My 26-year-old Female Tenant

  I put my hand on my forehead, exhaled heavily, and said to Le Yao again: "Give me the phone."

  Le Yao shook her head resolutely, and said, "No matter what happens, stop the bleeding first." After speaking, he dragged me to the outside of the inn.

I mechanically followed Le Yao's footsteps to the clinic, but many thoughts were trapped in my body, and I couldn't release them at all, so that I didn't feel pain when the medical alcohol used for disinfection was applied to my wound. .

  Amidst the burden of my mind, I remembered the song "New Tenant" that Mi Cai and I used to tease each other.

  In the final analysis, we are just a bird caught by each other, but we cannot touch each other's feathers, so we have been saying "hello" to each other, but the response is often "excuse me".

  So we are all wrong, but where is the root of the mistake?

  Maybe it came from a whim, or it might just come from a long-distance encounter, which made us fall into the whirlpool of emotions and ask for trouble.

  If, without those impulses again and again, I am still his landlord and she is my tenant, wouldn't it be better?

  At this moment, I can't give myself an answer. Perhaps, since that night, when I imposed the title of tenant on her, the gears of fate have already turned between us.

  …

After leaving the clinic, I was still in the same mood as when I went there, but there was an extra piece of gauze on my face to stop the bleeding, and the time slipped away for half an hour, but Xitang was still the original Xitang, as if nothing was calm happened before.

  On the steps by the river bank, Le Yao was sitting next to me, she finally asked me, "What happened just now?"

   "I was beaten up."

   "You are the only one who can beat someone up, who else can beat you up?"

   "It sounds like I am alone seeking defeat!"

   "I don't care, next time he provokes you, you must win!"

   "Winning or losing doesn't mean anything, so don't be childish."

  Le Yao smiled, and said softly: "Childishness is because I want you to be happy."

  I stared at Le Yao, and asked again on a whim: "From now on, I will just be a person who waits for the night, welcomes the day, and doesn't think about anything, okay?"

   "Isn't that a vegetable?"

  I was silent, but I felt a little disappointed in my heart. I was too pursuing a simple and worry-free life, and as a result, I degenerated into a vegetative state.

  Le Yao leaned closer to me: "Zhaoyang, I'm really happy that you can open up your heart and tell me what's on your mind."

   "Didn't I tell you before?"

   "Before, you didn't say anything except scolding me and saying you wanted to **** me!"

   "Are you trying to tell me that I'm actually a scumbag?"

"But after you scold me, you will still take care of me and care about me when I need it; you always say you want to **** me, but only once, after drinking... You are not as scumbag as you think, on the contrary, I think you are more mature than before After a while, at least you have the desire to struggle, so you will take over this inn!"

"yes?"

Le Yao nodded affirmatively again, and said: "Yes... I have been filming in a remote mountainous area a few days ago, where there is no electricity even, and the whole life of the mountain people is just a fraction of an acre of land. , their leisure activities are sitting on the ridge and talking, but I think they are very happy, and I also want to understand some truths. In fact, all the pain of people is just because they regard themselves as too important, and they want to satisfy those illusory desires in their hearts too much. **, such as love, once it is not what you imagined, it will be painful... In fact, love is just a pastime after food and clothing, don't take it too seriously!"

  I thought about what Le Yao said, and found that it was the same truth as what I understood, "If the heart does not move, there will be no pain", but why do I still feel pain when I have already understood it? I think it was because I couldn't let go of my desires, and these lingering desires, when gathered together, weaved into a black sheet, covering the sky and blocking out the sun, and I could never see that crystal clear city again.

  I finally said to Le Yao: "If there is a chance, I really want to throw myself into that mountain village that doesn't even have electricity, and sit on the ridge of the field every day, looking at the hundred acres of fertile fields and the rows of scarecrows!"

  Le Yao smiled and said, "I have to bring a bag of .8 Zhongnanhai."

   "Yes, this must be remembered."

   Le Yao smiled and hugged my shoulders, guessing my thoughts seemed to make her very happy.

I smiled along with her, and then looked blankly at the catkins fluttering in the wind on the other side. Maybe it was because of my visual fatigue. My own world was flickering. I seemed to see a burning torch, but it went out again. In the gloom of the world, I gradually lost the desire to call Mi Cai. As for that love, it disappeared.

  …

  The continuous wind seemed to have dried my scars, so I sat by the river with Le Yao for a long time.

  After a long time, she took out a bank card from her handbag and handed it to me, "Zhaoyang, there is 100,000 yuan in this card for you to renovate the inn."

  I nodded and took it from her hand without saying thank you, because I felt that we should not be burdened by the word thank you.

   Le Yao stroked the scar on my face and said softly: "I'm leaving, it's noon today."

  My heart seemed to lose support in an instant, and I subconsciously held her hand: "Didn't you say a week?"

   "A male actor in the crew is going abroad to participate in the awards ceremony, so the director rushed to arrange a few scenes."

  I realized that I lost my composure, and quickly let go of Le Yao's hand.

  Le Yao clenched my loosened hand again, and said, "Don't forget your ambition to make the inn a national chain, I will fully support you."

   "This time I will use all my strength to manage the inn well."

   "Well... I will go back to Xitang to see you after the latest scene is finished."

  I was so lost in my heart, it took me a long time to tentatively ask: "Can I not leave today?"

   "I have to return to Beijing before the evening, because there will be two night scenes in the evening, and all the crew members are already in place!"

   "Then have a good trip."

   Le Yao nodded, she leaned on my chest and said for a long time: "Your heart is still beating, but it is empty."

"Maybe."

  She pulled off my coat and kissed my chest through the sweater...

  I looked at her puzzled.

   "I planted a seed in your heart, and if there is rain to nourish you in a few years, you must remember to let this seed germinate and bloom."

  I was stunned for a long time before I replied: "If there is still rain on this dry land, this seed will definitely sprout and bloom!"

   Le Yao nodded and left my chest. She waved to me, put on her sunglasses and mask, and walked to the river bank alone.

  I looked at her back for a long, long time before I felt a drop of warmth on the back of my hand. It turned out that it was a tear she shed before putting on her sunglasses.

  It may also be the seed that has not been planted in my heart...