Dr. Ou’s Psychotherapy

Body and Soul

Of all that is written,

I love only what a person hath written with his blood.

Write with blood,

and thou wilt find that blood is spirit.

~ By Friedrich Nietzsche

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"Ze Ze," Ou Tingyun said, pretending to be innocent, "how did I make you suffer, hmm?"

"You're conscious?"

"I've always been conscious." Ou Tingyun said, "I can sense the other personalities."

"But they can't perceive you?"

"Some can, some can't."

"How do you feel now?"

"Shh," Ou Tingyun murmured as he pulled him close and sat him on top of him, "It turns out... this is what it feels like to hold you."

"What?" Yi Zhize didn't hear him clearly.

"Nothing." Ou Tingyun tightened his grip and rested his chin on his shoulder, "That guy was so stupid."

"Who?"

"The guy who voluntarily gave up control." Ou Tingyun smiled, "Now, there's no need to worry about that. Ze Ze, I want to hear you say something affectionate, is that okay?"

Yi Zhize coughed uncomfortably, "I..."

Ou Tingyun unbuttoned his shirt, stroked his skin, lifted the back of his head and dropped a gentle kiss on cool lips, his breath turning steeply hot: "Is that okay?"

"I... won't."

"I can teach you." Ou Tingyun nibbled on his earlobe, "I love to hear you call me teacher, especially while making love. It's like crossing the doctor-patient boundary, tainting the professional ethics and making you swoon over me, I love it so much. Ze Ze, call out to me?"

"Tingyun, don't touch..."

"Hmm?"

"Teacher... Teacher Ou... Mmm."

"Do you know? Do you know how jealous I am? Whenever I look at how he can enjoy your affection while I can't touch you. Do you know how much I hate that? I hate him for his weakness, for his incompetence, for actually letting you go." Removing his clothes, Ou Tingyun pinned him down, "I have longed for such a day for far too long."

Yi Zhize's mind was muddled, but he remained alert for a few moments, "You... You're not him?"

"Ze Ze, are you joking? Why wouldn't I be?"

"Wait, stop."

Ou Tingyun touched his sensitive spot and immediately felt the trembling of the person in his arms, "Do you want me to stop? Ze Ze?"

"No, Tingyun, let's talk first."

"There's nothing to talk about," Ou Tingyun's tone was low and husky as he locked his hands around him, "He is too soft-hearted towards you, and cannot allow you to suffer even the slightest grievance. He is too soft and addicted to the tenderness of deep love. I am not him, I cannot let you go, I want to have you all to myself, I want to mark you, I want you to be full of me, I want you to be completely submissive to me."

The physical and psychological stimuli were like gushing waves, and Yi Zhize was like a drowning man, struggling with the driftwood between the waves in a final struggle: "Tingyun... Tingyun, Ou Tingyun!"

"Shh!" Ou Tingyun said, "The more you are like this, the more excited I get."

Yi Zhize broke away from him and punched him in the jaw, sending them both tumbling off the sofa and onto the floor with a 'thud' as Ou Tingyun hit his head.

Seeing that he hadn't moved, Yi Zhize was terrified: "Tingyun?"

There was no response.

Yi Zhize patted his face, "Teacher Ou?"

Just as he was about to call 120, Ou Tingyun regained consciousness and whispered, "I'm sorry."

Seeing that he was not seriously injured, Yi Zhize was relieved, but in a flash, he was on guard again: he didn't know what kind of path Ou Tingyun was on this time.

"I'm very sorry to have troubled you." Ou Tingyun put his shirt back on for him, "I am a personality that has been discarded, although it is strange to say so; I am a personality that was separated from myself in my college days, a part that was abandoned. That is to say, I am the self that was given up by myself."

"Why?"

"Because I don't think I'm supposed to be like this."

"Like what?"

"Restrained, withdrawn, vulnerable."

"I really haven't seen that side of you."

"Everyone is vulnerable at some point, more or less." Ou Tingyun said, "When I was in college, I studied psychology and decided I didn't need that part of myself, so I discarded it. I haven't been around since then. For some reason, tonight, I was awakened. I saw many of my selves fighting for control of my body, which is very unusual."

"Why?"

"Because the master personality is a particularly powerful individual, and if he hadn't gone into slumber of his own accord, we would almost never have made it out."

"Is he still asleep?"

"Well, unlike my other personalities, I have almost no presence, so I can't sense you, but I have a gut feeling that you should be, well, someone important to me."

"That can be perceived too?"

"Yes, because the resonance of the soul is like an imprint that goes deep into the marrow.

Even though we are meeting for the first time, I know that you are important to me." Ou Tingyun smiled, "Just now, when that tyrannical guy was being rude to you, the other personalities were anxious like ants on a hot pot, fighting for control, not realising that I had taken advantage of the situation."

Yi Zhize looked at him, finding it very refreshing; had he ever seen this doctor in his present form? With a bit of youthfulness and restraint, and his usual gentleness: "So, you don't have any memories about me?"

"My memories go until my university days." Ou Tingyun said, "What a shame, I would have loved to have been with you... No, I've changed my mind, can I get to know you again?"

"Okay."

"Ze Ze, I heard him call you that, what's your full name?"

"Yi Zhize."

"Can I call you Ze Ze?"

"Yes."

"I think we can be friends, you can understand me."

"Tingyun, what is the rule for switching personalities?"

"Generally speaking, as long as the master personality doesn't fall out of condition, none of the other personalities have a chance to appear."

"What does it mean to be in condition?"

"For example, if they are extremely sad, extremely disappointed, extremely frustrated, etc., the master personality can be taken over."

"But either way, that's you, isn't it?"

"Fundamentally, yes, but ultimately there is a difference." Ou Tingyun looked him in the eye,

"You and I, for example, are different from you and him, aren't we?"

"If," Yi Zhize deliberated, "I wanted to awaken him, what would I have to do?"

"You mean, the master personality?"

"Mhmm."

"He's in a deep sleep. If he were in his usual state, he could come back whenever he wanted to. But right now, he's restrained by drugs, and it will be hard for him to wake up for a while, unless he's strongly stimulated."

"Such as?"

"Like," Ou Tingyun said ambiguously, "you and me making love."