I Picked Up a Witch With Amnesia

9. Revenge – 07

Sarah was laughing. As if his situation was genuinely ridiculous, he silently giggled and laughed for a while.

“…Sarah.”

However, I wasn’t funny at all. No, I felt like my head would turn around any second. At this moment, if someone touched me even a little bit, I felt like I was about to burst into anger.

I, too, knew very well. That Sara, one of the top five most beautiful women on the continent, and a guy like me got engaged, and there were circumstances that would never be beautiful. From the time I saw Sarah who didn’t even smile at me throughout the engagement ceremony, I knew very well that there was not a single hint of Sarah’s will mixed into our engagement.

At the time, I thought it was no big deal. In aristocratic society, arranged marriages were so common that they were trivial matters that were not even talked about. Even if my engagement to Sara was carried out for political reasons, I had only a naive impression that if I did my best for her, she would someday open up to me.

…but this wasn’t something. It had only been a few months since Sarah and I had broken up. It wasn’t enough that I was openly ordered by such a woman to seduce another man, to be treated like that by a human called my uncle in front of me. Isn’t this treating a woman named Sarah as a ‘commodity’ that can be sold to another family at any time, no matter how well you try to look at it?

“…ha…”

But I persevered. The current me was not in any relationship with Sarah. I was once her fiancée, but at this point I was completely unrelated to her. I wasn’t part of her family, I wasn’t related to her, and I wasn’t even close to loving each other.

…That’s why, don’t say it carelessly. You shouldn’t carelessly ‘know’ about her pain. For the past years, the pain she had to endure alone was entirely her own. As long as she herself did not speak of her pain, everything I did was irresponsible and nothing more.

I try to calm my trembling hands. Fortunately, I was able to quickly control myself unexpectedly, whether my age was wasted. I threw a question at her in the most blunt tone, clenching my fists so as not to reveal my fluctuating emotions.

“…Sarah, no matter how much I think about it, there are a few things I just can’t understand.”

“What? I will answer anything that I can answer in this state.”

She patted the back of her neck and answered me like that. Perhaps, it was because of the ‘curse’ of the courtesy that bound her.

“As far as I know, I heard that the Duke of Dekaraznan has a fiancee. Shouldn’t it be too late to try to seduce him now?”

“right? Actually, I thought so too, but everyone including my father seems to have a slightly different opinion.”

“…Different?”

“Yes, it doesn’t matter if I become a concubine, so I told her to focus on seducing him anyway. He said, since the Duke of Dekaraznan is a person with a lot of responsibility, as long as we have a relationship somehow, everything will go smoothly after that?”

Sarah giggled, but to me it wasn’t funny at all. Making a new discovery that if a person gets angry beyond a certain level, their head goes cold, and I asked her once again.

“Then, why is it the Duke of Dekaraznan?”

“What do you mean?”

Sarah frowned as if she didn’t understand what I was saying.

“Why is it not the Duke of Tournigen, but the Duke of Dekaraznan?”

Yes. Before the return, that is, according to the original history, Sarah would be destined to become the wife of Lucian, who is currently wriggling around the Duke of Estelle, and become the mistress of the Duke of Tournigen. But why did he come to the Duke of Decaraznan and aim for the concubine of the Duke of Minor?

“How else do you know that? that’s interesting. It’s like, it went in and out of my mind once.”

Sara, with a slight but surprised look on her face, obediently confided in me.

“Actually, as you said, I was going to target the Duke of Tournigen, but Lucian von Tournigen has been away for several months now. So my father changed his target to the Duke of Dekaraznan. Well, since the goal was to expand the influence of the 4 dukes anyway, wouldn’t it really matter where it was?”

“…..”

At Sarah’s words, I couldn’t help but let out a groan. It was because I could clearly understand what the hell was going on.

‘…was it because of me?’

Yes. The reason Sarah didn’t go to the Duke of Tournigen was because Lucian wasn’t there, and the reason Lucian didn’t exist in the Duke of Tournigen was because he was currently staying in the Duke of Estel. The reason Lucian is currently staying at the Duke of Estelle is because he fought a duel with me from the island several months ago and was beaten up.

And, the reason Sarah and I broke up was because she witnessed the sight of Aria on my bed as I went back 10 years ago. In other words, to sum it up in one word, it was concluded that the reason she is being treated this way here is all because of me. Because I was returning to the past and reversing the present, the future was completely changed in this way.

“…under.”

Of course, I couldn’t say it was my fault. Because I did not intend and create this situation. However, I couldn’t help but feel very dirty. Whatever the cause, it never changed the fact that Sarah was being treated like shit here.

“So, what are you going to do?”

“yes?”

“So, are you willing to accept crazy nonsense like seducing the Duke of Dekaraznan or becoming a concubine? You must have said this with your mouth last time. you-“

To the subject who had told me that she would be willing to sacrifice anything to live like herself, rather than living like a doll tied to her family, when I asked if she had any intention of going back to those days now, Sarah just smiled sadly. was just building

“…Yes, I must have told you that at that time. to pick me up I want you to be a shield to hide me from this world.”

“But, that day is not today. No, it shouldn’t be today. Cain, you know that too, don’t you? What I said at that time was not to ask you to save me right now, but to you with a promise for the distant future.”

“…..”

“It is not yet time. I’m not ready for anything yet. Don’t you know very well that nothing can be solved by putting your emotions first in this place? So, there is nothing you can do at this point. Cain.”

In Sara’s words, there was only resignation and familiarity with everything surrounding her.

“…Sarah.”

Without realizing it, I took a step towards her. As I move towards her, I feel her body flinch and tremble.

“…Then what about you?”

“…uh?”

“Yes, Sarah, I also think you are right. You’ve been smart since before, and I’ve never seen you wrong. So, again, you are probably right. But, what will you become at this moment?”

“…..”

“Is seducing another man you don’t want, having a relationship you don’t want, standing around and flirting with a man you don’t want, the best thing you can do at this moment? Was this really the life you wanted!”

At that moment, Sara’s face, which had been responding with an expressionless expression to my words until now, was stunned and cracked. The mask was broken and her bare face was revealed, but only resignation and pain were left on her face.

“…Then what should I do? At this point, what can I do? All he had was the halo of his family. What can a helpless girl who has nothing of her own do!”

As Sarah raises her voice towards me, I take a step towards her again. That night, the distance between us lost its meaning again, just like it did on the terrace. It is felt. Sarah’s fresh body, her quick breathing, and the small bite in her eyes that she was trying to hide, all the emotions she was feeling were almost palpable.

Really, she was a stupid woman. To think that he couldn’t come up with an answer to such a simple question on a topic that he usually pretended to be smart or proud by himself.

…So, let me tell you for that. In this moment, what you have to say to me, I will tell you on your behalf.

“Beat it.”

“…What?”

“I want you to hit me. Temptation, concubine, nabal, beat them all. Don’t worry about that, do whatever you want. Because I will help you.”

“…Cain, you are really crazy. Or are you talking nonsense just because it’s none of your business?”

Sarah just looked at me with cold eyes while saying a really spirited voice.

“Do you even know what you are talking about? You’re declaring that you’re going to turn Count Sernard into an enemy without any plans. Besides, do you know how many hounds have followed me to keep an eye on me? You don’t know how detailed and brutal they are. Other than that, they-”

“By the way?”

For a moment, Sara’s speech was blocked. Do you think I’m pathetic for putting words first without any countermeasures? If not, are they worried that I, who has come out so confidently, is reckless? I couldn’t figure out what was on her mind at all.

“…Did you understand what I was saying? There is no point in trying to fight against them now. It’s just reckless, stupid. Even though this moment is a bit painful and difficult, if you endure somehow, the opportunity will come someday-.”

“You’re stupid, Sarah.”

I cut off Sarah’s words halfway through and looked her straight in the eyes.

“Are you going to give up this moment to pursue an opportunity that will come someday? You’re never going to take any risks? Was the freedom you desired so cheap that it could be obtained easily and without any risk?”

“…you.”

“I don’t know anything else. I mean, I hate to see you in the arms of a man you don’t even love. Because I didn’t just break up with you just to see your expression like that.”

“So, stop being stubborn and get up now. The you I know wasn’t weak enough to cry like that, right?”

“…Cain.”

At my words, Sara’s face, which had been staring blankly at me, slowly began to come back to life. For an instant, she cast a faint gaze somewhere, then closed her eyes gently and whispered to me.

“…why?”

“Why are you doing this to me? As you said, we are no longer related…”

To Sarah who asks me a question in a tearful tone, I answer with a wry smile.

“Well. I don’t know either.”

“…Perhaps, is it because you still have feelings for me?”

“No, I guess not.”

It wasn’t because he still had some lingering attachment to Sarah. After that incident with Bianca, I lost many memories. And now, seeing Sarah face to face like this, I knew for sure. The memories I had lost included many feelings for her.

It didn’t mean that I couldn’t recall memories of her like someone with dementia. However, it was just that the various emotions I had toward her in the past were not vividly felt. It just felt like I had read in a history book that I loved her at least once.

…However, there were things that even a country like this could understand. No, there was something I could realize by looking at this moment objectively without being engulfed in personal feelings for her.

This was wrong. I wouldn’t know if I didn’t know anything from the beginning, but since Sarah said ‘help me’ to me, I couldn’t turn away from her request. It’s just that I didn’t like the way she looked at everything in front of me with dead eyes.

“…Still, if you openly help me like this, what kind of dissonance will there be between the Duke of Estelle and Count Cernard…”

“That kind of thing, please don’t mind.”

Saying that, I gently shook my head.

“It’s just a guy named Cain von Estel.”

I looked straight at Sara’s face, which looked like she was about to cry.

“Because it’s nothing more than a trivial story about trying to save a woman named Sarah Cernard.”

In the end, the tears she had been holding back flowed from Sarah’s eyes.