I Raised Snow White!

83. Beginning of self-awareness

[Episode 83] – Beginning of self-awareness

After the dance was over, Titania ran around the large ballroom and quickly started looking for Vivian. Due to the nature of Marzooka’s choreography, where her partner changes frequently, she has had several partner changes since dancing with her mother, making it difficult to know exactly where her mother is.

The smile on Titania’s face never faded as she ran through her ballroom looking for her mother. She never thought that her mother would allow her to attend the masquerade ball while dressing up as a man. Titania burst out laughing as she remembered her mother’s cross-dressing appearance.

‘Isn’t your mother the one who hates masquerade balls so much and enjoys them the most?’

Her mother’s cross-dressing was so perfect that it made you think so.

Broadened shoulders and longer legs. Plus, her flattened chest was hard enough to be mistaken for her muscles. She probably had a bandage or something, but the ladies who touched her while dancing were sure to mistake the bandage for a hard muscle. Because she was like Titania herself.

She said she would never have noticed if her mother hadn’t talked to her. Titania chuckled and quickly started looking for her mother. After walking around her ballroom for a bit, Titania was quickly able to find her mother.

Finding her mother was a very easy task. That’s right…

“Hey, over there! Could you please do this one more time? “Where did you learn such dexterity?”

“Have you decided on your next dance partner? If you haven’t decided, please-“

“Ah! It’s disgusting! “I was going to ask you first!”

“Are you really not saying anything to protect the concept?! Yes?!”

Because she was surrounded by her young daughters, so much so that everyone noticed her.

Among her daughters, I saw my mother looking a little embarrassed and listening to her daughters’ stories one by one. She was busy showing off small coin tricks and refusing the ladies’ invitations to dance.

The moment Titania checked where her mother was and was about to enter the crowd, her mother was seen kissing the back of a lady’s hand. Perhaps, her daughter had asked her mother for a favor.

She said, ‘It’s okay for her not to dance together, so I hope she does the same thing she did earlier.’ The mother tilted her chin as if thinking for a moment, then grabbed the back of her daughter’s hand and placed her lips on it.

“aaah! Me too! Me too!”

At that moment, scream-like cheers erupted from the ladies’ mouths. The young children were also busy showing their hands to their mother, saying they were so jealous. The moment I saw that cheerful appearance –

Titania felt upset.

Although she did not know why, Titania immediately thought, ‘Maybe she attended the masquerade ball for no reason?’ Because her people’s eyes are not on her, but on her mother? No, absolutely not.

Because she did not have the desire to show off. She had attended the masked ball to hide her identity as a princess in the first place. She was actually happy and joyful that others did not recognize her.

By kissing the back of the lady’s hand? I really didn’t understand this. ‘Why am I angry because my mother kissed the back of the lady’s hand?’ My mother was just ‘acting’.

But why? Does she feel bad seeing her mother popular? Shouldn’t she rather like her? No matter how much she thought about it, she couldn’t figure out why, but Titania didn’t want to leave her mother like that.

So Titania is-

“Excuse me.”

I decided not to let this situation go unnoticed.

When Titania spoke to the ladies from behind, the ladies recognized Titania and at the same time split into two sides, like waves splitting apart. The lady next to her mother also took a step back in an instant.

Even though she was wearing makeup and a mask, the fact that everyone recognized her and her attitude changed made Titania feel even more upset. This wasn’t the masquerade ball she had expected.

Titania pushed through the crowd of her daughters, raised her head and looked at her mother. At first glance, she saw an emotion similar to relief in the green eyes visible through the small eye holes in the wolf mask.

Obviously, those green eyes must have contained, in addition to feelings of relief, the hope that this situation would be resolved. However, Titania left her mother behind.

She spread her fan to cover her mouth, narrowed her eyes and smiled seductively.

“Youngsik, could you please ask me to be your dance partner?”

Then, Titania held out the back of her hand to Vivian.

When Titania saw the back of her outstretched hand, her daughters began to murmur.

Who on earth is that Yeong-sik, asking the princess to dance herself? He muttered so loudly that it was meaningless to whisper, saying that the princess had never personally asked him to dance before.

Vivian, who heard the muttering, widened her eyes and was taken aback by Titania’s sudden action. Then, she gently nodded her head, saying that Titania knew why she behaved like this.

She said that this was the only way to get her out of here, and Vivian believed in Titania. Clearly, there was no way out of this situation other than to become someone’s partner.

Vivian still gently wrapped Titania’s hand.

Then, as a sign of her permission, he brought the hand he was holding to her mouth and gently pressed her lips to the back of her hand.

As she felt her mother’s hot, soft lips against her skin, Titania felt every hair on her body stand on end. It was probably just a normal kiss she received, but somehow she was different.

What is it? How do you feel? Joy? Moved? I don’t know what it was about her, but Titania felt something about her penetrating her entire body. It felt like her heart was being squeezed, and for some reason I couldn’t help but laugh.

Glancing down at her mother, who was pressing her lips to the back of her own hand, Titania felt better, as if her bad mood had been a lie. It really sent shivers down her spine.

When Vivian removed her lips from the back of Titania’s hand, her daughters around her let out sighs and cheers at the same time. She laments that she is sad that Yeongsik was taken away, and she cheers excitedly that she saw something good.

Once the exclamations and cheers ended, the ladies around Vivian and Titania began to disperse. In an instant, when only the two of them were left, Vivian smiled and whispered in Titania’s ear.

“Thank you, she was honestly worried about how to get out…”

“So, why did you dress like a man?”

“…?”

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For some reason, Vivian didn’t know what to say for a moment at Titania’s angry attitude, so she shut her mouth. Was she upset because they made fun of her body and her head while dancing?

Or was the masquerade ball more disappointing than expected? Titania’s expression began to become more and more crumpled. She looks disappointed, or uncomfortable. Vivian gently lowered her head and whispered softly in Titania’s ear.

“Are you upset because I teased you? Or is it because the Masquerade was a disappointment? “You don’t look very good… Could it be that your mom did something wrong to you?”

“My mother didn’t do anything wrong to me. There’s no way she’d get upset because her mother was teasing her. “The Masquerade is… disappointing, but that doesn’t make me feel bad.”

“Really? “Then why is my daughter so dissatisfied that her expression is so dark…”

“Yes? Me? “It must be my mother’s mistake.”

Titania said she had no idea what he was talking about and turned her head away from Vivian.

It was clear that she was upset no matter how she turned her head so that he couldn’t see her face. Vivian tilted her head as if Titania’s sharp attitude was really strange.

As far as Vivian knew, Titania never sulked like this even when she was upset. Titania puffed out her cheeks and snorted in a childish way, which was her pouting attitude. But my attitude now…

It was like watching a middle school girl go through puberty. Vivian felt her blood run cold. Vivian was reminded of a story she had seen on TV or on the Internet long ago, about the hardships faced by parents with teenage daughters.

Parents who don’t know what to do with their daughter who suddenly becomes cold. In most cases, the problem was really trivial, and the solution was always a conversation with the child. Because you won’t know unless you talk.

There are many cases where parents leave their cold daughter alone, thinking that she will get better soon, but as time goes by, they become estranged from each other. Her daughter ends up burning through her crooked lines.

“Anyway, if I never come to the masquerade ball again, that’s it. Because I knew that it was a place where I couldn’t hide even if I wore a mask. Moreover, the problem is that Youngsik tries to force himself to dance with me because of his parents. What would you have thought if I hadn’t changed the song to Marzooka? Besides, the young ladies are also a problem. I guess you really don’t know that you’re wearing a mask, but I don’t know what you’re seeing in a mask that completely covers your face like your mother’s, so you’re rushing at me in the first place? If it weren’t for his mother, wouldn’t Yeongsik really have been offended? “You’re just rushing at me based on the mask and appearance, right?”

Titania gossips about the ladies as if at rapid fire.

Vivian thought that Titania’s appearance was really unusual. Maybe it was just in front of her, but Vivian had never seen Titania gossip like this before.

‘Oh, it happened about twice. ‘Fran and Fiona…Princesses.’

Titania said she disliked everyone except Fran and Princess Fiona, and she never gossiped or bitten anyone. No matter how much she disliked the other person, Titania simply responded with a smile.

“My mother is like that too. What kind of behavior does it take for her ladies to reach out and kiss their lips like that? Her spirits don’t seduce her daughters like that either. In the first place-“

Vivian, who had been silently listening to Titania constantly gossiping about her children and her daughters, burst into laughter at the thought that she seemed to know something. It was the ladies that Titania gossiped about a lot.

In particular, the ladies who came up to her and kissed the back of her hand.

“Titania.”

“…Why, mother?”

“Are you jealous of the ladies now?”

“Yes?”

Titania looked up at Vivian with her eyes wide as if she were dumbfounded. She then asked Vivian why on earth she was jealous of her daughters and glared at Vivian with her eyes wide open as if she was not like that. Vivian, looking at Titania’s expression, just grinned.

“I see~ I see~ My daughter felt that bad when I kissed the back of the lady’s hand? “You felt bad because I didn’t take care of you and only paid attention to the other ladies, right?”

“No, mother, wait a minute, okay? “Am I jealous of the ladies?”

Titania, who was opening her mouth like a crucian carp, finally asked her mother, stuttering as if she was dumbfounded. She asked, “Do you really think she was jealous of those ladies?”

‘My, am I jealous? With the one where your mother kissed the backs of the ladies’ hands? Why me?

I really wanted to deny it, but…

When Titania questioned her mother, she was able to understand why she was displeased. No, her mother was right. It was only when I heard her name that I became aware of her intense emotions that seemed to be seething within me.

The fact that this feeling is ‘jealousy’ towards the ladies.

Titania, who recognized her own feelings, instantly blushed like a bright red ripe apple. Her mask is red, her cape is red, and even her lips are red. Titania’s entire body turned bright red.

In such confused feelings, Titania suddenly remembered the conversation she had with Viola last night. She was a conversationalist who talked about love while the two of them lay in bed together and read romance novels.

‘Think carefully, Titania. Imagine if you loved someone. But that person smiles at people other than you and tries to become close to them. ‘What do you think?’

“Even if you say that, I don’t get it…? “Wouldn’t they just do that?”

“It doesn’t have to be the person you love. Is there anyone you’re really close with? Or someone as close as me? What about pets? Imagine your pet wagging its tail at someone other than you. But that person is someone you really hate. How is it? Can you feel it?”

At that time, Titania for some reason thought of ‘mother’ when asked by Viola.

Her mother smiling brightly and sharing her love with others. The sight reminded Titania that she was in a bad mood.

At the time, she thought she felt that way simply because she had no one to think of but her mother. An unpleasant, stomach-churning feeling that immediately makes you cry. At the time, she was unaware of the discomfort that was welling up inside her.

But now I felt like I knew.

Titania now clearly knew the name of the emotion that she could not define at the time.

This is an emotion called ‘jealousy’.

However, she did not know this yet.

Is this jealousy because we love each other as a ‘family’?

Or-