reading the note, I put it away, turned around and saw her looking at me, we smiled at each other, I pointed at the textbook and made a movement, telling her to study quickly, and then we lowered our heads and studied seriously, Soon the evening self-study was over, and we all went back to the dormitory to sleep.

After returning to the dormitory and cleaning up, we went to our respective beds. On the bed, the roommates were all talking about what happened to Long Er in class today, saying that Long Er was too fierce, that she was pretending to be pure, and in short, they said something that was not very good. If it sounds good, I just laughed casually and dealt with it. They asked me why I didn’t talk about it. Then I thought of a reason and said that I had a headache tonight, so I went to bed first. I really don’t know why. When I heard others talking about her, I felt so uncomfortable. Could it be that I really fell in love with her?I dare not admit it, I told myself that emotional matters are not small things, I still don’t understand many things now, we are just good friends who help each other, but think about the dreams I had in those nights, what happened since we met her Bit by bit, I really began to doubt my heart!Maybe I'm really just deceiving myself!I began to warn myself more than once, I must control the distance between me and Longer, and more importantly, I must not let this matter affect my study!But at night, when I was alone in bed and had nothing to do, I always unconsciously thought of the little things I had with her. At this moment, I unconsciously remembered what she talked to me during the day, and thought about the note she wrote to me. , Yes, no matter what others say, we don’t need to care too much, as long as we keep that tacit understanding in our hearts, encourage each other, and work hard together to realize our dreams!We don't live for others, why care too much what others say, do what we want!Even though I understand this, even though I try my best to tell myself not to care about what other people think, I think about what happened during the day, when Li Rui scolded her and most of the students in the class were laughing and I was angry, and when she felt anxious. , Think about the impulse to stand up and train the whole class for her, think about it... I asked myself, what happened?Thinking about all the previous signs, I am a little puzzled, why do I care about her so much, why every time I am with her, I am always so happy and happy, why her words always give me confidence and courage?Why does she give me a sense of intimacy and dependence that no one else has ever given me... What will others think of us?I was suffering and confused, there were too many reasons, I doubted myself more and more, I told myself not to dream, I didn't want to admit that I fell in love with her... just like this, in this little pain, I soon fell asleep , Maybe I thought about it too much, I had another dream that night.

In the dream: she was naughty to me in front of me, made a very cute gesture, clasped her hands together, put her behind her back, pouted her buttocks, walked around in front of me with a cute smile, one fast and one slow Yes, she actually asked me a question: "Lin Lin, do you like me?" I blushed after hearing this, I lowered my head, faltering and didn't know what to say, I said hesitantly: "I... I...I..." When she saw me like that, she waved her hands helplessly and turned around and said, "It seems that I don't like it anymore, so next time when people talk about me again, don't worry about me, don't worry about me I won’t come to you if I’m in trouble…” When I heard this, I didn’t even think about it, and I hurriedly said to her with an impulse: “No! No! No! I will...I will feel heartbroken! She laughed after hearing this, and she said: "Hee hee, it's revealed! Do you like me?" I said: "I like you, and I like you very much!" She said: "That's right Well, why don't you tell me if you like me?" Then she said: "When you are sure that you start to worry about a girl and start to feel sad for a girl, you can be sure that you like her. As long as you like her, Her mood, life and everything about her, good or bad, will start to affect your mood..."

I can’t remember the dreams in the future. In short, we are very happy and happy together. The night is always so short. In the hazy sleepiness, we ushered in the arrival of tomorrow, and we are also in this happy dream. Zhong opened his eyes, the first reaction after waking up was definitely a dream I had last night, I asked myself could this be real?Why would she ask me such a question in the dream?I don't understand why I always have dreams related to her. I turned on my mobile phone and checked the Internet. Another answer on the Internet said that when you have too much expectation or possession of a thing or a person in your heart, you will often To dream about them... what?Looking too much forward to owning?I was startled, I am really getting more and more confused and entangled, I look forward to having her?I asked myself, did I look forward to it?I told myself that the answers given by netizens on Baidu may not be correct, but I still have too many whys in my heart?But I have to lie to this explanation, I smiled and said to myself, I don't want this to be true!No, no, this is absolutely impossible to be true, my roommate was puzzled and asked me.

"Boleyn, what's the matter with you? What are you talking about?"

I said, "Oh, it's okay!"

Roommate: "Did you dream about a MM in the class last night? Be honest!"

I smiled and said: "Are you kidding me? I don't do those boring things, stop making trouble."

After that, I quickly got dressed and got up. After getting up, I quickly finished washing myself. I went to have breakfast with my roommates. After that, we quickly went to the classroom for morning self-study. When I arrived in the classroom, my eyes were still unconscious Scanning to her position, she has already come to the classroom to study early, at this time she also saw me, and she showed me her lovely and bright smile. When I saw this smile, I first thought of the dream of last night, I don't know why, but I suddenly wanted to avoid her, so I forced a smile and hurried past. In class, we still asked each other or encouraged each other if we had questions that we didn't understand, but I seemed a little unfree.In this way we spent another few days in this unnaturalness.

Another morning, I came to the classroom to study after eating breakfast early, but after a while, she didn't come. I looked at the clock, and she should have arrived early at this time on weekdays!I'm a little curious!Soon the bell for self-study in the morning rang, but she still didn’t come. I started to feel anxious, and my eyes and heart were not consciously focused on reading. At this time, I took the initiative to write a note to ask her roommate:

"Why didn't Longer come to class today?"

Soon her roommate replied to me, and her roommate said:

"She has something to do when she goes home today, and she was picked up by her father early this morning..."

I wonder?It's not a holiday yet, why did she come home suddenly?Are you sick?I started to think about it... I immediately asked her roommate again.

"She's fine here, why did she go home? Is she sick?"

Her roommate said, "No!"