My 26-year-old Female Tenant

  The moment I walked out of the villa, the heavy feeling that made me unable to breathe suddenly disappeared, but the humiliation still lingered in my heart.

  After walking along the asphalt road outside the villa for a while, I finally saw a taxi and drove away.

On the way to the city, I feel empty, as if I can’t see the future, and I don’t know what attitude to take to deal with this love with Mi Cai. I understand: we all blindly underestimated at the beginning the pressure of real life.

  I suddenly feel that I deserve it. Mi Cai has never experienced love. She doesn't understand the huge pressure of love under the status gap. Don't I understand? But even so, why did he choose not to turn back? Maybe in the bottom of my heart I still long for that crystal clear city, longing for a love that is not polluted by secular dust.

  After arriving in the urban area, I went directly to the station, ready to take a car back to Suzhou, but received a call from Mi Cai, hesitated for a while and finally answered.

   "Zhaoyang, where have you been?"

   "On the way back to Suzhou."

   "...I'm sorry, Mi Lan shouldn't have let you go, but... she's targeting me, not you, so don't be angry, okay?"

"You really don't need to comfort me. She is not targeting you or me, but poverty. Don't you think I am so unsightly standing among your relatives and friends? I let you stand in your Humiliated in front of the family!"

   "I'm really upset when you say that!"

I was silent for a while, and the bitterness in my heart became heavier. Even if I had grievances, I shouldn't take this poor woman, Mi Cai, as the object of venting, and finally said to her in a light tone: "I will work hard, for you, Also for yourself... You should be happy, and time will give us the rest of the matter."

  …

In the afternoon, when I returned to my old house in Suzhou, the first thing I did was to take off my Burberry suit, and then lay on the sofa, repeatedly smoking a cigarette in a daze where I couldn’t see the future. Regardless of the hunger pangs caused by not eating at noon.

   I asked myself, why is it so painful?

  Because I love her, otherwise I would give up this relationship without any burden, at worst, go back to the old days, at least free.

But I can't give up, so the only thing I can do now is to turn all the grievances and inferiority into the motivation to struggle, and then create a career of my own, so that I can face life with a straight chest and face those who once A person who is dismissive of himself.

The sky outside the window had already darkened. I finally cooked myself a bowl of instant noodles. After eating it tastelessly, I fell into a panic with nothing to do, but I didn’t want to go to the bar too negatively to get drunk, so I Once again, I chose to take a walk to relieve the depression in my heart.

  I didn’t set a destination for myself, but I walked to the moat instinctively. Maybe this has become my only safe haven in this city. I need to find some comfort and sustenance here.

  When I lay on the withered lawn, enjoying the spring breeze, my heart gradually calmed down, and then I fell asleep with a tired body.

  It wasn't until I felt someone pushing me that I woke up from a deep sleep, opened my eyes dimly, and found that Jian Wei was sitting beside me.

  She smiled and said to me: "Zhaoyang, we met again here."

  I sat up from the grass, and habitually took out a cigarette from the cigarette case before lighting it up and said, "Recently I come here often, but you come less often."

   "The company is too busy during this time, but I still come here occasionally."

   "Oh... what about Xiang Chen, won't he accompany you?"

   "He's busier than me, and he has been to Shenzhen for several days." After a short pause, he asked me again: "Are you worried about a lot recently?"

  I exhaled heavily, and smiled helplessly: "Yes."

   "Have you had a conflict with Mi Cai?"

   "Work matters."

  I didn't want to discuss this topic too deeply with Jian Wei, so I changed the subject and asked her: "Did you really bring gasoline to Aji's piano store last time?"

   Jian Wei was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and said: "The bucket is full of water, I just want to scare him."

  I replied dumbfounded: "You really frightened him into a fool. I never realized that you have such superb acting skills before!"

   "It has nothing to do with acting."

   "What does that have to do with it?"

   Jian Wei curled her lips, but did not answer, so the two fell into silence.

After sitting for about five minutes, Jian Wei suddenly walked towards the river bank. I thought she had something urgent to leave, but I didn't expect her to take out a guitar case from the trunk of the car, then took out the guitar, and Come down the embankment and stand in front of me.

  I looked at her puzzled and asked, "What do you mean?"

   "It's not returning your guitar, I just want you to play another song with this guitar."

  I didn't respond to Jian Wei immediately, but when I looked at the guitar that had been stained white by my own sweat, I suddenly felt a strong sense of intimacy.

  So, finally took the guitar from Jian Wei's hand, and asked her, "What song to play?"

   "Tears, Mavis Fan's tears."

  I recalled that song, picked up the score in my heart, and when I felt that there was no problem, I nodded to Jian Wei, then plucked the strings of the guitar, and played the song "Tears" on the guitar.

  I thought it was just my one-man show, but Jian Wei also sang this song along with the accompaniment.

"If youth has an ageless face, I hope she will never be changed. Many dreams are always too beautiful to weave, followed by disillusionment. Falling in love with you is the happiest thing, but it also brings the most painful sadness, bitterness and sweetness of love , I can't learn no matter what ha...oh tears, tears are my experience of growing up, oh tears, hold back the tears so that you can't see, I'm changing, the feeling of loneliness, you never found , I still have tears in my smile, oh tears, tears flow through the silent night, the feeling of heartache, oh tears, wipe away the tears and forget everything, the nostalgia I once had, tears are bitter, tears are sad, tears are all about you , tears are sweet, tears are yesterday, tears do not shed tears..."

  The singing gradually stopped, but I heard obvious emotions in Jian Wei's singing, especially the line "Falling in love with you is the happiest thing, but it also brings the most painful sadness..."

   Gradually, I was also immersed in this line of lyrics and couldn't extricate myself, because this is a very ironic summary for us.

  In a daze, Jian Wei suddenly made a move that caught me off guard. She snatched the guitar from my hand, and threw the guitar into the bottomless moat without any hesitation.

  Looking at the ups and downs of the guitar, my heart was churning with an unstoppable colic, but Jian Wei smiled at me with tears in her eyes: "Maybe this is the best ending!"

The body of the piano has already begun to enter the water, and seeing that the guitar is about to sink into the bottom of the river and be completely destroyed, all my rationality collapsed in an instant. I took off my down jacket, jumped over the guardrail, and plunged into the bottomless in the moat.