My Schizophrenic CEO Husband

Tang Yiyu didn't look very well after having that dream.

Cheng Anran cooked dinner. She specially cooked some food that Tang Yiyu loved. Tang Yiyu reluctantly ate it and tried to behave as usual, but it was tasteless.

Cheng Anran's favorite food in the past can't taste it anyway tonight.

After dinner like chewing wax, Tang Yiyu felt that he couldn't do this. He had to go to a private doctor.

"I'm going out later." Tang Yiyu asked Cheng Anran, "will you two meet later tonight?"

Cheng Anran acted for Tang Yili without authorization and said, "if you have something to do, go and help you. But do you... Do you have a way to drive? Do you need me to drive? I'll see you where you want to go."

Tang Yiyu didn't want her to know that she went to see a private doctor. He shook his head and said, "no, I can do it myself. You're at home."

Cheng Anran stared at him with watery eyes, barely smiled, nodded and said, "OK, then pay attention to safety."

But in her heart, Cheng Anran sighed slightly.

He still can't completely trust and rely on himself, so he will refuse himself.

He still can't fully open his heart to himself.

However, she also knew that it could not be changed overnight. She still needed to wait. At least they were one step closer just now.

*

Tang Yiyu went to the private doctor's house, and the private doctor ordered him a cup of tranquilizing tea.

Tang Yiyu had some pain in his head and took the initiative to say, "doctor, give me a tranquilizing incense."

The doctor was a little surprised because Tang Yiyu refused to use the incense because he was afraid that his wife would smell the incense when he came last time.

Tang Yiyu said frankly, "I'm not in good shape today."

The private doctor understood: "OK, I'll order it now. You have some Anshen tea first."

When the incense and tranquilizing tea had a slight effect, Tang Yiyu relieved a little. Lying on the diagnosis and treatment chair, Tang Yiyu said, "doctor, something happened today. I think of what happened when I was a child."

The private doctor understood and said, "your illness stems from some shadows of childhood. It is probably what happened today that triggered your childhood shadow."

Tang Yiyu: "I found that someone I mistakenly thought was cheating had never cheated. It was because I was too paranoid, stubborn and misunderstood. After that, I dreamed that when I was a child. I found that my illness may also stem from self disgust."

Private doctor: "this situation also exists. For example, some homophobic people are actually potential homosexuals. Because they refuse to accept themselves, they have created hostility to the whole group."

Tang Yiyu rubbed his eyebrows and said, "my situation may be more complicated."

The dream reminded him of something he deliberately ignored and forgot.

He knew from the beginning that his mother was cheating, but at that time he didn't know it was cheating. He only knew that his mother had a good relationship with the driver. Then his mother always avoided his father and the driver, so he subconsciously wanted to help his mother hide it.

Until his mother died, what his father said to him made him realize that it was betrayal, that it was wrong, shameful and wrong.

At that time, he found that his father was the poor man.

As for him, he is an accomplice to help his mother betray his father.

Not only that, he will regret it. If he told his father early, maybe his mother wouldn't commit suicide.

No matter what happens after telling my father, it's better than my mother jumping off a building to commit suicide.

But after all, he was a child and couldn't accept the fact that he killed his mother, so he hated his mother. Why did he cheat and betray his father? If mother hadn't done that, she wouldn't have died.

A lot of things, a lot of thoughts, contributed to his illness.

But he is not innocent.

The biggest destabilizing factor in this matter was the choice of little Tang Yiyu at that time.

His choice killed his mother.

He also had no choice. So when he saw cheating after that, he had to pretend not to see it.

Because he doesn't know what his choice will change.

After that, he couldn't get along with any woman.

His chagrin, repentance, pain and sadness all piled up in the little Tang Yiyu's body, and Tang Yiyu couldn't face his father.

Because countless times he thought that he had caused the man to lose his wife. He knew that the man's wife was cheating, but he hid everything because the other party was his mother, and he also betrayed the man.

He is unworthy of happiness, a man who should live in pain and repent.

Finally, the pressure made him more and more estranged from his father. He didn't know whether his father hated him. First of all, he couldn't forgive himself.

He prescribed some medicine from his private doctor, and Tang Yiyu went out tired.

What a private doctor can do is to dredge his mind and relieve his self aversion, so as to prevent him from developing in a worse direction. Nothing else can be done.

Finally, he has to rely on himself to overcome the disease.

Sending him to the door, the private doctor suggested: "it's helpful for you to reconcile with the women you misunderstood. Now you need to reconcile with the whole female group in order to finally heal."

Tang Yiyu nodded, "I'm going to apologize."

He didn't want to escape, but the past facts were pestering him, making him feel that his world was on the verge of collapse.

On the way back, he couldn't help thinking, why did he create Tang Yili?

He has an intuition that if he knows why the second personality exists, he may be cured completely.

It was only about the existence of Tang Yili that he knew it a long time later, and he had not traced back to why it existed for a long time.

He only knew that Tang Yili could help him share a lot of things.

When he was young, he relied on Tang Yili and could deal with many things he could not face women.

When they were young, the two people exchanged more frequently. They had to change during the day. When they were older, he had more ways to deal with it, so he slowly formulated the rules for Tang Yili to come out at night.

The car drove in the dark, and one picture after another was taken in the dark.

*

When Tang Yiyu returned home, he found Cheng Anran still sitting on the sofa. Seeing that he was back, Cheng Anran put down the pen drawing the wedding dress and stood up: "are you back?"

Tang Yiyu was stunned: "are you waiting for me?"

Cheng Anran smiled: "no, I'm drawing the design draft. You came back just in time. I'm going to make Anshen tea. Do you want it?"

She said and went to Tang Yiyu to help him with his things. However, as soon as she walked over, she smelled the aroma of Tang Yiyu.

She was slightly stunned.

Where did he go? Why does it smell so good?