JUST 3 WORDS

SHAYLA

We hang out for a couple of hours before he sends me back to my dorm. I saw my roommate and best friend in college Megan as I opened the door.

"Hey, stranger, you missed the party." I said in irritated tone.

"Yeah, I am so sorry Shy. Mickey came late when we got there you were nowhere to be found." She defended herself. "But, I heard from Royce about what happen and I am so sorry about that. On the other side, he told me something else." She grinned with a sweet tone. "Tell me about him."

I shook my head and took off my dirty clothes then toss it to my laundry basket. I opened my closed to get a new one.

"Okay, okay, okay. You know I am always here to listen if you want to talk or share about him." She said and hugged me. 

"I know friend I know." I replied then she released me and went for a shower.

The rest of the night I could not sleep. I turned my head to Megan's bed she was already sleeping. I could not fall asleep my mind was occupied. It is not something about but with someone. Yeah, after Zander dropped me off and even exchanged number but never mention other things.

I did not even ask about personal stuff. Have he found someone? Is he married? Maybe he is married, what happened to us was just sex accidentally because I was drugged. He rescued me from it. I heavily sighed then hugged the purple stuff toy he gave me.

Yes, I always brought it with me wherever I am since he left our hometown and then I came here away from home. Of course it should be next to me in my bed hugging it at night. 

I moved on and graduated from high school and here I am almost graduating in college. I have been in a relationship but always ended in a short term relationship. Just last year broken up with my third boyfriend so basically I moved from Zander. 

We never had relationship back then so definitely we are just flings before so I moved on, I move on right? I do not secretly love him anymore now or in the future because he is married. Is he?

It was just puppy love in my high school so there is no love at all. Puppy Love...? No, I do not love him before or even now. It was just puppy love...

I closed my eyes and erased my thoughts about him. I do not love him anymore and I should stop whatever it is I feel about him.