Reluctantly Willing

“Eat! Eating again! You only care about eating!”

Gu Jun knew that this was a chain reaction. He was taking his discontentment with An Xiaoyan out on Guo Guo. So what if he can talk? He knows nothing. He is but a retard son!

“Mr. Gu, Guo Guo is hungry. I will cook it again.”

Before An Xiaoyan could turn around, Gu Jun dragged him upstairs.

Every step, like a mermaid walking on land, made him tremble in pain. Despite that, Gu Jun was not bothered and still strode forward.

After being dragged into the room, Gu Jun let go of his hand and An Xiaoyan fell to the ground, looking very miserable.

Several photographs fell from above him. An Xiaoyan picked them up and looked at the photographs. They were photographs of him and Liu Cheng kissing him on the Ferris Wheel.

“Is this real?”

When Chen Chen investigated and found out that An Xiaoyan and Liu Cheng were sitting on the Ferris Wheel, Gu Jun curiously took a look at the video as he wanted to know what the two of them would be doing.

The moment when the two men’s lips touched each other in the video, Gu Jun went hysterical. He felt that An Xiaoyan had betrayed him by letting another man kiss him!

“It’s real.”

Gu Jun tore up the photographs and the torn paper fell like snowflakes from above him. How can you like other men? What is so good about Liu Cheng? What about me?

The more Gu Jun thought about it, the angrier he became. He reached out and grabbed something from his side and threw it. Before An Xiaoyan could react, it was too late.

The solid mahogany bench made its mark directly on An Xiaoyan’s right leg, and a pool of blood could be seen on the floor.

Gu Jun put the bench right up on the floor and asked again, “An Xiaoyan, how do you feel about Liu Cheng?”

An Xiaoyan wanted to answer, but the pain on his body did not allow him to open his mouth to speak. Once he opened his gritted teeth, his whole body felt as if it was torn apart.

Without hearing a satisfactory answer, Gu Jun went out angrily. He was waiting for the moment when An Xiaoyan gave up.

“Daddy, I am hungry… So hungry…”

“Get lost!” With a loud roar, Guo Guo was so frightened that he burst into tears. He picked up the sunflower he had bought in the morning from the floor and went upstairs with the flowers in his arms.

Opening the door, Guo Guo saw An Xiaoyan lying on the floor. Guo Guo put the sunflower into An Xiaoyan’s hand and said, “Uncle An, I will give you the flower. Could you please cook for me? Uncle An… Guo Guo is hungry. Guo Guo has no food to eat…”

Guo Guo’s voice went hoarse after crying too much and the person lying on the ground was still motionless. He looked at the pool of blood next to him and cried even louder.

“Uncle An, get up, we’re going to have dinner…”

“Uncle An…”

“Uncle…”

After shouting for a long time, Guo Guo became tired and eventually fell asleep beside An Xiaoyan, holding the big sunflower in his hand.

Gu Jun did not know where he was going from the moment he went out. He wanted to surprise An Xiaoyan, but An Xiaoyan unexpectedly gave him a shock instead.

Driving around the city, he finally came to the bridge across the river. He stood on the bridge and looked at the dazzling Oriental Eye opposite him.

There were good memories of him and An Xiaoyan there, but also the bad memories of today.

An Xiaoyan was in pain, but his heart felt even more painful. He could not stand the way An Xiaoyan treated the other man.

“Check on the current situation of Liu Cheng, the more detailed the better.”

Though Chen Chen agreed to check, he was feeling a little worried about An Xiaoyan. He was afraid that Gu Jun would do something foolish on impulse as he was well aware of Gu Jun’s violent temper.

“Mr. Gu, how is Mr. An doing?”

“Do not mention him in front of me.”

Hearing Gu Jun’s impatience, Chen Chen still said what was on his mind, “There must be a reason for Mr. An to do so. Before things are made clear, let’s investigate first.”

Gu Jun hung up the phone before Chen Chen had finished saying that. Now that the photographs were taken, and he had seen the photographs with his own eyes, what more was there to be made clear?

The wind was blowing slowly. It was not as cold as the third nine-day period after the winter solstice. The ice on the river had already melted and the ships were busy sailing underneath.

The last time he came here was when An Xiaoyan tried to commit suicide, he was particularly afraid of losing this precious thing.

Commit suicide!

Gu Jun seemed to have thought of something and went back in a frenzy. He recalled seeing a pool of blood before he left the villa. Though he hated An Xiaoyan being with another man, he did not wish to see An Xiaoyan dead.

When he returned home, Zhang Zilan had also arrived. Zhang Zilan brought along his medical kit and went upstairs where the smell of blood was overwhelming at the corridor.

Again…

Gu Jun recalled in his mind that when An Xiaoyan committed suicide, the whole house smelled bloody. He hated An Xiaoyan, but he never thought of letting him die.

Opening the door, there was a pool of blood on the floor. Guo Guo was lying beside An Xiaoyan with a sunflower in his hand. Zhang Zilan went forward to check on An Xiaoyan. His leg was bleeding because of a cut from the bench which was thrown at him.

“Send him to the hospital as soon as possible. You carry him on your back. I will hold the young master in my arms.”

Without saying anything, Gu Jun carried An Xiaoyan from the floor and ran downstairs, totally ignoring the blood stains on his high-end suit.

The hospital was still as busy as usual. After the check-up, there was nothing major with Guo Guo. As Guo Guo had not eaten for a day, his blood sugar was low and the doctor prescribed some glucose for him. An Xiaoyan’s situation was more serious.

His leg was fractured and the ligaments on his calf joints were ruptured. Worst of all, he had already missed the ideal treatment window. Even if he were to be operated now, his ligaments could not be restored to their original state.

Gu Jun did not think it would be so serious. He was so angry at that time, but did not mean to inflict so much harm.

Zhang Zilan sat down with Gu Jun at the corridor. After hesitating for a long time, he finally opened his mouth and said, “Just now, the doctor told me that he had torn his anus and might have to stay in bed for a long time. I gave him a bottle of lubricant before. Did he not let you use it?”

Gu Jun shook his head. He was not aware of that as An Xiaoyan said nothing about it and kept everything to himself.

“His body really can’t stand anymore of such torture and suffering. If he is not well taken care of, his body will be drained.”

Zhang Zilan’s words still echoed in his mind: “will be drained.” That was true. Ever since An Xiaoyan came to the villa, his health had never been good and his face always looked pale and malnourished.

Give it another chance, it would be the last.

When An Xiaoyan woke up, he was overwhelmed by the smell of the hospital disinfectant solution. The pain on his leg had subsided a lot. Under the dim light, a bright spot in the distance seemed to be flickering.

Gu Jun put out the cigarette in his hand and pushed open the floor-to-ceiling window to enter the ward. He went in and sat by the bed.

For a long time, neither of them spoke.

An Xiaoyan tried not to look at Gu Jun’s eyes, but glanced away.

“Do you want water?”

An Xiaoyan shook his head as he was not thirsty. He wondered what Gu Jun was doing here. Does he not hate me?

“Are you in pain? If it hurts, I’ll ask the doctor to prescribe some painkillers for you.”

An Xiaoyan remained silent and shook his head.

Unable to hold back the doubts in his heart, Gu Jun said, “Look at me, An Xiaoyan. Turn around.”

It was a commanding tone once again. An Xiaoyan turned his head obediently and his face was ashen.

“Do you like Liu Cheng? Tell me the truth.”

“Mr. Gu, do you want to hear the truth?”

“Yes, I want to hear the truth.” Even though he was emotionally bruised all over, he still wanted to know who An Xiaoyan had in mind.

“No, I do not like him, he is just my best friend.”

Suddenly the heavy burden on his shoulders was discharged. Gu Jun was a little happy. An Xiaoyan said that he did not like Liu Cheng and he believed An Xiaoyan.

Gu Jun was really delighted to hear that. He hugged An Xiaoyan’s thin body with the thought that An Xiaoyan was still his.

“Mr. Gu, I will not like anybody. I am not qualified.”

“No, you can like.” You can like me, even if only a little, I will be satisfied.

“Then why did you lie to me yesterday? Since you don’t like him, why did you say you were his boyfriend?”

“I was his boyfriend for just a day. It is a promise I made to him.”

Gu Jun knew that An Xiaoyan was a man of his word and felt that it must be Liu Cheng who made him said so. Even if you lie and say that you liked me, I will treat you doubly well.

Gu Jun loosened his grip on An Xiaoyan and looked at his pale face and dark eye circles. He could not help but kiss An Xiaoyan on the lips. He wanted to erase Liu Cheng’s traces on An Xiaoyan. An Xiaoyan, you belong to me alone.

Not knowing why, he could not help but kiss An Xiaoyan madly. Not until An Xiaoyan started coughing did he let go of An Xiaoyan. Seeing An Xiaoyan’s suffocating face, he handed An Xiaoyan a glass of water.

“You stay here and get well. I will see you again tomorrow.”

Feeling ashamed as if he was being peeped at, Gu Jun fled from the ward. At that moment, he almost wanted to tell An Xiaoyan that his body, heart and every part of him belonged to him.

It was already dawn after he fell asleep for a short while. From yesterday to today, it seemed like a century had passed.

An Xiaoyan was awake after being rubbed hard by someone. Opening his eyes, he saw a pair of big eyes staring at him.

“Uncle, Uncle…”

Guo Guo happily embraced An Xiaoyan by the bed, and wanted to climb onto the bed even before taking off his shoes.

“How did Guo Guo come? Did Daddy bring you here?”

“No, the doctor said that the angel had sent me here. There. I still have traces left behind by the angel on my head.”

An Xiaoyan looked at the marks on Guo Guo’s head. They were pinholes left behind by the intravenous drip. “Why did the angel put Guo Guo here?”

“The angel says that if Guo Guo obediently put the big bottle into the body, Guo Guo will receive magical powers and will not fall sick anymore.”

Looking at Guo Guo’s happy appearance, An Xiaoyan could not help feeling a little sad as he knew that he had implicated Guo Guo. Guo Guo must have annoyed Gu Jun, thus landed himself in the hospital.

“Uncle, Daddy was so angry that day, but now Daddy is so gentle again. I’ll go and get you something.”

As soon as Guo Guo finished speaking, he ran out on his short legs and came back with a handful of flowers, “This is for you, Uncle.”

It was orange kapok flowers, just like what he saw in Gu Jun’s house before, but last time there were no flowers and only broken branches and leaves. This time, there were very beautiful flowers emitting a light fragrance.

“Thank you Guo Guo. You are the best.”

Gu Jun, standing outside the door, secretly looked at An Xiaoyan, who was playing with Guo Guo inside. The regret in his heart surfaced on his mind once again. He should not have been so reckless.

There was no medicine for regret in this world, and what we have done cannot be changed.

…

“Why do I have to date that woman?!”

Once Gu Jun finished his sentence, he was angry that he almost threw out his mobile phone. Unexpectedly, old Mr. Gu did not let go of this matter and had been asking Gu Jun to go on dinner dates with Xiu Yijian. He completely had no intention of getting along with her.

“If you do not go, I will not let the man in your house off.”

Old Mr. Gu was holding on to Gu Jun’s weakness. Gu Jun suddenly understood the meaning behind “hiding a mistress in a love nest”. It was a treasure that he did not want anyone to touch.

But he had no ability to guard this treasure.