Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Father Sisen and the file certainly do not believe that I have the power to destroy this world, as can be seen from his expression, and this is also true in the judgment of the brain and hardware. However, even Father Sisen could not maintain the calm expressions he had before in such a conversation. How much of these changes in expressions were disguised, what real thoughts in the hearts of the two people would judge my words, I have no way of knowing it. The only thing I can be sure of is that even if I do n’t believe what I say, my words and attitudes really prevent them from calming down.

The power of language is derived from the extreme test of the human heart. The words I created out of some contradictory instinct, in the thinking of the intentional people, will also create the power of contradictions-they are difficult to judge my words Really, who can interpret the idea of ​​a "mental patient" with normal thinking? Yes, I am a "mental patient", whether in psychological theory, or in common sense, or even the unique thinking of those who walk in the mysterious world, not only in the so-called "reality", or The present self.

I know very well that my own spirit is collapsing with the collapse of world outlook, life outlook and moral outlook, and these models of thinking cannot be maintained and repaired by brain hardware. Mental patients know that they have problems with their mental health, but they are at a loss, which is not unique in clinical psychological cases. I don't know how long I can persist, but I have given up on maintaining the "normal" mask, even for a short time before I die. In a narrow world, I have decided to go on my own way.

I don't think my state will interfere with the execution of the plan. Because, I am a mental patient, but it does not mean that I am an idiot, right? A warrior whose mental state is abnormal, but who has not lost wisdom and reason, will be more powerful than himself in the past desperate to maintain a "normal" posture.

People in front of me cannot understand my changes, and this is justifiable. Because this change is so obvious, but the time of occurrence is so short. Before such a change really happens to me, I can hardly believe that although there are no shortage of precedents in clinical psychological cases, I must now admit that even if it happened within a minute. Will completely reverse a person's psychology. Even so, I still do n’t know whether, in all similar cases of sudden psychological and psychological changes, whether my changes are a special case, because, whether it is from instinct. Or the understanding of the native brain, and the inference of the brain hardware, let me begin to understand that this mutation of mental state is not just "knowing something that should not be known. Excessive impact", its changes The depth can even be traced back to the root of the disease of the Doomsday Syndrome-the youth's illusion of Gaochuan and the activity of "Jiang". It must have caused a profound change in the real body, which caused a dramatic impact on the Gaochuan personality of "I" and reflected in the mapping in the illusion of doomsday. And the influence of this change even made me instinctively feel the threat of near death.

I cannot change this fact. I have never even been to "reality", and no one has told me how to get rid of this threat. Inheriting the information from the previous Gao Chuan, I have long imagined that my personality consciousness is just a transition product to achieve the plan, and I also decided to undertake this possible result. I do feel contradictory, but I do not exclude or resist this possibility because I am also Gao Chuan.

Because of contradictions, I did a lot of unnecessary things and produced some hesitant thoughts. I was a product of contradiction since I was born. I have no real past, nor have I experienced too many things in person. Strictly speaking, I do n’t even have friends and lovers in the true sense. All I have is the memory information and resources of the past Gaochuans accumulated in my body. Do I have to think of them as my own? In a certain perspective, this approach is established, but, in a comprehensive perspective, this is not complete.

Nowadays, I feel more and more imminent that I have to think about it. In fact, I am not satisfied with this kind of self. I feel that I am incomplete, so I want to complete myself and let myself take a complete attitude. Leave your mark in a corner.

It's just that the changes in the situation are always worse than I thought. I never thought that my "transitionality" would be highlighted in the way it is now-I even think that even the super-leading plan The color tie and Super Dorothy are not prepared, even though they may have considered the possibility of this development.

Now, I have no time to make up for myself. No, it should be said that the idea of ​​"everything will naturally get better with the passage of time" was wrong. The key to the error is that, in order to maintain my "normal", I tried to digest everything left by the Gaochuan people in the past-but the things left by Gaochuan, although purified to a certain extent, but However, these seemingly pure information things are not completely clean. How could the Gaochuans in the past use their imprints in their lives to be removed so easily?

Even if they are all "Gaochuan", the essence of personality consciousness may be the same, but there is something that wraps around the essence that allows each "Gaochuan" to be distinguished. The information I received, however, could not have only essential things, because that kind of thing, every Gaochuan has, there is no fundamental difference between each other.

Therefore, those "Gaochuan" things still belong to themselves and represent themselves.

Therefore, the more I try to digest, devour, and turn their things into their own things, not only will they not become complete, but they are gradually losing the element of "self". Now, my "self" is like a patchwork monster with patches all over my body. Maybe this kind of "self" full of impurities and tatters has caused my mental state to be unstable all the time. The culprit who was easily defeated at the boundary.

Limited by various factors, I was born here in a deformed state. And, there is no alertness. Without any warning, it grows in a deformed way.

Now, I have no time to regret, I am dying. Death is not terrible. For any Gaochuan, the death of personality consciousness is nothing to be afraid of. but. I don't want to die in such a deformed and ugly way, even if I die only as an "incomplete mentally disordered Gaochuan", if this is what I am, then I accept it, I am willing to bear it . Even though it looks incomplete, it is really what belongs to me.

Countless thoughts are running in the mind, and the suppressed emotions make the operation of the brain hardware dull. I held Sakuya's hand, maybe I was afraid. She will accept and leave, although, I also understand that she can never imagine how the "Gaochuan" she has faced has changed. I must not leave my side because of the difference between me and the past. However, in the sea of ​​emotions suppressed by brain hardware. Feelings like "fear" must be boiling. Because sensibility is never something that "understand", "know" and "understand" can control.

The brain hardware controls the prosthetic body very well, so that it is not affected by emotion at all. Therefore, in theory, it is impossible for Sakuya to feel my state at this time from contact with me. However, when she reversed and grabbed my hand, for whatever reason, it might not be what I thought, but it still made me feel calm and calm, and the operation of the brain hardware gradually became lighter. stand up.

The conversation between me and Father Sissen made the air in the room a bit depressed. Neither Father Sisen nor File thought I was in a state suitable for negotiation, but I felt that it was so good, maybe it made them feel uncomfortable and made them think I was crazy. It's really good. Now I, let me feel my reality. This real sense of existence is so heavy, like a green, but at least not rotten fruit.

This reality makes me very sober, knowing what I am talking about and how my words and actions will affect the surroundings, even if it is difficult for others to accept, but for me, it is the best state.

"Tell me, Father Sissen, what will our whisperers get for participating in your plan?" I asked again, as if in an unequal environment, persecuting enemies whose status had fallen sharply due to unacceptable conditions.

Father Xi Sen and the file looked at each other, revealing a kind of reluctance from a small movement, and then this kind of reluctance made a bitter smile on his face. He said: "I understand, Mr. Gao Chuan. So difficult to communicate with, are you intentional? I remember when we first met, you suddenly gave me a few punches, and now, the place where I was hit started to hurt again. "

"Really?" As soon as the file heard the news, the dignity and strangeness on his face suddenly disappeared, and he asked me with a sharp eyes, "How many punches have you really punched him?" Swung a few times, "Like this?"

The words of Father Sisen and the file gradually warmed up the atmosphere. It can be said that they are trying to get rid of the impact of my abnormal mental state, but they can also think that they thought that my previous performance was intentional, a means of competing for negotiation dominance, and, admitted that they were Gaffe and fall behind, and try to regain the dominance in his own way.

The retinal screen observes the details of everyone in the room, and with the sensibility of the atmosphere from the native brain, the brain hardware constantly interprets the subtle changes in the conversation and the meaning behind these changes.

The file ’s behavior and small movements made her seem to have some private transactions with Father Sissen, and she did not try to cover up this, just like telling me that she still followed my decision, but, when negotiating , Will be on the side of Father Sissen-whether for private reasons or the secret orders of the mercenary organization, she seems to have been persuaded.

The file was naturally frightened by my previous words, but, like Father Sissen, she also had her own interpretation. The results of this interpretation, as well as the results of private exchanges with Father Sissen, do not seem to undermine cooperation with our whisperers.

A lot of information is flowing in the retina screen. I feel that this present is incomplete, mentally abnormal, but a real enough self, but it seems to be able to see through their souls-maybe an illusion, but. This is indeed a wonderful feeling that has never been seen before.

"Technology in Area 51, I think you will like it." Father Sisen suddenly stopped his self-deprecating tone. Turning into a serious attitude, he said to me: "This is a mystery that is close to maturity, and it is also a breakthrough result achieved by the 51st district's research on the mystery in half a century."

Father Sissen ’s remarks also made me interested. Before I asked, Father Sissen grabbed the remote control on the coffee table and quickly pressed dozens of composite keys towards the screen embedded in the wall. Advertisements and publicity programs on the screen suddenly lost their signal, and the rustling voice and snowflake white lasted for about three seconds. During this period, Father Sisen quickly spoke a series of words to the screen, but that was a language I didn't understand at all. I looked at the file, and she shook her head, not clear.

There is a mechanism to authenticate Father Sissen's voice and language or commands through the screen. When the image on the screen is presented again, it is a series of dynamic images full of high-tech mystery. However, both the file and I recognized it. The style of these images has a strong shadow of the terminal interface of the ruling bureau.

When the authentication is over, a clear monitoring image is displayed on the screen. To record what happened after we entered the valley woodland, of course, only a few important clips were intercepted. Of course, we had expected this monitored situation long ago, so. When more practical proofs appear in front of you, there will be no intense emotions. Even before it was unclear. The owner of this temporary data hedging space is a behemoth such as the 51st area, but the rudimentary appearance of this temporary data hedging space is full of artificial traces, precisely because it makes us feel that someone left something in this place , Or even doing something, so, in order to gain a little bit before escaping Las Vegas, we will come in, shall we?

These video clips are based on our process of handling the ugly man at the gas station, the survivors ’activities before we arrived, and the series of survivors’ deaths and alienations that occurred after we met with them, and that strange Dark and smoky face monsters focus. As we speculated at the time, this looks crude, but at this time it has proved to be only a part of the temporary data hedge space, which is a huge experimental greenhouse and is used to observe the use of various experimental results. And the so-called breakthrough achievement in the mouth of Father Sissen is the face made of black smoke-except for the special kerosene lamp, the darkness can not be illuminated, or the illusion due to darkness, both times The key environmental factor and by-product lies in the smoky face, but the facial gesture is not the true appearance of this achievement, and this achievement was experimentally applied to the ugly man at the gas station and several survivors. Body, which led to the death of Eddie, the abnormality of Old Ham and Ekna.

However, although not all the survivors were infected by the "achievement", but the infected people are not the default. The drop-out and death of Eddie, Old Ham, Little Ham and Ekna are not artificial. Manipulate the results of infection. For different human bodies, "results" will produce several different changes, so the morbidity manifested in each person is different.

However, most of the "results" will become that smoky face after they are matured in the infected person-that is not something bred by a single infected person, but a complex, a large number of infected people The "granules" bred out constitute the black smoke-like presence. The strange light time that has not changed for a long time, and the dark time that cannot be illuminated, are the best environment currently researched and suitable for "outcome" activities and cultivation. As for the source of illusion in the dark ~ www.wuxiaspot.com ~ This is also the "result".

"District 51 calls it Troy." Father Sissen said: "Although its use as a weapon is not mature enough, whether it is cultivation or after-treatment, it is a bit troublesome, but its characteristics are very suitable for changing the scope and Strategic environmental situation. It looks like a biochemical virus, but it is actually a mystery, the particles that make up this face ... "He paused here and said seriously:" In fact, it is not a physical existence, nor can it be Observe its size and shape using current technological means. In simple terms, it is more like an illusion that can only be recognized by the naked eye. "

"I can be sure that it actually exists." I said so.

"Yes, I can also be sure, because it will indeed be affected by physicality, although the general physical methods cannot cause fundamental damage to it." Father Sissen nodded and said, "Of course, you must also see The environment in which it exists and activities is a bit harsh. If it is not in this environment of temporary data hedging space, it is difficult to say what kind of power can be exerted. These restrictions that will affect the actual application, the 51st District is confident that within a year Internal solution. However, the reason why I think this incomplete result can be called a breakthrough, and I recommend it to you, is not because of such a smoky face. What I call the “result” is just to constitute the smoky face Before, the basic state of the infected body. "(To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (m) to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation.)