MEMORIZE

I could feel a faint stream of light through the window. Is it because of the strong spirit of alcohol? The sun was still up in the middle of the sky, but I can't see clearly already. When he blinked once or twice to grab the adult clock, the view of the room was caught in a cluttered view.

Empty bottles hang around where they are located, and the side dishes in the bowl are scattered all over the place. The cloth on the floor was sticky and tangled with alcohol flowing out of the mouth of the bottle. Literally a mess. My brother and I are usually very tidy, so we would never sit still.

Jinha will faint if she sees it.’

Jin-ha was a sister who secretly smiled at her brother when she brought him snacks, saying, "Young master, young master." Will she be able to say that after seeing this? Oh, but will he still smile to look good? Hah, hah, hah.

After a short breath of laughter at the sudden thought, I breathed out a long breath. And as I opened my mouth blankly, I could feel the sweet smell spreading through my open mouth.

"Are you tired?"

Did I mistake you for yawning? When he smacked his lips once or twice and looked next to him, he still saw a brother with a lively face. My brother sat comfortably on the bed facing me head-on, and in one hand he held a nearly empty bottle of alcohol bottle.

Just think about it. I remember that my older brother was much stronger than me. In modern times and in Hall Plain.

"If you're tired, you can take a nap. It's an empty room anyway."

My brother spoke one more time in a very sweet voice, and I slowly shook my head from side to side.

"I'm not drunk.”

"I know, that's not why I asked you if you were drunk, but if you were tired.”

"Oh, my."

My brother laughed quietly. When I saw it, I thought I dried something. So I turned my head forward again, extended my arms to one side, and picked up a new bottle that had not been opened yet. Ppong! As soon as I took off the cap with a slow touch, I felt a warm feeling coming to my back.

"Oh, by the way, why did you want to come here? Alcohol, though...Is this the only place you wanted to come?”

"It's just a place that reminds me of the old days."

"Thoughts of the past.

"…Do you remember when you were in modern times?"

I changed the subject for no reason. And Young Min-han immediately understood my intention.

"Modern? What kind of memories?"

"You and I were into an American drama before. I remember making my room look like a movie theater to watch a drama."

"Oh, I remember. Was it the Big Bang theory? Haha. It was really crazy back then.”

"I had fun. Get a popcorn container and stuff it with snacks, or drag it to the front of the monitor to watch it lying down and tilt it as much as you can..”

"And then the monitor fell and cracked."

We couldn't see each other's faces because they were facing each other. But a slight tremor from the shoulder showed that his brother was smiling. So I had a light smile and took a sip with a bottle of alcohol. Then I wiped my mouth and opened it quietly.

"Did you watch season four? What's the number now?.”

"I'm sure there's more. If I go back, I'll see as much as I can...By the way, is that why?”

"Huh? What?"

"You chose this room as the place you wanted to come." Because you want to feel the nostalgia you've experienced in modern times?"

My brother paused as if he were looking around the room, and then he started speaking in a low tone.

"I don't think it's very similar."

It was then.

"…No, that's not it."

All of a sudden, all of a sudden, my mind went clean. Then he looked at the wall and continued, feeling possessed.

"This is…."

"Yes."

"It was the accommodation I used when I was a Hamill Clan One."

"…Huh?"

"It's almost my first year now.It's already been nine years since I joined the Hamill Clan."

"Suhyun?"

The back of my neck stings. Now he seems to have realized something is wrong with him.

"What do you mean…?"

"Brother."

But I cut my brother off right away. And when I finally turned my head and looked back, I saw a brother who looked at me with a curious eye. The distance was so close that the eyes could see each other's faces.

"I know you think it's weird. But don't cut me off in the middle, just listen to me for a second.”

"You…."

"Please. Please."

“…….”

My brother didn't answer anything.

I couldn't bear to face that gaze any more, so I turned my head again and stared at the wall ahead.

“…….”

“…….”

And the uncomfortable silence that follows. As I savored such silence quietly, I had a sudden thought. I thought I had to say it, but maybe I was hesitating until now.

"Then I'll get started."

Yeah. You don't have to wait for your brother's answer here.

As soon as I decided so, I opened my mouth quietly, but calmly.

"There was a young man. The young man was a young man who had just been discharged from the military, and he fell asleep on the train."

Eleven years ago, just before I came into Hallplane.

"When he woke up and opened his eyes, he realized he was in a strange place. And I had to take the test of rite of passage without a chance to understand the situation, and I had to desperately run away from the monsters I'd never seen before. After barely seven days, a sort of qualified young man enters Hallplane. It has nothing to do with your will.”

The back, which had been removed for a while earlier, had already come back together. The warmth behind me made me feel a sense of peace, and I decided.

Let's get to the conclusion right now. If I can't stand it in the middle, "It was actually a joke." Let's draw a line in advance so that we can't go back to this one word.

"And the next ten years have passed, young man…No, the man was able to reach the top of Hallplane after countless twists and turns. The man eventually reached the end and finally qualified to return to Earth.”

“…….”

"But the man didn't return to Earth. Rather than going back to Earth, you chose to turn back time and return to the time when you first came into Hallplane? Why? …Because a man had a purpose.”

“…….”

"I'm the man."

I continued without a break to see if my mind would change.

And it was not until the conclusion was reached that the heart was beating hard. Soon I gathered my knees together and slowly wrapped my arms around them. At the same time, there was a sudden sign of surprise, shivering through the back.

After a while, I turned my head calmly and looked back.

My brother's face was expressionless. I just couldn't see what it was thinking to look at me gently.

After looking into each other's eyes for a while, I felt that the eyes I was looking at were slightly buzzing. At the same time, my brother's lips also slowly fell off.

"Suhyun."

"Brother... I don't quite understand what you're saying."

The moment I heard that, I closed my eyes tightly.

Of course, I think it's ridiculous to think about it myself and objectively, but...Why do I feel so despondent?

It was then.

"So…."

When I found out that my brother hadn't finished talking, I swallowed without realizing it.

"A little more. No, I want you to tell me more details than you said earlier."

I blinked once or twice at the usual remark.

Yes, as expected. My brother did not say what nonsense he was talking about, but he showed his attitude to listen to me once. It was proof that I didn't take my words lightly. Of course, I don't believe it completely, but this attitude alone was grateful to me.

I kept blinking my eyes. Then, he nodded slowly, chewing his lips, which was shaking a little.

Before long, I opened my mouth quietly.

*

"…So I decided. I would rather start over than go back to Earth alone. I will change the past, save it all, and return with everyone."

Only after I finished my sentence, I picked up the gaze that had been staring at the ground the whole time and stared at the window.

When I first arrived, there was a clear light, but the sun seems to be rising. I sighed for a long time as I saw the light sunset on the floor.

It was just one word. It was really just one word.

One word of detail encouraged me a little bit, so I unraveled what I had been through from beginning to end.

Of course that didn't mean everything. I thoroughly deleted the parts that I was ashamed to say, such as murder, robbery, and rape, and only told the story based on the thick flow.

That alone was full of things to talk about and enough to complicate my brother's brain. Rather, it was thought that there was a place where there was not enough explanation because it was too summarized.

But it was inevitable. It was really hard to capture 10 years of curved time in less than a day.

Despite talking nonstop for hours, my brother listened to me well. Of course there have been a few breaks in between, but it's mostly about what I've been hurt.

For example, when I told him that I was stabbed in the abdomen and fainted by Belpegor, my brother was so angry that he stopped talking.

Anyway.

But I think I did my best to talk as much as I could.

And after all that talk, my brother opened his mouth for the first time.

"…I see. That's the story."

Soon after, my brother opened his index finger with one hand and started tapping the floor. It was a habit that my brother and I do when we have a lot on our minds.

That brother's face was more calm than I thought. But the whole thing is, like, trying to be cool? I'm sure there's a lot of facts that I've guessed in between that complicated my inner self, if I'm just going to pass it off lightly.

Looking at my brother for a while, I uttered a word.

"It's okay, so say something.”

"…I don't know. If I say this all of a sudden...It's too big to handle right away, so it doesn't really work."

My brother answered honestly.

"Ha…."

Then he sighed deeply and stopped moving his index finger.

"Su-hyun, I can't believe what you're saying. But before you came in...I mean, if you know a lot of facts that you haven't told me, or if you think about what's been going on since you came in...I think that's true in the circumstances."

"In the circumstances…."

"It's not that I don't believe it."

My brother answered right away.

"But…."

However, he did not immediately stop talking about anything hesitating.

Suddenly feeling thirsty, I picked up a bottle of liquor burning with twilight and took it to my mouth. The liquid intruding into the mouth soaked the dry throat, but the thirst still lingers. Rather, it felt as if it was a drought-stricken rice field.

I opened my mouth with difficulty as soon as I saw an empty bottle.

"Just?"

His brother looked down at the floor with his unique lonely eyes. The face of the sunset is very red.

After a while, my brother's lips finally opened.

"I don't know. I've been feeling uneasy ever since I heard you were back. The reason is... I don't know. Why do I feel so frustrated all of a sudden?”

Listening to my brother, I nodded once or twice. As a result, my brother was half in doubt now. Literally, I have to admit it under circumstances, but it was very difficult to feel and accept it for a moment.

And I could understand my brother's position. Thinking about it in a different way, how would Ansol react if he suddenly said, "I turned back time in the future!" No matter how much you say the right thing, you may not be confused.

After a while, I let out a short sigh and put my hand into my arms. Then, he took out the "fix of truth" and put it out for his brother to see. To be honest, I didn't really want to use it, but....

"You know what this is, don't you?"

"It's... a crystal of truth."

"Right."

And I put my hand on the crystal and blew the mana. Soon a small light flame rose into the crystal ball, and the "fixing of truth" was simply triggered.

Looking at the still blue flame, I raised my head and slowly opened my mouth.

"What I said is true.”

"…you."

My brother frowned for a moment and immediately lowered his eyes to check the crystal ball. As the eyes soon grew to the size of a lantern, it seems that the color did not change.

I opened my mouth for another confirmation.

"I'll do it one more time. Everything I said to my brother after I came into this room is true. I'm a user who's seen the end of Hallplane, and I'm back here now with the aim of changing the past."

Still the same burning blue flame.

And it's only now that my brother's attitude has changed.

My brother's attitude was consistent from the beginning. From the time we met outside the building until now, there has been no change. The voice was the same and the behavior was the same.

But by now, the complexion has definitely changed. Something was very cold, but it looked as if the mood had gone down.

How long has it been so long?

"Whoo…."

Soon after, my brother wrapped his face with his hands. The sound of breathing friction comes out through the gap of slightly opened hands. With his hands still on his face, he spoke in a weak voice for the first time.

"Yeah, it was real."

"Yes."

"Huh? Ha. Haha.It was real, it was real. You've already cleared the world."

"Right."

Soon it was time to end the duration of the "revised truth".

"And for some reason that doesn't seem like it, I took the opportunity to go back."

"Huh? Huh?"

Then my brother slowly raised his head. Then he lowered his hands down and started staring at me. When I faced those intense eyes, I could feel that my brother had organized something for some reason.

"Now I know why I was nervous. Kim Soohyun. Just because you said so. I'll be glad to hear that you're back....”

My brother, who was about to say something, shut up for a moment. Then I was lost in thought for a moment, and then I opened my mouth.

"No, I don't. Huh. Okay. Let me ask you one more question. Keep your hands still.”

“…….”

Maybe it's because you were just thinking about what you were saying. After a while, I realized that my brother was waiting for my words and I said in a hurry.

"What is it?"

"You said that. I died trying to save you. Tell me that part again, in detail.”

"Oh, which one?"

I had to feel a sting in my stomach while I was speaking. Because I didn't lie about this part, but I intentionally excluded it.

But his brother continued relentlessly, as if he had no room left.

"Suhyun, did I beg you to save me when I died? Or did you ask me to somehow save myself and find a way to get back together?”

“…….”

"Answer me."

"No, I didn't.”

Although he answered calmly, he was unfeeling. I looked for a bottle of alcohol because I was thirsty again, but most of it was broken while talking.

"Sure."

"I told you not to save me. And he told me to survive somehow and end it."

Fire! Fire!

At that moment, the duration of the "revision of truth" ended with my brother's question.

I slowly, very slowly pulled out of the thought that it was really over now. And when I slightly raised my head, I could see my brother approaching me standing upright.

It was a moment when I was going to examine my brother's face.

Clink!

“!”

"This…."

What's happening now?

As I roughly lowered my head, I saw a "fix of truth" that was broken into pieces and divided into fragments. At the moment, I couldn't understand the situation, so there was intense confusion, but I stopped breathing the moment I saw my brother's face.

And so did my brother.

My brother looked as if he was about to say something, but as soon as he saw my face, he closed his mouth. The expression seemed simply complex and had an indescribable emotion.

Then my brother said.

"Why, why…."

"What's the matter…?"

I smoothed my face reflexively. What kind of expression do I have now? What kind of face would make you react like that?

"Gain...!

My brother kept trying to say something, but he groaned and groaned. Then he suddenly sat down and looked at me similar to me.

"You... you stupid...!”

A barely squeezed voice. I could feel it instinctively from the shivering tone. I have a lot to say, but I put it all in one word a while ago.

Then, I felt his warm touch on the top of his head.

And that was the moment.

"…It's been very hard, hasn't it?”

I clenched my teeth quickly. At the same time, his brother suddenly began to show off. So I closed my eyes reflexively.

I can't elaborate on how I feel. However, I felt like I was compensated for all the pain I had to go through for 10 years at once by my brother.

I felt like I could understand how you felt a little while ago. Of course you didn't feel the same way. No. I'm sure you felt the opposite way.

I pressed down everything I wanted to say, like my brother, and managed to say a word.

"No, it's okay."

It feels like you're sweeping your hair gently. I opened my eyes slightly, and then closed them again in the still alive roar.

Feeling my brother's gaze from place to place for a while, I hoped this moment would pass quickly, and at the same time, it would continue a little longer.

In such conflicting emotions, I thought quietly.

It wasn't a bad choice to confess.

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I'm sorry. I felt light when I woke up, but my condition got bad again while I was writing. I was lying down, I was lying down, I was writing, and I fell asleep. Please understand that the update has been delayed due to poor physical condition. _(__)_

PS. When I clicked Register, it suddenly popped up that the connection was unstable because there were a lot of people accessing it, but it worked when I clicked it four times. And there were four episodes at once, so I quickly deleted three.

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