My 26-year-old Female Tenant

I looked at Le Yao, the doubts that filled my mind, between asking and not asking, actually I understood: I was so entangled at this moment, it already showed that I gradually believed that the child she conceived was mine ...But, what's the point of going to prove it now, we will soon go further and further apart because of the marriages we each have to face, maybe as she said, I am doomed in this life owed her.

  Le Yao and I looked at each other, she pinned her hair that was blown by the strong wind behind her ears, and asked me: "Why don't you talk anymore?"

   "I don't know what to say other than to say thank you to you, and I feel hypocritical when I say it...it's better to be true in silence!"

   "What do you want to thank me for? Is it because I promised you to participate in a micro-movie, or because I'm getting married soon, so you won't have a troublemaker in your life from now on?"

   "The former."

   "Hehe, don't you ever think I'm a nuisance?"

   "Most of the time, it doesn't feel like it. Sometimes it's troublesome... Let's not talk about it, okay? Or should we leave."

Le Yao had tears in her eyes again, but she said with a heartbroken smile, "Zhaoyang, if our child hadn't been killed, he would have been born now, and by this time next year, he might be called Mom and Dad." Yes... But, why did I kill him (her)?... What was I thinking at that time? Can you tell me? Tell me.... ..”

Her hands firmly grasped my arm, her nails were deeply embedded in my leather jacket, making a "squeak" sound, and my heart seemed to be thrown on the ground and trampled on the ground in the harsh sound, hurting I can't help myself...

   "Le Yao... sober up, sober up!"

My reminder didn't have the slightest effect on her, she was already crying: "Zhaoyang...Zhaoyang, you tell me, if I don't kill that child, you will...you will do A responsible father?  …”

"......meeting!"

Le Yao cried heart-rendingly: "I'm really stupid... You were so worthless at that time, I was really worried that the child was born and we couldn't support him... I should... have gone to find Xiao Rulin (Le Yao's father) a long time ago, why do I have to be brave! Why do I want to develop in the entertainment industry with all my heart! Why do I believe that you will fall in love with me after all... Thought we were going to have a second child...but instead you fell in love with a woman who came along...So many options, as long as I pick one thing right, it won't. .....It won't be like this now...Who should I blame, who should I blame, tell me...tell me!"

   "Blame me, everything is my fault."

Le Yao's emotions were already on the verge of breaking down because of the topic she brought up. She looked at me full of hatred, and finally raised her hand. A hard slap across the face...

  I felt the fishy smell coming from the corner of my mouth. In my dizziness, that absurd period of time came to my mind again, so the hypothetical fragments one by one stimulated my fragile nerves at this moment like a movie playback.

  Maybe, Le Yao didn’t choose to get rid of that child at the beginning, we are married now, and there will be no Mi Cai that appeared later in my life...

It turns out that what decides fate may not be who will fall in love with whom or who will fall in love with whom, but a choice between rationality and irrationality, so I don't know what language to use to deal with it. The blowing wind made me a little tired, and I couldn't even feel the pain on my face, but my heart was throbbing. Although I was standing on this tall building, my heart had already sunk to the bottom of the sea. I didn't have the courage to think that I was once in There was a child in those most ridiculous years.

A pair of cold hands were pressed to my face, and I felt the burning pain. I looked at Le Yao dully, she wiped off the blood stains on my mouth with her hands, and her eyes were still full of tears. until he stopped choking, he said to me: "That slap just now has made me vent my hatred... If you also hate me, you think I took my own initiative and took away our child , you can also slap me... When you finish, we will bless each other here!"

  I still look at her stiffly, I don't feel that my body and soul can control my actions......

Before I had any preparation, Le Yao took my hand and slapped herself fiercely. This strength was driven by extreme emotions. Her flawless face, Immediately, five red and swollen fingerprints appeared.

"These two slaps were for that innocent child, I hope he (she) will forgive me...I regret it, but it doesn't help, I love you too, but you already have a daughter Friends...People can never give up the marriage that must be faced under the pressure of age and family for an impossible love...Maybe, I am really a willful and ignorant Satisfied woman, so I never look at what I have, only think about what I don't have... Now, it's time for me to grow up, so I'm going to get married.... ..You give me a blessing right now, it is best that after I get this blessing, I don't have to think about anything, and I will be a happy woman from now on!"

I didn't know what kind of blessing would have a magical power to make her a happy woman from now on. After a while, I said to her: "The word happiness has been mentioned by countless people, but there are not many people who are truly happy. ...But, I will always remember that you and I made an agreement to be a master of life...We are not very reliable people, but I think this agreement is reliable, because that day When you said it, you didn’t laugh, it was very serious, and when I agreed, I didn’t laugh, it was more serious... So, this is definitely not a joke, or a vision, it needs us to realize it... ..So, no matter how unreliable we were in the past, as long as we are reliable this time, we can really handle this life..."

Le Yao nodded, then turned around and stood in front of the guardrail, looking at this endless city. I stood beside her, so the scars on my face reflected our loneliness at this moment. After a while It will be more lonely, because we won't stay here for too long, maybe a few minutes later, we will be at the foot of this building, with the promise of being a master of life, we will walk in two directions, one left and one right ...From then on, there may be intersections, but the lives of each other have no relationship because of the tearing.