I Really Didn’t Want to be a Savior

On June 16, 2020, "I Really Don't Want to Be the Savior" reached 10,000 orders.

Today is the second day of booking, and I have basically sorted out my thoughts.

I'm sorry that this speech is too long. After all, I haven't written the main text yet today.

How should I put it? As everyone knows, I have always been a street writer who lives by testimonials and begs for food by moving people.

There are too many thoughts in my mind, so even if my speech is short, it probably won’t be.

I started writing my first novel in December 2005. Unknowingly, it has been almost fifteen years now.

I didn't expect that I could stick to something that seemed boring for so long.

I wrote on and off for about fifteen years.

From 2005 to 2009, I read and told stories.

From 2009 to 2015, I worked hard most of the time. In my spare time, I just wrote something casually as a way to spice up my life.

From 2015 to 2019, I wrote novels full-time and completed three books: "Carry the Goddess Queen with You", "Monster Catching Dad" and "The Ninth Career".

In 2019, three eunuchs were published consecutively: "I Plant Myself", "I Can Control Heavenly Tribulation", and "The Immortal Palace in the Palm". I wrote no more than three books in one year and had zero income. I hit rock bottom.

In December 2019, I released "I Really Don't Want to Be the Savior" while numb. Maybe it's a coincidence, maybe it's fate, maybe it's because the flowers planted intentionally don't bloom, but the willows planted unintentionally create shade. These three words "savior" are not only the title of the book, but they are actually the savior of my personal life.

I didn't expect, really didn't expect, that this book would become my personal savior.

Frankly speaking, even if I didn’t write a book, I probably wouldn’t starve to death. Many readers know that I used to engage in scientific research and environmental protection, but many readers don't know that I actually face different "temptations" every year. What is the so-called temptation? I must have some connections in the field of environmental protection in Sichuan Province. Since 2015, I have always encountered temptations such as chief technical engineer, project manager, director of sewage treatment plant, person in charge of solid waste landfill... Similar positions are placed in front of me basically every year Two or three times.

Every time, I tell myself that it’s time to give up writing novels and go back to environmental protection, so that I can fulfill my social responsibilities and earn more money to support my family.

But every time, I think that writing novels and stories actually has social responsibility and can also realize the value of life. I always firmly believe that if I can use stories to convey something inspiring, what I leave to the times may be to build more sewage plants, operate more sewage treatment facilities, and torture more heavily polluting industries than I did. .

I asked myself again, what do I like most?

But in the end I chose to continue writing novels.

My family didn’t quite understand it, nor did my boss, boss, and university professor who I declined.

In fact, sometimes I don’t understand it myself.

I resigned before because I was forced by life and my income could not cover family expenses.

I have been on the market for a year now, and the first order is only 300, and the manuscript fee is several hundred a month. What should I insist on?

Now that the world has changed, if I return to the environmental protection industry and work as a technical director, I will earn more than 10,000 to 20,000 yuan a month.

Time flies by now, half a year has passed in the blink of an eye, and I still don’t understand what I was insisting on at that time.

Fortunately, persistence paid off.

I don’t know if it’s unprecedented to go from an initial order of 300 to more than 10,000 orders.

I don’t know if I can do better in the future.

But every time in the dead of night, I read the book reviews posted by my brothers and sisters, and saw that everyone was moved by me, I got an unparalleled sense of satisfaction and pride.

I would even imagine that if readers could recapture the moment of being moved by Chen Feng when facing difficulties in life, would they also be able to face difficulties like Chen Feng.

I hope my books can make other people's lives better. This is my highest goal.

I often tell some friends I have known for many years that authors should have a sense of responsibility and mission when writing books.

But I was also laughed at a lot.

If the writing is good, then the writing is good. Whatever makes you feel good will come as long as you make money with peace of mind.

You are a street product and have not made any money, so your mind is filled with a sense of responsibility. You cannot even support your own family. Are you qualified to talk about responsibility and help others?

I want to refute, I always want to say that the power of literature should not only be enjoyable, it should and must be something else.

But it turns out that this market is very realistic, and the world of traffic is very realistic. Only by having fun can you make money. At the same time, the world laughs at poverty but not at prostitution.

I am poor and humble, so I cannot refute.

Now I'm fine, I feel proud.

I have proved with facts that when writing online novels, you can not only pursue pleasure, but also talk about things that are not so exciting.

We should believe in the times and readers. Good and valuable things created with care will surely be noticed by others.

As fast food literature, if Internet literature can capture its bright spots, it can also give the era some more meaningful spiritual qualities under the surface of pleasure.

What I said was a bit shameless and shameless.

But now I am not afraid of being laughed at. Ever since I first started writing in 2005, I have tried to work in this direction for every novel I write.

Maybe I didn’t do well enough before, or maybe I didn’t have enough life experience, so I deserve to be mediocre.

At least now, I finally did it with the support of all my brothers and sisters, one subscription after another.

Thousands of orders.

I believe this will not be the end for us.

The plot of The Savior has only just fully unfolded.

Our future must be a broader sea of ​​stars.

I also believe that good things will eventually come out of the circle.

"The Savior" still won't be the end of my writing career.

I firmly believe that sooner or later, I will be able to join all my brothers and sisters who paid to subscribe and leave our mark in this era, moving forward firmly.

In the fast-food information age, we must leave behind something slower that belongs to us, something that can make people calm down.

This will surely become an important step in the development of new literature.

We will tell the world that online literature authors can combine the two characteristics of rapid creation and deep thinking.

This is unprecedented, something that cannot and should not be laughed at and scorned.

This is my highest pursuit in writing a book.

Here, I would like to express my special thanks to many people.

My editor-in-chief, Lu Ming, is a very enthusiastic, serious and responsible young man.

Thanks also to May, the editor-in-chief of the Sci-Fi Channel!

Thanks to my operations officer, die-hard readers Ye Feng, Deep Sea 2, Chengzi, etc., and everyone.

Thanks to the brothers who discussed with me on my writing path.

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Finally, let’s briefly summarize some recent updates.

The word count has not decreased, but it has become less regular.

I have to admit that as the plot progresses, it becomes more and more difficult to write while maintaining depth and avoiding boredom caused by repetition.

I can't say that I can definitely achieve perfection. I can only promise that I will try my best to work in a better direction.

I can also guarantee that every chapter I write is not intended to be misleading.

If you are really determined to get water, then writing it probably won't be so difficult.

In short, we strive to do better and ask for your understanding.

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