Last Man On Earth When There Is No Earth ?

Planet Rooster, Gram city, Seven

".... I wanna die"

"hey, get your act together" a really mean voice came from above "you shouldn't beat yourself abou it, at least you are one step closer to realizing your dream!"

'one step closer my a.s.s, can't you see that I want to feel depressed alone?'

"no I can't, and I don't really care" the ghost currently possessing my body, named Iris, floated above my head as I hug my knees in the bathtub. feeling sorry and pathetic I expected her to do more like yesterday, but this time she seems to pull out her punches, going easy on me this time only fills my depression gauge to the brim little by little.

"well you could say I pity you, but I also feel proud you know" facing me while upside down her cat like ears twitched twice "you actually went and did something on your own, and you deserve your reward, I won't judge you this time"

'even if you say that, I feel pathetic after doing it'

"yeah, it's pathetic, but it's not like you had any choice"

'ugh, you aren't making me feel any better'

"it's not my job to" she let out an exasperated sigh "anyways, what's done is done so pull yourself together"

'easy said than done'

'...there is no fixing it after that'

"aren't you sure you are exaggerating it a little"

'hardly... you can see through my memories righ? aren't you able to see that we are done?'

"it's because I can read your memories that I say it" I can tell she is trying to comfort me, but I would appreciate it more if she just went back to sleep "you are exaggerating things, just think about it"

.....

"haah...ahh...ahn~....hafuuu...." I listened to Lilia's seductive m.o.a.ns as I let myself dive into the sensation of her overgrown bosom.

the shirt she wore was too thin and once her b.r.e.a.s.ts slipped out of what was beneath I felt like my hands were directly playing with them making me pour all my focus into my palms. At first I planned to let my hands sneak inside and have a taste without anything in between but I couldn't bring myself to let go even, not even for a second. A small protrusion on the soft things caught my attention

" hyaahn!!!" when I pressed on it Lilia released a lovely scream. I pinched the tips of her b.r.e.a.s.ts, feeling how hard they were I began to have the d.e.s.i.r.e to lick and suck them. I looked at Lilia's t.h.i.g.hs being rubbed together, she must have felt something down there. Her body, twisting and wriggling as she tried to escape, only made my grip on her soft buns stronger

As I squeezed them one more time her heavy breathing settled and the trembling stopped.

"ah... no-no...ahhn~....ahhaaAAANN!!!"

'did she...' I never expected to make a girl climax just by massaging her b.r.e.a.s.ts, me on the other hand I only felt pain down there as my meat pole struggled against the fabric of my shorts. Lilia unconsciously covered her important place and I could hear a fain leaking sound, when it seized her head fell on my c.h.e.s.t as her whole body lost all strength.

"...Lilia... are you okay?..." I asked her how she felt, but all I could hear was her faint breaths. I waited for her to respond, and after a few minutes she just stood up and walked to the bathroom without taking a look around.

.....

It was taking too long, Lilia had yet to come out and I started to worry so I made my way and knocked on the door before asking again

"Lilia... is something wrong?"

I expected as much, but when no response came my uneasiness skyrocketed.

I was about to knock once more but then the door opened just a little

"...." from the small gap Lilia peeked, tears began forming in her eyes, lips tightly closed.

I had nothing to say, I didn't even know what I did wrong. She looked at me with teary eyes, and with each moment of silence the thought of having done something wrong weighted more on my heart

"Lilia..."

"I..." she began to say, then stopped. Lilia looked away then closed the door, the small screen beside it turned red indicating that the bathroom is now locked

"I'm sorry... Seven, but..." she said from behind the cold metallic door "could you leave me alone for a while..."

....

About an hour passed, and Lilia didn't come out. I heard the sound of water a few minutes ago, for her to take a shower after bathing not that long ago, it's not a really good sign.

As I wait while being consumed by anxiety Iris woke up. I noticed it before but she really is becoming more cat like as time passed. I wasn't in the mood to watch her lick the back of her hand and scratching behind her ears. When she talked, I just ignored her. She tried to get my attention a few times, waving her hands then her tail -when did she learn how to control it?- but I pretended not to see her. It looked like she gave up, she crossed her arms as she floated in a sitting position, looking down on me, and a moment later she jumped in her place her face turning red. I didn't need to ask, she probably went and read my memories and was surprised by what she saw. From there she just sat in silence, never asking any questions.

A few minutes later, the bathroom door finally opened and Lilia came out. Her clothes were changed back to her usual, and it looked like she was keeping her distance as she stood there not saying anything, not even looking my way.

I knew something was wrong, but nevertheless I I made my way toward her, and my fear was confirmed as she took a step back.

"...." her reaction hit me hard. Her body didn't stop shivering, hands pressed in front of her c.h.e.s.t. Her eyes drifted to a corner, and her face had a faint red around the cheeks.

once again I found myself frozen in my place, I felt a few cracks spreading throw me each time her shoulders raised. I may shatter if she backed away any further so instead I was the one to back away first.

With a safe distance now between us her lips finally opened, but nothing came out. Lilia repeatedly opened and closed her mouth, struggling to say something. I said she didn't need to force herself, but she shook her head refusing to.

she inhaled really deep, then looked directly into my eyes

"th-there is something important I want to tolk to you about"

"... alright"

I proposed that we should sit down first. Lilia sat on the sofa, and to make sure not to make her feel uncomfortable I dragged a chair until a few meters away from her.

for some reason Iris retreated back to her corner in my mind and stayed silent, so I was left there to deal with the awkward situation.

I didn't know what was going on with me, usually I would silently wait and listen but for some reason my impatience reached the limit as I waited for Lilia to speak so I took the initiative and asked

"... um, yes..." it's like all the resolve she showed a second ago dissapeared. Her eyes drifted once more to a corner, but this time she began twirling a strand of her hair around her fingers. She wasn't completely back to normal, but I could tell her nervousness eased a little.

"...well?" I grew impatient, and my right leg started moving up and down. Rather than impatience it's more like irritation, I knew what's coming so it couldn't be helped.

I ran out of luck, time for bad things to start.

"I..." she began to say, but stopped again. She took another deep breath and once more attempted to keep eye contact

" what i wanted to tolk about is... our relationship "

"..."

" a lot of things happened after that night, the night we... slept together. And we didn't have the opportunity to discuss it after we were rescued"

yeah, here it comes. Well, from the start she was more than what I deserved, I should consider myself lucky for getting a kiss, to touch her body.

" I know I was the one who said we are married but..."

I will miss her lips the most, I may not have all my memories but something tells me she was the first one.

It was good when it lasted, but now I have to go back to reality, I have been inside this dream for far too long.

"I-I would like to... I would like to wait... a little more..."

"...hm?" wait some more? wait for what?

" I know it's selfish for me to ask but... could we wait sometime..."

"... wait for what?"

Lilia went silent again, but it didn't last long this time

"... child..." she said, her voice barely reaching my ears "I think it's a little too early to try making a child so..."

.....

at first I was kind of relieved

"oh! is that it?" it wasn't like I wanted to have kids or anything. Rather than thinking it's too early it just never crossed my mind, and when I finally thought about it I may have been on the road to making a really big mistake.

for some reason Lilia seemed to be surprised by my answer. I explained to her that we are both too young for such responsibilities, then I apologized for not thinking it through.

This brought me back to my sence, putting me down to my right place. I don't know if a child between a human and a Zesionien is a possible thing, but either way I should have put some thought into it before blindly submitting to my l.u.s.t and possibly ending up hurting Lilia even more.

If Lilia didn't say anything and we ended up doing it, best case scenario is for nothing to come out of it. On a second thought it may not be the best, it would be as complicated if we one day wanted to have a child, but compared to the worst case...

If by chance our offspring had mixed blood it wouldn't matter as long as they are healthy, but what if some disability came along? I say that because even if we looked so much alike humans and Zesioniens are two totally different creatures, if our DNA doesn't match well then Lilia may end up bearing something the world won't forgive.

I don't want to put Lilia through such experience, so I resolved myself to not lay a finger on her again until I'm sure. This probably would be as easy and as hard as it sounds. Me, a v.i.r.g.i.n for more than seventeen year with no immunity to girls, won't survive by the side of an alien beauty like Lilia. But I can wait, I have confidence in that aspect.

Now that the misunderstanding is cleared I could finally relax. I changed the sheets and prepared the bed, but something continued bugging me for a while.

It wasn't hard to tell, because even after we had that talk Lilia still kept her distance from me. Saying it would be better for me to sleep on the sofa tonight I took out an extra blanket from the closet and placed it along one of the pillows from the bed.

Lilia apologized again, and I told her it's fine. Maybe I should consider moving to another room, even if she didn't say it herself I know being alone with me isn't reassuring, but knowing Lilia she might feel bad for pushing me away, or at least I wish she is. I might also lose it again if I woke up and didn't find her.

The lights went out and we both went to sleep. Funny thing, I thought I had the ability to sleep under any circ.u.mstances but after all that happened there is no way I could.

I should feel easy after that talk we had but instead I'm diving more and more into the bottomless pit of depression. Iris pretended to be asleep, I called her but got no reply. She may had thought it's too bothersome to deal with me in this state and it would be best to just leave me alone.

A few hours pass, and I'm still awake feeling sorry for myself. I put on my headphones and try listening to some music, yet none of it made me feel better.

Images from what happened replayed in my mind. I could still feel her lips touching mine, the texture of her tongue and the taste of her saliva. I hear her m.o.a.ning in my ears as I remember massaging those soft marshmallows.

The fantasies became clearer, I see myself taking her shirt off then continue playing with her b.r.e.a.s.t. I make her climax then let her breath.

I start stripping myself, Lilia embarrassingly sticks out her h.i.p.s. Her swimsuit like u.n.d.e.r.w.e.a.r is as I imagined it to be, now it's dripping wet, her legs too are covered in honey juices.

I move the cover aside exposing her secret lips, Lilia looks at me from over her shoulder as I bring my face close to her b.u.t.t. I start l.i.c.k.i.n.g the honey-sap, and the more I licked the more came out. Lilia let out seductive crys as my tongue stroked her secret flesh, and hearing them made me feel aroused all the more. Finally being unable to hold it any longer I took out my tool, I squeezed her b.u.t.t cheeks as I put it in place and...

I felt embarrassed letting my mind picture those acts, but as soon as I arrived at that point I got up and ran to the bathroom.

I didn't care if Lilia already fell asleep or that Iris is watching me. I pulled down my pants, put some of that alien soap in my hand, and went at it several times until the whole reserve was dry.