Husband Indulges In Hidden Marriage

Chapter 445 I won’t let her go even if I die

As soon as Shangguan Ling stepped into the bar, he heard his scolding voice, "It seems that your mood is not as bad as usual."

When the bartender saw Shangguan Ling, he bowed his head respectfully and said hello, "Hello, President."

He Junbai turned his head and looked at his friend. He chuckled, "Shangguan, you are here. Come and have a drink with me."

Shangguan Ling sat down next to him, snapped his fingers, and the bartender immediately poured him a glass of whiskey.

He Junbai raised his glass. Shangguan Ling touched it lightly and took a sip. "No one found?"

He Junbai poured the spicy whiskey down his throat. The burning sensation moved down his esophagus and into his stomach.

 A burning sensation stimulated his nerves and perceptions.

He put down the wine glass, smiled bitterly, supported his head with one hand, and said slightly drunkenly, "Shangguan, sometimes I really wonder if she is dead...has she disappeared into this world a long time ago? It's me, it's me. I don’t want to believe it because I can’t accept this cruel fact, so I imagine that she’s not dead yet and that she’s still alive and well somewhere in this world.”

Shangguan Ling took a sip of whiskey. Listening to his excited words, he raised his hand and patted his shoulder, "Jun Bai, you are drunk."

"Yeah, I'm drunk." He Junbai wiped his face hard to wake himself up, "If I weren't drunk, I wouldn't be able to say these words. These words have been in my mind for thousands of years. Thousands of times, but I never dare to say it..."

　Some words are buried deep in my heart.

 There is some doubt in my heart.

He didn't dare to say it, for he was afraid that once these words were spoken, this beautiful dream would be shattered.

He was deeply afraid that the last bit of sustenance he had in his heart would collapse.

Shangguan Ling's stiff eyebrows were frowned, and a little worry appeared on his handsome face, "Jun Bai, I'll take you upstairs to rest."

“No, Shangguan, let me finish.” He Junbai asked the bartender for a bottle of whiskey, and he filled a glass for himself, just as he was about to drink it.

 The wine glass in his hand was taken away by Shangguan Ling, "Jun Bai, you drank too much."

He Junbai was startled, then laughed.

With a sad laugh, he buried his face in the palms of his hands, and a painful voice escaped from his fingers, "Shangguan, if I could go back in time, I would never let her go...even if I die."

Shangguan Ling put down his wine glass, raised one of his arms, put it on his shoulders, and helped him leave.

 There is a suite on the top floor of Golden Wing Palace.

It is exclusively for Shangguan Ling, and Gu Jinglan and He Junbai have also reserved suites.

Shangguan Ling helped He Junbai into the suite and laid him on the bed, "Jun Bai, you are tired and need a good sleep."

He Junbai opened his eyes drunkenly, "Shangguan... you must not be like me, must not..."

Muttering "don't do it", over and over again...

 He Junbai finally fell into a deep sleep.

 Shangguan Ling looked at him. He and Gu Jinglan had witnessed his pain all the way.

He and Gu Jinglan have seen how he has been walking like a zombie in these years, how he has searched so hard, how he has raised hopes and despair again and again.

 Emotions are the most hurtful things.

For a woman, he did not hesitate to change his name and surname, and he did not hesitate to draw a clear line with his family.

Even so, the woman... never came back to him.

 Whether he is dead or alive, there is no way of knowing.

 How is it easy to find someone in this huge world with so many people?

 (End of this chapter)