Jane's Love

I woke slowly, coming to consciousness gradually, fumbling with a memory of what happened before I blanked out.

My mom she had entered the room but after that there was no memory.

I was in a hospital bed and that didn't make any sense, I was filled with a heavy lethargy that made even thinking of opening my eyes an effort, scattered images flew at me, everything was so confusing.

I thought I was dead, maybe all this were my imagination but the next instant I heard a shuffling noise and I knew I wasn't alone even without opening my eyes.

"Jane?.

Mom" my mouth was so dry I could barely form words.

"I thought you weren't going to make it, you have been sleeping for a long time".

Mom move towards me then she sank down on the side of the bed, I started crying.

" I....i; I coughed softly. I don't understand mom, what happened?" I'm supposed to be dead. I said in my mind.

"You tell me Jane".

I felt week, fade by frustration and anxiety, I fought the burning tear that were too close to the surface but I couldn't stop them from sliding my cheeks.

"Sweetie why?

Why did you tried to kill yourself, the doctor said you are going to be alright but you long lost your baby, my grandchild at the early stage of the carbon monoxide poisoning and it also affect your womb , you can't conceive again Jane.

Did you heard me you can't conceive again;

My God! You could have lost your life, image if we hadn't come back for the money we forgot, who knows what would have happened.

How did you know it kills Jane?". Mom asked crying

" I did alot af research on carbon monoxide poisoning after I saw it kill people in one of the movies I watched and i saw how quickly carbon monoxide combines with the hemoglobin in the blood and I also know it was known as the silent killer because people die in their sleep from faulty gas valves ,i also know that if I relax I won't feel any pain;

You call me stupid , I don't care I only wished you and dad hadn't came back that day." I said too tired to cry" mom I never plan on losing only my baby but my life too ".

I looked at mom, tears wet her rough cheeks " my life is dead mom, what will you do if you loss dad and me?

Jane!!!

I love you so much and I don't want anything to happen to you please.. Uh, please baby live for us and I promise you Tha you will fine happiness again... Please".

My mouth was so dry and I couldn't say anything, I started crying.

Mom moved towards me and pleaded with me not to cry

" don't cry baby , just promise me that you won't ever try this again".

" I promise mom".