King of Stage

Vaguely, Ronan was able to search for the vague memory of that morning in his mind.

It was Ronan who was the first to discover that Trastan had left without saying goodbye.

That morning, after waking up, Ronan knocked on the door of Trastan's room in a daze, top-heavy, and asked Trastan to have breakfast together, but he didn't get a response after knocking on the door for a long time.

"This room has been checked out."

The cleaner said this, but Ronan thought it was just a joke, or maybe there was a mistake in the registration of the motel, and he joked with the cleaner. It became extremely blurred.

However, this is not a joke.

The band members discovered that Trastan's entire room had been emptied out and that they had disappeared with all their previous tour earnings.

Whether it was a personal phone call or a company call, no one could find Trastan; whether it was an email or a location, everything disappeared, as if this person disappeared out of thin air—at least the band members couldn’t find any clues, so they fell into chaos .

Because it was too sudden and too weird, the question marks could not be explained reasonably, and the band members Qiqi denied the possibility of being "abandoned and abandoned". They even looked for many reasons and possibilities for Trastan.

Maybe, Trastan was kidnapped, after all, the security in New Orleans has always been worrying; maybe, Trastan suffered some accident, and he was trapped in the hospital or some wild mountains waiting for rescue...

Perhaps, Trastan just needs to calm down and reorganize his thoughts, and rethink the future development of the band; Confirm by yourself...

and so on and so forth.

They tried to find a reliable statement, which could not only explain Trastan's departure, all luggage and cash were packed away, and even completed the check-out; The last glimmer of hope.

Even though I know that my guess is full of loopholes, I still force myself to believe in those unreliable "maybes".

However, I didn't wait too long. The lawyer's letter arrived two days ago. All the dream bubbles of self-deception were burst like this, and the cruel and bloody reality was exposed in front of my eyes. In a cold way, without explanation or discussion, There was no room for maneuver, and the conclusion was pronounced.

According to scientific research, grief has five stages, Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.

And so the band members went into phase two, rage.

Everyone can feel the anger, especially Cliff and Maxim, who show their spikes like hedgehogs and attack but also protect themselves. Even though they knew it wasn't their teammates' fault at all, they still couldn't control the flow of negative emotions, and they needed to vent.

Ronan was no exception, so when Cliff mentioned the name Trastan, his memory was instantly awakened. Deception and betrayal, abandonment and ignorance, those sharp wounds are still bleeding, and he can still clearly remember the scene after the room cleaner opened the door:

Messy bed, empty, although there are traces of the tenant's life, there is no figure, there is an unfinished glass of beer on the table, the sheets and pillows scattered on the carpet are very messy, but the luggage has disappeared , the popularity and temperature gradually dimmed.

That picture, so real and so clear, is firmly imprinted in the depths of memory. Turns out, this is what it feels like to be abandoned.

But what should be done?

Ronan was a little confused.

He still has not been able to completely get rid of the trance feeling of dislocation of time and space when his identity is changed,

Then there is such a huge and complicated situation to deal with, the only thought in my mind is, has I just tasted the taste of stage performance tonight, and I have come to the end of the dead end before I even have time to set sail for my dream?

Things, no turning point yet?

Raising his head, Ronan looked at his teammates who were both unfamiliar and familiar. Cliff's anger, Maxim's stubbornness, and Ollie's dullness, but no one spoke, shrouded in a depressive silence. Feeling the turbulent emotions stirring, negative emotions are eroding reason and... hope, but the scene in front of him made Ronan slightly relieved.

Not only did the mood not sink, but it also slowly rose——

Anger means caring.

Being sad means caring.

It is precisely because the flame of hope in the depths of the heart is still not extinguished, so the emotions of unwillingness and annoyance can easily seize the upper hand. They are not ready to give up. But reluctance and unwillingness are still suffering.

"We should go on and finish the tour."

Ronan spoke.

Cliff suddenly raised his head, his sharp eyes hit Ronan heavily, and his anger was ignited again, "Are you crazy?"

"Maybe." Ronan did not fight back like Maxim, but showed a smile and gave an affirmative answer with bright eyes.

Cliff couldn't help but choked, and couldn't keep up with the words that followed.

Ronan continued, "Your words are correct. No one is waiting for our performance, and no one cares about our music. So is there any need for us to persevere?"

"However, we have persisted until now, haven't we? From full of hope to bruises to death, we still persist. We try our best to keep the vitality of the band alive, not just one or two, but four together We have worked together and united to persist until now.”

"Are we just giving up here?"

Ronan's words were unhurried, without impassioned emotions, but because of the bright light in his eyes, they possessed a powerful force. The light words were like golden sunlight falling on the clear spring in the mountain stream, moss The spring water flowing between the water plants and boulders also adds a little warmth, and the reflection of the sun in the water dispels the coldness and darkness in every corner.

Ollie raised his head abruptly and looked at Ronan eagerly, his heart pounding involuntarily.

"I know, I also understand, maybe this last journey is meaningless at all, and there is nothing worth looking forward to in these last five performances, and we may even have to pay a price, but... these prices, are they really that important? ?”

"Is it really worth denying our persistence and hard work just because a Trastan left? Is his affirmation really that important? Just because a Trastan gave up, denying our journey along the way , Do you really have no regrets or regrets? Do you have such confidence?"

"Frankly, I haven't."

Ronan said so.