I Am a Low-Class Aristocrat of a Perishing Country

70 – The Sinner (2)

In an instant, the world was filled with monochrome. The second hand became extremely slow, and the tinnitus that bothered me near my temples ran wild.

He had a linguistic genius comparable to Asselin Meorik. However, it was difficult to accept even superficially the news that the lady-in-waiting had conveyed hastily.

“Mr. Netionpiss… Mr. Nobility! I understand your feelings, but you shouldn’t be like this. The Duke, the Duke of Feita is in danger!”

“Stillborn… Lorian… Lorian…”

“Mr Netion Peace!!!”

The lady-in-waiting screamed at her. Even if I don’t dare to be in the position to do so. She must be a competent woman who knows that. What’s going on, ever, ever.

The awakening of consciousness happened suddenly. As if possessed, Netionpeace ran up the stairs at once and followed Lorian’s footsteps.

Do not commit the folly of asking for the location of the room. Just follow the directions in which the servants are busy moving and their uneasy gazes, and Lorian is there.

“Lorian. Lorian. Lorian. Lorian. Please. Please…”

I couldn’t even articulate the language I was reciting. Her head is so full of loli that there is no room for other concepts.

A door finally swung open with conviction. At the end of my line of sight, there are several people in white robes. It was the lawmakers who surrounded the bed and severely tightened their eyes.

“Lorian!!!”

“A nobleman?!”

I desperately pushed them away and narrowed the distance. It seemed that he could only calm his frenzied heart if he could see Lorian’s safety with his own eyes.

“Ah… Ah…!”

It was a huge misunderstanding. The condition of Lorian, whom he had barely encountered, was very bad. Boiling heat. A chest that throbs with pain. Raging breathing.

More than anything else, it was Lorian’s guilty expression that pierced his heart like a needle.

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry… Ness.”

“Don’t tell me, Lorian. I’m here. So. So. It’s okay. Apples and stuff…”

“My child I finally got, I wanted to give birth to a healthy child… I was going to give you a child… I’m sorry, Ness. I guess it’s my karma. It’s a punishment I received for hurting so many people…”

“No, no. It can’t be.”

I swore an oath. I mean, it was a contract. On that day, as soon as he heard Astel’s prophecy, he made a covenant with the chain. I will take on all your negativity. I will take responsibility for the rest of my life when I land on the ground. I mean you promised What is the power of cosmic truth? There’s no way your karma will hold you back.

This is just an accident. During childbirth, neither Lorian nor the child’s body could withstand it. But… A fatal accident.

Netionpeace turned around and asked.

“Lorian… What about Lorian?”

“That’s…”

“Live. Surely! I will give you the luxury of a lifetime, as long as you regain your health. I will grant you any wish I can. So… Please, I beg you, Lorian, my wife…”

I was powerless.

What is a duke? What is the nobility of the nation?

At the crossroads of life and death, we face equality that transcends social status. It was a truth he had experienced many times in times of war. I became arrogant and conceited and forgot about it. I didn’t realize anything from Astel’s death.

A male prostitute whose limbs smelled fishy. What was the difference between dealing with women in a narrow room with mud walls?

The woman he loves and the child who wants to see the light of day try to escape through the gap between their hands like a flowing stream. Nothing, nothing can be done At best, it only inspires the will of lawmakers with useless power.

There is a man who is quietly kicked out of the room following their instructions. His name is Nettie on Peace. His position was that of the country’s nobility. And now it is called an asshole with intact limbs. I decided to do it myself.

At that time, a high-pitched voice of a girl came from across the hallway.

“Godfather!”

“Yernia?”

Only one person calls him godfather. It was Yernia, the young empress of the golden age. She ran this way so fast that her attendants were at a loss.

“Has the news already spread to the imperial palace? It’s fast.”

“Is that important to you, Godfather!? More so, the Duke. What happened to Duke Lorian?”

“I don’t know. I… I… I mean, what can I do?”

“Godfather…!”

Damn it!

“Yernia?”

Yernia’s hand claps made Netion Peace’s hands tingle. His eyes widened at the sudden taste of his hands.

Yernia reprimanded him with all her sincerity.

“Are you stupid, godfather? Who do you think is the most anxious right now? Duke Lorian is the one who hurts and fears the most. But when the godfather is confused, where should Duke Lorian hold on to and rely on!”

“That’s…”

“Keep your senses, godfather. Be stern and act like it’s no big deal. The house is in good order. If the godfather doesn’t waver, you can regain stability. That will be a help for the duke. .”

“Yernia…”

The 14-year-old was amazing. He sorts things out in an instant and suggests the best way out. It is said that there is no guardian in the amulet, but isn’t this like giving birth to a dragon? The existence of Astel’s daughter Yernia was like that.

“Yes. You are right.”

[Sorry… Sorry… Ness…]

That was the first thing Lorian said. There’s nothing to be sorry about It was her usual weak voice, not like her.

She was anxious. Wouldn’t she hate herself for having a stillborn child? Wouldn’t she turn the peace she gained from killing people into Lorian’s karma?

I’m not a Lorian who doesn’t know that the companion she chooses isn’t such a lousy man. However, his weakened mind boils regardless of his will, raising the darkness of doubt.

Yernia sensed it.

“Thank you, Yernia.”

“It was just presumptuous advice.”

“It’s not like that. You should listen to your smart daughter’s advice.”

“Godfather? Where are you going?”

“The mansion must be controlled. As usual, as if nothing had happened.”

“Can I help you?”

“How can I make the supreme empress participate in the big and small things in my family?”

“I’m only a daughter when it’s convenient for me.”

“That’s politics.”

“He only teaches really good things.”

I laughed at Yernia’s plaintive complaint.

As a man who could be called a concubine became a pillar and organized the mansion, the uneasy atmosphere quickly subsided. As usual, I followed my duty as a servant and went to sleep.

Except for the minimum number of people to take care of Lorian, it was no different than usual.

After a night like that, good news came. It was reported that Lorian had regained his composure and fell asleep soundly.

“Lorian…”

I didn’t dare to hold her hand because she was asleep. She still had cold sweats, but her regular breathing proved her physical condition improved.

“I don’t need anything like children. I just need you… As long as you’re all right… I don’t need anything.”

So when you open your eyes again, smile.

Like the usual Lorian, I like you who are a little bit shy and scary.

I want to see you overcome your wounds with strength.

I’ll help you if that’s difficult.

I want you to allow me to support you.

…

……

However, Netion Peace’s wish may have been an undeserved wish.

When Lorian woke up again, he was different from before. Always confident, she put her depression and lethargy into her black eyes. Like the mouth of a well that boiled down the darkness of the vision, nothing can be seen in black eyes.

It was an empty loss and a terrible loneliness.

“It’s okay. Lorian will be back as before.”

Netionpeace only repeated those words. She told the servants and Yernia not to worry.

At first glance, it seemed like he was encouraging the people around him. However, he overlooked the synesthesia of the people around him. Most humans recognized the nature of his repeated encouragement.

Netionpeace’s assertion was a defense mechanism against himself. It was a kind of self-inspiring work. Even so, Lorian could live in a world that had lost its light.

However, the world brings a surprisingly cruel reality to a person. It mercilessly knocks and shatters the thinly plated glass-like heart.

The incident caused the last thing holding the netion piece to snap. It was enough despair to break him who was barely maintaining his model as a human being.

The 19th year of the Imperial calendar. 2Nd Empress Yernia Euglinus. She dies

It was a tragedy three years after Lorian’s stillbirth.

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It was the death of the mother due to dystocia. Perhaps the future was already promised since Yernia was pregnant.

Her short life was predicted. It is not strange even if the life force she consumes while giving birth exceeds the limit. If it wasn’t that, it might have been a really unfortunate accident.

If so, Lorian was lucky, Yernia was unlucky. That was the only difference.

“Ah… Ah… Yernia… Yeni…”

He was unable to visit Yernia’s child during the state funeral. No, it didn’t I couldn’t bear to see it.

Human emotion pushes reason away and advocates irrationality. Even though Netion Peace knew it, it was impossible to resist.

A child born knows that he is innocent. He understands and understands everything. Still, she couldn’t get rid of the delusion that the child had killed and ate the lovely Yernia and strangled her.

I keenly felt that understanding and empathy are completely separate areas.

After Lorian’s stillbirth, Yernia was even more special. Traces of Astel. Only daughter. A family of only two. It was a precious value that energizes life.

“Yernia… Yeni…”

Lorian was still confined. He doesn’t even show his face at Yernia’s funeral. Clearly understand. Because I am Lorian’s family. Because you are a loved one

Yes, I understand. I won’t lose anymore We must establish the right to refuse even if the world forces us to be unreasonable. Like Astelnerca, who broke destiny with two fists and pioneered.

I will make life my own.

“Lorian.”

I held Lorian’s hand. Cold and smooth hands. A thin flower bud that is so emaciated that you can clearly see its bones. Still nice

No matter how beautiful a dancer may be, she cannot be more beautiful than this.

“I won’t be able to visit you for a while. I have something to do. I left the family affairs to the butler. Just in case, I also borrowed Chester’s manpower as an inspector, so don’t worry.”

Still no answer.

“I’ll find the answer to the world for us.”

“…”

“When that time comes, we’ll be able to laugh and talk like before. Just like the old days when Astel was there and Yeni was cute…”

He reverently kissed the back of his hand. Lorian was as quiet as an abandoned wooden statue.

That was enough.

It’s been a long time since I’ve gotten used to the current situation to wish for a goodbye.

“I will, surely, save you.”

I will gladly walk the path of reversal that tears apart the laws of heaven and goes against the laws of nature. Because it’s a journey to reclaim your radiant light, not anyone else’s.

No matter what barriers bind your heart. Even if the world drives you to be a shaman. I’ll see you right I will be by your side even if I have to bear the burden of death. I will go to meet you who shines even if it takes my whole life.

The overlapped hands fell off. Pook, and Lorian’s hand sank into the soft sheet. I would have conveyed what I wanted to say concisely, but a word that I couldn’t get out of my mouth clamored.

Open and close your lips. The words trying to take shape, the resentment that distorted the shape of his mouth and reversed it, kept wishing outside.

“…Lorian.”

A single word that I kept in my firm determination was scattered in the air.