Presumptuous [entertainment Circle]

"You go to rest first." Tang Ruoyao apologized, and said to the three roommates in front of him, "I came here especially from a long distance. It broke your mood, I'm sorry."

Wen Shuxian has been exploding for a long time. At this moment, she apologized, and she burst into tears: "What do you apologize to us, aren't you friends?"

Cui Jiaren sighed and said, "Yeah, what's the matter with you? Tell us?" When she first came up, she happily wanted to confess. This reversal is still daunting to Cui Jiaren.

Tang Ruoyao was silent.

Fu Yujun lowered his voice and said, "You go back first, I'm here to accompany her."

Fu Yujun can hold ten of them. Wen Shuxian has always been self-aware, so she left with Cui Jiaren without any objections. Tang Ruoyao still lowered his head before he looked back when he left.

She walked to the outside corridor and suddenly slammed the wall hard.

Fu Yujun looked at Tang Ruoyao's clean and tidy room, walked around the room on his own, picked up the electric kettle on the table, filled the pot of water, and connected it to the power source to boil the water.

The water made a gurgling sound in the kettle, and white steam came out. Jun Fu Yu handed Tang Ruoyao a wrung-out hot towel. Tang Ruoyao thanked him, covered the hot towel on his face, and let out a long sigh of relief on his back.

Fu Yujun turned out two cups, washed them and placed them on the table, and poured two cups of water out.

"Do you want to take a shower and tidy up?" Fu Yujun pointed at Tang Ruoyao with his chin, and said bluntly, "You are very embarrassed now."

"Yeah." Tang Ruoyao's brain was confused all night and initially recovered his thinking ability, "I'll go now, and you will sit down for a while."

Fu Yujun raised his eyebrows: "Go ahead."

There was the sound of a shower from inside.

Fu Yujun thought for a while, took out the phone from his pocket, and sent a message to Guan Han.

There was a face-to-face game playing tonight, and she also helped her avenge her three times of friendship, which is logical. She is close to Guan Hantao, originally for the future in case, there is no harm in making more friends, but I didn't expect it to come in handy so soon.

The content has no meaning, just a normal question: [When will we play together again? 】

Fu Yujun knocked his knuckles on his knees and put the phone lock screen down.

The boiled water was not warmed up, Tang Ruoyao came out of the shower, her hair was drenched, and she didn't wipe her body much. There were rolling drops of water on her cheeks and neck. She was sitting on Fu Yujun with a full body of water vapor. On the opposite side, the eyelids are red and swollen.

Fu Yujun sighed, got up and helped her find a big towel, put it on her head, and said, "Wipe it."

"Thank you." Tang Ruoyao didn't waste time, wiping his hair and pouring beans from a bamboo tube to Fu Yujun about what happened tonight.

She can think clearly, but she has always been unhappy. Every time Qin Yinong said that he had to think for a long time, analyze each other piece by piece, and then convince himself. She had to think about one thing for a few hours or even a night, but now so many things are piled up together, she needs more time.

But what she lacks most now is time, there is not so much time for her to think slowly.

Fu Yujun woke her up once, knowing her and Qin Yinong's past, and also knowing her mental journey when she was on the crew. Let her as a bystander see it, it will undoubtedly save a lot of time than her alone.

Tang Ruoyao's mind was full of pictures. When it came to the point, the huge shock was still there, and her eye sockets were sour a few times.

No matter how calm Fu Yujun was, he still unconsciously opened his mouth several times in the middle. This...

Tang Ruoyao finished speaking, his eyes were red, and he looked at the person in front of him with his eyes wide open, like a drowning person holding her life-saving straw.

Fu Yujun received too much information and his brain was overloaded. He raised a hand and said, "I...I will think about it first, you wait."

Tang Ruoyao obediently said: "You think, but I don't speak."

Tang Ruoyao was not idle when Fu Yujun was thinking. She hung her head and twisted her hands and ten fingers together. She was also concentrating on thinking, but the emotion of regret and self-blame was mixed, and she couldn't stop thinking about Qin Yinong's last. Desperate eyes.

——I will love you forever, from birth to death, how about you?

——Are you sure you can afford my past, present and future? Can you face all the unknown wind and rain together with me?

——What I want is someone who can pull me when I give up on myself, not someone who pulls me briefly and pushes me deeper into the sea in a blink of an eye. When my sister died, I almost died. If I lose you, I will really die. I'll ask you again, are you sure?

If she were Han Zifei, she would hug her without hesitation.

If she was Tang Ruoyao, she would be ecstatic that she finally got a response. As for the things that follow, she can’t guarantee that she won’t easily answer, but she might sit down and discuss with Qin Yinong rationally. No matter what, he will never be as afraid as a coward and choose to flee on the spot.

But she happened to be both of them, but neither of them.

Who is she?

Tang Ruoyao fell into unprecedented self-denial and doubt.

She almost couldn't even find who she was.

A drop of tears splashed on the floor, and she immediately raised her hand to wipe it off with the back of her hand, and bit the tiger's mouth forcefully.

Stop crying, only cowards will keep crying.

How did she become like this?

Tang Ruoyao's eyes were red, and blood was bitten out of the tiger's mouth. When Fu Yujun called her, she was shocked.

Tang Ruoyao was on the verge of collapse, and the look in her eyes was gray.

Fu Yujun hurriedly called her name.

Tang Ruoyao's eyes slowly returned to focus, and he loosened the tip of his teeth, and said, "I'm fine, just tell me."

Fu Yujun dispelled the idea of ​​starting from the beginning and said directly: "You did nothing wrong."

Tang Ruoyao thought this was her comfort, and tugged the corners of her lips cooperatively, and said palely, "Thank you."

Fu Yujun looked into her eyes and said seriously: "If the person present today was me, I would not do better than you."

Father, like son. Tang Ruoyao had a deep affection for Qin Yinong. Even though the thickness of this affection was doubtful in her own heart, Fu Yujun watched her come all the way, definitely not just talking about the kind of love she was talking about.

Tang Ruoyao looked slightly startled.

Jun Fu Yu said: "I know you are very self-blame now, but is she wrong at all? What does it mean to lose you and she will die?" Jun Fu Yu just heard it and found it incredible, and now he is pointing to the point, "Have you heard Do ordinary people confess this way?"

She performed a live performance, pretending that she had a lover in front of her, and said emotionally: "I like you, I want to be with you. But if you break up with me in the future, I will go to die."

Tang Ruoyao: "..."

Fu Yujun: "Who can't think about it? It's one thing to love or not. Who wants to have a life in a relationship? Don't blame me for speaking badly. Others are kidnapped by morals, and she is kidnapped by life."

She feels that she is quite mild, and if she is here with Wen Shuxian, she will definitely say "Neuropathy, go to the hospital if you are sick, and the mental hospital is waiting for you."

Tang Ruoyao subconsciously defended Qin Yinong: "It's not like that, she is because of family affairs, so..." Tang Ruoyao considered the words and said, "It's a little bit extreme."

Fu Yujun raised her voice and said, "It's because of what's her business that she confessed it to you two! She is an independent adult, thirty years old, not a child, so why should someone else take care of her life and even her life? Responsible?!"

Tang Ruoyao couldn't refute for a while, pursing her lips, and whispered: "Anyway, don't say that she is bad, I am not here to scold her." She lowered her head, "You scold me, scold whatever you want. "

Fu Yujun followed her words: "Okay, I will scold you now."

Tang Ruoyao immediately raised his head, his eyes were divine, and he looked like he was listening to the teachings.

Fu Yujun said: "Your biggest mistake is that you have been brought into the ditch by her series of questions, and you have completely lost your ability to think and judge." She asked inexplicably, "Where is your brain?"

Tang Ruoyao smiled bitterly.

"Maybe it was eaten by a dog." Tang Ruoyao laughed at himself, and now the dog hasn't vomited it out to her. She wiped her face with both hands, patted her cheek, and asked herself to try her best to remember the period when the brain was in chaos.

a long time.

Tang Ruoyao said: "From the moment she asked me whether Han Zifei loves Shen Muqing more or I love her more, I started to be confused. I never thought about this question at all. When I love her, I love her wholeheartedly. When she was Han Zifei, she also loved Shen Muqing wholeheartedly. I am not bothered and sentimental." Tang Ruoyao murmured with tears in his eyes, "Why do you have to divide into two?" She couldn't tell much. Because they are all 100%.

Fu Yujun asked: "Then why didn't you tell her then?"

Tang Ruoyao sniffed and said, "What do I say? To me, she is not only the person I like, but also my teacher, my sister, and the guide of my life. I subconsciously think she is right. , I was wrong, and I don't know where I was wrong, what should I say?"

Moreover, Tang Ruoyao had been her lover for three years, and she had always been afraid of Qin Yinong in her bones. She scowled and educate her seriously, Tang Ruoyao didn't dare to say anything, what she said.

Fu Yujun sighed softly, leaned forward and pulled out some facial tissues from the tissue box and handed them to her.

Tang Ruoyao answered, just holding it in his hand.

"She said that all actors who are passionate about drama have filters. What I see is the perfect her. When the movie is over, the filter that belongs to Han Zifei disappears, and the girl I see is not the same she is now. "Now," Tang Ruoyao said more and more, the thoughts that Qin Yinong had distorted gradually cleared away, and she suddenly cursed a **** in a low voice.

Fu Yujun: "Huh?"

Tang Ruoyao scolded another swear word, not only scolding himself, but also scolding Qin Yinong.

Dead woman.

When was Qin Yinong perfect in her eyes? Obviously a bunch of shortcomings, boring gourd, love duplicity, every time she is half angry. She still remembers Lin Ruohan last time, pushing her to someone else during the day, and hiding in the room at night and crying!

And today, I said some specious words with great momentum, but in fact, **** doesn't make sense!

Tang Ruoyao's heart was ups and downs with anger.

Why didn't she expect it at the time!

Has Shen Muqing annoyed Han Zifei? Did Han Zi bite Shen Muqing's face with anger?

Qin Yinong and Shen Muqing are completely different! She can't tell who is who? She just likes Qin Yinong, her awkwardness, occasional shyness, and the calmness of intermittently molesting her.

Fu Yujun looked at Tang Ruoyao's pale face, a little rosy from the sudden anger, and couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips.

It's no longer the dull look, it should be back to normal soon.

Tang Ruoyao drank the cold water in the cup, moved his stiff shoulders and neck, got up and said, "I'll pour another cup."

Fu Yujun passed the empty cup in his hand: "Pour me a cup too."

Tang Ruoyao put two cups of water on the coffee table, sat back again, pinched the bridge of his nose, and sighed deeply.

Fu Yujun said amused: "What's the matter?"

Tang Ruoyao shook her head: "It's okay, I just feel..." She twitched the corners of her lips, making a curve that made her laugh or not, and said sadly, "I'm not mature enough, she has never believed me."

No matter what she did, she almost digs out her heart. Qin Yinong still doesn't believe that she really loves her, and loves her unconditionally. Even if she left Han Zifei's identity, Qin Yinong couldn't see her sincerity at all?

How can she and Han Zifei be generalized? Is her love so cheap and shallow in her opinion?

Tang Ruoyao bit his lower lip with white teeth.

Fu Yujun worried about her and said softly, "Are you okay?"

Tang Ruoyao abandoned her pessimism and said, "It's okay." She breathed out her foul breath softly and said, "I've already confirmed the feelings, the next question is, she said I was only because of Han Zifei's courage. Stalker pursued her."

"So you think if you didn't have the courage of Han Zifei, you wouldn't pursue her, would you?" Fu Yujun asked.

"Yes."

"Why must we separate you from Han Zifei?"

"Because I'm out of play, it won't be her anymore."

"Really?" Fu Yujun looked at her with a smile.

Tang Ruoyao looked at her strangely, and suddenly understood something.

Fu Yujun said: "We are actors, and perhaps we lack real life experience. But every role we perform, every life we ​​experience, is our life, which will bring us all kinds of influences. People are not static, you From the shadow to the present, how much has changed? How many changes have been brought to you by the people in the play? Someone taught you tenacity, some taught you kindness, some taught you integrity, and some taught you tolerant. You have all followed, then Han Zifei teaches The bravery given to you, why can't you accept it?"

Tang Ruoyao said hesitantly: "I know, but I'm afraid...I can't be as brave as her."

Her family background and growth experience are completely different from Han Zifei. Han Zifei can make a desperate move, but she can't. She has a vegetative father who is ill in bed, and a younger brother who is about to enter puberty. In fact, like Qin Yinong, she carries a family on her shoulders. She is accustomed to looking forward and backward, and accustomed to thinking twice.

Of course, she could hug Qin Yinong regardless, just care about the present. But then? How long can it be supported by just a layer of courage as thin as paper? She doesn't want to be present, she wants to last a lifetime, and her original intention has never changed.

Qin Yinong didn't believe her anymore, even if she hugged each other at the time, would she believe in herself?

Tang Ruoyao curled the corners of her lips mockingly.

Qin Yinong is still the snail, and hides back into her snail shell whenever there is a little turmoil. She had doubts about herself, and she could sit down calmly, and the two of them had a good talk. Instead of this seeming conversation, she was actually using her own logic to mislead herself, and then she began to force herself to be extremely self-destructive when she couldn’t think. Make a decision at the time.

While pushing her far away unfeelingly, while hoping for her to come closer, this is the method Qin Yinong used several times during the filming of "True Colors". Tang Ruoyao borrowed Han Zifei's loneliness and went through five stages to kill six generals, thinking that he had finally entered her heart, and only the grass and the warm sun were left in the future, but he encountered this again unsuspectingly. trick.

She was dumbfounded, unexpectedly, and the only courage she could use was collapsed by Qin Yinong in a few words. She fell into an inextricable self-denial. She thought she didn’t love her enough, she thought she was a coward, and she was in front of Qin Yinong. There was no way to fight back, she was inferior, she was cowardly, she was guilty, so she fled.

Yes, she did give up Qin Yinong because of what Qin Yinong said to Ji Yunyao. She did not love each other enough, but that was before. People can change, as well as feelings. She didn’t know Qin Yinong before, had never seen her fragility and helplessness, had never tasted her beauty and sweetness, hadn’t trekking through mountains and rivers, overcoming obstacles, and just smiled for her. .

She has fallen in love with her a long time ago, better than everything in the world. Han Zifei was just the key to Qin Yinong's heart, and Tang Ruoyao was the only one who walked in.

Tang Ruoyao closed his eyes heavily.

Fu Yujun asked her: "What kind of courage is enough?"

Tang Ruoyao murmured, "I don't know."

She sorted out a problem, but her mind became more and more chaotic.

Qin Yinong didn't believe her, and she didn't have a full play on her own. It is unknown how much of the courage that belongs to Han Zifei belongs to her.

"It's late." Tang Ruoyao pressed the mobile phone screen on the desktop, "Go back and rest first."

"Have you figured it out clearly?" Fu Yujun asked.

"I will always think clearly." Tang Ruoyao smiled, it was Fu Yujun's composure and calmness.

Fu Yujun was relieved and smiled: "Then I went back?"

Tang Ruoyao said: "I will send you off."

Fu Yujun declined: "There is a camera downstairs."

Tang Ruoyao laughed again: "Then I'll take you to the door, and send me a message when you get to the room."

Fu Yujun said: "Okay."

Watching Fu Yujun's back disappear into the corner of the elevator, Tang Ruoyao took the door. She stood quietly in the empty room for a while, went to the bedside table and opened the drawer, and took out the unsent love letter.

She wrote a huge book when she was Tang Ruoyao.

Scrolling back page by page, from the first encounter to the day before the "True Color" was completed, only Tang Ruoyao and Qin Yinong were full.

She smiled, but her eyes were a little moist.

Obviously she has worked so hard, why is she still failing?

***

The next morning, the 405 dormitory trio came up and knocked on Tang Ruoyao's door. Tang Ruoyao opened the door, and Wen Shuxian was the first to rush in: "Would you like to go downstairs for breakfast?" Yanba looked at Tang Ruoyao's expression nervously.

Tang Ruoyao said indifferently: "Is there something on my face?"

Wen Shuxian chuckled and said, "No." It's okay, and it doesn't look like he has cried again.

Tang Ruoyao pointed chin to the sofa by the window, and said, "Sit down first, and I'll wash it up."

Wen Shuxian looked at her turning back, and with a sudden ah, she immediately covered her mouth. After Tang Ruoyao entered the bathroom, she put down her hand and exclaimed in a low voice, "Did you not find that Tang Tang himself is back?"

Cui Jiaren reacted, showing the same shock as her: "Yes!"

Why is the play so fast this time?

Fu Yujun thoughtfully.

She turned her head and looked at the neatly laid out bed, as if no one had ever slept in, and the laptop on the table, she got the answer after seeing Tang Ruoyao coming out after washing, with red blood in her eyes.

"You didn't sleep last night?" On the way to the restaurant, Fu Yujun deliberately fell behind by two steps and walked side by side with Tang Ruoyao.

Tang Ruoyao gazed forward and hummed softly.

"Insomnia?"

"No, write something." Tang Ruoyao couldn't distinguish between her and Han Zifei emotionally, but her greatest strength was reason. How can Han Zifei's courage be enough, including the period of filming on the set? She can impress Qin Yinong, and has nothing to do with her calmness.

So Tang Ruoyao spent the whole night sorting out every node in the emotional development between them, and what were the factors that promoted every progress. In the beginning, she had nothing to do with Han Zifei. After she joined the crew, Qin Yinong and Qin Yinong changed from a lover to a colleague. They stood on an equal position, so she decided to get to know each other again.

Later, Qin Yinong was rumored to be a scandal and insisted on not clarifying. Tang Ruoyao went to ask and was coldly spoken. She didn't give up, even if Qin Yinong still didn't tell her the truth, she also learned to understand the truth of Qin Yinong's scandal from others. When is that? As soon as the movie started, Han Zifei didn't even see Shen Muqing's face. What's the impact?

...

Tang Ruoyao would list everything and everything, and she would show it to Qin Yinong before it was finished. As for whether the other party believed her or not, Tang Ruoyao could only resign.

She went to knock on Qin Yinong's door in the middle of the night. No one responded, and no one responded to Qin Yinong's message. Probably the other party didn't want to care about her.

"Where are the guests here?" Tang Ruoyao turned to the cleaning staff who had passed through the corridor and turned her head instinctively, but saw that the other party had opened the door of Qin Yinong's room. She bent forward and asked in a deep voice. .

Procter & Gamble looked at the young woman in front of her strangely, and said, "Check out."

Tang Ruoyao changed his expression: "When did she leave the room?"

Procter & Gamble said: "I don't know, I came to clean it in the morning anyway."

Tang Ruoyao walked in through the wide open door. The suitcase left in the corner last night was gone. The closet and tabletop were all empty, leaving no personal belongings.

She went to the bathroom again.

Procter & Gamble stopped her and said, "What are you doing?"

Regardless of it, Tang Ruoyao pressed his lips tightly to check inside and out, and he left, and walked cleanly.

She slowly dropped her shoulders and looked at the empty room silently.

Imagining is one thing, seeing is another. Without saying goodbye, it's the second time, does she still have a chance to find her back?

Fu Yujun came over and said, "Eat breakfast first."

Tang Ruoyao cleared up his emotions, straightened his shoulders again, and said, "Okay."

Several people were seated in the restaurant. Fu Yujun's phone shook, she slid off the screen, and the news that had passed all night finally received a response.

Guan Han: [Say more when you have time]

Fu Yujun: [Have you checked out? I saw the housekeeper cleaning your room in the morning]

Guan Han's fingertips paused.

She expected that Fu Yujun would be with Tang Ruoyao, and Tang Ruoyao would definitely know the news she had leaked. Guan Han looked at the unconscious woman in the hospital bed, gritted her teeth, and typed: [Retired at four in the morning]

Fu Yujun: [Catch a plane? 】

Guan Han: [No, I guess I will stay here for a few more days]

Qin Yinong had an acute gastric perforation and had an operation last night. He would have to lie down for at least a week before he could be discharged.

She couldn't say any more, she only hoped that Fu Yujun could convey her words, and Tang Ruoyao would know that Qin Yinong was actually still here. Or think a little bit more, guessing that she is in the hospital now.

Guan Han stopped the topic: [I have something to do, let's go busy first]

Fu Yujun put down the phone, put his elbows on the table, watched Tang Ruoyao slowly eating meals, and said: "I'm chatting with Qin...'s assistant. She said that she left the room at 4 o'clock in the morning, and she is still here now. city."

Tang Ruoyao raised her head and said without any emotion in her tone: "I know." Since she was here, she would ask to meet Qin Yinong.

"What are you going to do?" Fu Yujun asked in a low voice.

"Let her believe me."

"Have you thought about it?" Fu Yujun asked.

"Um."

"What if she doesn't believe it?"

"Until she believes it." Tang Ruoyao's expression and voice were faint, but she was unspeakably firm.

Fu Yujun sighed.

The most difficult mode for others to fall in love is the Shura mode for Tang Ruoyao to fall in love.

***

Qin Yinong finally woke up, and Guan Han, who was guarding the bedside, almost cried with joy.

Qin Yinong curled his lips and smiled at her. Guan Han straightened up his face and asked blankly, "Is there anything uncomfortable? I'll call a doctor."

Qin Yinong: "No."

Guan Han: "I have to say a little bit of pain."

Qin Yinong thought for a while, and said, "That's a stomachache."

Pain is pain, what is "that is"? Guan Han feels that she has become more and more anxious recently, and sooner or later she will resign and leave. She suddenly stood up and said, "I'll call a doctor!"

Two bodyguards were still guarding in the ward, Qin Yinong smiled at the eyes of the two looking over, staring at the snow-white ceiling above his head in a daze.

The memory of last night slowly returned.

Her brows frowned little by little, and annoyance flashed through her eyes. What did she do last night?

The author has something to say:

Although there is no same frame, there is no abuse. The feeling of the two parties is regret, but there is no regret medicine in the world.