Fantasy world

Venting cannot drive away the fear of darkness. After running wildly for a while, I was out of breath and exhausted. I still have to slow down and keep going.

Looking at the vast night, I naturally thought of the day I went to see Zhang Xiaolian off. The night that day was even darker than today, but I didn't feel scared. When people forget themselves, they naturally have nothing to fear.

Unknowingly, I arrived at the fork in the road again, and turned in along this road. It was the place where Zhang Xiaolian and I had our last tryst. Looking at the fork in the road in front of me, I stopped involuntarily.

Today feels like a year has passed for me. From morning to night, there were twists and turns, ups and downs, whether it was a blessing or a curse. I am still in a state of confusion.

I paused silently in my heart and moved on again. After walking a long way, I realized that I had turned onto a side road. Maybe this is a subconscious drive, maybe this is a call from somewhere. At night, in the countryside, there is a piece of land that is only big enough to stand a cone, but it is buried in my heart unknowingly.

I can't help but feel self-pity, self-deprecation! Devolved to rural areas and jumped in line to settle down, we are still floating fallen leaves and wandering souls. The city thinks we are redundant, but the countryside does not need or welcome young lives like us.

At this moment, I am wandering alone in this dark and lonely country night, more like a zombie who has lost his soul. I no longer feel a trace of fear. On the contrary, I feel that the night in this countryside is better than the day. There are no noisy crowds, no heavy labor, no nervous vigilance, and no unnecessary worries. This is the vast world, the free space.

Wandering alone in this lonely country night, countless fragmentary scenes after devolution floated in front of my eyes, Zhang Xiaolian, Michelle, Uncle Mi, Aunt Mi, Captain Qingyuan, Wu Wenyan, Professor Wu, Mi He, Lingzi... …

I was originally a nihilist who had no ideas, no goals, was confused, and was pushed along by life. However, the period after devolution has unknowingly changed my attitude towards life. It makes me have to take it seriously and face life realistically.

Uncle Mi and Aunt Michelle made my lonely soul wandering in this remote countryside quickly find a home, warmth and comfort. And Zhang Xiaolian is more like a saintly angel sent by God to enlighten me. It is her sunshine and warmth that illuminate my dim years. And Professor Wu Wu Wenyan shocked and tempered my soul. The cruelty of reality has pushed their lives into the eighteenth level of hell, but they are still struggling and living so tenaciously...

This time they caused such a big disturbance, and they were almost swept away by the muddy water. In fact, I didn't think much about it at first. Xue'er is just a child, so I didn't take it to heart at all. However, things turned out like this, which I never expected, and it is also a life choice that I must seriously face and think about now. What kind of suffering and price will I pay for this small act of compassion and sympathy?

So far, I don't blame Xue'er for being troublesome, nor do I blame Wu Wenyan for being involved. I think this is probably the real test that"Broad World" has given me! What I want to think about is, in the days to come, what kind of training should I endure in this"vast world"? How on earth should you be so horny? what to do? If it hadn't been for Zhang Xiaolian, if it hadn't been for Yu Ruonan, if it hadn't been for Uncle Mi and Aunt Mi, I would have died without a burial place. Thinking of this, I suddenly felt how fragile, how small, and how helpless I was!

Unknowingly, my tears were so unsatisfactory that they welled up on my cheeks like spring water. I didn't even bother to wipe it away. I just stared with my empty tearful eyes, meaninglessly looking at the boundless night and endless darkness...

That night, I was like a lonely ghost, wandering around this country night until midnight.. Then I went home in a daze.

When I got home, it was quiet at night. I didn't want to disturb my family's rest, so I didn't light a lamp or make any noise. I groped my way to the bedside, simply took off my coat, and got under the quilt. Suddenly, as soon as my body entered the bed, I touched a soft body. My brain is probably still stuck in the state of being a lonely ghost in the countryside. In my mind, I encountered a ghost. I was so frightened that I jumped out of bed. I hurriedly found a match, shivered and lit it, and bravely looked towards the bed. It turned out that Michelle was nestled in his bed, and she was still sleeping soundly! I breathed a long sigh of relief and struck another match to light the oil lamp. Then he went forward and pushed her for a long time before she woke up.

"Get up! what the hell? Sleepwalking?"

"You also said that you thought you had been captured by a ghost when you sent someone to your home in the middle of the night!"

"Okay, okay! I'm not in the mood to argue with you. Get up quickly and go back to your room. I'm getting sleepy! Michelle just fell asleep in bed with her clothes on. Then she rubbed her eyes and got out of bed. She stared at me blankly for a long time, then suddenly lowered her tone, lowered her head and said to me:"I'm the one who messed with you this time." It's my fault, I'm sorry! Her apology made me stunned for a long time:"You had your hands in my room most of the night, just waiting for me to come back and say sorry to me?""So what?" If you don't feel relieved, you can hit or scold me as you please, I'll let you do it!""Go! Go! Go! boring!"

I'm really angry and funny. Seeing her like this, this incident really scared her. This is good, lest she be too willful in the future and don't know the boundaries of heaven and earth.

"I really didn’t expect that things would become such a big fuss, that you would almost be labeled a counter-revolutionary!"

"You didn't expect that? You mean it! cut!""I don't! I'm not! People just said that at that time, you agreed to it yourself, and now it all depends on me, ugh... you are my brother, how could I intentionally harm you? If I knew this would happen, I would never do such a stupid thing, wu... wu……"She cried more and more sadly. I was afraid that she would wake up her parents by being so noisy, so I quickly went up to cover her mouth. She also took advantage of the situation and threw herself into my arms:"Brother! I'm sorry! I won't listen to anything from now on." You are no longer willful! Don’t hate me for causing you so much trouble this time. As long as you are good, safe and happy, I will no longer pester you and ask you to wait for me to grow up. I want you to be responsible for me……"

I gently pushed her body away and wiped her tears:"Look at you! This little thing scared you to this point! Is this just what you are worth? Isn't my brother doing well now? He didn't do anything wrong at all. , who dares to do anything to me? Don’t worry, nothing will happen to me. Whatever I promised you, as long as I don’t die, I will definitely do it.""elder brother!""alright! It's midnight, go back to sleep! Don't wake up your parents!""elder brother! Even if you promise to help me in the future, I don’t want you to wait for me anymore, okay? You and Sister Wen Yan are both being talked about so badly by others. If you don’t take responsibility anymore, Sister Wen Yan will still be unable to live anymore."

"How long has it been since then and you still worry about others? Wen Yan, what we agreed with her from the beginning was to help her get rid of the entanglement of Mi Guocai. I have tried my best to help her this time, not just my cousin, but also Sister Nannan.I'm afraid I won't be able to protect myself this time if I help her like this. As for the future, if there are other things, I won't be able to help her anymore."

"elder brother! How is this possible? How could you do this? We have a saying in the countryside: save people to the end and send Buddha to the West. The two of you just caused such a big disturbance, and you just left them alone. Are you helping them or harming them?"Then you want me to really fall in love with her and marry her?""I didn't say that either. What I mean is that now, even if it's fake, you still have to show off and help people get over this hurdle so that they can survive before talking about anything else!""You really know how to be a good person, and let me do all the bad things!" I'm convinced!"

"elder brother! The big deal is, when I grow up, I will like my brother very much, isn't that enough?""become! When you grow up, my brother will marry someone else. Let’s see how you still like him!"Then I like it too!" Who said you can't fall in love again after you get married?""you——"

I'm really speechless! Talking to her is like playing the piano to an ox!

"Okay! Whatever you say is good, do whatever you like, the task now is to go back to your room and sleep! Go, go, go!"

"No! I still have a lot to say!"

"Go, go, go! If you have anything to say, let’s talk about it tomorrow or later!"

I almost coaxed and pushed her out of the room, and then quickly closed the door. No matter how rogue she was, she didn't dare to make any more noise in the middle of the night. After driving her away, I immediately blew out the light and fell down. On the bed, to be honest, although today's events are over, they are actually just the beginning. How should I live in the future? My mood suddenly returned to the state of a lonely soul in the countryside.