10. What Happened One Night – 07

After running, running, and running, Sarah ran away to a place where no one was there. Even Sarah didn’t know where this place was. However, it didn’t seem to matter much. After all, now she didn’t want to face anyone else.

Sara suddenly looked up at the sky in a daze. The sky was clear and bright, just like the usual sky with white clouds floating around.

However, it wasn’t for Sarah. To her, the sky had the appearance of a scavenger hunt. It just felt dull and unappealing. Yes, just like she is now.

“…ha…”

It was sad. My heart ached, I couldn’t look up at the sky any longer. As it is, the thought of wanting to disappear somewhere fills my head.

I didn’t want to be here any longer. I didn’t want to be in the Duke of Dekaraznan any longer. I didn’t want to be in this place that had hurt me so much. He didn’t want to be here anymore, where Princess Dekaraznan, who had taken him from himself, lived.

However, that didn’t mean Sarah wanted to leave this place. No, she could never leave this place. Because he was staying here. Because he, whom he was so sad, heartbroken, and longed to see even at this moment, was currently staying at the Duke of Dekaraznan.

Crucially, he made a pact with Sarah. He said to Sarah: I will definitely save you. The nightmare surrounding you, I will definitely end it. So please bear with me a little longer.

…was a contradiction. For a woman named Sarah Cernard, that was a contradiction indeed.

The despair and sadness that hurts you so much, the coldness of reality that cuts out your heart.

And at this moment, the joy, the happiness, the only hope that makes him live, all of this mess comes from him-

…As if a man named Cain von Estel made up everything of a woman named Sarah Cernard!

“…Cain.”

Once again, tears fall from my eyes in drops. She ended up harboring the trivial impression that she had become a crybaby.

…Ah, I actually knew. I knew everything from the beginning. Everything was his own fault. That said, it was his own karma. All the pain he was feeling right now was just the result of himself.

From now, years ago, from the first time I met him, to the moment I officially broke up with him a few months ago, I had never loved him. I didn’t even feel the slightest bit of love. For Sara Cernard, her engagement to Cain von Estel was just ‘work’. It was just an official event. I thought that there was no room for personal feelings to be mixed in.

He knew all too well that Cain had feelings for him that went beyond affection. In the first place, he hadn’t even thought about hiding his love for him. Seeing her fluctuate at every single action of hers, to young Sarah, it just seemed like a clown.

That’s why I stayed away. He ignored all the love, affection, and devotion he was giving him. We firmly believed that not having any sympathy for each other was the way for each other in the end.

…and a lot happened after that. There was a time when I had a secret conversation with him on the terrace in the middle of the night at the imperial palace in Jedo. The Duke of Dekaraznan, the sight of him being persecuted by his uncle in front of him whom he hadn’t seen in a long time was discovered.

It was scary. In front of others, in fact, he didn’t want to find out that he was such a shabby person. However, I didn’t know that I would show my true self in front of you, not anyone else. Looking at my humble nature, I was so afraid that they would laugh at me.

However, you were not. You looked at me and got angry. made me angry I was sad about the life I’ve lived so far.

…it was the first time. The one who confided everything about himself to someone. It was the first time. What someone else comforted you. It was the first time. Seeing yourself like that, the person who proudly declared that I would save you. In all my beginnings, you were always by my side.

At this moment, your declaration that you would save me was reckless indeed. It felt like the beating of an immature child who couldn’t see the reality properly.

…but it was felt. Your heart, purely for me, without any calculations, touched me so deeply.

At some point like that, it seems that my heart was pounding while looking at you.

I don’t know a man Therefore, neither the warmth between a man and a woman, nor sorrow, nor affection, knows nothing. However, there was one thing that was clear. At this moment, just looking at you, my heart, which pulsates so vigorously, must be beating vigorously in a completely different meaning than before.

…but it was already too late. Everything came to an end, once upon a time. This kind of heart of mine will never reach you now.

do you know Only after coming here, I love you and only look at you, but you never look back at me. In your eyes looking at me, not a single bit of selfishness is reflected.

Yeah, didn’t he say this with his own mouth? The relationship between them is now irreversible. As if spilled water cannot be picked up again and broken mirrors cannot be put together again.

…it hurt. If anything hurts, everything hurts.

It hurt that his love, which had been devoted to her at one time, no longer touched her. Now, it hurts that you will never treat me like you did in the past.

And, looking at you who will never look back at me again, and being in my own situation where I had no choice but to beg for your love that might be directed at me, it hurt so much.

It was. In the past, you looked at me and felt these emotions.

How on earth did you endure these feelings? My heart hurts like this It hurts like dying right now. My heart is so throbbing, I can’t even breathe properly-

How could you have endured this pain for so many years?

…Why did I not know your feelings? Why did I turn away from your heart? Why didn’t I properly count your heart even once?

Unknowingly, I cooked and laughed. And I was convinced. Oh, what a bad year I was. She must have been such a terrible woman who trampled on other people’s hearts casually.

…yes. If that’s the case, isn’t it inevitable that you’re so sick?

Curiously, thinking that he is being punished, his mind quickly becomes stable. Yes, having hurt him so much for so many years, wouldn’t it be fair if he also hurt this much?

Unrequited love is such a sad and painful thing…

Kurleung-

In the sky, there are dark clouds.

shoot ah-

Soon, rain poured from the sky. Perhaps it was a passing shower.

“…..”

There was no such thing as an umbrella in the first place. He didn’t even know where he was, but it was normal that he didn’t have the mind to bring an umbrella.

The raindrops poured straight down on her body without filtering. In an instant, her whole body was soaked. However, she was staring blankly at the ground as if none of that mattered.

It was cold. Her weak body, which had been drenched, felt chills from only getting a little bit of rain. Her body trembled, but even so, she just stood there blankly, as if she were stuck. I didn’t want to run away anymore, anywhere.

Sara softly closed her eyes. Rather, if only I could disappear somewhere like this, if I could do that and not be sick anymore, how nice it would be.

“…ah.”

But, suddenly, I realized. rain, no more Raindrops were no longer pouring down on her body.

shoot ah-

No, no. It didn’t stop raining. It was raining incessantly even at this moment. However, if anything has changed, it is-

“Sarah.”

It must have been that someone holding an umbrella over her so that she would no longer get wet had come to her side.

“…Cain?”

Sarah looked at him holding an umbrella over her, and blurted out his name. I didn’t understand. Why, why is he here?

He who had been walking around the garden with the princess up until now, he who should be spending quality time alone with the princess, why on earth-

“I’ve been looking for a while. It’s raining like this, why the hell are you here without an umbrella?”

Why did he come to look for himself? alternatively, why?

“…why?”

After choosing and choosing for a long time, the words I managed to get out of my mouth were those.

“Why?”

Cain only answered in a tone that seemed natural.

“Because I’m worried. It’s raining outside like this, how could I stay still after hearing that you suddenly disappeared?”

His answer was very simple. It was for such a simple reason that he was just worried about himself. But, but why?

“…ah.”

The words he said made my heart swell. Will my heart ever be relieved?

Only then did Sarah Cernard notice.

Yeah, it must have been a bunch. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t hate you. I couldn’t shake this feeling for you.

Without rational judgment, just acting as my heart goes was the act I hate the most, but at the end of where my heart flows, there must have been a person called you.

I am so sick because of the person you are, I have become so miserable, even though I regret everything.

Still, I couldn’t hate you.

If so, you have to bear it. And, I must forgive you. Even if you hurt me like this, I will love you.

Until one day, you look back at me and forgive me, I have to wait.

Even if I become a grandmother, even if I will never be forgiven until the moment this life ends…

I have to wait and wait until my sins are forgiven.

“…ah.”

Suddenly, the rain stopped. It seemed that it was just rain passing by.

Suddenly, I looked up at the sky. It rained once and the clear sky was high and open, so it was truly blue.

Why? Obviously, she was looking at the same sky as before, but at this moment, the sky reflected in her eyes felt completely different.

If I had to put it in writing, the figure was simply beautiful.

Yes, Sarah Cernard will never be forgotten. She will never forget the impression she felt while looking at such a clear and beautiful sky.

She believed in her until now, and will continue to believe in her, and her feelings for him, which she cherishes now, will become an unforgettable impression and will live on in her heart for eternity.

That was only a relief for a woman named Sarah Cernard.

“…thank you.”

The clouds clear and the sun shines through. Unlike before, the look of her smiling lightly as she looked at him was like the face of a girl who was once innocent.

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