Life Of Secret's And Loe's

We eat in silent untill Mom break the silent .

Mom:So yoongi do you have a bucket list

Yoongi:For what aunty

Mom:I mean , When danica always leaving korea he

always doing a bucket list that he want to experience

Yoongi:Ah..Yes Aunty , Actually im too excited , i dont

know what i do when we arive there

Mom:Do you think it will be fun when you study there

study

Mom:I know , but Do you think you will have fun there

without my daughter

Aunty:I know , they always bonding

Because of that i whisper something while slicing a steak .

Me:Why will be fun , They Dont even deserve it that Pfttt.. (Whisper)

Mom:do you want to tell something to us Sweety

Me:F.u.c.k.i.n.g hell....NO

Dad:Danica dont speak a provective words infront of food even to us .

Yoongi:Why me

Me:Cause they always interested to you dummy

Yoongi:What the f.u.c.k

Me:See , he said a provective word but you dindt even say something , Oh Gravity Do a Hardless Bitch

Dad:We dindt grew you up like that

Me:Cause your always in your bussiness and always working , Its not my fault why i grew up like this , im not the problem Dad , You and Mom had a problem why im grew up like this...(Sarcastic)

I Start to eat untill dad stood up and slam the table and I look to Dad .

Dad:Do you think its okay to me , That you will treat me and your mother like that way huh!!

Me:Its not my fault , If you guys treat me better back then and always time for me i will be not like this , its your problem Not mine .

Dad:What is your problem

Me:My problem , You guys , You dont know everything what is happening , how many times i want to tell you but no , When im coming home in trouble , Scared dun lang kayo nag mamalasakit sakin , Whrn im okay dun naman kayo nawawala , Its better to die than to live .

Mom:Sweety

Me:No , Mom , Im right , Since ever you dindt love me

Then tears flow up

Me:You are not here when i need you back then , You just knew when me and kyle broke up because Heidi told you guys , You dont know what happend to me , I dindt make it to the University of States , Ive been drunking but you dont know , I was uppset yesterday but you guys dont know that , Everyone dont know , You dindt love me back then , you dont have time for me back then , No one can understand me now Because of what kyle did And You guys too , Are you even my parents , Cause for me....*Sob*.....No , Cause you dont care about me ...

I Cried so i cover my mouth and walk away , I went to my room and Went for a sleep .

-Morning-

I woke up Because of my alarm , i turn off the alarm clock and stood up and do my morning routine . Aftet doing my morning routine i wear Pants And my White Sleeves i wear my shoes , I Ponytail my hair and Took my bag , Phone , Head phone , Motor key , I wear my headphone and listen to a music , I went downstairs and saw My parents and the others eating i just ignore them and went to garage and i was about to wear my helmet but someone hold m wrist so i stop and Put my headphone to my neck and i look and its Namjoon .

Namjoon:Can we talk

Me:We have nothing to talk

Namjoon:Please

Me:Fine , What do you want to talk

Namjoon:First will you join me to walk untill we made it to university

Me:I dont want to walk , Can you just say it faster

Namjoon:Ahmm.....

Me:Okay times up , Ill gave you later a time to think what do you really want to tell me .

I wear my helmet and Drive my motor . I arive ti the university so i park my motor to the parking lot , I went inside of the university , I went to my classroom and sit and everyone looking at me , i look to everyone .

Kurt:Dindt you heard yesterday

Me:What do you mean

Kurt:Tommorow will have valentines day

Me:I though it on february , its just January

Kurt:Yes , The principal move back ward the valentines day here , Cause In february we will have no school days

Me:Then why all of you looking at me , am look like a February 14

Kury:I dont know

Me:Strange

Then the class start .

The Class dismiss , so i fix my stuff and and went to my locker and took my wallet and headphone then i lock it , I was about to leave but Someone hold my wrist and its Namjoon again .

Me:What

Namjoon:Can we talk now

Me:Okay

Namjoon:Meet you in the Rooftop after you eat .

Me:Okay

I went to cafeteria and Order something , I order One slice of Chocolate cake , One Kimbap and one juice . i was about to walk untill someone bump me and split me a water in my sleeves , i look who is it and its Cassandra .

Me:Wah...Jinja , is this accidently or You really split me a water

Cassandra:Im sorry , Danica

Then someone stood up and its Yeonmi and Heidi and yumi went to us .

Yeonmi:Next time cass , Look where you walking

Yumi:Are yoy the one who split a water

Heidi:Lets go Danica

Heidi grab my wrist we was about to leave until Yeonmi push Heidi .

Yeonmi:Who the hell do you think you are to pull away my friend infront of me huh?

Heidi:Friend , We are just her Reall friend not you

Yumi:And it will never be you Witch

I dindt even eat a peace full because of them , Ive been anoyed so i slam my tray to the desk .

Me:Are you guys fin to fight , Here Kimbap , Chocolate and juice for you guys , i already lost my apotite .

I walk away and went to the classroom and went to my locker , I took a tisue and wipe my sleeves , After that i feel dizzy but i dindt even care , I went to rooftop and saw Namjoon and the others .

Namjoon:What happend to you

Me:I though this will be private

Namjoon:No , Actuly we all want to talk to you

Me:I dont want to tak to you guys if he's part of this discation

I turn around and about to leave but yoongi spoke up so i stop walking

Yoongi:Why you always hate me , What did i do wrong

I turn around slowly and smirk on him .

Me:Why dont you think of it , Oh....Dont waist time , Nothing , You heard me NOTHING , its just do you really think i like you as my Cousin , Mom , Dad they accept you as my Cousin and as there Nephew and Aunty Accept me as Her Nephew and You accept me as your cousin but me , Your not part of my life .

Yoongi:What

Me:I mean , why i always have a anger to you , First Cause i dindt really like you , Second you dindt even prove yourself that your a good cousin , Third You stole my Part of my life , Fourth you always have my parents attention , Now This is my quetion why you always have my parents attention and why me i dont even get their attention except for Saturday

Yoongi:I dont know , Your just a cold person , you dont know how to have fun , You even dont know how to be happy , I dindt stole your place , its not my fault and its not my fault why i dindt prove to you im a good cousin cause you dindt even care of me .

Me:I only waist my time to you .

I turn around and left them .