Avoid Former Co-Workers

57 – 57. Infidelity (5)

Aris stared at him blindly.

The eyes weren’t wrong. Indeed, Junon with his characteristic dark hair was right.

Come to think of it, this place is sparsely populated. It was the perfect place for him to follow his path, trying to avoid people’s eyes.

We ran into each other here, but unfortunately, this is the place he often walks.

But he immediately turned around with his brow furrowed, as if he had seen someone he couldn’t see. He was ready to run away at any moment.

Aris finally came to her senses. It’s luck that came, how could I miss this.

“Wait a minute!

Two troublesome thoughts clashed countless times in Aris’ head, denying each other, and the cause was Junon.

This was an opportunity to talk to him.

“Wait a minute! It’s because I have a question for you!”

“I have nothing to say.”

“I’m not trying to attack you like I did back then. I just need a few short conversations!”

Aris finally grabbed Junon’s arm and said that.

Unlike that kind of Aris, Junon’s eyes weren’t even looking at Aris as much as his nails.

So, Aris had to bet on the odds.

“This is the last time. I have no intention of coming to you or getting involved with you. I won’t truthfully report your achievements this time either…!”

“…”

Now, Junon’s head slightly turns to face Aris.

It’s not like I’m just turning this on slightly and looking at it properly, but at least it doesn’t look like I’m going to shake off and run away like before.

‘…A valid suggestion. It doesn’t even look like he’s lying.’

Aris just telling the newspaper that this is wrong is annoying.

It was fortunate that this was a place where no one walked. If it was a place for people to see, it could have drawn attention.

However, seeing her holding her arm tightly and not letting go, it seems that she has no will to attack. If this situation, which is almost zero distance, leads to a battle, it will be extremely unfavorable to Aris.

In addition, he openly stated that his purpose was to have a conversation, and he could use the Blassure Arc if necessary.

It wasn’t a bad situation if it was just a conversation.

“Do it. Here. Let go of your arms instead.”

“If I let this go, you might run away.”

“I promise I won’t run away until the conversation is over, okay?”

Aris glanced at Junon with her suspicious eyes and then slowly let go of his tightly gripped arm.

Aris let out a sigh of relief and swallowed her saliva.

I was worried about what to say, but I immediately opened my mouth because I was worried that he might run away again if I took my time this time.

“The words… What do they mean?”

“No comments.”

“What…?”

“Is that the end of the question?”

I was avoiding the answer, but Aris was currently in the position of B, not A. It’s Junon. There’s no reason to answer the question straight away. Because the person who is impatient must be Eul, Aris.

Reluctantly, Aris closed her eyes tightly and opened her mouth again.

“I… Thought you were trying to ruin the Thembris party.”

It was a story related to a certain memory of her that suddenly flowed into her one day.

***

“That’s why I followed you all the way here to prevent you from entering the Thembris party… I did it to warn you.”

That must have been her memory. Aris doesn’t take her luck anymore. That was the end.

“So. Now that you know what you did wrong, you want to ask me for forgiveness?”

“…That’s also true. I’m acting too emotionally…”

“Don’t apologize.”

Junon cut off Alice’s words asking for her forgiveness.

After cutting off Aris’ apple, his face begins to harden to the point where it is extremely cold.

“After apologizing like that, you’ll feel very comfortable. You attacked me without thinking based on bad memories. As you said, I survived by sacrificing the life of that talented Goden. You can blame me. No, I’d rather. I resent you.”

“…”

“At that time, I asked what those words meant? Yes. I’ll tell you one by one. When Goden died, I was the one who ran away with all my might, as you thought. I was the one who abandoned my comrades and ran away. Every time, my luggage As I grew older, I tried to survive.”

A faint smile slowly bloomed on his hardened face. The sight was so foreign that if more people had seen it, he might have gotten goosebumps all over.

“When Senia went missing? I couldn’t drink it. Yes, that’s me too.”

Now that smile was terrifyingly wide. Junon’s face with a fishy smile seemed to be wrapped around something and went mad.

“Professor Jake. Professor Meuniher wasted his time trying to save me. And before that, he handed over all command and control to me. You know what?”

Of course, it was the first time I had heard of it.

But at the same time, my saliva went down. The word that command and control was handed over to him made my heart flutter.

Even if it is just the center, it must be a burdensome position, but the word that command and control has been handed over is basically a unit unit.

Because it means that it is a position to command and command at least the number of members of an expeditionary force.

“I don’t know why I was given the command because I can’t do anything. However, it was a situation where dozens of people died ridiculously at one point in my judgment.”

“…”

“As you know, I was like a piece of baggage. But, do you know my position where I had to watch people die on the spot? I couldn’t do anything, I just asked others to fight for me, who lost my strength. Do you know the guilt of having to ask?”

Soon, Junon’s fists were clenched, and his blood turned white.

“But what should I do? All I know is things that are far worse and darker than this story.”

Those words caused goose bumps all over his body, and his entire body, from the pink hair to the arms that held his hands, began to tremble.

“That, enough… No more…”

It was Aris who completely lost his mind just because Erica’s stomach was pierced.

I can’t even imagine what kind of psychological pressure he was feeling.

So it was. Why am I so nervous about what he will say next?

I’d rather not listen.

Such thoughts passed through Aris’s mind.

“Please come and stop talking…!!”

No. After that, it won’t remain in Aris’ memory.

Knowing that, he lamented that the situation was so disgusting and disgusting that he caught his heavy breath all at once.

‘Really, that’s f*cking sh*t.’

Remembering only what you want to remember, and even leaving everything to one person to blame.

Covering her mouth, Aris’s body trembled like an aspen tree. I guess she won’t be asking any more, so Junon nailed it.

“Don’t pretend to know about magazines now or in the future. Then… I don’t know what I’m going to do.”

In her rage, her body throbs, her unsteady breathing exhaling a full swathe of quarters. Junon left in that state.

Within a moment, Aris also collapsed as her legs lost her strength.

“I can’t… I can’t…”

It might be a coincidence, but the spot where Aris sat down looked like eight black petals opened. But…

The flower was a dead lotus flower.

***

Oh, I think it’s a dog’s fate.

Now I can neither enter nor enter the Thambris party. My future kept slipping into pitch black darkness.

I was definitely with them, and even the death I met at the end is deeply related to them.

So, when I returned to the continent of Kempreton, I made a promise to myself.

She resists the sweet temptation of the happiest time of her life, and decides to stay away from her former colleagues in order to survive and avoid the blame.

Because they know how to handle most things. That was the reason.

“But why… Ha, f*ck.”

I died at your hands like that, and I did anything to be of help to you guys.

At least I hoped to put everything down and live on. If my former colleagues remember the past, I decided to be content with just that.

It’s a big deal. They’ll take care of it, so if I just calm down my feelings a little, I’ll be able to save my life.

However, he was ignorant of the serious incident at the academy that the Osopteras were attacking.

I had doubts, but meeting Aris this time gave me a definite answer.

In other words, they do not remember all of their memories before regression.

Even what those guys remember is the memories of me failing, becoming a burden, and being powerless.

What was left of my former colleagues was their ill feelings toward me.

Is that the end? What they have to face is the dark future that has yet to come. This means that you cannot prepare for what will happen in advance.

Then why do I remember everything? Why don’t you tell them everything?

Why is it me? What am I supposed to do to survive?

What should I do if those guys who should be the last pillar of the collapsing principality don’t know anything?

I wanted to scream and ask if there was someone who could answer me.

“I was worried because the Osoptera came in. I’m glad it seems to be all right.”

“…Professor?”

“Let’s see. The body doesn’t seem to be hurt. The mind seems to be fine.”

The one who spoke to me was Professor Jake, who had just returned to the academy.

I didn’t know if someone would react sensitively if someone played a prank on the already disturbed yard. But he didn’t give off his usual playfulness.

I just put my hand on his shoulder and sat down next to him to talk to him.

“There were no casualties and the body seems to be in good health. Why is that?

“…Something like that happened.”

“Tell me about it. Even if you look like this, you’re a professor who’s been watching you for two years.”

What would be different if you revealed that?

Me for 2 years. No, he is a professor who has been watching and teaching for a longer time than that, but you won’t believe that.

“Sorry.”

I can only answer that. For now.

Then Professor Jake laughed bitterly and, on the contrary, brought up a story that made him laugh.

“You know, Junon. As a professor, not being able to listen to my students’ concerns is to say that you’re quite incompetent.”

“Incompetence?”

“That’s right. Even if it’s not my own child, it’s because a professor is someone who sees the student I raised with my own hands grow up like my own child.”

“…”

“It was the first day I became a professor.

Sometimes when he sees a student in his class being beaten, he rushes over. Sometimes, he gets scolded by a student who was injured by overdoing it in a mock battle.

When I see students who show off their achievements, I feel proud for nothing, so I buy them a meal.

It is said that he felt sorry for the students who had been studying for an exam until a few days ago and covered them with a blanket when they saw the students sleeping with pimples and spots on their faces.

To be able to tell the story in such detail means that he is worthy of being an educator both in name and reality.

His smile did not subside until the end as he brought out such stories one by one. But…

“However, it is meaningless if students can’t reveal their concerns.”

When Professor Jake said this, he was wearing a bittersweet smile he had never shown before.

After a while, he continued with a slightly more subdued voice.

“Hiding it until the end, there was a case where a student committed suicide… A professor who couldn’t stop it is as good as losing his own child from then on.”

Obviously, this wasn’t a complaint, it was a professor’s self-blame for not helping the student.

It’s pretty obvious who the professor means.

The student who committed suicide must mean the female student in the Alios Hall suicide incident.

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I didn’t know that there was something like this on the other side of him, who laughed and chatted while watching the students grow up like his own children.

Yes.

This was the story of him who, as a professor, could not open his heart to his students.

Unfortunately, it was the story of Professor Jake himself who failed to protect the student, which resulted in the student’s suicide.

“I’m not asking you to tell me now. But if you’re having a really hard time, then be sure to ask for help. Or you can talk to Meuniher.”

This must be what he was trying to convey to me by reciting these stories.

As a professor, it must be his true intention that he does not want to lose his students who have seen him grow up like his own children.

‘Bringing out this story… I wonder if it seemed that way to me as well.’

He said that I was fine on the outside, but I might have looked uneasy about my appearance to him.

The kind of student who has a huge burden but can’t open it.

For Professor Jake, it must have been like a nightmare looking back on the past.

Nevertheless, he opened his mouth and faced the past.

I was looking back on the past that I had missed and lacked by telling the story to someone else.

I confronted the past, which I didn’t even want to think about, my heart was broken and my stomach was empty. While wearing a sad smile.

So it was. Uncharacteristically for me to say such a thing first.

“Can I request sparring after a long time?”

“Huh? What’s the sudden sparring?”

“I’ve been learning from Professor Denis, but I don’t know how much my skills have improved, maybe because he’s been busy lately. So please ask instead.”

“Junon, you…”

Yes. Still can’t tell the truth.

However, it’s only possible to suggest to Professor Jake that I won’t make that choice.

“hahahahaha…! Is that so? Yes, that’s right.”

As soon as he secretly showed that intention, it was confirmed that the middle-aged professor’s mouth was going up and he had completely shaken off his anxiety.

‘Yes. I’m not the same person now as I was back then.’

This time, Professor Jake also gave me the answer to my wandering. Thanks to the attitude he had as a true professor who raises students like his own children, I was able to settle my mind too.

The difference between your past self and your current self.

It’s a simple and clear answer, and it’s the way I’m going.

“No matter how tired I am, I won’t mind if your map is Dalian.”

“You have to check properly. I’m serious.”

“Okay. I heard you trained with my wife? So if I do something wrong, I might lose?”

“I’m sure it’s an order. I won’t be able to get up tomorrow, will I?”

It’s the past, but we just need to make sure it doesn’t happen again.

I know it’s hard work. But the future is yet to come.

Even if those guys don’t fully remember me back then, even if all the plans I had in mind were ruined.

Even if the Thambris party I knew couldn’t directly solve those cases. Even if I can’t belong there. Though they curse and despise me.

It’s not over.

There are weapons that can predict what will happen and prevent it in advance.

Knowledge of life. Newly acquired information in this life.

A living, movable body. Unlike my former colleagues, a brain that remembers everything.

The power that has been confirmed that it is not lost, that it has not been found and has not been awakened.

This is enough.

Thembris party will take care of the things that have been decided, so there is a condition that it will be unexpected.

No matter how dark the road ahead, I never foretold that not even a single firefly could be seen.

So I decided to dare to challenge myself. Against the son of that goddamn destiny.

Everything about the predetermined future is overturned.

***

A complicated day has passed, and morning has arrived without fail.

My body is sore from yesterday’s tight map sparring. But even so, it wasn’t that he didn’t welcome the morning sun.

My clear mind turned my head, welcoming the approaching morning, and thanks to that, I came to drastically revise my plans.

Now, it was time to start.

“Sylvia, can I ask you a favor?”

“Huh? What do you want?”

“I want you to secretly spread this to the kids.”

The starting point for creating a twisted future is here.