Ettrama: The Secret In Love

Reista has already prepared Ramel's clothes, and has made his favorite chamomile tea in the morning, has served sweet bread on Ramel's plate too. everything already prepared, I don't know what was on my mind earlier. she chewed the apple frantically, everything I did indirectly and seemed obliged to do.

Right now I'm alone at the dining table, it's a holiday. Renandra will wake up at noon and Ramel already there, in his office. Actually I really wanted to tell Ramel not to exert his strength just to work.

"Madame". Iren voice broke my daydreams, I smiled at her.

"what's up iren?". I asked calmly, I put the apple I didn't eat up on the plate.

"why you don't eat bread or salad? You only eat fruit every morning. doesn't it make your stomach hurt?"

"I don't know iren, I'm not in the mood to eat anything other than fruit. My stomach feels tight when I eat too much".

"Sorry if you are presumptuous madam, it's better for you to eat the salad that I have prepared. After all, you must always be healthy to take care of Mr. Ramel and Mr. Renand".

"I want to ask iren". Reista stared at the face of the maid who smiled sincerely at her.

"Yes., madam".

"Did Andine always take care of Ramel well?" Iren's face looked at Reista with a little confusion, she seemed afraid to say things that would make Reista hurt.

"It's okay, just say it".

Reista tries to understand what Iren said, is it because so far Reista is not good at kitchen matters? So Ramel compares with Andine and doesn't appreciate her as a wife ?. Reista has read several books about a marriage, the absence of harmony in the household, not because of our partner's fault, but sometimes it comes in ourselves, and we don't realize it.

Reista thinks Ramel might have had a hard time appreciating me all this time because I only took care of trivial matters about his life. Reista never asked how Ramel was doing, if he was tired, or if he needed a massage. In fact, every time he came home from work, Reista never gave him drinking water or prepared warm water, just making small talk to make his mind calm.

If it's all because of my personality that doesn't pay attention to Ramel's feelings, how can Ramel pay attention to me too ?. In this case someone must give in and understand. I also have to know how to approach Ramel's heart, I can't possibly force Ramel with harsh words and demands. Ramel is too tired with his work.

"Iren thank you for breakfast, I'll go upstairs". Reista hurriedly got up from her seat and walked quickly towards where Ramel's office was. Reista must apologize for her insolent behavior as a wife.

Reista's footsteps stopped when he saw Ramel also walking towards him, Ramel smiled, his tired face did not make that handsome face look ugly, somehow that smile was able to shed bad thoughts that haunted Reista a few days ago.

"Where do you want Reista". Reista was a little nervous about her husband's question, to be honest, she wanted to Ramel's office and apologized to him about few days ago.

"Ummm.. is A, is thaat ...". Reista said confusedly, she just chuckled softly as she looked at Ramel's gentle face waiting for her answer.

"Yes, no need to answer, actually I want to approach you at the dining table. I want to say something, are you busy?". Ramel's question made Reista hurriedly shake her head.

"No, it's okay. I actually just wanted to go to the room and watch TV. But if you want to talk, we can talk".

"Okay, let's just go to the back garden, to make it more comfortable to talk, right ?". Ramel's invitation made Reista smile a little, Reista followed Ramel and they walked hand in hand, Reista could even smell the body of a Ramelson. always calming and able to make Reista comfortable around him.

The back garden of the mansion has many types of roses, but the more striking is the blood red rose, there is a fish pond where the flow of water gurgles soothingly. some medium-sized trees add to the coolness of this garden.

The two of us sat on the edge of the fish pond which was directly facing the red rose.

"So?". I opened the conversation, my eyes could not be separated from the few small fish that felt happy when I played the water around them.

"I want to apologize Reista". Ramel touched Reista's wet hand and wiped it with the handkerchief that was in Ramel's pocket.

Reista was stunned when Ramel's big hand was so warm it touched her skin, Ramel gently wiped the trail of water from her hand. made Reista suddenly freeze and stare at Ramel's face.

"Sorry for what ? squeaked Reista, her voice seemed choked at this time. she shuddered a little when suddenly Ramel kissed her palm, Ramel's eyes looked at Reista's eyes with desire but Reista thought there was only emptiness in those eyes.

"Yes, I'm sorry for never respecting you all this time. Reista, I know that I'm stupid by continuing to ignore you after our wedding day, I know you must be very angry with my attitude that seems like I don't care about you. But I'm not the one who doesn't care, but I'm just confused. how to start something new, I've felt lost, and I'm afraid when I start a new feeling. God will take that something again, and make me felt like the past ".

Reista held Ramel's hand that was about to let go of Reista's hand, Reista wanted to let this little touch warm her heart. Reista wanted to remember the gentle things of Ramel's treatment in her memories in this world. Reista smiled, gently stroking the hand that was quite rough. The fine hairs on the back of his hand made Reista impatiently caress him with great care. Reista knows Ramel is very fragile right now, Ramel is full of wounds, why did Reista not remember that wound when Reista cursed Ramel harshly. ?

Reista never knows how it feels to be left behind by a loved one and will never see that person again in this world, Reista has never experienced about broken heart. Reista only had a few relationships and it all ended because of a busy life, Reista never felt what it means to be in real love, to sacrifice for the people we love. Reista never knew, Reista should have understood the heart of a Ramelson now.

Remembering every day Ramelson met Renandra, the handsome boy Andine gave to Ramel, Surely it made Ramel's heart desperately endure every day. Ramel was a strong man, lived 6 years without love and was chock full of memories.