Episode 41

8 o’clock at night.

Now that the afternoon classes have ended, there is still a time of suffering called Yaja, but today, Friday, is different.

‘It’s a good time.’

The cadets seen through the window were all heading out the front door.

As always on the way home from school, the cadets were smiling brightly.

I looked at their faces with a little lonely eyes.

‘Jane is really nice.’

You have a home to return to, and parents to welcome you back.

I’ve endured it well so far, but now that I’m alone, I feel an indescribable emptiness.

“Whoa.”

A sigh of worry rises through his throat.

Why?

As the cadets left one by one, my heart grew depressed.

A few more minutes passed, and the cadets who caught my eye were all gone.

I was just looking at the footsteps of those who left.

“Isn’t Mr. Cheon going home?”

A clear, clear voice.

I swallowed my anger and replied lightly.

“I’m going to stay in the dormitory I used to live in.”

“Yes? Why?”

“Just what. I’m more used to this place.”

“Huh. It’s the weekend tomorrow, so I’ll be alone, so won’t I be lonely?”

I responded by just nodding my head.

“Then what… I’ll just go. See you next week.”

“Yes. Please go in.”

Even the last remaining Son Ga-young disappeared.

When she disappeared, the teachers’ room became quiet as if it had been promised.

“Sigh……”

I haven’t expressed it until now, but I felt lonely and alone every moment of every day.

The feeling of wandering around the world as a loner, isolated from the world alone.

At least there are people here, so I was able to soothe my depression through conversation and exchange.

Let’s try them. It is only a temporary measure.

“Smoking… I was.”

The world won’t let it go that way.

I finally understood Baek Sung-hoon’s feelings.

“Eh, you f*cking bastard.”

Now there is no room for resentment.

I moved my heavy feet and walked to the convenience store.

“I managed to hold it in, but because of you, I’m going to get lung cancer.”

Quite a long time has passed since Bing’s work.

In the meantime, I’ve been through all sorts of hardships, and I’ve tasted impoverishment amidst them.

now that’s the limit

“It’s 9,000 won.”

“Yes? Is a pack of cigarettes that expensive?”

My mind went blank for a moment at the part-timer’s words.

Are cigarettes really this expensive? I don’t know why, but it’s damn f*cking stupid.

But if you just go there, there’s nowhere to lean on…

I had no choice but to pay cash.

“Goodbye.”

I immediately went outside and put myself in a corner.

With an awkward hand motion, he took out a cigarette.

I also smoked a lot in my life.

At that time, it was only bloomed for the purpose of pastime, but now the weight is different.

“Such. It’s strange.”

Is it because it’s been a long time The taste was very strange.

Still, I didn’t feel much reluctance.

The bitter taste rises, and you are seized by evil thoughts.

A continuous sigh escapes.

why did this happen to me I still can’t believe it.

To think that I have to live my life trapped in a novel by myself. Even this moment of complaining feels like a dream.

“Ha, why am I the only one having a hard time?”

If I could, I wanted to cry and pour out my feelings.

I wanted to be comforted.

But

‘It’s just characters made of type.’

At best, it is an illusion.

“…….”

Suddenly, how will the world go without me? Doubts arose.

Are your parents doing well? How is your sister doing?

Also, fear springs up.

I’m afraid just thinking about what my people who live without me might be thinking.

Did you erase me from your memory?

Or are you drawing memories for me?

“I don’t know.”

The most frustrating thing of all is that I can’t even confirm that fact.

It’s okay even if I can’t return to my original life, so I just want to check how the people around me are doing and living well.

Only then will the overflowing resentment calm down.

“But that won’t happen.”

So I decided on my own.

That my ties are missing me with the same feeling as me.

Even if you win mentally, nothing will change.

“I’m alone. No one comforts me.”

My throat is blocked.

It’s the most poisonous cigarette I’ve ever smoked in my entire life.

The last cigarette ash fell to the floor.

He crushed the cigarette ash on the ground with his feet.

“let’s go.”

#

– When the hell are you coming? The stew will cool down.

“… I’ll be there soon.”

– Nayul, your father was very excited when he heard that you were coming. come quickly

“yes….”

-what. Why are you so low today? Are your friends bullying you?

“Oh no!”

Ten minutes have passed since Shin Na-yul talked to her mother on the phone. At the same time, it seemed like 10 minutes had passed since I walked around outside.

-He is. Or not. why are you so surprised

“Yeah, because my mom says something strange. Why am I being bullied?”

-So, you always go around laughing like an idiot, but aren’t you often ignored?

“Ah… Stop nagging, Mom.”

Shin Na-yul shook his head while clutching his ears.

-therefore. Did you decide to quit working part-time for a while?

Shin Na-yul quickly regained her energy at the sudden thought of money.

“Yeah! I got a scholarship~ It’s said that it’s 5 million won.”

– Huh~ What kind of high school student is giving that much money?

“It’s an academy. Anyway, I’ll send you living expenses, so mom’s taking a break for the time being, okay?”

-Yes, yes. My Nayul also thinks about my mom’s health. Are you a filial daughter because you look like your mother?

“Hee hee. What~”

Nayul Shin rubbed the back of his neck at the blazing heat.

For a moment, I remembered what happened today.

“That’s right, Mom. I told you that when I was very young, the department store collapsed and I almost died.”

– Why is that story suddenly coming up?

“Oh, no. I just suddenly remembered it. hahahaha.”

-Ugh. Don’t talk. My heart still flutters when I think of that moment.

“Ummm… But how did I live? It completely collapsed.”

– That’s what mom wants to ask. At that time, Nayul just spit out nonsense that you wouldn’t understand.

“Huh? Me? What did you say?”

-You don’t remember. Let’s see… What kind of handsome brother said that the monster exploded when he did this and that?

Doubts became certain.

Shin Na-yul put all her energy into hiding her embarrassed voice.

“That’s right?”

-ok. But what about the new instructor? I have a lot of problems and talk a lot, so my mother is worried about me, Nayul.

“Huh? Ah, that’s…”

– Why do you blur the end of your speech? Could the instructor be bullying you too?

“Oh, no! The other kids don’t know, but the instructor is absolutely not a bad person!”

– I get angry again. Suspicious?

“My mother makes me angry! Anyway, the instructor is a good person. Don’t curse at me.”

-I understand~ I understand~

A proof of performance of the Cheon Hae Bum you saw before. The content settled in a corner of Shin Na-yul’s memory.

An incredible number of rescuers that one person could have done.

It is a figure that anyone can misunderstand as a hero’s life for 100 years.

Suddenly, I saw a black silhouette in the distance.

Shin Na-yul tried to avoid the spot where the cigarette smoke was creeping up.

“…… uh?”

-Why?

“I think there is a teacher over there.”

The silhouette was none other than a perpetual pirate.

What are you doing at this late hour?

Shin Na-yul approached him lightly without being noticed.

Chun Hae-beom, who was smoking a cigarette from a distance, looked quite depressed.

“Mom, I’ll call you later!”

After hanging up the phone, Shin Na-yul covered her nose and stared at Cheon Hae-beom.

For some reason, he looks depressed.

He didn’t know why he was spying, but Shin Na-yul didn’t care and did what his heart felt.

‘Are you crying…?’

My eyes were red with tears.

The sighs of Cheon Hae-beom, which he sometimes spewed out, were wet.

“I’m alone. No one comforts me.”

At those words, Shin Na-yul’s eyes widened.

Why did the teacher who pretended to be so calm and strong suddenly act like that?

Come to think of it, Cheon Hae-beom was always alone.

Shin Na-yul felt sympathy for him, but sympathized with him a little.

Me and that instructor are the same, but different.

Unlike herself who longs for affection, Cheon Hae-beom is reluctant to meet people.

Not too long ago, it was like that in the dining room.

He does not speak first and always insists on giving a solid answer to the other person’s question.

At first, I thought he was just a cold person.

But that’s what I see now.

“Whoa…”

It is a reversal from the usual Cheonhaebeom.

“There really are people like that…”

I have seen Shin Na-yul in many dramas.

On the outside, he pretends not to be, but on the inside, he is a pitiful person who lives with a piercing heartache.

“…….”

You’ve saved millions of people alone over the years. I became an instructor for that heroic aspect.

He couldn’t really save himself. No, it would be correct to say that he couldn’t afford to save himself.

‘Like that… I worked hard on myself to save people…”

People didn’t know that. not even known

There is no one who listens to his words and comforts him….

Shin Na-yul grabbed her chest in frustration.

‘Why….’

For what?

No one knows, but why did that man sacrifice himself for the sake of others?

Shin Na-yul could not even guess what kind of examination Chun Hae-beom had and how he had endured it.

I couldn’t understand his feelings.

Even if his own wounds were also great, it was nothing compared to Cheon Hae-beom.

‘I only received help from the instructor and did nothing.’

Helpless.

There was nothing I could do for the Cheon Hae Beom who saved my life.

Shin Na-yul resented herself for being helpless.

I wanted to run right away and hold her in my arms and comfort her.

Shin Na-yul was moaning because she couldn’t bear to do that.

“······Do your best, sir. As much as me. As much as me, for sure.”

I cheered him on from afar.

“I’ll remember. What kind of person you are. What kind of person you mean to me.”

speak so softly

Shin Na-yul trudged away.

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