Nirvana(BL)

"My name is Ye Lin. Ye means leaf, as the idiom says, red coral branches and jade leaves, it's a symbol of royal posterity. As for Lin, it means imposing and majestic."

When Ye was young, he always introduced himself like this.

But later, his uncle knew that and instructed him to keep a low profile. Although it's true, there's no need to tell everybody. Nor was the word 'Lin' he chose for Ye meant to be imposing and majestic.

Ye Lin learnt from that and re-selected two definitions after careful consideration.

"My name is Ye Lin. Ye is leaf, means vigorous development. And Lin means the strong sense of righteousness. And remember, I'm the one who fuck you."

Yu Yue hardly opens his eyes when he hears that. He's in a daze for half a second before he remembers what happened.

In a short screaming, he sits up with the immediately tearing pain in his lower body.

Ye Lin is holding arms, standing at bedside and looking at Yu Yue. His eyes are full of playful smile.

After a moment of great fear, Yu Yue calms down. He blankly stares at Ye Lin, doesn't know what to do. Is he gonna torture him again? He's still in Ye's control, how can he keep himself safe? He was raped by this man—but actually, he even doesn't know if it can be called '****' in law because he's also a male. Not to mention that Ye showed his powerful connections through the phone call. Even if Ye Lin was an ordinary person, he still had no idea about how to get justice for himself.

Ye Lin sits down beside the bed with that smiling face.

Yu moves backwards by instinct. But Ye hooks his neck by an arm and pulls him back, "don't hide, I just want to share some photos with you." He said, handing the phone to Yu Yue.

Yu has to face to that screen since he can not move—that's all his naked body.

Ye goes through the album one by one and finally Yu Yue can not suffer anymore. He closes eyes, screaming: "Don't! Don't let me see that!"

Ye chuckled and let him go.

Yu Yue hunches over his legs, covers face with hands and then, burst to tears.

"Don't cry, it's too childish." Ye pulls his hair to force him to raise the face, "look this one—understand? Cheng is also my person."

Yu Yue's eyes change to red, he dully looking at the phone—it's Cheng, naked, kneeling on the ground.

"Na, I broke your phone," Ye Lin shuts the cell phone flip, hands it to Yu, "take this one."

Yu is still unresponsive like dead.

Ye Lin stands up: "I'll send you back later. Go for the police or reporter, if you don't mind to share those photos with other people. And, don't forget, my name is Ye Lin."

Then he walks out and closes the door.

After a long time, Yu comes back to himself. He grabs the cell phone, throws it against the wall with all his strength.

And at last, he refuses the driver, limps for a long time. Finally he takes a bus back to school from the Fragrant Hills.

His roommates wonder why he stay outside all night, but he doesn't say a word, just buries himself with quilt and pillow, crying silently.

Yu Yue throws away all the clothes and shoes he worn that day, gets a new phone, changes his number, pretends nothing happened.

And such peaceful life lasts for a month, Yu Yue is almost convinced that nothing has really happened—perhaps it was merely a strange nightmare.

Until one night in November, Yu Yue is stopped by two strangers when walking alone back to the dorm.

He is so nervous, turning around and wants to run away. But those two people response very quickly—they block him in the middle immediately.

"Hey, boy," one of them says in a low voice, "Mr. Ye would like you to cooperate a little bit, otherwise your photos will be seen by all your schoolmates."

Yu Yue follows his eyes and sees a BMW parking at roadside, its window rolling down and Ye Lin's face with the black sunglasses coming into the view. Under the glasses, his sharp labial line curls to a high angle, insincere and flirty, which makes people unpleasant.

"My schoolmate, please."

Yu Yue feels as a black cloth is covering his head, obscuring his vision and suffocating him. However, he can not tear it off no matter what. There's only darkness, no hope at all.

Yu crouches in the back seat next to the door, trying to get away from Ye as far as possible.

Ye Lin takes off his glasses slowly, folded it and placed in the chest pocket. The dangerous light flashing in his eyes is exposed to Yu immediately as the cover was removed.

"Long time no see," Ye says, "I'm quite busy these days, so…What about if I send a person to pick you up every weekend?"

Yu Yue doesn't reply.

"Why are you wearing the tracksuits again? It looks so silly, your taste is really…did you take Cheng's advice last time?"

Yu Yue remains silent.

"Ah, how's the wound? Last time you bled like miscarriage…"

"You freak! Stay away from me!" Yu Yue suddenly shouts.

"Don't be so irritable, young people should be docile." Ye reaches out a hand to him.

Yu dodges swiftly to side and his head hits the window heavily: "stay away from me!"

"Save your energy for the bed. You passed out last time…"

"Leave me alone you bastard!" Yu Yue is going to approaching his limit, and trying to open the car door. It is the rush hour right now and they are stuck in the fourth ring road as in a parking lot. It's possible to jump out of the car.

But after pushing and kicking, the door is still closed—it was locked.

Yu Yue has no other way to escape. Pressing the face against the window, he pats the glass desperately and shouts for help.

"Don't waste effort, no one can hear or see you." Ye said lazily.

"Son of bitch!" Yu Yue shouts himself to crying, "open the door! Let me out!"

Ye no longer answers back, he starts playing the mobile game while Yu Yue crying and kicking the door.

An hour later, the car has been on the highway to the north.

Yu Yue remains cowering by the door, sobbing intermittently.

Ye puts his phone away, stretching for a second: "are you done?"

"Let me go…let me go…let me go…" Yu Yue repeated mechanically.

Ye Lin moves to his side, wants to hold his shoulder. But Yu Yue slaps off his hand frightenedly, crying loudly, "don't touch me!" He turns back to lean tightly against the door.

Ye Lin's hand stops in the air for seconds, he stares on Yu, and later, tells the driver, "open the door for him."

There's no reaction time for Yu, he only feels that the thing he leans on seems like to be taken away by someone. His center of gravity backward tilts, and then, he falls down irreversibly.

Yu Yue even has no time to scare, he would be hitting the ground in a moment.

At speed of 100 miles per hour, there's no chance to survive if he lands by the back head.

Death comes too abruptly, he can not recall the great fear if he dead, it is almost imperceptible.

However, his body stops suddenly—Ye Lin holds his belt and keeps his balance.

"You want me to open the door, I did as you wished. Now do you want me to let you go?" Ye says casually, as if to say what he had for lunch.

Yu Yue can not answer him. His upper body is suspended, if Ye let him go, he would be dead for sure. He's trying to lift himself up, waving his hand in an effort to catch somewhere, however, he could barely touch the outside of the car and nothing is helpful.

Ye Lin watches him struggling, smiles, and then slightly slackens the hand. Yu Yue's body immediately descends.

"Ahhhh!" Yu screams in horror.

"Have decision now?" Ye's voice is calm and flat to cruel, "you want to stay here obediently, or still want me to let you go?"

"…" Yu Yue remains silent for a moment. He doesn't want to give up, but there's no chance to fight back.

"I'm tired since you always like this, I'll count to three. One, two—"

"Pull me up." Yu shouts. He surrendered—as he said those words out, he had to admit this reality—his eyes films over with tears again.

The frightened feeling has not been blown away yet, Yu's back is still in a cold sweat. He crouched in his seat with knees in arms, shaking with tear.

Ye Lin rubs a hand over his face, wipes away tears. Yu can not dodge anymore, just murmurs, "please…please let me go…please…"

"How? Tell me how?" Ye Lin is twirling Yu's forehead hair by his fingers, "I haven't been satisfied yet, how to let you go?"

Yu Yue hugs his knees, crying in silence, doesn't talk anymore.

Ye Lin ruffles his hair, leans back to the seat, continue to play the mobile games.

After a long drive, the road sign shows they are in Huairou.

The car stops in the yard of a villa. It is newer, but the grey and white walls are not stylish and elegant as the one in Fragrant Hills.

Ye Ling pats Yu Yue: "Get out."

Yu doesn't move.

Ye opens the door and tries to pull Yu out of the car.

"Don't touch me!" Yu Yue struggles, one of his arms holds the back of the front seat. Looks like he won't leave the car under any circumstance.

Ye Lin doesn't insist. He gets back to the car, tells the understrappers to go out.

They understand without any other explanation and follow Ye's order to disappear quickly.

Now it is dark outside and no light in the car, Yu Yue barely can see Ye's silhouette in the darkness.

Yu Yue faces to Ye Lin, seeing the faint light glimmering in his eyes. He has a boding in the mind. so he reaches out a hand towards the back, trying to open the door while staring at Ye Lin unblinkingly.

However, Ye Lin pushes him to the door, presses tightly like a predator, and then bites him on the neck.

Yu Yue is frightened. He beats Ye Lin to push him off, but then both of his hands are caught.

Ye Lin grabs his wrists with left hand, lifts his head over to the car window, pulls off his jacket by right hand and then pushes the T-shirt up to the chest. Seeing Yu Yue's nipples uncovered, Ye Lin lowers his head, kissing and bitting him. At the same time, his right hand continues going down to loose Yu Yue's belt, and tap into his underwear from behind, circling at the edge of that small hole.

Suddenly, he stabs in with the middle finger.

"Ah!" Yu Yue screams. he begins to cry for mercy: "Don't do this… please…Don't do this!Leave me alone!…Please…"

Ye Lin raises his head and kisses him.

The moist soft tongue invades in Yu's mouth with an unfamiliar masculine scent. Scared to this, Yu Yue instinctively wants to clench his teeth. But Ye Lin seems to has expected this, he pulls his tongue immediately in case to be bitten.

His finger continues to develop in Yu Yue's body, makes him pain unbearably. Yu Yue begs for mercy, whimpering and twisting the body to avoid the invader.

Ye Lin seems to lose patience. He takes out the finger, pulls down Yu Yue's pants.

"No!" Yu's screaming is heartrending, "Please don't! It hurts! Don't do this! Please! I'll do whatever you want…don't do this…"

Ye Lin looks at him seriously, "but I just want you to do this with me."

"please don't …I'll listen to you, do anything you want!" Yu Yue breaks down in tears and starts talking without thinking, "I can be your horse, your cow…give you anything…please don't be like this…"

"Well," Ye Lin raises his legs, "be my man then." He unzips his pants and take out his swollen penis, inserts into that place.

"Ahhhhhh—!" Yu Yue twists up painfully, even his tone has changed. He begins to curse recklessly: "Ye! You bastard… Ah…You son of bitch…I'll kill you! I'll kill you!…Ahhh…Fuck you bitch!…"

Ye Lin slaps him in the face with right hand: "Watch your mouth if you don't want to be punished. I've been very polite to you. Don't test my patience." With this saying, his lower body trusts forward heavily.

Yu Yue trembles with pain, his head hangs up and slackens, banging against the window. He is so pain that he thinks somewhere in the abdomen must be broken, otherwise he won't be pain like this. He would rather die right now.

Yu Yue stares the roof blankly, his eyes are out of focus. He gasped: "It hurts…I'm dying…I'm dying…"

Ye Lin supports his face with a hand, as if in pity for him. But the strength of his attack doesn't whittle down. Finally he gets out after ejaculating into Yu Yue's body.

Yu Yue is completely exhausted, slumping in the seat.

Ye Lin tidies up his clothes, and kisses Yu Yue on face before getting off the car.

Then the door is slammed with a big noise. Yu Yue is locked in the car.

He curls up his body. It's too pain, not only the body, but also the heart.

In Yu Yue's life, he is the pearl in parents' palm, the top student in his class, the favorite one of his teacher, the person to envy for his peers. Although his family is not rich, but he is always proud, never surrender to anyone else. But now, that man, tramples his dignity, again and again, easily and without any scruple.

All these only because that man lives a world above him, he has no room to resist.

The man stays high there, omnipotent and strong. He can only prostrate on the floor, being trampled in despair.

For the first time, Yu Yue has to admit there are gaps in the world that could not be filled by hard work.

Night comes in the cold, Yu Yue moves his body slowly, puts the clothes back.

He pretends not to notice that his lower body is still wet and sticky. He lies down in the back seats of someone's BMW, getting dirty with that man's body fluids. He wants to rot with the filth. He wants to be dead when the sun rises again.